Butters

I've lived through so many different things, sometimes it feels like I've lived 10 lives in 1 lifetime. And I'm only 30! Why do some people stay within the bounds of their own small world, while others go explore different lifestyles, different cultures, different class? We're put on earth to explore our own lives, but why would God create such large amounts of mediocre masses? Did I already live through boring shit 100s of times and now it's time for this? Leo knows what I'm talking about, he's done it too. Are my interests based on stuff I never got to do in past lives? Is there a way to figure this out? Ayahuasca?

Yeah but why am I living this specific perspective?

For Shopify and e-commerce, a channel named Wholesale Ted is solid. She explains everything in an easy to understand way. Be very careful with YouTube and courses though. It is filled with bullshit artists who just want to sell their stupid course. For general marketing advice I used to listen to old Dan Kennedy tapes. He talks about direct mail marketing but the psychology behind it always applies.

It's an idea worth researching. I see a few companies pop up now that offer microdosing products here in the Netherlands. That's totally different from a retreat though, but it's baby steps in the right direction. Listen to the advice given here, Leo raised some fair points. Is there a way we can follow your progress?

How much do you take and what do you combine it with? I find half a pill of modafinil to be very subtle.

That's a great way to rephrase it. There's probably vastly more depth, fascination, wonder and love within each individual person than I currently give credit for. I'm pretty sure I'm already living my life purpose, I just wonder WHY and specifically how it fits into the big picture.

This just popped up on Reddit. If you're into nootropics, read it! [PSA bomb] Most people here need to be far more critical, skeptical, and cautious than they are.

In the near future washing machines will all be connected to the internet. They won't be too pleased when they find this thread, be careful.

Here's a bit of an unusual question: how do you know if a nootropic or stack promotes both productivity and consciousness? I started wondering this after taking a pre-packed blend that contains aniracitam, noopept, a high dose of caffeine among other things. Loved the first day but the second was a fucking nightmare and very low consciousness. I stopped fucking with racetams. I see the appeal of building an all-natural stack but at the same time modafinil has been extremely useful for me. Also wondering what your favorite stacks are combined with a micro or macro dose of shrooms or LSD? ?

I love entrepreneurship. I love researching and building an online business. But the moment I have to promote any of my businesses, I often find myself fleeing and radically wanting to change business model, usually to something where I don't have to interact with customers. This has been crippling. I've struggled with this so hard for many years now. I just realized what this is though: Fear of being criticized Fear of being laughed at Fear of being made fun of Suddenly I recalled a few memories from childhood where I had to present something to class and they all laughed at me. This happened very often I think. Guess that's part of the reason I became a comedian. Anyhow, I want to turn this fear and "flight" reaction into an obsession / deep love for marketing and interacting with customers. I've made plenty of radical shifts in my life and I know I can turn this "trauma" into a massive strength right now. So I was wondering if there's any resources on this specific issue, or if anyone knows of a method that deals specifically with turning a phobia into an obsession. I've already added "I love marketing my business" to my affirmations but that doesn't quite cut it for this one. Thanks :-)

Just started watching this after about 0.5g of mushrooms. Pretty deep, highly recommended. I think it's about meditation and consciousness but I don't know what later episodes are about. Loved this quote right away "Health is about accepting and perceiving and dealing with reality on reality's terms." It's called The Midnight Gospel

So all the episodes have a theme, the first one is about psychedelics and the second about death. I think this is a pretty stage Turquoise show, what you think? Very relaxing and soothing to watch, it's not what you think.

All the answers are within, so what's the point of wasting billions on space travel? Thoughts?

Not sure how I feel about this...

First and foremost: I've been making fantastic progress over the past few years. If you are doing personal development and are coming from an unhappy place, just know it takes time and is absolutely worth it. Over these past few years, my baseline happiness has seriously increased and in certain areas the best of my todays really are the worst of my tomorrows. That being said, I still seem to follow a swinging pattern. Earlier this week I had some amazing insights that grounded me into my life purpose even deeper than before. Thought and action came together beautifully, whereas usually I'm stuck in thinking. I was following my heart and my balls and it felt fantastic. Really Butters? Tell us more. I wasn't living for myself alright. I woke up thinking: what can I do to best serve the world today? For these last two days I can really feel regression. Not being aligned as much, and my purpose reads like WORDS but earlier this week I could FEEL it, more than just words. I'll continue to work on my shit, but wonder if there's a way to maintain peak states. Or we not supposed to do that as humans? We supposed to continue suffering?

I like that man, thanks for sharing. Maybe I'll start treating the weekend like a cut off point like that. Being self-employed I need that structure, but at the same time can't stand structure.

Great energy and I like your hoodie.

I'm sorry to hear that you get depressed over those things. I guess there's no real way to optimize every second in the day, and even if you did, you'd have no time to stop and smell the flowers because you're always working towards something, but that something never comes. Try to find your life purpose, what really makes you tick? What is it about doing new things that excites you? You won't get your entire life purpose on paper in one sitting, but slowly starting to do more of what makes you happy each day will make you happy, and then it really won't matter so much about reading or journaling on the bus.

Yeah very similar to some of my experiences. On my last shroom trip I realized that life is a joke, don't take it too seriously, but never ridicule yourself. Even distracting yourself with thoughts or video games or whatever, is a ridiculization of the self. There's a balance, and a certain responsibility that comes with being an adult human being. In a way, you are always carrying the child inside you around, so you need a good spine. I've always ridiculed adulthood, but there's real beauty to be found in being an adult and balancing the child and the grown up inside of you.

This was about 6 weeks ago but forgot to post it here sooner. Context Lately I've been moving more and more into stage green with my values and the way I feel into the world. Stage green is not a tree hugging airy fairy phase where you become vegan and hate conservatives on Twitter (that's what I always thought it was). Instead, for me personally, it's a stage where I follow my heart directly, meaning authentic values. It's way manlier and more mature than prior stages. I've taken mushrooms a while back and more recently done MDMA a few times. With the way I currently stand in life, I felt ready to try another psychedelic; 2cb. Dosing I took half a pill on the first day, but after about 3 hours took the other half. This to me was not a trip dose. The next day I took a full pill, which also wasn't a trip dose. I really wanted to go further deepening my consciousness so on day 3 I took 2 pills. This was a full trip dose. 1 pill = 20mg and I'm a 6"4 heavy guy so dosage may differ for you. Starting with half a pill and feeling the creativity without actually tripping was a great way for me to test this substance. Tripping The first 2 doses made me present, enjoy music and gave me great insights into my life. Most notable about radical honesty like Leo talked about. Also gave me some guidance in my life personally that I won't share here. Day 3 (trip dose) went way different. I became conscious that I am everything. Caressing a wooden chair felt like caressing myself. This of course felt absolutely orgasmic. Sounds like a freaky trip experience but the concequences of this are radical as fuck, and I realized that right away. The lessons Leo has shared sure helped me understand better what happened. But in spite of that, my ego fought. Oh did it fight. Me not being me but being everything is not just scary to the ego, it's deadly. It means that everything was a lie. All wrong. I'm not me. Uh oh! I finally understood every lesson Leo has taught about ego. I understand what ego is now, I did not before. Obviously, because the ego cannot understand itself. I could type for hours but Leo has already said it all in his videos. During the peak (1.5hrs or so) I kept switching between ego defense and surrender to the experience. I've seen glimpses of enlightenment: orgasmic feeling, melting with reality, familiarity in everything, but my ego was too strong to fully surrender. During this ego defense (fear), I realized that the ego constantly wants to compare. Compare this experience to "normal", compare some situation to the "ideal" situation. Compare today to yesterday, compare this white car to other white cars from memory etc. That's how it constructs reality, in a way to keep me (biological organism) alive. Comparing to XTC I've used MDMA a bunch of times recently, which has really helped me deal with some childhood traumas. MDMA and 2cb are different. The latter is a psychedelic, MDMA is not. Molly made me very honest, happy and warm,but it's no threat to the ego. Also 2cb has more love and respect for future me so I make plans for the next day and sleep on time. Molly just makes me wanna stay up all night and cancel work the next day ? Comparing to shrooms I've only tripped on shrooms once and I know shroom trips differ. But in my case I had sort of a dream with a spirit guide. Unlike 2cb, where I was so damn present and conscious that I became everything in the room. My 2cb trip was way scarier, but way more profound. Tips & interpretations: • the ego is not this negative bad thing, you need it in order to help others and yourself. • the next day I noticed a reduction in ego defense in many small ways. Nice! • only take psychedelics when you feel ready. Reality is absolutely not what you think, you ready for that? • trip on an empty stomach but don't eat during your trip. Reality eating itself was a little too freaky for me ? • your trip is inescapable so ride that wave.

Don't you get this? hahahahaha For you to exist is an absolute impossibility. FOR ANY OF THIS TO EXIST IS AN ABSOLUTE IMPOSSIBILITY! you think you are this ball of flesh, meat and memories that exists and then you die and you stop existing? Hahahahaahahaha, that's the funniest joke ever! Don't you remember that You created all this? You created you. You created this dream. And now you call this reality. Hahahahahaaha What if you could be 1% more in touch with You? What is, is. Thinking otherwise is complete absurdity, and fucking hilarious.

So am I on the right track with this whole enlightenment bullshit? Because I feel like I'm going insane I mean I felt pretty fantastic, like never before, and relieved, just now that I think about it I feel insane lol

Yesterday I got so high, then there were these creatures. These things are tiny and they make jokes. Everything they say is a funny joke, and is somehow linked to all of reality. So basically my entire existence is one of their jokes. These creatures are super familiar, and I remember them from early childhood. They speak in a nonsensical language, mostly in jokes. They know 2 emotions: sadness and love. Both are extremely pure versions of the emotion, nothing like normal adult sadness or love. They're very pure creatures. It's hard to explain, but whenever something sad happens, they immediately follow it up with one of their ultra funny jokes and then my state is completely reset because their jokes are so funny, it removes all negativity. They're extremely childish but when you see them you can't help but get sucked in. They're in a constant vortex of emotions. Every time it seems that the sadness takes over, they get themselves out of it. They're so childish and innocent. I had fun with these things, but it's also like they wanted to show me the light. That there's more I haven't seen. That I've only seen the surface and there's so much more there.

I used shrooms once in my adult life and had a beautiful trip. There are certain additions I am ready to kick right now. What's the best way you guys have found to set intentions like this before a shroom trip? I've also noticed MDMA works very well to kick these addictions, but I still fall back sometimes. I'd much prefer MDMA over shrooms (fear of bad trip) but I know shrooms can be more profound and perhaps help me better transitioning more into Green.

Hello lovely actualized members, Recently I've fallen on some hard times; financial stress and unemployment. I've dealt with it before and it's going okay. After a short few weeks of alcohol and cocaine abuse I had 3 experiences on MDMA that clarified some youth traumas, that was very helpful and I've given it a place now. Then yesterday some things become very clear to me: what I'm supposed to do with my life and how I should do it. It was an amazing experience. From then on I've become very emotional. Like I cry when I think about certain things or see a child in public. I can hold it back in public but this is a completely new experience for me. It's not sadness, it's just feeling very emotional and wanting to cry. I realize I have been emotionally unavailable for the last 12 years, maybe more.. (I'm 30 now). So even though I am taking action and loving life now, I don't know what this means. Am I now emotionally unstable? Thanks in advance for your answers.