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Have you tried a sad light? I experienced exactly what your're describing, but not at all since I started using the light years ago.

Mastering anything couples well with deeper meditation as both become "flow" or what athletes call 'in the zone'. I suggest learning guitar or piano and singing. When you play and sing, you flow. You experience doing it without 'doing' anything.

Just a suggestion from what I like, but try this for a while and see if it serves to increase the mindfulness of your breathe during meditation- http://m.wikihow.com/Sing-Using-Your-Diaphragm My meditations are served by this practice as it increased the acuity of my awareness of my breathing.

When you feel the 'loneliness' think about how you are taking the path less travelled. You're on an adventure. You're going to find what others will never know. You're liberating yourself. If you're so inclined, you can use these things you will obtain in your adventure to help others. You're living!

Imagine you're watching a movie, and a man is at home with his wife and kids, cracking dad jokes, telling them to have a good day. Then he goes to his job at where the fuck ever and tells his boss he's going to get that big client account closed today. Then on the way home someone cut's him off and so he gives them the finger. Then he gets home and tells his wife it was a long day, and she gives him a hug, etc. Then later, that night, that guy sits straight up in bed out of a deep sleep and realizes he's an actor, in a movie. Upon realizing this, he is free.

If anyone has personally witnessed God, that would be at the very top of my list of things I would love to hear about. I've only experienced that I am everything because I am nothing. I'm hoping hearing from someone who has witnessed God might give me an idea on how to "break through" to that. I currently don't even have a contemplation of God.

I think that is your best source of self discovery. If I want to discover the nutrients of a banana, I'm going to need a banana. Everything else is just believing what someone else says is true.

Literally everything you're experiencing is the best source of self discovery. Learning from others, masters like Leo, all the gurus, all the speakers, that's great too, but the best source to discover anything, is the thing itself you desire to discover.

Now, let them go. It's an exercise in realizing you think of yourself as those things or those "roles". Realizing and letting them go helps you liberate, so you can know that you already are anything you want, because you are free.

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I am grateful for the gift of ungrateful people.

Anger is like holding a hot coal in your hand and expecting someone else to feel the pain. Forgiveness is dropping the coal.

It's entirely possible that you aren't bullshitting. Perhaps you don't think in terms of roles to begin with. You probably think about the action someone does and you don't characterize them as that action. Like someone helped someone or hurt someone, vs, that person is a bad or good person.

You'll be happy to hear that science is studying drugs openly, on the internet and publishing results. Specifically, psilocybin is being used to treat depression and anxiety, with better and faster success than pharma pills. But maybe your not talking about naturally occurring substances like shrooms. Perhaps you're talking about synthetically made 'drugs'?

Can you elaborate?

Not trying to be a baby sitter or party pooper but what you ultimately want is to feel amazing all the time. The short term effect of LSD is such. But the long term of LSD CAN be quite the opposite. http://www.lsdaddiction.us/content/does-lsd-cause-brain-damage.html

Both you and the music are vibrational. The experience you have is the experience of the frequency they create. Classical composers who were into meditation talked about this. If you want to connect to the source, listen to beautiful vocals that bring you to tears. If you want energy to get something done, listen to Rage Against the Machine or the like. Use all energy to your benefit. Don't judge or be stubborn.

I have watched all of your videos already. Been a huge fan for the duration, always will be. Thank you for all your focus. What is God Leo?

Did you see that you are everything?

Thrive like a Mo Fo bro!!!!!! You CAN have everything. It's always up to you.

That is what I'm doing. Not trying to be critical....but that's what I'm doing, minus the part about not focusing on the fear. Not focusing on something is focusing on it. There is only love, compassion and evidence.

@Oneness We both have 24 hours in a day. We each perceive time differently.

Wireless earbuds.

What is the "shit" that is coming up?

Hi and welcome! You posted in the right forum. I find this group to be open and honest, which makes for fun and growth. We're all getting what we're giving. When you say lonely, is it somewhat like you can see the causations that others can not? I think I can relate. I went through a period when I started following my daily rituals. Sometimes, when my friends communicated a negative outlook, I found that they seem to think it was a more accurate view of reality. I used to say things like - you just need some exercise, you should try meditation. I thought if they did what I was doing, they would see that it was their outlook or perspective that was ailing them and holding them back, not "reality" or circumstances. I found that there is a safeguard of sorts, for experience. I started to realize how this served me. It helped me realize just how easily I would shift from my vision, my knowing, to understanding where they were at, where they were coming from. I gained a lot of clarity about the power of keeping my own focus on what I know and what I am. Ironically, nonhelp, nonsuggestion- left them with a realization (in their witnessing of my noncodependent thinking) that what ailed them was their perspective. Suddenly, everyone I know started doing personal development to different extents.