I dont remmder when or why but somewhere long the line I began being shy. Not worthy of respect or only would be recieving of it if it was deserved.
When i talked i would stumble my words or lose mu point. I wld see that whay i said did not matter!
I began to think my opionin does not matter or what i want does not matter. I did and do what i need to, to get by but i am not happy, pay checl to paycheck. I know it has everything do with lovelife and feeling worthless and all my relationships i get taken for a ride and end alone.
If / What kind of exersice is avail. to probe this thinking of worthleness - i am not worthless but i dont matter. And i dont care about that what really matter is freedom and exseptance, I know, understand and except that !
I treat ppl like guest and i am the host and i think they like it and want more and it becomes how much will i do till i wont anymore or i resent the ones indulgance in taking advantage !
-any ideas ?
Thank you and hello group, newbie here!
