LaucherJunge

Yes great insight. Consciousness is split apart down the dimensional ladder in order to be able to experience every single aspect of limitations themselves. An illusion that is neccessary for the real truth even beneath the truth of consciousness itself.

There are many other great spiritual teachers, I know exactly what you mean because I felt the same way about sadhguru for starters, it was amazing what he said but kind of too vague. The deeper you get into this stuff the more you will see the wisdom in his words. Also you can't resonate with every single teacher at any given time. There are not many people who are able to get a glimpse around their ego, usually immesurable amounts of suffering are needed in order to give it a go, you can't just convince people of believing this because apart from meditation there is no science really involved, it is very experiential or subjective work. If you still have doubts research on the scientific benefits of meditation, this should easily be enough to start a habit and this habit will lead to further understanding and experience by itself.

Try Do Nothing meditation in order to take away the momentum of your thinking, this was for me the main cause of such issues, always thought it was emotions themself but turned out that thinking is really what plays with you on this egoic passions. After you take the fuel away you can start focusing on other things, now it won't be neccessairly easy but this is the only way I found out in my extreme case. So basically try watching your thoughts about it and let them appear but don't engage into those thought stories that try to pull you in.

Just go for it, even if you just manage to go 8 or 6 hours it will still be a whole lot.

For me the word enlightenment is just the word for one main stage of the infinite growth process.

There are multiple old consipracy theories that proved to be right after all. I wouldn't be so quick to judge. I see where you come from because some of them sound batshit crazy. My guess is that it has to do with this very confirmation itself, that when they had a shady conspiracy theory in the past and it proved to be correct they are likely to adapt new ones aswell. I have done research in this field alot in the past, not so much anymore and I will tell you that there is compelling circumstential evidence for many current conspiracy theories, the ones that are not batshit crazy atleast, don't pretend as if you are the critical thinker without having seen it yourself.

Good one.

Try do nothing meditation if you didn't already.

You mean real itching or more like a wierd feeling of something flowing? I have this often when i breath deeply for longer periods it usually is at the places where your veins are. I don't really know what this is about but i have the theory that i might have to do with chakras flowing or something like that.

Those things certainly exists in other dimensions in some form. The expressions of physical reality seem to be very unlike those things but in the right circumstances those might be percieved by certain people probably even by some very advanced technology. So the answer is yes if you don't take the distinction between dimensions. For our physical dimension it does indirectly, as it might even take influence on non physical aspects of yourself which then translate into your physical aspects. But I will stay open minded for the possiblity of our physical dimension to be even broader than I thought.

Wow, its gold. I thank your great body !

@Blue is the sea I just watched a talk of the women who wrote that book and it is really amazing information for me, never found something resonating so deeply with me other than videos of spiritual teachers. So i finally have the framework i can research and work on. Thank you alot! @egoeimai Thanks for your help. Turns out that it is even genetic so it is not constructed by my mind at all. About 20% of people have this (HSP), just that its probably way more intense for me than most of them, it was discovered already among 100 different species.

I am interested in material about hypersensitivity, or maybe your knowledge about it. I wanna learn everything about this condition of mine. It was a curse in the past but became a blessing over time, I want to use it to the fullest.

@egoeimai Exactly I come first and from this perspective there is only growth for me in this relationship, no matter if it works or doesen't, there is nothing i can grow more from than this little issue of mine, it was time to finally face it after so much spiritual work. I can't imagine this to be just made up for me because i had the symptoms all my life long and i just yesterday looked them up for the first time, they were even more accurate before I started meditation it seems. Also my step sister who is a psychologist made a test once when i was really at my lowest. A test for emotionality, people who have a score of 0.7-0.8 are already too sensitive and it might cause problems, I had a score she never has seen before 1.7, more than double of what is already too much. One of the positive things about this is that I can use it as a compass for how attracted I am. Nowadays there are no girls anymore that really make me feel this way, because I never let my mind have so much control over the thinking. She makes me feel this way just by chatting with her so maybe it is just a remainder of the past, so there is even more of a reason to face it. I don't doubt that people experience similar things, I just doubt that they do it so emotionally. I literally am like a teenage girl in puberty falling in love, just probably twice as bad and for many more years. As I already said I want it to be that way because I love it. My intention for this thread was more to gather information about this gift of mine but I appreciate having someone to talk about it. @Blue is the sea We seem to have a very similar perspective on this. Thank you. I am sure that she won't heal the issues from her past anytime soon, not without her trusting me so I can convince her of trying spirituality. The feelings are still here and I really don't mind to be the one fighting for her trust, her being really hard to get and rejecting me is what makes her really attractive and trustworthy for me. At the same time, she is really beautiful for me like 1 in 10000 and the most important she is very intelligent, I need someone who is atleast on my intellectual level, she might be even above that which makes me also very attracted. It is very hard to find a girl that is beautiful and so intelligent at the same time, I will take any chance I get with her.

@egoeimai The thing is I went with this mindset after all my spiritual work into texting her recently but as it went on I now ended up with those feelings again. Also the thing about her is that I can openly speak about this with her, spirituality is still mambo jumbo for her but she really seems to be okay with my feelings although she seems to have been really hurt in the past and it may take a long time to gain her trust.

No, it is not true love. It is just egoic passion, I know that. Still I don't see a reason not to try it and grow.

At my first day in the new grade with 11 years I already fell in love with the most beautiful girl, she already had a boyfriend the only thing i managed to do was writing her a poem I was terrified of any contact with her it was fairly painful and I was with her in the same class for 3 years and never stoped loving her, there I already developed a depression. the next 2 years i had a new class without her but there was a new girl that I felt in love with even more, so it was even more difficult to make any contact with her and again the only thing I managed to do was writing her a poem, I don't even know how I managed to give it to her I was shaking even thinking about it, she made clear that she had a boyfriend later on by talking to my friend about it beside me anyway i was very nerdy and anxious back then so i wouldn't stand a chance anyway with such a beauty. I loved her for the 2 years and I barely managed to graduate even though i was a math genious and smart in other areas, because of all that pain. This was grades 5-10, after those you have 11-13 where i live, then you can study at a university. She was gone at this point and I was really lovesick and depressed all the year so much that I had to repeat it but this time i didn't find a new "love". The next try in grade 11 brought the girl that I loved the most of them all. There happened so much but to go into it in detail would be really too much, I was in love with her more than with those before but she had a boyfriend aswell, I wrote with her alot at first before i even knew she had one and tried my luck with her, she played alot with my feelings after that because she had a kind of on/off relationship with her boyfriend so she kind of played with me troughout the year without anything really happening. I was really obsessed and could not even sleep anymore because my mind wouldn't stop thinking and interpreting what any move that she made could have meant, this thinking was really driving me crazy. One day i would be in heaven because I thought she gave me signs another day was hell again. I could not help it but fell more in love with her everytime she "tricked" me again. I fucked up the school again because of this at the last day of school getting our certificates with over 100 people from our grade sitting there she turned around looked at me and started crying without any shame about the others. I left school fell in love with the next girl just over chatting. I was literally shaking while writing with her but my emotions where so strong and i kind of fucked it up. Then i started meditation which got me out of the depressions but the pain was still there. I discovered Teal Swan used her completion process and the pain was gone after 20 Minutes of doing it, I felt like i tricked life I was literally in heaven and kind of still am to this day never felt this deep pain again. I used it on many other occasions for pain that got triggerend and the last thing i wanted to resolve was my problem with getting into a relationship. I recently texted the last girl i was just chatting with again after 2 years and now I feel like I am on a good course with her, I also managed to resolve this last big source of pain with the completion process and stopped my mind from going crazy with do nothing meditation. Yet i still have already very deep feelings for her just by writing to her and I don't want it to get it out of control again, that is why it is relevant for me. At the same time it feels so good to love so deep already and not having to be afraid of pain. Edit: Forgot to mention after the pain was gone I went to school again, I am almost done now with an average of 1.3 with 1 being the best 6 the worst, so atleast my future is not totally done for.

I doubt that i made that already up as a child with like 11 years where i already felt in love so deeply for the first time. Today i actually looked hypersensitivity up on wikipedia and was surprised to see that i literally almost every single one of those symptoms as something that was different about me compared to others. And don't get me wrong I don't see it as a problem. I would prefer this a thousand times over being "normal", maybe not in the past where I had issues with the pain it caused me but now i really don't. I have so many methods to deal with pain and already dealt with it to an extended that I am even willing to use it for growth if i just could feel it again, but I resolved my childhood traumas to a large degree so it became very rare.

It communicates trough intuition, in a sense the higher self is what intuition really is in my opinion. Ask a question in your mind or however and try to see if you already have an answer without thinking about it, it just comes out of nothing.

What is illusion in the first place? Is there really seperation between illusion and reality? "Life is a dream on a little planet and DMT is a trampoline to get closer and see what the cosmos looks like"

I see what you are saying but this is just another way of objectifying with the difference that you take other dimensions as the scale which our mind can not pot a number on. There is a huge difference between compassion and passion, what they do is passion, what I do is passion, what you do is passion. Compassion is only about giving, it is essentially true love and it gives only freedom nothing else, this is probably only possible with enlightenment. That is pretty much what Osho said on this topic and this is the highest view i ever heard on this in my opinion. So there is no reason for your attitude towards this because you are objectifying yourself. It is very difficult to express this really deep topic but I hope i could show my point to a large enough degree.

Speaking from intuition I would use this analogy, Life is a dream on a little planet and DMT is a trampoline to get closer and see what the cosmos looks like, if you have a powerful enough trampoline you will not only see the space but you will merge with it.

I won't pretend as if i can relate to this, I had tons of emotional pain but not that much of the physical nature. I can only tell you what i would try to do in this situation, what you resist persists, I would be fully present with the pain and be begging it to give me even more of it, you literally can talk to it if you just imagine that, learn to love it, see the beauty of it, think of people who can't feel anything at all and harm themselves to atleast feel something. Literally start a romance with your pain. That is all the things i would atleast try to do, I did similar things with emotional pain and it worked but true salvation from it came with using the completion process by Teal Swan, but this is not a trauma so it can't work.

I want to be here. I love this life, the pain, all the egos, my ego. The beauty of life is infinity manifested in physicality. There are times when I think otherwise but then i have to remind myself how beautiful limitations are, taking the challenges and growing from day to day is really magical. How beautiful is this freedom of choice that we have, you can choose what you want to believe and it becomes true in a way. You have to limit yourself in order to see how amazing your natural state is. I think the reason people would answer that they wouldn't go here almost always is because of the pain, this automatically becomes suffering because they reject what is. Just be with it and see the beauty of pain and it will resolve into infinite pleasure, it will grow you more than anything else combined.

You should try around with different meditation techniques. For me usual meditation with just focusing on something has very different effects from the do nothing meditation where i just lay down with open eyes and let my monkey mind think without engaging into the thoughts. I feel like there is this difference with going inward to meditate and going outward in your situation i would recommend the do nothing meditation because you need to first get the hang of the outside world.