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@Russell Parr I do respect your position on meditation. Initially, it does seem that logic and thought are products of the brain.

@Jordan wang I work in a field of agents who are all independent sales contractors and you'll be happy to know that extroverts are successful, and some introverts even more so. Being social and having a solid network is a key to success, for sure. Hiring people who are social and have networks is better by the multiple of the number of people you hire. You're a thinker, strategist. You want to know how things work. How people work. How matter works. You're not a Superman out there in the streets and on the news. Your Batman, running smart, covert, a preparer - behind the scenes-. Am I right? Continue your PD. Invest in a franchise, or work your way up through management at any company. Use your PD to help your employee's. Be the boss you want to have. I bet that's been in you for a long time and you know what I'm talking about. Insurance, Real Estate, fast food, factories, corporations, it doesn't matter where. It's all about people and you're going to learn a lot about yourself while you really help a lot of people. Also, friends wise...you are the universe, so is everyone else. See the God in everyone. Feel God looking through your eyes. The universe and everyone are your friends. After college, in terms of business and networking, Facebook is good enough. Business needs take huge precedence over friend circles and social statuses. That shit literally disappears. You will need to buy something at your company, and someone else needs to sell it. No worries. When you can sit with someone you don't know for a lunch hour and genuinely be fascinated by them, you will be someone that people will line up to work for. Not because your social or extroverted, but because you learned how to see. And effort will have nothing to do with it.

@CuteYTDawg Good for you! What dreams may come.

The good news is, there's something you want and you want it badly. The better news is you already know what you want. The hard news is, it's time to start making healthier choices and listening to positive and motivational things daily. Hourly if possible. Speaking only from my personal experience...be thankful for the desire in you. Most people only dream of it. Stop trying to extinguish it, you can't. You came here with it. For it. So do it.

Self love enables mastery. DJing though, no mastery. Learn an instrument if you want to master your focus, which then enables you to master anything you focus on.

@CuteYTDawg My intention is that this helps you like it helped me...... What is trust, really? It's just a prediction or guess on if someone will do something desirable or not desirable on your behalf. Right? Looking at it that way freed me.

@MiracleMan I have experienced a similar, but not as rough past. I hope you take this positively, but it actually sounds to me like you're doing very well (in the big picture). There is equall and opposite effect in all of the cosmos. You are not an exception. The fire within you, combined with that you obviously do many things about it, will culminate into an equal and opposite joy of living that very very few people will ever get to experience. The key, obviously, is to hold the fuck on and keep going. You will come out of this. You will know things that know one else knows. What was your isolation and pain, WILL one day be your stratospheric unique joy. Just keep learning, looking, etc. If it helps.... the monkey mind is 100% only a repetition of previous thoughts. My advice is to listen to the most positive things you can. Abe Hicks comes to mind. Listen to it as many hours in a day as possible. Order a few micro wireless earbuds and plug one in your ear all day. Over time, your monkey mind will be repeating that positive content. And then, if you choose, it will be much easier to be without the monkey mind all together. Best of luck to you my friend. It is rough. I know.

@WaveInTheOcean That's so awesome. Thank you. To me the universe seems perfect as I assume I chose this as it is. It seems some people disagree, which I could not exist without.

Sounds like you're holding anger for something that someone did. Then eating poorly which prevents you from having the clarity to see that you are the one hurt by holding the anger. Not that it's easy to let go of, but in the end, all else is procrastination.

@Socrates I don't see why the universe would be imperfect if I helped someone. Still seems perfect to me.

@Epiphany_Inspired what's the dad like?

I love your post, and I'm just asking out of curiousity given your stance on thinking / logic and enlightenment....has your practice of meditation expanded to nonthinking? Thanks

@harisankartj Each of us are our own reality and what we see in between is projection and perception. Your dreams are your reality minus the consciousness co-projected into space time by other people.

@Visionary I used to have anxiety and manic depression, at least that was what some ignorant doctors diagnosed. Then I went vegan & started excercising, lost 50 pounds, gained tremendous energy and clarity and realized - I'm actually 100% made out of what I eat, and so is the quality of my thoughts. No problems anymore. I have no idea why I didn't see the obviousness of this before. Favorite shake....raw meal w greens protein mix, ice, chocolate milk, banana & peanut butter. In Japan, citizens are required to have a physical annually. If a males waist is over 35", female 31", they receive nutritional counseling. America's obesity rate, 60%...Japan, 3%. If only we all ate what we want to eat. But, then I suppose the competitive factor would be off the charts.

@Socrates relative to what?

@Epiphany_Inspired. it might be easier to let go of your past and then decide if moving is the right direction.

the universe is perfect

On a good note, if things are so boring and purposeless for you now, that reveals you have much enlightenment to look forward to.

@Scholar because that's how we made it

@Socrates To me it seems perfect as it is. There are such larger forces at work. The world has been in motion for a long time. When I see imperfections, I have seperated myself with that very judgement, and disconnected. When I see that all is perfect, and allow myself to change if needed, to accept things, I am reconnected. God is everything. The worst thing you can think of, God is also that. The infinite intelligence that is the substance underlying all atoms, is also God. It is so unconditional that when people build gas chambers with it, it still says nothing. Who am I to hold a focus of imperfection on all that is?

@Socrates something perfect can't be improved.

@Socrates yes, literally, theoretically, that is what it means.

The world is perfect as is.

With this topic, you are focusing on something and asking for advice on how to not focus on it. Simply focus on something else.