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You'll be happy to hear that science is studying drugs openly, on the internet and publishing results. Specifically, psilocybin is being used to treat depression and anxiety, with better and faster success than pharma pills. But maybe your not talking about naturally occurring substances like shrooms. Perhaps you're talking about synthetically made 'drugs'?

Can you elaborate?

Not trying to be a baby sitter or party pooper but what you ultimately want is to feel amazing all the time. The short term effect of LSD is such. But the long term of LSD CAN be quite the opposite. http://www.lsdaddiction.us/content/does-lsd-cause-brain-damage.html

Both you and the music are vibrational. The experience you have is the experience of the frequency they create. Classical composers who were into meditation talked about this. If you want to connect to the source, listen to beautiful vocals that bring you to tears. If you want energy to get something done, listen to Rage Against the Machine or the like. Use all energy to your benefit. Don't judge or be stubborn.

I have watched all of your videos already. Been a huge fan for the duration, always will be. Thank you for all your focus. What is God Leo?

Did you see that you are everything?

Thrive like a Mo Fo bro!!!!!! You CAN have everything. It's always up to you.

That is what I'm doing. Not trying to be critical....but that's what I'm doing, minus the part about not focusing on the fear. Not focusing on something is focusing on it. There is only love, compassion and evidence.

@Oneness We both have 24 hours in a day. We each perceive time differently.

Wireless earbuds.

What is the "shit" that is coming up?

Hi and welcome! You posted in the right forum. I find this group to be open and honest, which makes for fun and growth. We're all getting what we're giving. When you say lonely, is it somewhat like you can see the causations that others can not? I think I can relate. I went through a period when I started following my daily rituals. Sometimes, when my friends communicated a negative outlook, I found that they seem to think it was a more accurate view of reality. I used to say things like - you just need some exercise, you should try meditation. I thought if they did what I was doing, they would see that it was their outlook or perspective that was ailing them and holding them back, not "reality" or circumstances. I found that there is a safeguard of sorts, for experience. I started to realize how this served me. It helped me realize just how easily I would shift from my vision, my knowing, to understanding where they were at, where they were coming from. I gained a lot of clarity about the power of keeping my own focus on what I know and what I am. Ironically, nonhelp, nonsuggestion- left them with a realization (in their witnessing of my noncodependent thinking) that what ailed them was their perspective. Suddenly, everyone I know started doing personal development to different extents.

I left the "work" for itself to be, I allowed my Self to set me free, never once did I repeat, the cycle of doubt, the strife or need. In the "work" I began to see, the plight was created by only me, So now I flourish without exception, pure in thought, this nonrejection, 'twas only perspective that was in question, And now my present is my conception.

@JustASimpleBuggler The path isn't the circumstances, it's the thoughts your choosing. If you focus or think from a place of fear, or about what you are afraid of, you may be going about it wrong. You may be laying resistant thought to what you want that you will have to let go of. To the extent I keep my focus on what I want, I reach it.

@JustASimpleBuggler That gives me a vibe (intuition probably) that you're on the cusp of a big realization. Game changer. ...............

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@renegade_bee Don't think about suicide man. You gotta have the logic to know that you're only 18 and everything will change. When I was 20 I had severe manic depression. Dr's and pills never helped me, unfortunately. That all changed by age 22 and my life has just Gotten better and better ever since. I was where you are man. Please hear me - you are just getting started in this life. You don't know what the rest will look like. Just hang in there and keep trying things. I garuntee if you keep going and keep trying, you absolutely will find the cure for your UTI. You will. It could be only a month away. The right Dr often makes all the difference. If YOU DON'T GIVE UP, YOU WILL SEE THAT THE REST OF YOUR LIFE WILL BE THE SWEET LIFE OF SOMEONE WHO SURPASSES EVERYONE'S WILDEST DREAMS BECAUSE WHEN OTHERS GAVE UP, YOU DIDN'T. DON'T GIVE UP.

@aclokay Well, what are you?

You are finding what you are looking for. Look for what you want. Have you written a list of what you want to taped it to the wall? Have you listened to any positive speakers on YouTube? I think I was where you are now. It sounds like you are 'in your head'. Writing things on paper gets them out of your head and into your life.

If you had what you wanted, which seems to be that everyone understands you, then what? What is that going to do for you?

Knowledge nuke right there. BOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!!

sounds like you had a sizable breakthrough. Keep going. Keep choosing your thoughts, not someone else's. If you want those relationships, then stop talking so damn much. Nobody is listening to you anyways. Ask someone a questions, listen intently, repeat. This forum is the place for your path talk, not the sheeple. There is no such thing as remaining positive when your life is crumbling around you. You are on the path for sure, but not very far. Perhaps you are young, that's your fault. You are buying into the illusion. If you were honestly remaining positive, your life would not be crumbling around you. Remaining positive is not some fucking card trick. You are creating your reality. Give me an example of what is crumbling in your life, and I'll show you where you stand to improve your perspective.

Wife and kids is awesome. It's your perspective that ails you. So how to change your perspective? It came from the influences around you most likely (people, movies, internet, books) Realize you picked those influences, so your are empowered to pick new ones. Out with the old negative stuff influencing you, and add the new positive stuff. Do you even Abe, brah?

He's right. I went through this. Everyone who wakes up and gets living goes through this. Think about this, if there was one delicious brownie left on earth, and you are the lucky sob who gets to eat it, and that first bite is mind blowing, just heavenly. But you, you piss it all away by being bummed that everyone you know isn't experienceing the deliciousness of the brownie. YOU'RE THE ONE WHO GOT THE BROWNIE! @ajasatya He's so right. Be an example. If you really let go of trying to change someone - I mean REALLY just forget it, let it go, and be the example simply by putting your happiness first - you will see, like magic, people will come along. It just takes time. Trying to change someone is like telling them how great you feel while they have a cold. Your message may be so clear, but it is even more unheard.

Sounds to me like you're on the path you want to be on. Good for you man. My tip - don't focus on quitting anything, focus on starting what you want. It's like....don't think of a pink elephant. See, you're only thinking of that pink elephant right now. Thinking about what you don't want brings more of it because you're thinking about it. Think about what you want. It also helps to take what you want out of the superposition that is your mind and making it real in the physical world but writing it down, drawing it, whatever. A vision board would serve you well, possibly.