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I just realized how I am creating huge problems out of nothing in my life. I was crying around having so much thought about a situation in my life, even though the huge pain of it was gone after a bit of medition, the theater I make about it is so ridicolous that I have to laugh about it myself. I am able to smile trough the worst pain, I am happy almost all the time and learned to love being sad anyway. How silly it is how my ego artificially creates a huge problem out of thin air, while 99% of people are stuck in way worse lifes, not knowing the truth, I create problems where there are none, instead of supporting others with my whole capacity for compassion. My advice, bring awareness to how your mind tries to trick you by making small problems your main focus and dramatizing them.

I have been meditating a ton in the past month. In the middle of the week I tend to meditate about 1-2 hours troughout the day and 2-3 hours in the evening. At weekends I meditate for 2-4 hours in the morning additionally. So it may happen that I meditate for about 7-8 hours a day on weekends. Apart from that I started reading books now for about 1-2 hours a day. Also fool around watching some youtube videos or tv series. Then I also do some workout and jogging occaisonally. Not much time for anything else with so much meditation. I am in a difficult phase at the moment, because I a pretty much in a withdrawl from porn and masturbation so the tons of meditation really keep me in a very good mood troughout the day.

I don't really like it because it causes this brain fog for me for like 1-2 days after where it is also harder to stay aware, but yes meditations are interestingly diffrent on weed.

@Serge Beauty is the highest expression of ourselves in physical form. Truth is the highest expression of ourselves in the form of the mind. Love is the highest expression of ourselves in form of feelings. Those are the things everyone is motivated by if you break it down, find your form or forms of expression.

@Serge It is pretty much all a matter of dopamine. Are you sure that there is nothing in your life that gives you high states, like porn for example? In general it could be any addiction which gives you those highes and automatically makes you dull about anything else in life.

@pluto Thank you, you are right. It is soo much work to do still, I have been meditating for 3-5 hours a day for the past 2 months and so much stuff happened, the growth is crazy but of course it brings those issues that were hidden to the surface at the same time.

Yes, that is true, although I still don't see the ego as bad or anything. It is just a neccessary part of this beautiful journey.

@Edvard You should read the book Cupid's Poisoned Arrow.

@Shin Thank you. That's some really good stuff, improved my mood by 200%, not that I didn't enjoy the "bad" mood I was in.

@Slade I think in general the main causes for depressions are traumas, addictions, sexual frustration and probably a hate towards our society, when you feel like you don't fit into this world. I think back when I was really depressed, I would rather want to avoid someone who is playful, because me being unable to laugh about things would make me even more sad. But knowing that you have a friend in someone is surely a positive thing, although if it is naturally an introvert it might be exhausting to be in contact. If you let that person tell you everthing that is on their mind, kind of cry out their problems with your help, it also is a good thing.

@Shin That is exactly what I am resisting. I don't want to have sex just because then I am able to find a girl. I resist the "truth" of how women are, because if it really is so, I would rather stay alone forever. I don't understand why women don't want true love at all, after all they are more emotional than most guys, apart from me though, why would they always fall for the guys who see them as a toy? I recommend the book cupids poisoned arrow. Sex with orgasm will drive you away from your partner, it is a backstep for true love.

@Spiral That is not the actual problem with that, it is my expectations in regards to contact to others. I don't have any female friends and don't just flirt around with random people. I expect the same, if a guy tries to flirt with her touch her I would expect her to defend herself. The thing is most of those girls that seem decent have very weak boundries in regards to such aggressive flirts, atleast that was my experience so far. When they talk to such guys more than with me because they provoke them "are playful" I totally lose interest.

@Spiral I know it's crazy but I wouldn't only if she is not like the others. But the expectation I have for looks is just about 7 or maybe even 6 if she really is a decent human being. The problem is really the expectation of "just you and me". Thank you for the response.

@egoless In my opinion mystical is not the quite the opposite to emperical in this case, believe would be a more fitting opposite here, but I think that even this doesen't perfectly fit, it is tricky to find the actual word that would describe it. Mysticism is just superior so you won't end up back at being impirical.

@Ilya Just research about Semen retention and how many inspiring personalities actually did that. Sexual energy is by far the strongest human energy, if you are able to transform it you will have the energy to achieve anything. You think you don't need to put energy and effort into enlightenment work? Then you are doing something wrong.

@egoless First of all a healthy diet helps. Iodine is very underrated I recommend to supplement about 100-200 µg a day. Drinking water with lemon juice is great also. If you are watching porn or masturbating alot that will be the main reason. Try cold showers, they energize you alot.

@kieranperez The issue lies in brain chemistry in my opinion. It is like with watching porn and masturbating you artificially release tons of dopamine and by that become numb to the small pleasures of life, people who are well off in this day and age will have some serious addictions like 98% of the time, if not even more. People who aren't well off simply don't have the possibilities to engage in many addictions.

You should try to dig into intuition, this is the place that is unfilitered by your mind and thoughts, this is where your authenticity comes from. Although it is not like you can just switch to using your intuition, it is a long and abstract process to develop this intuition. I am personally still not able to really logically grasp what the intuition is and what is merely a thought, it is more like a feeling of what's the right thing.

@Natalya The moment in my life where suddenly people couldn't trigger me anymore was after I started using Teal Swans Completion Process. Which means that most of the time when you react very sensitively it is due to past trauma. Real sensitivity is different, it is not getting triggered by things people say. Real sensitivity means to be very engaged in all of your surrounding and to be very emotional about those things, you can get very emotional without getting triggered.

I had this problem only when meditating with closed eyes, for some reason it is way easier with open eyes, so I would recommend trying that.

I would recommend to actually stop masturbation alltogether, sexual energy is the most powerful human energy, if you are able to channel it you will be making huge progress in all other areas of your life.

@Dodo If you still have unresolved issues around that area then obviously radiating love alone won't work, on the other hand it is probably more about the underlying thing, why do you really want the money, security? greed? The real issues lie here and the resolving of those issues might lead then to abundance in other ways, not neccessairy a million dollars, you are making it way too simplistic. You still didn't grasp that such things don't work in terms of simple material objects, it works in terms of frequency. You resolve your issues around the subject of abundance and so you recieve more and more abundance in whatever form, in order to match your frequency.

@Alexo45 I just had to do it once for any trauma I came across honestly. It was the most transformative tool in my life after meditation.

@Dodo This is a misunderstanding, the law of attraction works more on the base of your frequency. If you wish for something out of a lack of that thing your actual frequency is the frequency of lack, which then you obviously attract more of trough your continued striving for something you don't have. If you just show gratitude for something you have, or you just think of something without a lack or hidden lack of that, it will work perfectly. That is also why showing gratitude and love is the best thing you can do for yourself, because you will end up attracting more of it.

@Alexo45 It is a childs play to deal with this using Teal Swans Completion Process. If you want to keep it simple, just feel the pain of those memories as deeply as you can for that moment, watch the memories from the perspective of your old self and then next time switch to your actual self, stand by the side of your old self, help him to deal with the situation even if it means beating those guys up or even worse, basically changing the memory untill your old self is satisfied with the situation then ask him and imagine him going back into your body, like a puzzle piece being put back together again. To elaborate on what happens here, basically you could say it is a part of your soul that got stuck in this moment in time, you couldn't deal with the situation so you dissociated from it, it caused a tiny fragment of the soul to split up, with this process you are able to integrate this fragment back into your soul.