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I don't know much about this but recently a reiki healing session absolutely did wonders for me. I didn't give this woman any information about myself yet she was able to do some energy work that has been tremendous. That being said I did a chakra balancing session with some other lady years earlier and it was total bs. I've no idea how to tell if someone is legit or not beforehand.

Lately I feel I'm getting my Karma much faster than before. For example I might have some anger or negative thoughts towards someone, then later that day it already boomerangs back in the form of someone (completely different person) being negative towards me. Does karma come quicker when you raise your consciousness?

This has caused me some real mental problems. I've only closed from cold approach once I think. I'm basically waiting for some perfect signal because I've creeped girls out in the past, with career ending concequences so I'm really traumatized in this area. I also have aspergers so that's why I try to wait for that perfect signal. I feel like I've only recently become more socially aware and more confident and attractive so girls expect me to lead them. I'm getting a lot of opportunities constantly, and always fuck them up, knowing I fucked up I feel less of a man afterwards. Then as a result I don't even wanna do cold approach anymore because this issue will always pop up eventually so why even bother. When I go on a date I play it cool, that's fine because I know we're on a date. But I'm too scared to misread signals in the wild and creep a girl out / be inappropriate. I kinda feel extra pressure because I'm a athletic 6'4 guy with strong eye contact and think I come across as not giving a fuck what people think about me. But then when they find out this insecurity or whatever is gonna creep the fuck out of girls and make them feel unsafe. Its like girls expect me to have status and game but really I don't. I wasn't attractive in the past.

Thanks! I didn't wanna even check replies until now cause my post is so cringe. I went out Friday and it went okay, danced and talked to some girls. I think I'll get better as I go out more. Some points of improvement for myself: Open more. I had girls I opened come back later in the night and then they already like me so that's fun. Other girls would just make eye contact and looked bored waiting for me to open them. Don't drink! It makes me so uncallibrated I hate it. I took some 2cb, that's much better and makes me social while remaining consious. And it makes me dance lol. I would recommend it only if you've taken this before, and let wait maybe 3 hours after taking it cause the come up in public transport sucked. I still get confused about what girls expect from me. Like sometimes I just talk but they already expect me to pull them? I need more practice. @Roy This was a bit of a pain body post, it's complicated and alcohol was involved. I've learned this weekend that alcohol really isn't for me, reflecting on lots of earlier moments from my life as well. Just because alcohol is normal in our society doesn't mean I should consume this drug.

Weed just gives me massive brainfog, I don't understand how you can use it as a psychedelic?

I take 2-CB occasionally and it makes me active and happy. I go for walks in the city or hit the gym, it let's me see the art in things, I like it. But I take small doses, usually half a pill to 2 tops. Last night I was at a rave and must have taken like 5 of these little fuckers and it gave more euphoria and some mild visuals. But online it says 23 MG is already a high dose. Can you actually go really deep on this substance if you just take more of it? Is it better to take more pills at once instead of spreading them out throughout the night? I'm more interested in doing the higher doses at home in the future but the club was definitely a fun experience.

Love this post, I'm still struggling with money also. What are the key differences the way you treat your money now vs. before?

Next year will be YOURS baby!

Don't put Leo on a pedistool. I refer to his Teachings in my head, compare them to others, but most importantly just learn from first hand experience. First hand experience is all you got baby.

You think so? Half the internet is still doing his crusade.

Ram Dass has a few talks where he addresses aging. My kickboxing coach is in his late 50s and he's such an inspiration in the way he treats his students. Everyone feels safe and inspired around him. He comes across selfless and confident, he treats a gangster the same way he treats a computer programmer, literally. He sees people for people. Girls love him too but he's happily married. That's true alpha to me, very inspiring. You'd be lucky to have well developed older men in your circle.

How epic would Tate have been if he'd purely stayed a character. His appearance on the comedy podcast Your Mom's House was absolutely epic. Some of his short content was inspiring and funny too. He said shit nobody said, a breath of fresh air, then he choked himself out. If only his fans took him with a grain of salt and he did too, it'd be great entertainment. All he ever was was this super alpha pimp with money, not the messiah. You can learn a lot from him. Look at the way he dominates conversations, basically pimps Adin Ross on live, it's hilarious. But for the love of God don't take someone like this too seriously, he'll pimp you too, duh.

Didn't he commit the alleged crimes in Romania?

He should fight Logan Paul in prison, Coffee can ref

What are some of the major steps you believe will have to happen in order to end global suffering? With every technological improvement seems to come some downside. The global supply chain is filled with unfortunate people down the bottom. To make your iPhone or Tesla some 15 year old young mother in the Congo got cancer or died working in a cobalt mine. To get your convenient fast meal we're polluting the planet to the point of no return. Don't get me wrong, I love the era we live in, without it there'd be no actualized.org and we'd all be milking cows with no wifi. But would be cool if we could enjoy our welfare and our inventions without that unfair, unjust cost to the planet and other living beings. Seems pretty reasonable, no? So to get there, over the coming decades, what would be the most important major steps required to end this suffering? Education? Defi? A way to store electricity? UBI in the west? It's such a complex issue it breaks my brain. Obviously if the whole world was stage Green tomorrow that'd be cool. But realistically you're working with many different spiral stages and very complex systems and borders, which is why I mean more technological or policy changes.

But what would have to happen to get high consciousness politics into most of the world on such short term? We can barely get it into the Western world, and when it does it is very slow, like 1 generation or more slow. I was under the impression climate change had to be solved like super pronto or we'd all roast like marshmallows. Or do you think we can fix climate change first using policy and tech, while all other suffering will continue on until all politics globally are highly conscious? Can't we reverse it: increase consciousness using technology?

Do you ever experience very pleasant feelings in your body that resemble excitement and positive anticipation, without anything specific in mind? I would describe it as a child-like excitement but on a very calm, physical level only. It's also quite sensual and soft, but not sexual because no thoughts come with it. The feeling flows through every part of the body Is there a name for it?

@Danioover9000 Thank you for the info I don't feel ready for that as I'm loving my life more every day. Do I wait until more suffering comes? I'm still working on my lower chakras and have barely scratched the surface of opening my heart chakra.

Did some WHM breathing last night but went a little longer than usual. At some point I slowed time down a bit and got so concentrated on the breath which created a oneness. Although I wasn't totally surprised by it, I did get a bit scared. In your experience is it dangerous to breathe for long on your own? Is it okay to lose conscious control and keep going? My heart wasn't open either, is it better to do some heart chakra work first? Do you set a mantra? Thanks!

Here's a chain of events: Being more selfless, doing good Seeing myself as someone doing good Seeing myself seeing myself as doing good Warning my lower self about the dangers of spiritual ego Feeling weird about it Ego backlash Negative survival threatening event Feeling scared of my own karma Contemplating doing more good out of fear Realizing all this is bullshit Now what?

I surprised myself today and had a big falling out with my dad over the phone. I'd love to get another opinion on this matter but don't really have anyone to talk to, but I'd really appreciate any input. A little backstory: After my mom divorced him when I was 11, my dad and I lived together until I was 18. It wasn't good. My dad was very emotionally unavailable, had no emotional control and no ability to empathize. As a young boy I needed structure and a father figure but his abilities were more like a child's. This would trigger me so much that I'd hit him and throw stuff, I'd get so damn angry, just trying to get some understanding, some reaction. He'd just take it. He would behave like the victim, which is a running theme throughout his life. At the time he was addicted to alcohol as well, and would come into my room at 2AM to tell me he loves me. He would go through his phone contact list while drunk and call all these people telling them all these very inappropriate emotional things. Needless to say he has pushed everyone away in his life. He never took responsibility for this. He's the good guy, he's the victim. After all "his heart's in the right place" which in his view of the world is all that matters. Now skip ahead. I'm an adult, he's 69 years old and completely alone with no friends or social circle. We get along on a certain level, but whenever there's something I wanna tell him or I get my feelings hurt, he'll laugh at it, lie about something or blame something else. ANYTHING to change the subject. He has no ability or willingness to introspect and will immediately turn on me whenever I have feedback or criticism on his behavior. I understand that he must have had some huge trauma as a kid which caused him to be so emotionally unavailable. I think he was sexually abused, which he told me sometimes when drunk when I was like 13 years old, which is of course very inappropriate. He's also old now and much cognitive decline over the years. I also understand that I will never get him to introspect or make any real attempt at emphasizing. But that doesn't take away the fact that his attitude is very disrespectful and hurtful. Preserving some parts of his ego is more important to him than the relationship with his wife (my mom) or even with me. It's like trying to carve up a diamond with a potato knife. Now although the life lesson "the ego can be very blunt" is super interesting and dandy, it's not really helping me right now. Part of me wants to break all contact with him for all the bullshit, but I can also see how he's tried his best in life but only if I view him as sorta "cognitively handicapped". Thinking about it now I can come up with another turnaround: maybe I secretly still want him to understand me, and I'm projecting my own trauma now. But whatever man, I'm just sick and tired of this shit. Any advice would be very much appreciated. Thank you.

Thank you all very much for your kind and constructive replies, I really appreciate it.