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Day 58: I think I've gained some insight into why I was feeling shitty last week, let's dive right in: Pussy corrupts: Just had this insight; pussy corrupts! As I was looking at some deer inside a tiny reservation near my home, I realized; they're playing a simple game. Their game is to have babies and eat grass. That's it. One male deer impregnates all 20 females inside the reservation, then they just hang out in a group until they're grown up. This made me realize; we're doing the exact same thing. We are nothing but animals in a giant zoo called Society. Instagram models, fast cars, high-status brands, it's all just chasing pussy, it's all survival-based nonsense. I had a date last weekend and this week I felt shitty. But why? It's because my internal focus shifted from higher ideals to mostly hustle. Why hustle? To get more pussy. Guys will dedicate their entire lives to 'hustle' (making money for the sake of making money) in order to take an extra vacation or buy a nicer car. Why? To get pussy. All this is motivated on some level to get pussy, directly or indirectly. That includes starting an impressive company or starting a family. Starting a family is equally 'Survival Matrix', no better or worse than chasing pussy. But that's not all. We had this date and it was fine, we had sex and we had a connection. At the very end of the date she said "I enjoyed this but next time I'd like to go for dinner". So I thought "girls like to enjoy getting ready and going on dates like that" so now I'm thinking "I need to hustle harder so I can take her out on a date". Before you know it, I'm hustling just for the sake of money, putting my higher ideals off into the future. And THAT'S how pussy corrupts. I also don't really like this kind of manipulative behavior that happens when a female finds out I'm not just good looking but also have a heart and soul, so she pushes me into the provider frame, which ultimately becomes manipulative because all of a sudden there's like stakes and strings attached. Why would you decide already that I take you out to eat next time? Now I'm not taking her out at all for this bullshit lol. But really the truth is I just don't want a serious relationship and she already caught feelings after sex so I have to cut this off. So that sums up the problem with pussy and money. Also if you 'hustle' it implies you work hard on something you're not passionate about so you can relax cause you got a tiny bit more money than the next guy. It doesn't get more Matrix than that. Artful money making: But there is good news! There has to be a way to make money in the short term that is aligned with my higher goals. Hell, I'm going to spend the next 30 years of my life working so might as well work on something worthwhile from now on. My goal now is to grow myself as an influencer and help others while I travel the world and do stand-up. It all ties in together, so my Instagram with have my comedy on it as well as more 'actualization' content (whatever the word is). These are currently my 5-year goals: (confusing I know but Green on the August goals = done, red = not done yet ... on anything other than August goals the colors don't mean anything) My natural inclination is to put this off into the future. I thought I should build another dropshipping store first for the money, then teach others how to do the same on my YT, and begin coaching from there. That's not a bad thought, but why not start with the coaching business today? What if my financial problems are also solved by doing my higher purpose business? What if I could get 2 high-ticket coaching clients this month? Coaching: Now, be extremely careful making assumptions. When I think of starting coaching today, I immediately make assumptions like I'm not good enough to coach people yet I don't have anything valuable to offer because I'm broke Making money with my passion just takes longer than quick hustle I must be conscious of the fact that these are assumptions and not truth. But when you trust an assumption to be true, then it becomes truth. I speak the word into existence, so to speak. So I took this coaching seminar on Saturday, I will now continue to work out my coaching offer and see how I can help others. Balance: I must be careful not to judge too harshly, since my date last weekend did give me some insights into my financial situation. I can become too dreamy and unrealistic in life, so being with this girl who was almost a pessimist was nice. Another upside of hustle is I now refuse to borrow money from my dad because I'd rather hustle than go through the embarrassment of that ordeal again. To be clear he's broke too, but it just toxifies the relationship for no good reason.

I'm listening to this audiobook for the second time in two months. Highly recommended for those who want exceptional success. He talks about how lessons from the streets apply to him in business and the lessons he's learned. I believe this to be a pretty healthy stage Orange book. Enjoy

Great point, you wouldn't see a thread here called "Ariana Grande is a Fraud" or something like that.

That's weird because Fladrafinil is metabolized in the liver into modafinil, which is then responsible for its wakefulness-promoting effects. And 150mg is more than I ever tried. Did you do on empty stomach? But when I have choice moda and armoda definitely better option.

Money = logistics. If you can't afford to take the bus to meet girls then that sucks. More money is better logistics, I can't wait to spend my winters in the tropics once I have my income set up.

Great read, thanks!

I don't know much about this but you might be helped by finding communities online of young people growing up with Indian / Asian parents.

Note that you are typing this as if everybody is living in the West, but OP is posting this from India and talking about arranged marriage for him.

Ok so I just tried this again 8 months later and it didn't bother me as much as the first few times. In fact, I took 80mg this morning and I'm quite happy with it. Made me calm and clearheaded. Doesn't quite compare to real modafinil in my opinion but I want to try a higher dose soon. Today it felt more like a good nootropic than a wakefulness agent which is what modafinil is.

Leo said 2 - 3 months so probably phase 1/3 lol. Hoping Leo is faster than GTA release.

But what about a Jim & Pam situation? Jim said he wished he married her the first day they met. Although not for me, seems like true love? You sent me on a 2hr Youtube binge into the depths of creepy internet history.

Day 56: So much going through my head right now. I feel like earlier this week I had struck the perfect balance between masculine and feminine energy. I had just been with a girl this weekend which made me want to hustle harder and take more risks. I realized that taking risks is what got me so far in life so now is not the time to play it safe. But I took this too far. Now I'm in the streets almost looking for fights and that's just not me. I took the masculine energy and hustle mentality overboard and turned it into something nasty. There's an additional trap inside of hustle mentality which is the 'I'll be happy when' trap. Hustling makes me look at what I don't have instead of keeping my eyes on the goal and living in the moment. Let's find a balance. Vision: I just finished the coaching seminar and it made my vision even more clear. He talked about finding your target audience but it was all about professions. For example "I help middle managers in IT become more confident" and I thought "I don't give a fuck". So then I thought of who my audience is and they are people who want to chase their dreams and reach real freedom in their lives. Digital nomads, entrepreneurs, artists. My ideal life is me traveling the world while making $10k pm passive income and helping others do the same. In order for me to inspire and help others I need to become my ideal self first. I can't sit here in my broke home on my broke phone talking about how to live your dreams. Even though I've done plenty of inner work, I need to get results so I can hook other people in. Once they're hooked in I can teach them Actualization lessons, and help them get the best out of life. This is a big vision and I accept it will take years, so it's really a 5 to 10 year vision.

Are you saying power is delusion?

Leo talks about successful people being power hungry and this creates devilry, but what is Power? And since people want to be successful does it mean we must accept this devilry? What about personal power, or using power for good purposes?

I will suck Leo's dick in lieu of a financial donation to Actualized.org.

What's your review of this supplement? Is it for older guys?

Netherlands. I just looked on the map and it's kind of funny how Jamaica really looks like an island in the middle of nowhere, here I am so used to traveling to neighboring countries over land.

Day 55: There's light at the end of the tunnel but I'm still in financial hell. I am grateful every day and my vision keeps sharpening, and I am sharp. This year has been very interesting so far, but we're a long way from financial freedom. But that's okay. Every day is a blessing, and my bigger-picture goals become more clear every week and month. Hustling: I am for real hustling now and that mentality was lacking before. If you want success then you've got to be willing to hustle, and I was just unwilling to do anything before, like a spoiled little princess. I didn't want to work for a boss, and only wanted to run my own business once it was 'perfect', well that's not gonna work. The hustle mindset was missing. The problem with hustle mindset is that it's almost anti-spiritual and that's the cost. Eye for an eye, dog-eat-dog world. There is of course a classy way to do it, and that's by lifting everyone around you up with you (said this in my last post). That's a real classy way to handle stage Orange and my growth through this phase. I'm going to become really successful, and I have many of the right elements in me, but this phase right now is about hustling and sharpening the vision. Tomorrow I have an online workshop about creating your coaching offer. That being said I do notice that this hustling mindset is problematic because today during my Uber Eats work I was not nice to a few people who didn't deserve that and I regret this. Like seriously feel bad about it, this can be such a trap 😢😭 When I fall into this trap my ego rises out of control. So let's try to find balance here and grow towards success while being kind. This is almost a paradox since by going for exceptional success you must at some level see yourself as more deserving of that success than the 99% who don't reach it. Can you see how paradoxical this is? But still, let's find balance here between taking big risks, not giving into fear and hustling while simultaneously being kind and expanding spiritually.

Yeah my knowledge is only very limited, I sometimes watch these shorts from a YT guy named Side Quests, and there Jamaicans always seem to have some life advice for him when he talks to random strangers in the street. I recently got into more Jamaican music and Koffee is one of my favorite artists in this, absolutely fantastic. She talks about being blessed and grattitude, are Jamaicans more grateful than Americans you think? What are the most notable differences you found between US and Jamaica?

@Princess Arabia I have so many questions. First off why do Jamaicans seem to have life lessons on everything? Is this cultural? Because life lessons to me seem like wisdom, do Jamaicans have more awareness you think? Then, why you think ppl always call girl bad or like the badman bad girl thing? Is that youth going against traditional Christian values? And why is that a Jamaican thing you think? I don't know much.

This thread escalated so fast 😭

According to r/drugs all drugs make you gay.

@Mosby you have a doctor's prescription for modafinil for depression? I thought prestribed strictly for narcolepsy.

Interesting cause it's true, yet at the same time Leo is doing pickup. Leo.. of all people! 😁

I just watched this, pretty good stuff and packed with value in an hour long video.