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Really great life advice for young and old

Yes I know these things, I'm 35 and I've lived on my own since I was 18. I really feel I've already gone through most of the process and my emotional attachment now is about 1 percent where it used to be 100. It's more like a post mortum analysis for me at this moment. I know to distance myself from it emotionally.

Ok thank you but in my case I think I am well over my social anxiety, it's just a very mild panic 3/10 times on the subway and that is all 😬 no panic actually talking to people or anywhere else.

Because at home I work on my business all day. The transition period is where I get panick, like straight from home getting onto the subway for example.

Being hyper aware of my surroundings and inner world at the same time makes me uncomfortable in public. But being distracted (unaware) always counters the panick attack. Why? So unawareness = comfort? Awareness = discomfort? When not in public, it's in reverse. At home I love the heightened awareness. 😑

Most gurus put their best stuff on YT for free, and their video course isn't that valuable. Most value there comes from the buyer making a financial investment, so they're more committed to follow through with the program. I'd prefer a high-ticket mentorship program or access to some private community.

I just found this blog post from Leo from 2017, hope it's okay I quote the whole thing here, it is trippy. Is this a description of insanity? https://www.actualized.org/insights/hitting-rock-bottom Jesus

@Michael569 I have another question, maybe you could give perspective on. Since I was young my dad would not take care of himself and the house would be a total mess and I'd feel ashamed to the outside world. This hasn't changed. He gets cleaning service for his house but these women stop showing up after 1 or 2 times. Later I learned that he just walks around naked and things like this. He had a female friend visit him in the hospital and he did the same thing just a few days ago. That's why I'm so sick of it cause you can't help him at all, he keeps fucking shit up like this. Do you think that he does this on purpose? Like a big "fuck you" to "the outside world"? Any other person would put on pants first. This sort of behavior makes him play away any empathy people might have for him, or their willingness to take care of him. And then he goes back into the victim role saying he feels so lonely. He probably has some sort of autism too, but that's not an excuse. He almost definitely has neurological damage, but unsure when that even started or what it is exactly. Last week I was able to see this situation from God's perspective and it is very interesting, as God shows unconditional love and understanding for all different ways I see and feel about him and the relationship. But my ego doesn't, and these things will probably continue to bother me. I try to be indifferent, which seems to work best.

What if sudden changes in your reality become so radical that it scares you?

Hmm, I just can't get around the idea that "I have awoken to my true nature" or "I finally understand" has a narcissistic feel to it. But that's probably because I haven't truly awoken, I get it.

Because of this, no.

I understand this, it was just a thought experiment. Where exactly is the line between realizing you are God and thinking your ego (and only yours) is God? How do you know this isn't crossed? What if you do this work and you actually have superiority complex, and where do you fly off the hinge and how to prevent it? Or can mental illness not be created by doing this work, assuming no pre-existing conditions were present? If that's the case then my spiritual ego can be classified as healthy ego. I'd sure like to keep my healthy ego. Ram Das talked about his brother who was in a mental asylum. He said the difference between him and his brother was that they both thought they were God, only Ram Das realized everybody is God and that's the difference. In another thread you said "Insanity is where it's at".

On the same channel there's one on those colorblind glasses, great watch.

I watched this today 😁 that method honey uses is similar to what used to be called cookie stuffing. Not sure if cookie stuffing is illegal but it's certainly an old black hat method.

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