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hmm yeah maybe I am a little over cautious with this whole stuff. I feel ready. In the end, Iife will be normal again even if I face god/infinity/death for some minutes

@Aaron p Nope, no heart problems at all. I am in top condition. And there was almost no mentally fear. Just a cold body fear and heart beating the whole trip. Like this: bubum bubum bubum bubum BUBUM BUBUM BUBUM BUBUM BUBUM BUBUM BUBUM BUBUM BUBUM BUBUM BUBUM BUBUM BUBUM BUBUM BUBUM BUBUM BUBUM BUBUM BUBUM BUBUM BUBUM BUBUM No insights. No visuals. @Leo Gura are there some methods against this? Kola Nut powder or breathing techniques before the session or is it really a normal side effect and you can nothing do about it? This heart beating came as I said not from the mind, I was not really in panic mentally.

Yes I had similar thoughts, here on actualized we are trained for this stuff no normal human could prepare for. Before I try 15 mg, I still want to know more about the strong heart beating effects. Why does this happen, is this part of a beginning ego death experience? Can I do something aginst this so that this does not happen again or do I need to accept strong rapid heart beats as part of the trip? It was not pleasant at all

@Aaron p HAHA legit insane is not something I want to experience, but that must be the sacrifice for experience absolute love. I am just happy that plugging worked again, this is a milestone for me! There is really a narrow degree between no effects and strong effects. Now I need to think about the dosage. 10 mg and heavy heart beating. What then can I expect from 15 mg... heart explosion, ego death and absolute insanity??

@karkaore Thanks for your report. Can you give us more details? How much did you took? How strong was it compared to oral ROA How did you plugged it? Just put this piece of paper in your finger and put it deep in your ass? How deep? How long was the trip (you said you falled asleep, maybe the trip went on) What do you mean it was smoother and clearer? Less visuals? Less trippy thoughts?

@Aaron p Ok thanks for your advice. But what about the heartbeating reaction for 2-3 minutes? Should I really jump to 15 mg in next session or should I try 10 mg again until this heart beating reaction stops? On big doses like 20+ mg I think the ego dies so quickly there will be heartbeating reaction just for some seconds. And what is when my ego still resists on 15 mg because the dose is not strong enough to kill it. Maybe a jump to 20 mg would make sense here to avoid these problems.

@Leo Gura I understand. On high dose there is no time for fighting and I get the experience. Eighter you are God or not. There is not much in between. But I have to sacrifice as you said. I dont want to be shocked and mindfucked for month. hope there is a way in between where I can be prepared for this breakthrough experience. This must be possible. Maybe aiming for a white out experience where I can hardly remember anything? @Serotoninluv You said on low doses you can get sub breakthroughs and very pleasant energies. Is there some value in it to go this slow baby step approach I am doing right now? Should I just jup to 20 mg or do 10 mg again many times until this heartbeating reaction stops and then move in baby steps upward?

Tested today again two times rectal, 2 hours were between these trips. Here is the first one: Set/Setting: in the evening, 5 hours no eating. Had a good shit before and in shower cleaned my ass. Took 7 mg hcl. During trip: After 5 minutes a litle tingeling maybe. Almost no effect. That was frustrating. Two hours later I tried again: Set/Setting: I had a little headache, maybe because it did not work before but I tried nevertheless. I took 10 mg hcl. During trip: After 5 minutes the effect came very fast. My heart was beating faster and faster, it felt like a panic attack. I could hear my heart beating very loud. This was uneasy, I did not know what comes next. My eyes were closed the whole time. A little fear arised, but this did not matched with the strong body reaction. I was not mentally really in panic but my body clearly was. For no reason. That was interesting. To go through this "panic attack" I concentrated on my breath and waited until the effects were gone. This was over after 3 minutes. During this time my thoughts were "I am not ready for this", "I dont want an ego death right now, because this is the point of no return", "I dont want to experience God or infinity, that is too much right now" Looking back on this: on the one hand I am happy that plugging works again. On the other hand, this was not pleasant at all. Am I doing something wrong? What should I do next? Should I do 10 mg again, I dont know... I just wanted to test 5 meo a little. I want this energy I had on 4 mg. This was so beautiful. Now on 10 mg I get a panic attack...

He is the Expert. He does not Do this to every body just to those who need it the most (addicts)

I have a syringe with 5 meo hcl mixed with 2 ml of water in my fridge since one week. For how many days can I store this? (I know it is not the best method to store 5 meo, just prepared one for plugging)

@Aaron p Great report, I envy you Sounds like these doses were not total overwhelming for you s that you dont freak out. I researched more about plugging. You really need to shit out everything directly before pluggig otherwise the fecal will absorb this substance What is in your fridge???

@Consept LOL never thought about that

Maybe I really need to empty my bowl. Not just shit before, I need to cleanse this

Tested again rectal, this time 11 mg hcl. Set/Setting: in the afternoon, 5 hours no eating. in lying position. My mood is not so good. But again, I tried. During trip: very subtle little energy after 5 minutes,. This time I would say there were almost no effect at all. Next time I will try 15 mg for sure.

@Aaron p I always shit before. lol how can I catapult into a heavy breakthrough if nothing happens. I plugged already 6 times and just one worked. I need to raise up the dose and I do this in baby steps ( + 1-3 mg)

Tested again rectal, this time 13 mg hcl. Set/Setting: in the morning, no breakfast. in sitting meditation position. I am not in good mood but tried anyway. During trip: a little energy after 5 minutes, nothing more than I would get from normal meditation. This was total weak.. One time plugging with 4 mg worked perfectly. So how can it be that this 3 times bigger dose than the one which worked, is so weak. Is mood a real big factor?

I was this time lying in surrender pose on the floor. Last time with 4 mg I was sitting. Maybe sitting with crossed legs like I do on kriya yoga is more powerful. Any other options on this? I know Matin ball said lying on the floor is best. But maybe this is not right for everyone.

@Aaron p I plug it every time same deep, at 6 mm mark of my syringe Do you want to do it rectal hcl?

Tested again rectal, this time 10 mg hcl. Set/Setting: in the night. I was in bad mood before. Ate heavy food on this day, but did not eat for 5 hours before the trip, a little headache. Laying on floor in darkness, eyes closed and waited for the effects to come in. During trip: a little energy after 5 minutes, I could raise this a little with positive affirmations and deep breathings. After 20 minutes there were no effects anymore. Overall this trip was like a good meditation session. I was not afraid at all and nothing special happend. Leo was right, 10 mg hcl rectal is nothing profound. This trip was much weaker than my 4 mg treshold dose. Explanation: mood is important, maybe also no heavy food on this day, 5 hours no food is not enough maybe

@Koeke You can try it now on low dose. No experience needed.

@Dutch guy Can you tell which ROA did you use? Plugging? Thanks for your report. Interesting to see what this stuff can do. By the way I got a strange taste in my mouth at the end of the trip

@Leo GuraArsen_se already wrote in this topic that Octavio behaves differently depending on which level you are. If you are an addict, he will kick your Ass. If you are a mojo satsang hippie he will hug you. I can show you videos where he is total nice and soft to the people. But these are no addicts, you can see that in their face.

@Leo Gura 15 mg is a breakthrough dose. That means I will experience the Truth. That is a little too much right now. Will have little glimpses of Truth here and there, enough to integrate it. Your ex gf, how did she approach this stuff?

@Leo Gura Yes but you are not an red addict. These people think complete differently. So they must be treated differently. Silence is far far out there for them. A red heroin addict cannot meditate for 10 seconds. Octavio knows his business. I appreciate his unique style

@Aaron p I see you are in for a breakthroug. Nice! Ok 30 mg are too much for plugging with no effects. Maybe I will switch to vaping if I go higher doses. I can see the advantages for breakthroughs, If it is so short, at least you have almost no time to freak out.