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@Michael569 thank you so much, I hope you and your family are dealing well with the situation. I do need to recognize that my dad's cognitive development is really low and you're absolutely right about that, it would be unfair to overlook his level of development, especially since I've already done some amount of trauma release work and can deal with this fairly well.

Day 39: Eureka! I've found it. Thus far, my business had no vision, as it's only purpose was to fuel my comedy lifestyle. That's not a strong enough motivator as selfish motivation is too limited to really work for me. So I've found a solution. I've found a proper vision for the business that's beyond myself. So basically I want to share myself with others, and share my work with others. I want a Youtube channel similar to Dan Koe's (thanks again for turning me onto his work @Fountainbleu @CARDOZZO). The idea is that instead of going through this journey myself, I will share it with others as best I can. Similar to doing stand-up where I write at home and then perform, but this time on Youtube and this time without the jokes. The key here is honesty. I can't pretend to be some "Etsy Guru" while I'm broke, that just doesn't sit right with me. If I hired an Etsy coach who was going to tell me how to make money on the platform and found out he's broke later I'd be upset. Even though I've made money on Etsy for 4 years full-time, it still doesn't sit right with me. What I do want to create is radically honest videos sharing my knowledge around self actualization and online business. Basically this journal but worked out further into video content. That's the vision and I love it, it's bigger than me. So looking at the past 5 years it was just me working on my laptop, in it for myself. Then the next 5 years of entrepreneurship will be me working on my laptop while broadcasting it all to the world. What a difference. So much more meaningful. Freelancing: I still have many bills to pay, like I'm drowning in them pretty much. At the moment I have no real income other than my Uber Eats job. That's where I want to focus a bit on freelancing. Between 2014 and 2017 I was traveling and lived in Indonesia for most of the time. To make money I built and sold websites on Flippa.com. For the time being, I want to explore freelancing again, but this time offering building websites to local business, basically helping them with anything digital such as content, website, email newsletters, social media etc. But mainly websites I think. This guy does it and makes $60K per month: "But weren't you going to offer Etsy consulting?" - Yes I was, but I feel a slight ethical barrier there as I explained earlier. I'd rather start an 'honest' freelancing business and document it for my channel and build a following of this honest documentation than to offer myself as an Etsy coach but compromise slightly on transparency, even if it's ever so slightly. Stress: Don't get it twisted: this isn't a walk in the park and the Universe is really testing me right now. The thing that keeps me going is the gratitude and long-term vision that I have. If I were to just zoom in on my financial problems it would be too crippling to continue any of this. Like I said before, it's all about state. Eat that frog in the morning and trust God will take care of you. Trust that everything happens for a reason. Contextualization: "Worried about Bills but there's mothers who lose children to disease or accidents, so contextualize please. Also imagine the future people who would enjoy my stuff but now can't because I got hung up on some dental bill. Insanity."

Yes! That's precisely what happened. I wasn't bragging but I just shared things about my life that made this person jealous of me. Not on purpose, he shouldn't have asked if he don't want an answer 😑 But this person wasn't even trying to have a genuine conversation it was like they're a narcissist. Intuitively I did not enjoy this person's company at all but answered him to be polite. That might have also caused you some limiting beliefs as an adult, have you thought about that? I just found out about this stuff randomly on Youtube but after doing those Reiki healings I did feel the curse lifted. @Lila9 Does the person who cast the evil eye know they're doing it? Or it is not on purpose?

@Leo Gura I wonder why you have called nondualists out in the past so viciously. Won't a completely nondual awakening be absolutely fantastic? That's what we're all looking for! I think the truth seeking human, on a feeling level, is really after this. So Leo, even though you have seen higher truths than nonduality, so what? Or do you believe that having a completely awakening is still a recipe for devilery, even when combined with your entire body of work? Why go Alien X? It might be true but why not get us all to nondual awakening first? This is very confusing. And yes I very much love Leo and his work and this community ❤️

Yes I agree. So everyone's life is different and different paths, and probably different ways to describe the phenomenon happening. So this type of discussion is kind of useless but i knew that already. But I get confused when Leo speaks of different levels of awakening. When I speak truths from my own observation, such as all is one, and I Am, then I think Leo would be there to say "that's nothing, you're infinity distance from awakening". But Leo can say that always. Like however much progress you make, there will always be a Leo who will say that's not real awakening. I've said this before: there's a real chance that Alien X and all content Leo made AFTER the solipsism episode is a test to see how stupid people are. That awakening happens as it does, solipsism is all there is to it, but we keep creating dualities and want Daddy Leo to guide us so he will continue to trick us. But really, YOU know the truth. Idk.

I'm not arguing with you anymore either. Screw you guys, I'm going home 🤷

Ok interesting. So would you say that doing this work Nonduality is only one of the first stops before going further and deeper, so to speak? I feel that as I do this work, reality is nondual, hence the post and title. What I mean by that is everything is an infinite "I Am", God is an infinite shapeshifter into different "I Ams". But yeah there's probably much more to it than this. I just put that in my post cause I think sometimes I sound like an asshole when I take a critical stance on Leo just for the sake of argument 😁

What do you mean?

No it's not I AM = I AM I am is God's name

I am

Day 36: Problems can never be solved from the same place they were created. Today I woke up late, not feeling the best, and I was being consumed by my problem thoughts. I recognize now that these thoughts of fear and doubt are created in a certain state of being. It's important to recognize states of being. The Tony Robbins Priming exercise is now my most important daily habit as it really gets me to more awareness, overall this week has been quite magical. These past few days I've been more social and more playful, which is an absolute game changer. It opens up the gates towards sharing my gifts with the world, and plucking the fruits of what is out there. Imagine living your whole life in your neurotic thoughts, missing all the beauty that's out there, that'd be a waste of life. In the process of reaching my goals I will have to become something different from the old me who created these problems. And that can only be created by being closer to blank canvas and having fewer attachments. Note that I'm not just trying to make $10K pm but am also looking to do this in an authentic, fulfilling way. You could say that in addition to strategies I'm also exploring and doing inner work that just happens as a byproduct. (there's a different version of this on his Spotify that I recommend where he solo comments on the episode after the original) Faith and Resistance: There could be a discrepancy between what I'm divinely guided towards or naturally incline towards and what I've set out towards rationally. Or maybe they're the same, who knows. I have to be open and trusting of the Universe in this process.

She didn't blame me lol she said in the sweetest tone of voice "it's you!" and then I said "what?" she said the escalator light was green and then turned red right as I got on. I got back to that same subway station 5 hours later and the exact same thing happened and we all had to take the stairs. Right before that I got a comment on my ig from some Jesus freak who said she had a very important message for me. The events of that day were just uncanny or felt supernatural somehow.

Idk man, the events of that day were just really odd. Like both an elevator and the escalator stopped working right as I got on them. Then a lady told me it was because of me.

Day 35: Something is happening, something where this whole journey of making money turns into a spiritual journey. Some things might flip: the need for money can turn into the need to let go. Idk. There's something to be said for 'just do your best and the universe will take care of it'. Funny how in the most challenging times your true essence might come forward. Yesterday was kinda rough. Had slept poorly for some reason, even though I was feeling great the day before, and the whole day was challenging because of negative thoughts. However I stuck to the program and just did less demanding tasks that needed to be done anyway. And those paid off because I made 2 relatively big sales on my Etsy digital store after creating a 50% store-wide discount. But I made those sales only AFTER I did a spiritual cleanse using a YT video, and went to kickboxing class at night. Then the rain literally cleared outside, it was wonderful. So there is something much deeper at play here, like my experience is rendered from consciousness. But of course I try to turn my bad financial situation into a real external force that's not within consciousness or not affected by my state, and that's where the duality occurs. Perhaps it doesn't even matter what you do, as long as you stay true to your essence. I've experienced some child-like wonder after doing a throat chakra exercise yesterday. This all sounds like nonsense I know, I can't really point my finger to what I'm trying to say here.

What do you mean by not using the mind?

By game and rules you mean expanding love? Actually have you watched Leo's video on ketamine? Very interesting.

@Yimpa @Evelyna isn't it miraculous that we are connected through the same experience and same consciousness? This is something I had overlooked in the past, but it's really special.

I think so but I don't think they've got a good point. It's just natural to touch people in club (not unprompted from behind tho 😂).

There's other PuAs who say don't do any physical escalation.

Congratulations. I've lived there for 3.5 years and it's an amazing culture, though Java is quite different from Bali. Can't wait to visit SEA again soon and travel around for a year or so. How long are you planning to stay? 30.000idr ($3) for a coffee is crazy expensive tho, tourist prices. Edit: just googled and 30.000 idr is only $1.8 these days. Yay for inflation I guess.

Day 33: Doing well, I'm in a nice flow of taking daily responsibility and keeping my eyes on the ball. That means I'm not constantly overthinking but I keep going and flowing, one day at a time. I do my gratitude once or twice a day now and it is so helpful. Whenever low emotions like fear or doubt pop up I'm able to see them for what they are and not be trapped by it. Love and care: What I wrote here yesterday was great, however I must combine that 'hard-ass capitalist' view with love and genuine care. Care about my product, care about the customer, care about my work. I don't want to be in a situation where I launch a course, make lots of money, but then have some skeletons in my closet because I did it with questionable ethics. If that were to happen I'd have made the product out of a need for money or success and not with the intention of creating a great product for the customer. But yeah, 95% of people don't even finish the courses they buy, so having questionable ethics around this is very tempting. Easy money. But if I'm going to make this course, I want it to be good. Also I want my YT channel and public persona to be genuine. I had one genuine TikTok that got me 50 likes out of 500 views. Then I have less genuine TikToks I made because I thought I 'must make more content' and got no likes but 1500 views. Now these are not real metrics to judge anything on, these people are not even my audience, but to me it's significant just as a personal note. This attitude requires greater trust in the universe and that money will come by being consistent, open, loving and creative. Funny thing is, I can see that this approach will have so many more benefits in the long run and can actually make me lots more money long-term. Because being genuinely myself in the content is going to set me apart from the competition who don't have strong personalities. Most 'make money' guys are boring af. Blue Ocean strategy. Heart chakra: Not sure what to say about this yet because I'm only dipping my toes in it, but opening the heart seems important in this time for me. The gratitude really helps. Here's the short Tony Robbins version I use before sleep (and the Priming one in the morning):

This whole thread reminds me of that IT Crowd episode where Roy tries to be a 'bad guy'

OK hold up, so are there levels to human states of consciousness and then some tier 2 happens and there's again stages of God consciousness? Can you explain how you see this?

Bro you can't fap 20x a day 😂😂 Did you really thin that's what Leo does all day? How many hours is that lol

Day 32: Great week so far, starting every day with my Tony Robbins priming exercise and I also do the 5-minute gratitude exercise at night. I wake up feeling great and actually excited to get up and start my day! That's a wild difference from thinking about stressful or random shit. Built my website last week and have uploaded a couple more shorts to YT, TikTok and Instagram. Today I realized I have to make a course as soon as humanly possible because this business model doesn't make sense. I put time and energy into making the content and I enjoy that. But then I also have to work on an hourly pay doing 1-on-1 Zoom calls with possibly no retainer? It's flawed. My TikToks get 500 - 2000 views now and I only uploaded 5 videos. If I can just focus my efforts on making better, more engaging content and then monetize through a funnel with a course at the bottom. That also allows me the freedom to make longform Youtube content, which is FUN! Course just makes so much more sense at this point. I will work on this in reverse: make the course landing page FIRST, before I even record it. I might even not record the course at all until somebody actually pays real USD $$$ (and then refund them) just to see actual people buy it first. Dude, course is the way to go. I love Youtube. I see these "make money" Youtubers get so damn rich off that shit. Just one guy: $10K - $15K pm off his own PoD business $xxx of his course which is $997, who knows how many he sells per month but probably quite a few, and that course is dogshit (I torrented it last year) $47 pm for his private group Then he does sponsored videos all the time, which I bet pay absolute premium flat fees or affiliate commission Youtube monetization (probably his lowest income stream) That's just a Youtuber, you probably don't even know him and I'd estimate he makes at least $1M per year. So that would be me running my regular PoD stuff but I'd be more motivated to share. Then on top of that I make content which is more fun than regular Etsy / Shopify. So I do both and monetize in every direction. This isn't rocket science. Just got this video recommended, the universe confirms lol Actions taken: Built and completed website to sell my coaching (which I won't pursue because course) Further investigated my tax situation, still figuring things out here Recorded 2 more shorts in a different style Posted the shorts to YT, Insta, TikTok Started following people on Instagram, currently have 11 followers Created 50 drafts in my Etsy digital store Quit stupid smoking All these efforts are wasted if I don't build an efficient funnel, that's the next step. Next steps: Create course outline Create course landing page and payment Create free mini-course for top of the funnel Find software to efficiently manage funnel Keep making content Open another Etsy print-on-demand store and load products Keep learning Etsy Remember I need to make around €250.000 profit per year pre-tax to make €10.000 pm net, depending on how investments are structured etc. This also popped on my feed today, I think I had to go so low with my shit finances to wake up and take responsibility for my life too: