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A hot witch’s fingers.

@Matt23 One not suppressing feeling & intuition naturally see’s this. Instead of feeling, narcissism is a looking to the black and white of thought, to maintain the overly inflated self image or ‘separate self’, or, to uphold the ‘knower’. Thus this thought attachment, or, ‘living in the black & white of thought’ veils the only-grey of intuition. There is the knowing of thoughts, in the ‘I know, I’m right’ manor, and in the relinquishment of this attachment to thought, there is knowingness, or knowing, void of black & white, yet with no thing actually known at all. The relevance of this is essentially listening to feeling, when experiencing information, and ‘listening to’ intuition, and not overriding it suppression / thought attachment, as not to be manipulated. The reason feeling & intuition ‘works’ or is curative, is because while narcissism might sound ‘big’ or complicated perhaps, it’s really just a utilization of intellectualism / conceptualism as a coping mechanism for fear. The ‘self image’ is the idea of a me exacerbated to compensate for the fear (self referential beliefs). It’s also easy to spot in that in this upholding of a self image, narcissism dictates there can be no intimate relationships, because that opens the door to accountability for behaviors, which would surely & quickly lead to addressing the fear. I believe that is referred to a ‘pure narcissism’, while ‘regular’ narcism dictates relationships are allowable, yet narcissism only attracts significant others of the vibration of unworthiness, which is the underlying vibration / beliefs of ‘the narcissist’. (Because ‘a narcissist’ is so attached to thought, it is actually believed the self image is them / everyone else is thus below them / not even close to their inflated self image). The self image would be that of a self proclaimed master, if you will, while the actuality is mastering coping utilizing the capacity of the intellect. Hence, again, feeling is curative. Thread wise, the easiest way to spot this is the hypocrisy, self righteousness, and denial of accountability (in narcissism these are only conceptual and have no ramifications on anyone). And thus, another easy way to spot is the utilization of love to manipulate people… as the conceptualization of themself (self image) is the fear, and relentless attempt of intellect to resolve this / be loved vs be loving.

@Meditationdude ? Then you probably know from direct experience that isn’t actual, me lifting 1050lbs. I could be lying, I could not be lying and believing I did, I could quite innocently be misunderstanding or misinterpreting weights, but you know at 150lbs, I can not lift 1050lbs. You might even see that if I presented myself so to speak, in certain ways, I could convince some people that I did, and that convincing people might be innocent in the sense I 100% believe it, but it sure as hell isn’t actual. Maybe I had a certain experience & reaction to steroids which led me to believe such a thing.

@Godishere ?? ♥️

@Godishere It’s a sort of tricky thing to even mention or not because it could be taken as insulting, but I’m leaning with love and not thoughts when I say, if you’re mind is goin to the terror, horror, Mahasamadhi ‘place’, I just want you to hear and know that I’m a dial away. If you want to chat just say the word. I’m no answer or solution, just a friend (I hope ?).

@Meditationdude I worked out this morning and bench pressed (1050lbs), which is 7 times my body weight (150lbs).

@Muhammad Jawad When one brings one’s concepts, expectations, conjectures & conditions to the inconceivable unconditional, one very much feels the resistance of the holding onto of one’s concepts, expectations, conjectures and conditions. If thoughts arise in the light this is meant sarcastically, keep letting those thoughts freely come & go. If you are not laughing & ‘finding’ (feeling) the relief, keep letting said thoughts come & go, in respect & humility of thought attachment. There is no such thing as a bad trip. Experientially, there is pride, arrogance, delusion, a finite mind, ego, and the suffering of not listening (feeling). Relinquish your own conditioning (beliefs) like states of consciousness. Trip smart and safely, but for the experience, not for a unicorn. What’s being so sorely missed is the seeking of the ego death experience is the resistance felt in / as the very experience, or, put another way, only the ego speaks of ego death experience. It is readily seen in no longer repeating it. Another consideration… there is no source of ‘how not to’. Have respect for thought attachment & the ‘misery loves company’ aspect of it. Stop underestimating.

Go back my man, way way back, zoom way out. You’ve been believing these concepts for so long you forget they are concepts you heard of, learned, and there is no correlating actuality. Give acknowledgement to the discord felt, and not to the conjecture-conditioning. Don’t add (Mahasamadhi) to the beliefs & concepts cluster, let belief & concepts go altogether, let the habit of conceptualizing go altogether. Again, the ‘key’ if you will, is none of this came from you so to speak. You’re sweating discordant beliefs that didn’t even originate from you, and it still hasn’t been understood in the ‘normal sense’ of understanding, what conjecture is and how it works. I feel for ya, and while I hope none of this sounds disrespectful or belittling, I for one am making light of it. ?Schedule a ‘relinquishment of horseshit’ retreat. Reconnect through feeling. Law of attraction is all encompassing, or, biggest picture possible. Vibration, not just thoughts. It’s not more complex, it’s more simple. Simpler than thinking. Even if someone did precisely what you say, the money would never make it to you completely because it isn’t a vibrational match, and you are indeed the creator of your reality. Let the Nahm aspect / factor go (that’s projection of what’s emptying which is preventative of it fully releasing.) Write it on the board, and relinquish any doubts as they arise (by understanding the emotions you experience) and you will indeed, unequivocally, have a million dollars. Notice there’s more than one way of ‘hearing’ phrases like these: “A million dollars is nothing”. “You are nothing”. Do the emotional educating, it is literally worth millions of dollars.

Love that. Schedule a retreat!

There is a discordant perspective in regard to ambition. What does ambition mean to you? What comes up (any worries, memories, relationship(s)) when you think of it?

This is ‘playing around with psychedelics’, not ‘playing around with infinity’. The mind can not be where it has not yet been.

They’re neither stories nor lies, they’re parables (wisdom).

Passion is an emotion, and not a property or description of a person or people, in any identity manor. Infinite mind appears as the thoughts; ‘finite bodymind’, similarly, “line”. This is why there is an exception to every generalization and or statistic, and why ‘bad’ is judgement, and not a property of anything which seems to be judged.

Attempting to make a your life exciting is just another routine. Make a dreamboard (imo), see for yourself that reality be’s what you write. Enjoy the intoxication of conscious creation. Do the bejesus out of doing.

@Spideymon77 I’m so happy for you right now there isn’t even an us. Congrats and God bless.

Ya. I just look at my phone. The magic is ever-present, ‘even’ now. Only now. The magic is now. Magic = “now”. What’s keeping you in this anti-Groundhog’s-Day-loop is your vision, or, where you see yourself in the future. That you could be in a future is as much of an abstraction as the believing there are more days than today. When you identify with a my vision, and believe you could be in a future, and believe that better feeling could be in that future, many, many justifications ensue to uphold these beliefs. The justifications are that you could change your perception, that there is a subconscious, that there are levels, that a you struggles, that there is a higher or highest self, that a my vision and a my higher self could be tapped into, and that ultimately you could take on a new identity to resolve this discord in feeling. But the goodness of feeling is present, and is what’s felt, when you experience those beliefs (shenanigans). By shenanigans, I mean believing all this stuff, and then trying to act as if you’re already presently living the vision which is in the future. No one would or could be sure how that would work honestly, because it’s nonsensical. But the big justification-bamboozlement, is that some spiritual or metaphysical personal development (?) and understanding of spiral dynamics is needed - for you to know & feel this magic. I do empathize with your present situation, but the magic is covered by discordant perspectives believed, and indeed this all seems like Mugglesville with the veiling of abstractions & justifications, like ‘social construct’. A belief is just a belief, and this is known by how it feels. But only now, and there is only ever, now.

It’s not about time, and it certainly isn’t about you. Garbage in, garbage out. Notice meditation seems to make you feel better, only because it’s a break from the garbage perspectives. If those perspectives were indicative of you, that is, if you were ‘garbage’… they’d resonate. To keep said perspectives, you’ll need an array of substances to suppress the natural response of the true nature.

@Ilan No worries at all my friend. That was more of a general comment than anything specific to you.

I’d share anyways and let the ‘downside’ go, but I’d approach this as always secondary to your health & well being.

Shit’s getting rather inspirational round here.

Experientially, it’s communion, guidance. It’s how what you’re thinkin, feels, to You.

No. Hell no. ?

Perfectly astute. ?? With the exception of ‘deal with’. I would say, ‘blessed with the joy of consciously creating’. The point is the expression, and any medium or means will do. Alone one could write, sculpt, sing, carve, paint, etc, etc. Creative expression is the key to direct experience… direct experience is the key to creative expression. Cookies & milk, milk & cookies. Creator-Creating-Creation. The deepest of the deep, is this direct experience of expression in communion. There is ‘the experience of no experience’, or, Me, without Me appearing. It’s nothing and it’s mystically wonderfully ineffable. And yet, seemingly against all logic & paradox perhaps, the real depth brought to life, manifest - actual realization - begins in communion. This could be a lasting or even momentary relationship (communion) with anyone; friend, lover, sibling, parent, son or daughter, therapist, stranger, guru, the kid in the drive thu window, or your grandma. Communion, in the way I’m using the word, is differentiated from ‘relationship’ in that the triggers, reactions, assumptions, deflections and projections have all been let go, the emotions have all been understood, and there is ‘two in the real’ now, without the veils. By looking under the label of falling out, and thus falling in. To be alive is to be emoting and sharing. Without purpose, need, value, expectation or any point. It’s not even a doing, but thought makes it seem so.

@Zeroguy We’re not exceptional either. Ours is not a caravan of despair. That’s what changes. Start with something small, less significant, within your belief system or open mindedness. Experience will naturally expand from there. Already is. God is here. See for yourself.

@pushon Sounds like he’s saying the ‘you’ of thoughts (“inside”) isn’t you at all as these thoughts are actually, literally nothing. Shifting attention from thought to perception, no longer focusing on / believing the thoughts about a you, what seemed to be perception or the perceived (seemed to be from believing thoughts), is actually you.