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@RawJudah You have to keep in mind that you have an incredible amount of garbage piled up in the beginning, it is perfectly normal what you are going trough the longer your meditations are and the more time will pass, it will start shifting, you will at one point probably drift into past memories and then at a much later state will steadily go with what happened in the recent days, such things as song lyrics will probably not even stick anymore in the first place at that point.

The last song reminds me of shadow work.

@Lorcan I mean guys who for example just randomly touch girls all the time, come very close to them, simply are very offensively flirting. A girl with weak boundries will let those guys do that to her, even if she is not interested at all or thinks they are a jerk. I would expect her to keep the distance from such guys or kind of talk them down. I myself am not at all like that, for me it needs time to take steps towards her, I need a kind of build up. Now when during this build up of tension between us she lets someone come close to her like that without defending herself that is very unattractive for me and makes me avoid her.

Most girls that I have been into so far usually had weak boundries towards guys who are very offensive in flirting with them in front of everyone, which then always turns me off alot and makes me avoid them more and more.

We show love to those people, don't make your love conditioned upon the behaviour of others, our unity can't possibly be damaged by any kind of behaviour. Resisting them will only drain your energy and reinforce the ill intentions you describe. I understand the space your arguments come from, that it is about your child, yet it dosen't change the truth. I have difficulties myself to be unconditionally loving to my environment but it gets better over time. Taking life too seriously is the real obstacle here.

Anytime you get lustful just imagine how all of the energy flows back into your upper body, very effective for me.

@Marco_the_Ape The interesting thing is that I had a wet dream today and I actually said no to it and stopped it inside the dream. Going strong on 9 days. What I now begin to notice is how shiny it makes your eyes, how the circles under your eyes dissapear and how powerful your facial expression becomes. Also having a headache literally all day. @ppfeiff If we are talking about channeling your sexual energy then yes, it probably wastes energy to have sex. I never really got deep into that subject but I also see the possibility that sex will be merely a fusion of energy instead of wastage so in that case it would be productive actually. I think sex without ejaculation might be very powerful actually.

Pretty simple, what do you do if I ask you "are you aware right now?" you don't think about it it just is. That state is what you are looking for.

@How to be wise You overlook the beauty of this journey. The path is the true destination. I am already at a point where I don't even strive for enlightenment anymore because life became so beautiful in all its facets even being sad is tremendously beautiful. I am on this journey for only 3 years by now while the first year was kind of off and on.

Shining the light of awareness on negative emotions is healing. The more you heal the more positive you will become. If you just focus on being positive about things, that will only get you that far, healing on the other hand is pretty much limitless.

@Emre She can do whatever she wants and if you don't like that you can leave, same goes for you. It is all about freedom and agreements, if you are not in alignment with her in matters of what you expect from a relationship then there is no point.

@pluto Beautifully said. I am sure there are way higher dimensions of progression than is commonly communicated even by enlightened masters. Because enlightenment is ultimately dimensionless it transcends all those higher dimensions, which means that at the same time a spiritual master can kind of skip the knowledge and growth said dimensions offer and become kind of simplistic, on the other hand you have people who have asthonishing knowledge of higher dimensions but are not even enlightened. You can very easily get stuck on such knowledge when it comes to enlightenment, because higher dimensions of existence may seem even more real and compelling, which makes it even harder to let go in the end. Everyone has his way, nobody is missing out on anything since all is one. All is well, my friend.

Yes, simple observation can be very profound, atleast if you are present doing it.

@egoless I am not enlightened and I don't need to be to see that words are not sufficient to describe it. Infinity itself is already way too abstract to give explenations about it, what do you expect am I supposed to say about infinity with words that are limited? How can you describe something and give a reason to something that doesen't exist? Are you aware right now? What is there to say about being aware? It just is, there is no words or feelings that can possibly ever grasp it, it is a whole other dimension of being, even this term dimension of being is so stupidly limited already it is neither a dimension nor is it being because both are just words and objects. So to bring this to an end what makes me think that this "infinity" exists is that no number of objects can possibly describe the subject which means that there is an infinite number of objects below that subject as an expression of it. Here again expression and below are not sufficent words.

@egoless Let me describe it with a metaphor to you. God is an absolutely infinite screen, there is an infinite number of pixels on an infinite screen obviously but there is also an infinite number of possible appearences a pixel can take, this is basically the absolute infinity. Every single form is potentially there on every single of those pixels which are infinitely many aswell. Why is such a stupid question, there is no why in something that is without any limits, because a why would limit it automatically, no words can describe it because they are also just a limit to something which doesen't know limits. And even my mentioned words in that sentence already limited it by saying things like know and something, now again saying "it" limited "it" you can't describe the only true subject with words because words always point at something have context or correlation with something that automatically limits that subject, which again it isn't even a subject... silence.

A week ago I watched a recent video of Teal Swan and she was talking about channeling sexual energy, So I just tried it out, everytime I had an erection I would imagine the energy flowing back to the body and it really worked instantly every time, I didn't actually have an intention on doing nofap but at the second day I noticed "I didn't even watch porn today" in fact I wasn't really horny at all aside from getting a few erections during meditations for literally not even 10 seconds because of this technique. Now I am at 6 Days NoFap and see how effortless this is with that technique. The benefits are very subtle so far but noticeable, the confidence in social interaction was already there for me before this but it kind of has become unshakeable now. I am now able to show my happy inner world way more on the outside, enjoy interactions on a deeper level than before. I also feel like I have become way more authentic than before. I also feel like I am finally able to stay in a self-remembering state for 24/7 when before I think horny thoughts and watching porn distracted me from it. My main intention for keeping it up is also because I think it will let deeply supressed feelings come up and let me do some really effective shadow work once again, before I wasn't really able to find anything to work on anymore, everything seemed resolved already. This opens up a new realm of healing for me. Are there any dangers for the sexual health if you don't have any sexual interaction at all for months or even years?

@Marco_the_Ape What I found to increase the length of my meditations is: 1. Switching techniques, like multiple techniques in one session in order to extend it. 2. Self-inquiry, ask yourself the question who is the one that wants to stop meditating and realize that he doesen't exist and with that the desire to stop should disappear, repeat this always when it comes back.

@How to be wise You can be self-realized but still have tons of crap on your mind. The one has basically nothing to do with the other, but I guess after being self-realized it should be easier to purge trough all that crap, hopefully.

@Psyche_92 The question is, is there anything that is useful in the first place? All those judgements you have about things are only thoughts manifested as believes, there is just being, percieving.

@Shin Something similar, I just tried being aware of everything at once. Possible that it ended up being like a scan going back and forth trough the body. Is this somehow connected to it. Edit: I figured out what it is. I watched a recent Teal Swan video and she said to channel your sexual energy when you get horny. I was doing it since then to get rid of erections, just imagine the sexual energy to flow back into the body. I will experiment with this seems like this could be very useful.

I wanted to ask if somebody else also experiences this, I have this now for about 4 or 5 days since I started meditating for about 3-5 hours a day. It comes like a flash very unexpected and I am feeling it mostly in my belly area but also in a more subtle way in the whole body, it is like a little orgasm but it is too short, it happens like 3-5 times in an hour of meditation. I can also kind of provoke it in some way, it is just like an outburst of joy but instead of it being expressed with bodily expressions it is just this very short feeling of bliss.

@Ilya In that case you might be right. I am not 100% sure, you never know what's around the corner after all.

@Ilya Yes of course it's shadow work. Fears are very tricky to deal with. I don't think there is a really easy way for it. What can work is disidentification, focus on breath or simply awareness while in fear or simply getting your shit together once and do it over and over again, no matter how uncomfortable until you realize how easy it is. Get ready for another mindfuck in future then. There is no full mastery or perfect mastery / perfect state. Improvement never ends because if it would end at some point, there would be no infinity and you could describe the Truth with just words. For example just imagine the emotional mastery some alien race from the 6th dimension must have and still there are infinietely far away from Truth because like us they are just in this illusory world of objects, Truth can't be translated into this physical realms it simply appears as infinity. Don't make the mistake of thinking that enlightenment will make you the perfect human being, it doesen't.

@Pelin Beautifully said, thank you! @Ilya Well, I am not really talking about a relationship with them but the baiting out of your feelings when they reject you, so that you can actually start working on the source of your problem. That is pretty much what I did about 2 months ago. I was writing again with a girl that I found 2 years ago on a dating site and it didn't work out back then, I didn't really want to be with her actually, my aim was to bring out my feelings because she was triggering the fuck out of me 2 years ago and it worked really well, after that I already thought that I had it resolved till yesterday, now I have yet another chance to heal myself in this matter. I guess this work never ends, never think you are done with it because infinity can never end!

@Ilya I feel like I also was in the dilemma you are at the moment, I think some people just don't get how much out of the way some people have to go and how unauthentic they have to be to pursue a girlfriend. What I found out today is that I actually still had loneliness inside me and finally managed to trigger it, because ultimately it is always (hidden) loneliness that triggers this desire, stop resisting your loneliness. Just do a long meditation where you try to bring your loneliness out to the surface, get creative on how to achieve that, even if it takes approaching/texting a girl and getting rejected. When you finally get it out just unconditionally be with it, make it your meditation to feel it, even if it is painful, you will be glad you did because the desire will drop immediately after that, of course it will be coming back eventually you have to just keep doing the work and drop resistance.