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Alright, my first journal on here, let's make it count. Goal: €10.000 per month net income (after tax) Timeframe: 5 years (June 2029) Reason: So I can travel while doing stand-up comedy and not having to worry about jobs or money in the future Currently: €28K in debt with almost no income First, I've realized that I don't care about money. The thought of buying cool stuff or experiences doesn't have the same kind of trigger that it used to. Doing my artistic pursuits, doing stand-up, having meaningful interactions with other people, that is the real thing for me. The fantasy of having lots of money is BYPASSING, just to escape the hard things and building mastery in my domain. I don't care if I'm broke, as long as I can do my comedy and have my own thoughts and feelings. I only care about the person I am becoming in this process, because I like that person. So now money just becomes practical, and for practical reasons I would like to have an income. I believe that having a 10K pm income would increase the quality of my life since it'll allow me to travel the world while doing stand-up, creating content, learning new things and further developing my character. History: I've dabbled in my online business things but mastered none. I've built and sold websites, I've done affiliate marketing (Clickbank), YouTube channel and many other things. Most notable is I started a Print-on-Demand Etsy shop in 2020 that has done over $500.000 in sales (not profit, not even close). This was my only income between 2020 and 2024. This business failed for several reasons, mainly; not enough commitment, poor financial management, increased competition (especially in 2023 and 2024). Leo said in his recent Being Wrong episode that he had lost his life purpose for over a year and I was in the same position. I denied who I really was and tried to become someone else. That was a big mistake. Now I understand the value of my LP even more. And the goal of my business should always be to support my LP and not be about the money or anything, that's an escape. Current situation: Right now I have 1 YouTube channel that I make videos with AI. It's not yet monetized but has 1050 subs and was only started 4 months ago. I also have an Etsy shop selling digital items that's making some sales now but not yet profitable. I'm entering into a government debt relief program which will restrict my access to money and whatnot for the coming 18 months. This is probably gonna suck, but should give me time to focus on my stand-up while learning new business skills. So 18 months from now I can start making money and be debt-free. The debt was created from borrowing money into my business (sole proprietorship) but not really growing. The debt snowball just increased which made me stressed and less capable of making sane business decisions. How to make money: First understand WHY I want to make money; so I can focus on stand-up. This WHY is so damn important, it influences every other decision. If I forget the WHY, I've pretty much failed. Like I said if I am a full-time comedian and always broke for the rest of my life, I'll take it! This making money stuff is just for practical purposes. So here are my making-money criteria: Not employment Not sales of physical products Must not consume too much of my time Must not be location bound Must not be bound to specific times Must not be a public persona; my public persona is as a comedian. So if I can't post a bit about me jerking off while high on Molly on my IG then forget about it. Must be ethical (my personal definition counts here) Makes me feel good about my work and myself Be future-proof (AI and stuff) No employees (virtual staff is okay) Scalable Most important factor. once again, is this is a tool to help me maximize my artistic potential, which is why there's so many negatives (not's) on this list. Right now on the top of my mind is learning to create funnels so I can help high-ticket coaches and public speakers get more clients. This seems to be a sensible thing to do. I could charge a retainer of perhaps $2K pm per client, or way higher retainers, as long as I get them clients. I also love the personal development niche so helping these people seems to fit my criteria. Also, having the ability to get people clients is always good and always worth money. And by mastering funnels I can also create my own funnels and do some affiliate marketing for existing online programs. I don't see this dying out anytime soon. In fact, when it comes to live personal development seminars, those will probably be way more popular in the AI age. I'd enjoy networking in this field too, so that's a plus. I downloaded Iman Gadzhi's Agency Navigator course a while ago and he talks about outsourcing. So once I master funnels, I could (as an agency) outsource the actual PPC ad management for low prices to quality third-world freelancers. My focus would then be on overseeing the projects, getting clients and of course managing the customer relationships. Part 1: Mastering Funnels So here we go. The first part of this journey is to master funnels. Spend 1 hour or more to learn everything there is about funnels in 2024 and in the future. This could also be a valuable skill if I host my own comedy shows later on to selling tickets and running these events. There's also a part of getting better at managing my money, but I'll get into that later. Step 1: spend 30 minutes every day learning about funnels.

I've been seeing a few of these videos, it's just sad. I don't understand how you could even do this. 3 hours of sleep every night, no off time, nothing!?

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Manifesting: It's so fucking easy. Just get into a sleepy state, then imagine the end result. Then either nap or just get back up. You wake up in the desired state. Do this every night and morning. It's the basic Neville Goddard shit and it works. Gold just dropped 🪙 Nero = goat

Had a dream about a ladyboy last night, I won't go into detail because this is a family friendly place. I'm not gay. I've probably had some fucked up childhood experiences around sex which might explain the attraction but I'm not sexually attracted to men. I am sexually attracted to girls and women. But ladyboy / trans IF they look extremely feminine, lies into sort of a fetish category for me. For example, I've never watched gay porn. Never. And I've seen way more porn than I would like. So if I was gay wouldn't I watch gay porn? Doesn't make sense.

Spiritual Retreats Business: When I think of my ultimate client in regards to the web dev stuff, I think of spiritual retreats. They are in a niche that aligns with me (spirituality, yoga) and the better ones are making serious money. I've cold emailed both instructors (spiritual entrepreneurs) and the big retreats. So far I've only been able to book a few exploratory calls with the instructors, and they're broke! So they feel the pain of chaos, which I can automate using AI, but they can't even afford to hire a part-time employee to fix it, and they'll reject my fairly priced invoice. This is NOT my audience. My audience is likely the big retreats. They could use a dedicated tech guy who also has an entrepreneurial mindset - to help them automate certain manual processes. These could be serious retainers, like $2K - $5K per month, when you assume my work could get them more sign-ups or retainers (retreats are expensive af). But there are several obstacles here: a) often times they are not aware of any pain b) when I cold email, I am not reaching the owner c) I have no experience doing this, I just think I know stuff, but truly I don't. I'm sort of naively assuming I know better how to run their business than they do, makes no sense The solution: the way I got that lead-gen proposal from the psychedelic retreat guy was by sending an open application. Bascially just sending my resume, a simple cover letter, offering my services as a tech guy freelance if they ever need it. Super open-ended and low pressure, but it worked. That was the only one I sent so it works at a 100% conversion rate so far lol. So yeah, just keep doing that, then let THEM contact me describing what they want. If they want SEO, which is not something I usually do, I'll probably say yes. It's a quick way to build up some clients on retainer. I learned to vibe code in like 2 months so I'll take on anything and just learn it. Umbrella Man: As I was walking from one hostel to the next it was pouring rain. There was a man selling umbrellas. All he had to do was yell "UNBRELLA" really loud and the product sells itself. I can learn a lot from umbrella man. He didn't 'try to sell' umbrellas. He was very confident that the product clearly solves a problem. What is my digital umbrella? Effortless Flow: Selling my ecom was effortless. I enjoyed running it but it died because of a lack of funds. Then I was on a walk one day and had this insight: I wanna travel, why not sell this? So I listed it on Flippa. Then a month later, as I was planning to travel, another insight to message this particular buyer with an offer. He accepted and I made $1300. That was easy, in flow, and didn't require a lot of effort. So when I'm doing a lot of effort, it's probably a bad sign. Might as well slow down and follow the rhythm. I gotta slow down and meditate way fucking more. The answers come from within, not from the illusions of the world. Don't Touch It: Stop touching the business when in low frequency. Just meditate, don't contaminate.

Manifesting $1000 /day Slept at what is probably the worst hostel ever. The bunk beds are so bad that you feel every movement from the guy beneath you. This is a terrible design flaw and made it so I couldn't sleep the whole night. This is what you get for trying to save a few bucks. I am going back to the old hostel immidiately. I literally saved €5 for this horrible experience. And I'm still burning through €30 - €40 per day while staying at hostels while I want to be in SEA spending 4 times less and staying at private rooms. I have very little confidence and security around money, so that's why this continues to manifest. The only solution is to hold that financial confidence, that state of abunance, evne in the face of challenge and contradicting evidence. The solution is to be present thoughout. I did a somewhat effective self-hypnosis in bed last night, even though of course it got disturbed constantly. It went something like: "every breath my body relaxes more and my thoughts are more abundant". The old way is just a rollercoaster. Yesterday morning felt great, the weather was amazing, I went on walks to think about Bangkok, and I worked from the hostel. It was a wonderful morning. But then at some point I started eating bad foods, became slightly annoyed with some things and some people, all the way down to this horrible experience at this other hostel. Why always this rollercoaster? It was actually very stable back home, when I had stable and predictable living situation, although being quickly annoyed is not new. Perhaps I had learned to fake being emotionally stable, by socially isolating and not challenging myself. In this contained and controlled envvoirment, I was emotionally stable. So we can say that I am reactive. Why? I guess being emotionally reactive is something from childhood, and so is financial instabiltiy. But that is the old, I am interested in the new. Saying it comes from childhood can only lead to me blaming my dad, which is the opposite of being a responsible and emotionally mature adult. So that is the wrong direction. But I absolutely manifest every payment myself, I just know that because I feel it. So I wanna get into the state that I was in when I effortlessly manifested money. I've been in that state many times. The thing about that state is that it's completely unrelated to my actual finances. I've had literally €5 in my bank account but I just KNEW that money was coming, sometimes even WITHOUT the source, and because I was so CONFIDENT, of course it came easily and effortlessly. And I was still in that state until I started to travel. Then when I got sick after drinking at the hostel, that's when I went to a low point of panic about finances, and I haven't fully gotten back into that flow yet. Of course that is absolutely normal because my living situation, the place where I sleep, is now uncertain and dependent upon my internal state of confidence around finances and security. That is new to me. At home I always had that security of my house, and it was always quiet there. I didn't have to put myself into some special state to just function. Now I have to constantly mentally filter out noise, for example, which I hate. People talking on the phone, music in the background, that sort of thing. I hate not having a private room. I've had private rooms in Porto though, and that one was actually very lovely. So do I just constantly have to put myself into this state of abundance? Because when I was truly in there and manifesting money effortlessly, I wasn't trying. But maybe I was running off the fumes of Q4 sales in my Etsy shop, could that be it? So the external (Etsy sales) gave me the confidence to make some more money (sell my ecom store + SaaS). But now I have to do that with no jumpstart. So I gotta manifest from scratch, but also do it quickly - manifest money within days or hours, not weeks or months. Think abou this some more, it's a contradicting statement: when I am stable, I'm not motivated enough to take risks. When I take risks, I am unstable and this reduces my state. Can you see the mind game here? This is externalizing at it's finest! Stop externalizing and start internalizing success. At this moment, $1000 /day feels like a truly abundant number. From now on, I am going to live at $1000 /day income internally. Through meditation, visualization etc. When I feel that I am not at $1000 /day frequency I will go back into relaxation and back into the $1000 /day state. Do I believe that $1000 /day is possible? Absolutely. Is it possible today? Yes! And every day. It is not a big deal. Lastly I must realize that the physical plane is nothing but an effect, a result. Hell, it's even just a dream that I dreamt up some time ago. There's nothing 'real' about it. Stop reacting to a result, because then you start to create in reaction to, instead of from the state you're trying to manifest. Celebrating wins: Let's not forget to celebrate my wins. Sold a woven blanket on Etsy yesterday - the one PoD product I am most passionate about and has a high margin! Sold a vibe-coded SaaS for $500 last month on Flippa Sold my ecom store for $1300 in December, also on Flippa My brand new Etsy store has 85 sales in total, almost all started during Q4 Got a deal going with a guy who owns this psychedelic healing retreat. I will do lead gen for him and receive a commission per sign-up. It's basically my first client in the spiritual niche Did a sales call with another spiritual entrepreneur last month and he was interested, but did not agree to the $750 price point I am fully equipped to sell more of my SaaS assets this month at better price points, along with custom development deals. The SaaS portfolio is a nice way to show some skills. Vision: It's not rocket science. Last year I was doing Shopify print-on-demand selling t-shirts with Facebook ads. This was my favorite business ever, but I couldn't sustain it cause you have a few bad days in a row, no financial buffer, you're dead. So I figured I need to make other income first; sell my SaaS or other website services for cash, then re-invest that cash into e-com. E-com needs but one thing: cash. Cash buys you influencers, cash buys you ads. With no cash you're out there manually posting on Instagram, you might as well spend that time landing a $1000 web dev client and invest that money back into ecom. That was and still is my logic. Of course slowly the web dev stuff takes shape on its own, just not sure what that would look like. But in a sense I can do magic. I can email certain types of businesses with some custom AI tool for their customers to use. For me that's simple to vibe code, but to that business it's amazing magic. Just haven't found this system yet. Boom! Just had an idea: simple breath-work app for coaches. With their logo, they own the code, sell for $500 each. The only problem is coaches are broke and often don't understand business, so I'd have to still niche down somehow. What about only for coaches who are already on Youtube making breathwork videos? Bingo. They can either give the app for free to their subscribers in exchange for email, or make it a micro-saas for like $2.99 per month. Edit: lol, I still like this idea. I've never done a mobile app so let's skip that entirely. Instead I could build a web app, in the form of an online learning program. Like some online program to learn pranayama breathwork, or other breathwork, but not with a teacher in the video, just interactive elements you use to count your breath and stuff like that. Can build that whole platform out, it's really not that much work, and sell that directly to existing coaches and spiritual influencers. Worst case I learn a ton about breathwork 😂

Pigeons are pretty gangster. I often see them with missing feet or legs and they simply don't care. Just doing more pigeon stuff.

What do you mean? When you see an attractive woman you either look or you don't, there's no vetting process.

That's literally half the women in their 30s and 40s who are into spirituality and yoga. The other half is crazy.

Yes I'm game, share! Can I just use the same profile though? It's maybe 2 weeks old. But if it's close to what's shared here above, I think I got enough to go with and just AI the pictures with my face as suggested.

I had fear or flying, really blew that up in my head. Flew for the first time in 8 years this month and it was not bad. Now I'm looking forward to my next flight 🙂

But this is not really true. You make it sound like it's an objective criteria while it is not. First you must be awake, alive, not sick, not doing something else, not drowning in water, not too tired. You must be potent to procreate, not too young or old. And you must also be in a certain mind state to even notice these women, not too occupied with work. So when these THOUSANDS of criteria are met, then you also filter out on certain looks. And this happens automatically, so how can it be superficial? Unless maybe you're making a list or something. Is it superficial that you only want to breathe in fresh air and not car fumes? Is it superficial when you're eating your favorite foods? Why aren't you eating my favorite foods? Did you feel less superficial opening this thread? 😝

You mean share my profile on here? Hell no 😂 @Hojo oh shit you're right, I forgot about that. I remember literally thinking a few months ago: "dating apps must be terrible now because of Ai, I definitely won't use them again". Then I started to travel and voila.

Yeah I've thought about it some more. I guess that animals only care about food and stuff, then humans have broader interests, and then God cares about literally everything.

Why the hell is animals not caring about reality their defining mark? They also don't care about movies, trying shoelaces or poetry. Animals don't care about anything, they are inconsiderate bastards.

This is hilarious. Microsoft is removing many of the AI functions from Windows 11. Can you see the hype yet? https://www.windowscentral.com/microsoft/windows-11/microsoft-is-reevaluating-its-ai-efforts-on-windows-11-plans-to-reduce-copilot-integrations-and-evolve-recall

I really enjoyed Leo's videos on this, let me share them here again. And another interesting one about Ai replacing programmer jobs. My experience vibe coding is: I've learned how all this works and will be working with a professional developer on actual commercial projects. Share more!

That's not even related to women per se. At a Tony Robbins event or similar you'll see about 50% women, 50% men. The mainstream consciousness is just shockingly low. The longer you do this work, the greater the contrast gets.

@Adrian colby that's interesting. Like I said I've only dated one girl in this category and she called herself trans. She was definitely psychologically female, it was noticeable. Also physically you probably couldn't tell she wasn't born female, very attractive. So I guess I meant trans then instead of ladyboys.

Complaining about Chaos: So I must like the chaos or something, i don't know. I am creating massive chaotic challenges for myself and then I complain about them. At the same time others would describe me as quiet and restful person. It's just strange how life works. I've done more in the past 30 days than I have in the whole 2 years before that, in the sense of travel and challenges. At home things were much more peaceful, predictable, here it's not. I figured I could exchange my skills for a place to stay. This Ram Das ashram said I was welcome. I thought I could stay there immediately, but with all the paperwork and processing it could take up to a month. I don't wanna sit in Lisbon for another month, I wanna go to Bangkok. Yes I want to live at retreats in exchange for my services while I build my business online, but I don't think I'm ready to do full sacrifice at an ashram, which is what I think they expect me to do, especially if I need to wait another month in expensive and rainy Lisbon. Anyway who cares. My point is that I do all this shit, but when my ego kicks in it solidifies reality into that specific moment, through that specific lens and says "this is how reality is and it sucks". But that's false. Again I've done more the past month than the 2 years prior. So at least I'm doing shit that will be fun to think back on when I'm old. It just doesn't seem fun right now. Even just the fact that I am now complaining and focusing on this instead of just working to grow my income is the old frequency trying to keep my energy in place. Manifestation: The principles of manifestation are so simple: live in the outcome, don't react emotionally. But in practice, that's not how it always goes. When my money gets dangerously low, to the point where I can't pay for my hostel anymore or buy food, I don't become more calm and living in the desired outcome. No, I usually react to that emotionally. Now weirdly enough, things always work out. If they didn't, I wouldn't be here. Money never runs out, it always comes back, or else I would have ran out of money years ago lol. But no, it's always there somehow. I think the trick to building stability is by having emotional stability. I'm getting better at it, but nowhere near perfect. Really these challenges are perfect. When I got to my hostel in Porto a few weeks ago I just started socializing, even went out drinking and got sick. But the game is so empty, so hollow, nothing good comes from that. I just stopped working on my business and on myself and for what? Feeling slightly worse afterwards. I'd rather be alone, introspective and growing than be social, outwards and left with nothing. Measuring My State: The good thing about staying at hostels is that I am constantly around other people, so I can easily measure my internal state. Am I open, spacious and kind? Then my energy is probably expansive. Am I reserved and sort of treating others as obstacles? Then I'm probably going in the wrong direction emotionally. So there's a balance where I am still introspective and working on my shit while also being open enough to allow for the outside world. The game is not: work more. It's not about getting more hours in. It's about expanding my awareness to see what's really going on and where the opportunities lie. I just need 700 euros to get to Bangkok. That money is already there and very easy to obtain. All I need is for my mind to align with that reality, that's literally the whole game. But step 1 is to see that that's the game in the first place. What is life but some movie being projected upon my consciousness? But it's infinitely more dynamic than a movie. There is a reality right now where today I make the 700 euros needed for the flight and I fly before Monday. I just need to energetically align with that reality, but that's the whole challenge. Knowing this is one thing, embodying it is another. This applies not just to the 700 euros, but to making $10K pm, or $300K pm. To consciousness it's the same thing! Same consciousness, different movie. Same consciousness, different beliefs, different reactions, different images. Same thing.

Challenging Shit: Feeling a bit exhausted. Finally did a proper 5x5 workday yesterday, which was satisfying but also not really. This is probably all the old frequency just saying hi. Made a blanket sale on Etsy yesterday, that was pretty cool. Emailed more retreats yesterday, this time in Madeira, for volunteering my tech skills in exchange for a stay. Did 25 Whatsapp messages yesterday. This could be quite scalable. If you make a bot that scrapes Google Maps, then verifies the Whatsapp accounts, then builds the websites and send the messages in bulk then you're golden. I'm doing super challenging shit, no fucking shit it's challenging. Not only am I starting my business, I am also doing it with no money and no income. That absurd. But not only that, no, I am also traveling. Not only that, but I am traveling and staying at hostels so I have no stability. No fucking shit it's challenging - I have to balance finding my next place to stay, finding customers, building systems, managing my routine while dodging these unexpected situations. Then I have to manage my own mindset, regulate my sleep in an unpredictable envoirment. God, it's a miracle I haven't gone insane yet. I mean, I have to keep an abundant mindset while not being able to pay for a workspace where I can sit quietly, not being able to do my laundry, the list goes on and on. The main challenge is noise, but if I have more income I would stay at private rooms, so really the main challenge is income. Either way, I wanted this. When I was in my comfort zone I barely made any real moves. I chose to live with my fantasies about business instead of doing business. I would have never done this Whatsapp outreach back home - too scary and not aligned with my fantasies. Now I'm doing real shit. Let's look into Madeira again. Is it possible to live there at the same cost as here? Roughly €20 per night with similar grocery expenses. If so, then I can stay there until the Ram Das retreat. Of course I prefer a place to stay for free in exchange for volunteering work. Cheapest private I could find on Booking.com = €28 per night, with others at €30 and €35. Hostels: €26 on Airbnb or €12 per night for a tent lol But really, this is just filler. I wanted to go to South East Asia, not Europe. It costs €519 to get to Bangkok: That layover it too tight. But you get my point. Once in Bangkok I'll have a much cheaper time. You can get a freakin studio for €11 per night! So I just need to get to Bangkok, then I'm in a much better spot cuz it's 3 to 4 times cheaper.

What do you mean by this? I though ladyboy was just the word they used in Thailand for this 'third gender'.

But that also look like a dude to me. I am hoping for chicks at the level of this video: