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Focusing on what you don’t want, don’t feel like, is like vacuuming the floor without the vacuum being plugged in. You can do that, but nothing becomes of it. What do you feel like / want? Motivation is about the avoidance of what you don’t want, while inspiration is the alignment of focusing on what you do want. What do you have in mind as good stuff? Specifics help, as that usage of good means good to you / what you want or prefer. Since you are yourself, what is meant by ‘pushing yourself’? That consideration might lead to the alignment of inspiration.

Love is the absence of the person.

@inFlow You aren’t in thoughts, and can not be ‘stuck in thoughts’. You’re appearing as ‘them’. The belief in understanding, that there is some thing (not you) to understand keeps the thought wheels turning (rumination).

@inFlow ‘How’ is a thought. An appearance. Like trees, clouds, etc. The ‘answer’ is you. Other misc thoughts that are also just apparent thoughts, which resolve with you… God… reality… start… etc. You’re the ‘how’ (there isn’t a ‘how’). You’re that amazing.

Try to catch / notice those ‘my ego mind’ thoughts, noticing that is thought / those are thoughts (and not this other thing ‘my ego’ which is doing the thinking). Awareness is directly aware of thought. No actuality of a middle man ‘doing the thinking’. Likewise, each of those are actually a thought, and I mean that in the sense or color of relief and hope it’s received that way. There’s not really a ‘zen devil’ which could be accredited with anything, and there isn’t a ‘state of consciousness’ that ‘you have’. It sounds like the breakthrough was delightfully without this self referential thought story, and now the thoughts, which weren’t really inspected, are again arising & repeating. A my ego doesn’t return or come back, as there wasn’t a my ego in the first place. It’s one thought appearing at a time. Look to see the one thought at a time, vs going into the content or story of thoughts. It’s likely because you sound (to most people I presume) like someone who is fully immersed in a cult. Not that I’m saying or believe you actually are, but I think it likely sounds like it to the people you are trying to forge relationships with. I hope that isn’t taken personally / offensively, as the intention is to offer you an honest observation & perspective as to what might not be ‘clicking’ in your life / relationships. These terms you use are microcosmic connotations that no one really relates to, and I for one desire more of you just as you are, not you with the thinking & reality views of another through you. Does it feel good to you to believing these things? How does that jive or not with people in conversations? What does feel good to you? (Proceed with that) As someone reading the thoughts you’re sharing who is not experiencing them, it sounds like you are telling the precise opposite story of you & your life… than what you actually desire to experience. It’s ok to know and feel with absolute certainty that this love & joy is your true nature and arising ‘in’ / as, you… and experience this love & joy that is our infinite being with others. Balance, equanimity… bring that pendulum back some. Spirituality ‘should’ imo enhance your life / experience in every way. If you want to ostracize yourself into a cave of sort, you’re heading in the right direction. If that isn’t what you desire, be very honest with yourself about what you want at this point in your life. Have a look at Maslow’s pyramid and look for more general basic components of building the life, like financial freedom, relationship building, etc. Google / research from there into specifics. If it’s hard to sit still look to express how you are feeling and ‘get it out’. Expressive writing, talking with someone, and any creative activities are most effective. Overall, I would drop conceptual spirituality all together, make a dreamboard, and consciously create & experience the life you truly desire to. Not what you may have come to think is the best or ideal, but much more so what you actually & naturally unabashedly want & desire.

@SamC Check it out. it’s pretty good.

@Matt23 I mean just like counting how many calories one eats in a day is very eye opening & clarifying… logging, or writing down how each hour is spent is too. Like if the question is ‘how do I most effectively manage my time’, the answer that arises imo is to look with some scrutiny at how the time is already being spent. I think this tends to tell you everything you want to know in regard to any changes you want to make.

@Arcangelo lol I wasn’t recommending it.

@Godishere Ya I don’t get it either. Here apparently I seem cryptic, in rl I’m basically Will F. in that clip above.

@EmptyVase Hell of a Jesus spotting there sir. And thanks, but the 4g’s of shrooms probably had some influence. Not that I recommend taking shrooms and mini biking through the woods as that would be a very dumb & irresponsible thing to do out of the vortex. Also noticed… there’s absolutely no time to look behind. No point in it either.

@SamC Seen 9 Perfect Strangers yet? On Hulu I think.

Time is like calories. Ample clarity arises of the accounting.

Gotta do what you want for you so to speak. It’s not like there’s a limited source of creating, or a limited number of insights. Sometimes we get thinkin that way though, as if there’s limited x, y or z. It’s really the you factor that matters. Nothing is said in any videos which wasn’t already said by countless teachers / speakers already. It’s really the experience of it for you, and from you, which is the sweetness.

Make a dreamboard.

@Gianna Oneness is not quite the same as not-two, or nonduality. And yet it’s also the same. It’s (possibly) spiritual ego, or, a new identity based on experience as compared to the previous identity based on bodymind & thoughts (past, etc). And also it’s not. Sometimes too it’s just spiritual shorthand or laymen’s terms. And yet also it’s not. And then there’s believing you’re God.

@free123 Brother, do yourself a favor and drop all of those sources of influence. They are steering you very wrong. I wish you the absolute best.

It’s not hard to swallow, these are theories one lets go of in meditation. The “others are exceptional, talented, gifted, etc” theory is likewise false & misleading (just thoughts).

@levani What was previously believed to be “a body “ is infinite intelligence (actual wisdom). You could say this is fully realized when you let go of the ‘inner bodies’ to the most subtle (love-bliss).

It’s a false notion. Stop doubting yourself. Paradox is when two seemingly conflicting things are actually true. You actually got it. Again, stop doubting yourself. You’re on fire brother. Gotta stop doubting your own insights.

Values just a thought, like nonexistence.

I understand, really. Find it though. Get literal. Point to it. What if… you’re wrong? Not you’re wrong per se, but you got something wrong. What if, you actually love craving?

@SQAAD Point to where this good feeling is coming from. Not the stuff… the feeling itself. Point to it.

@roopepa ?? “spirituality”. A lot like “science”. If you’ve yet to… dreamboard. This place is magic af.

How profound? Profound enough that there isn’t anyone looking for or experiencing truth?

I’d look more into realestate if you’re interested, leaving preconceived notions behind. Borrowing money to invest in the market is not only not a mathematically viable idea, regulation actuality prohibits brokers from doing it for you. (Reference is to credit, not all loans). I mentioned before that you didn’t really know what you want. You are now more knowing what you want. It’s money. You are yet to connect the dots on doing what you love, making content, and how to hook people in to ‘establish & grow your base’. No one who has done so is being honest with you in how they did it, and you’re too honest & innocent to notice or realize this. You gotta learn to relax the bodymind so you keep probing without tensing, rather than ‘throwing your hands up’ so to speak. <- that is how you’re ending up going down these whacky desperate idea roads (investing credit). When you have more questions, unanswered concerns in your strategizing… keep asking questions! Don’t stop until you’re crystal clear and understand everything on your mind, every arising question.