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@Angelite I hear ya and I love ya, and you know where to find me, if you find me useful. ??♥️

@crab12 Well said man.

See what that actually is. Don’t settle for the simple pleasures of ‘being right’. It’s dualistically fleeting and hollow. We both know this. You can work through that loss btw, this is your life. Up to you.

Out & about, the mind is busy seemingly so by the ongoings, the atmosphere, the environment, by other people. Though in truth, what is busy, is thinking, overthinking, which simply has not yet been let go. The root of which has not yet been understood, nor recognized. Repetition of thought patterns, blinded in the attempt of seeking refuge, resolve, in more thinking. A hollow thought, the very best of all of them - can never feel - and thus will never do, will never be enough, will never satisfy. Thinking is not what you’re looking for - and ‘what you are seeking, is seeking you’.Let go. Let go. Let go. Like clouds which appear to veil your being - you are searching in thoughts for the right cloud, a new way around them, attempting again & again to forge a path in-between, above or below. Anywhere, anyhow, but feelings, any-which way but inward, anything but allowing the truth of feeling. You is what parts the clouds. The you which sits and needs not a thing nor a thought. It is you which moves mountains. The source within ‘has your back’, from the inside. The covenant - it’ll never stop ‘when you say when’. A dear, and endearing promise. You’ve just got to start appreciating, loving yourself - choosing the better feeling, over any thought, putting how you feel first. Walk slow, in being, notice God puts ground beneath your feet. Do not take so much for granted, and your eyes, mind, and heart will open - this is the only certainty, there is no question of this, just as sure as you are. “Truly I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, 'Be taken up and cast into the sea,' and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that what he says is going to happen, it will be granted him.” Home, alone, it seems as if by magic - the skies are cleared, being appears once again, yet, an intuition it was always present, never left. So puzzling - until - you inspect the sensations, a ‘clear of the thoughts’ follows - letting them go, again and again, again and again, again and again. Understanding follows, and understanding is infinite. It is worthwhile to get started, to start opening up. Freud believed there are no typos, no accidental slippages of the mind. I think he had a pint there. “How in the word do I possibly put this?” How about using your words to solve it, rather than to recreated what does not feel good to you, what you do not want, again? Get a very big dry erase board. Write on it: ”Why do I feel like I have no personality of my own?” Notice you are one, draw a line through each noun with the marker, until none remain - what is crossed out, are thoughts of things, an there is no such things as things, it’s your own thoughts which are the matter at hand - do this, and see what actually remains, is you. Begin to notice you have made a common place, a deep habit, of thinking about yourself, and thinking about what other people are thinking about you. Mistaking nouns, things, for your own thoughts, which you are choosing. A most innocent, and subtle arrogance. No thought about you could be true, as you will always be the awareness of - thoughts. “ It is some thing where I find my self start almost involuntarily acting like how I perceive others. You are sitting right here man. None of that is actual, sans it is just thoughts. You are not in a thought story, you are here, present and aware. Careless in believing thoughts, instead, care-fully attend to how you feel. What comes in this, is more amazing than you can believe, so you have to see it for yourself. Might take a little faith on your part - to do what feels good to you, knowing it feels good. You might also notice an inherent simplicity in this ‘world’, or ‘words’ - the self evidence of feeling good. “I want to let go of my preconceptions and judgements of others and speak with others from a grounded point of view within myself and not worry about how they are perceiving me.” Are you noticing yet how you are recreating this with the thoughts? There are six referential nouns in that one sentence, and in actuality there is one infinite entity. You don’t need to have the realization to get the logic of why thinking as such doesn’t feel good because it is not true. It is the thinking, overthinking, creating the the very perspective you are saying you want to be free of. You must notice, that you are creating it, so you can stop creating it. Meditation every single morning, slows the mind way down so you can notice this in ‘real time’ so to speak. Nothing is as good as another meditation, perhaps in the afternoon. “In social settings, I feel lost and like everyone is looking toward me and like I'm going to be "found out." ”I think too much.” They’re just thoughts. Address the overthinking. That’s what’s going on, and that’s all. “How in the universe do I just let go of myself and just be authentic!!!!!!!!!!” Ha! Freudian slip of the Universe right through ya. You are the universe! “I am always able to make my self happy and present once I am alone again, in my own company. I love feeling unstoppable and confident in my self. Why can't I stop playing the victim and just maintain my self confidence when with others?” Because you’ve got it backwards basically. You’re not culminating confidence when you’re alone. You simple aren’t adding all the overthinking, and the mind settles, calms. The natural occurrence therefore, is being your true self, the unstoppable & confident one. I believe you are greatly underestimating how daily morning meditation every single day can radically change your life. Again, get a very big dry erase board, and start inspecting this stuff. It’s up to you when you’re all done paying the victim, and begin inspecting. When you are out, have fun, and also take pause. Notice the outward mind, perhaps in-between the conversations, while others talk with others - notice the outward mind. It’s a lot to take in, and it’s taking in a lot. Take pauses, little breaks away, go to the restroom or whatever. Redirect the mind inward, in normal ordinary fashion, subtly notice any tensions within the body, let go, relax. Notice that confidence arises on it’s own, naturally, organically, like a cork that was being held underwater by so many tensions & thoughts. That is Being. In the same sense, you do not make your self happy. Happy is your true nature - again, the “cork which floats”. Inward still, more subtle, you are there. You will feel this Being, inward and still, the One, always home. You = Being. Notice the clouds, the micro judgements of self, of others. The shoulds, coulds, better thans, lesser thans...see them, see these thoughts arising, and choose how you feel instead, and let the thoughts go like so many clouds parting. Let go, hone subtly into the inner being, the source of true confidence, quietly waiting for you to finish all this thinking. Being is there within you, but it is unconditional. It will allow all. Let go! And Being is known. It is quite the jokester, in that it has always been right there, right in the heart of you. Believe in yourself, believe with all your being, love yourself, and love with all your being - this is the connection of the inner & outer worlds, and the distinctions we create. They are dualistic, this or that. Inspect the yin & yang, of your thoughts. A thought about you is never true. Don’t settle for personality, you are the universe, the creator. Sometimes, Being needs to ‘break some shit’, expression of anger can be quite liberating - curative - just expressing it. A champaign cork if you will, let’s the bubbles out. Fitness, earbuds, and music is really great for this. I believe this guy gets you. Listen closely, really closely to his words. Choose a better feeling, more true for you, thought. That’s it. (And make sure you have some tissue) Sorry if it feels personal at all that I ‘went to town’ on your post. You’re taking brave steps here. Lot of people struggle with this but aren’t ready to take steps like you are, speaking up, asking questions - getting willing to inspect and liberate. Let go!

Of graces & warblings , of swallows & snows, of cardinals & blue jays, & fortunes untold. Of yellow-bellied blackbirds, and finch with purple hearts, watchful peregrine falcons; godwits of marbled arts. Of annas, allens, and lucifers; the hooded, the hermits, the horned, the cacklings & the emperors; kingfishers & acorns. Of mockingbirds & merlins; the red-eyed & black-chinned, of California thrashers; surfbirds, caves, & cliffs. The greater & the lessor, the common & the foul, like birds of pray and beauty, we too - our songs of now.

He said, “you could have been anything”, under his breath, to me. “From shackles to freedom - from this house to endless sea, but you won’t breathe, no, you won’t be”. On a west side street, east of every thing, we sat on our feet and watched the people crawl and crawl, until they all - until they all just walked away. He said “you don’t hear the shuffle, till you hear your own heart beat”. I thought about this for a long time, and I returned to his street. I said “tell me more of freedom, I wanna find my endless sea, I’m so tired of thinkin - I just wanna be me, But now you - won’t speak”. So I opened up my mind, and I listened to their feet, I focused on the shuffle, and the clicks on concrete, and then suddenly - I couldn’t hear a thing. But this pulsating rhythm, this lifeblood of sort, movin through my system with electrifying force, and it swallowed me, - it breathed me in. And now - I can see, and now - I can breathe, and now - I can be.

“Why am I mad at lack of free will”. Any freedom in this dream is derived from the realization one is the dreamer. When you’re mad, stop and notice how you feel, and why you feel that way. Consider it is because what you’re thinking, isn’t true.

@SQAAD Listen to the rest of the video, he clarifies exactly what you’re asking. They didn’t make a blanket statement. They compared uncontrolled and controlled setting, dosage, understanding, environment, etc. Too much too soon, and for the wrong reasons can make suffering worse by magnifying what one is avoiding, and or giving great relief only to be followed by a depressing return of the avoidance. That can certainly instill hopelessness and unfortunately, deeper misunderstanding. The point they’re making is in addition to ‘emptying the cup’, and ‘cleaning the the house’, use psychedelics to directly experience just how glorious we are, to begin the metadventure. They’re speaking up for a wholistic approach, and raising awareness on the insanity of the current psychedelic regulatory climate.

“Is it bad/low consciousness to care about your looks”. When someone looks in the mirror, and doesn’t feel good about how they look, the not-feeling-good is their inner being, the true, perfect, very real & present self - not agreeing with the judgment made upon it. It can’t ‘go there with you’, into crazy town, because it is sane. A perceiver can not perceive a perceiver, and you can never create a perfect world. ‘Enlightened people’ is a misnomer (‘they’), the care is not of separate selves. There is no right or wrong perspective to be found. You’ll only find the one you are creating.

? “ The One and only! ? Biiiiiiiiiiillllllllyyyyyyyyyy ? SHHHEEEEEAAAARRRSS!! ?” ♥️

Try listening to it so closely, there’s no gap anymore. Drop preferences of taste, for alignment in well being. You’ll feel wonderful, and such thoughts will lose their resistant nature.

@Shroomdoctor My pleasure. It really was intriguing and moving. Painted a picture. ??

@Shroomdoctor It’s incredible. Seriously. You have the ear and heart for that no doubt.

Take just a minute, right now, and write down what you want, and tape it to the wall. Start talking about what you want, and doing things you enjoy. Do things for yourself that you like, that feel good to you. Doing things that feel better to you, causes you to feel better. Recognize, acknowledge, know that better feeling. Your perspective will begin to change, and you’ll want things that you aren’t aware of yet. Write em down. Tape em to the wall. You’ll notice interests which you aren’t aware of yet, check them out. Keep in mind, you’ll be feeling better for having done things that you like, and your perspective will naturally be better. You’ll notice thoughts arise about what you want, and thoughts arise about it’s absence. Choose the thoughts about what you want. You are getting more of whichever end of that duality you’re thinking about. What you want arises from within you. It also arises in the physical sense, from within you. If you ‘get stuck’ with choosing a better thought, just choose a little bit better feeling thought that is true for you. As you do more of what you enjoy, and choose better thoughts, you’ll continue feeling better, and your perspective will really open up. You’ll be wanting things you had no idea you’d want, and you’ll feel better than you ever have. Fun, and exciting. People, things, opportunities, will come about in accordance with what you want. Continue choosing thoughts about what you want when these present themselves. They are what you asked for, nothing more, nothing less. They will come in ordinary everyday appearances. Sensation is guidance. Listen to it. If it doesn’t feel good, go back to choosing thoughts about what you want. You’ll easily learn not to be stubborn, because you’ll be loving how you’re feeling when you listen and align with sensations, and choosing thoughts about what you want. It is literally the good feeling you are aligning with. This good feeling lifts you up to perspectives you’ve not yet seen. I’m sorry to be the one who is breaking this to you, but, that’s what you’ll need to do. Stuff you like, that feels good to you. (Sorry for this) What you want is going to come from what already is, so loosen up, relax, be flexible with things. Choose the thoughts about what you want, over thoughts about what already is. What is, is old news. The Source of you already knows everything you’ve ever wanted in your entire life, and is always giving it to you. Now that you’ve dialed up the emotional scale, you’ll start receiving it. You won’t be ‘getting in the way’. You’ll feel good, and you’ll allow it to come however it is, appreciating that it is coming, and feeling great. You’ll learn to ‘zoom in & zoom out’. If you get off track, if things seem intense, think more general and simple; puppies, blue skies, humor, the universe is loving me, anything will do which gets you feeling better, reconnected. Take a minute to notice, each day, your paper on the wall. Remember the bigger picture you are wanting. Allow the feeling good of knowing it is coming, recognize feeling good actually equals feeling good, and feeling good naturally brings things you want and elevates your perspective, which leads to discovering more that you want. At this point, you’re pretty dialed into some feelings that feel flat out exhilarating, unstoppable really, invincible. You’ll be used to connecting more often and more deeply with these great sensations, listening intently to the guidance with more sensitivity, appreciation, and gratitude for how great life feels. (Sorry again about that). You’re thinking about what you want, doing things you like, taking care of yourself, noticing some intriguing coincidences and profound opportunities coming around. This is what you want, coming to you, and you’re feeling so good, so deserving and worthy, so accepting, that you are willing to receive it. Which is great, because Source has been wanting you to have it. It becomes really clear that these sensations are your connection to Source, to The Universe, to Everything. And everything you want, comes from everything that already is. Like magic. As if it was made for this, as if you were designed for this experiencing. As if all the wants themselves came from everything that is already, the very same everything which everything you want is coming from. You will be astonished. Agape. You will be so mesmerized by Source’s love and generosity, and ease of alignment at this point, that you will tell others about this, and they will say you’re nuts, and that they would have to know details, and that there must be more to it. There isn’t though. There’s just choosing a better thought. You can do this, and you can only do this, now. In this present. “We come whirling out of nothingness, scattering stars like dust. The stars made a circle, and in the middle we dance.” Rumi

When the record is broken, when the note is hit, when words take your breath away, and you - dissolves of “it”. When you are found yet again, in all you’ve given and received, pale in profundity, to the empty night’s dream. All that grows, is all that recedes, relentless and beautiful, your softly spoken trees. Not a thing occurs, without awareness indeed, no song of no bird, no handfuls - no beans. Who can say, “such wonders reside!” In what past, what future, apart from this tide? A sealed testimony; of dreams within a dream, no meeting you there, rather here - it would seem. Who will attest, a validity in things - twists in delusion, and bends to extremes. No beauty is without you; no sacrifice - no yin, you are the stage - and the performance within. The well travelled entertainer, a show that never was, sing us and dance us - just keep full our lungs. The eagles and the sheep, the ox and the cow, all within awareness, this miracle of now.

It’s possible that you are aware of a thought story, right now, about a past or future. It’s likely then, that there are ‘characters’ in this thought story, about a past or future. Of those characters, almost certainly, you seem to be - one. More probable still - the other is some one who ‘did you wrong’, Or some one who you 'did wrong'. As certain as you are reading these words, you are presently aware of sensations. There is a great chance, the sensations you are aware of, seem to be the sensations of a ‘you’ - “ in ” - the thought story. But of course, there are no sensations found in a thought story. That, is a mirage - an illusion - an all too tempting enticement, to a smaller you - truly, a fleeting and empty promise. Indeed, sensation never has, and never can, extend beyond this now moment. Sensation is present, and carries within the True message - You are being. You are here. You are now. Sensation is never separate, never dreams of leaving, never longs for there, never needs for then. Now is the flow, now is the zone, now is the ‘entry point’, the 'stream', the truth in evolution, the realized meeting place, the gifted homeostasis, a present for us all. This, is ours, “it” is ours, now, just as we are “it”, now. We will never meet in a thought story. Unification is here, where we already are, together, now. Though we cherish & love our love stories, love is ever-present actuality, all pervasive, now. One can not create within a thought story, inherently perplexed & riddled, fears, regrets, resentments - hiding & seeking, silly games of one and ‘other’. Thought stories are “about” - misimpression, misrepresentation - apparitions, abstraction; diluting of the real. Forever unrealized, eternally void of significance - of use - painful echos; figments of dormant un-manifest imaginings. A thought story will never compare to the real story, to your story, and your story is well underway, now. Now is the melting pot, the cauldron of limitations - persist nonetheless, in this unlimited culmination of our truest essence, Love. Only now can we create, improve upon our ways and worlds, mindful in our true unification, Love. Only now is the potential for conscientiousness of consciousness. Keepers of peace, lovers of love, actualizers of desire, creators of creation, knowers of knowing. Unveil humility, accept your perfection, so that you may in any way, in your way, simply make this place, and this life, - better. Rise from your suffrage, of your own repose. You are the hero you’ve waited for. Seek not your majesty; bring forth your true magnificence. Create without need, without reciprocity, give freely within yourself, your earnest encouragement to all beings. Truly, effortlessly, in absolute certainty, you will come here again, to an even yet better place, this living expression of your loving & giving. Dream your dream, steadfast and true, give all of your self, to the all that is you. Scathed & fettered, beaten & bruised, still yet, dig deeper, in the offering of you.

Fantasy’s of thought create, delight & inspire, but mind the source of their illumination, truth, love and feeling, are only possible - now.

Do not underestimate what you can plan today, nor the peace in doing so. Do not underestimate what you can achieve in a year, in five years, in ten years, nor the passion in doing so. Do not underestimate what can be created in a lifetime, nor the amazement in doing so. Do not underestimate what can be created together, over lifetimes, nor the love in doing so. Do notice all that you create, manifests & transpires, in this very same, inexplicably, magical, now. Dream, imagine, feel. & Do not underestimate now.

The best day, by far, is today. Today, happiness is. Today, experience is. Today is for loving. Today is the most miraculous day, it is the day which implies there are other days.

Reality is not consistent, it appears to be. Now is not a product of a past, nor an indication of a future - now appears to be. Stop and look acutely at what appears to be, it can never be located. You can not know where it is, and where it is going. Choose where it is going, and it does.

@TheAvatarState For sure. Been noticing sitting with a pad of paper, and a little distraction, same thing happens like w the insights but w questions.

@TheAvatarState Great post. You ever have that experience where you do some daily practices, address the day’s responsibilities, etc, all the while with the awakening perspective open, connecting some dots here & there, pondering things,...and then you lay down at night to go to sleep, watching a video or whatever....and boom - an insight, or something you’re wondering below the surface pops up? Almost feels like wtf, where was that all day?

Use a pad & paper, and write “what exactly is this existential fear?” And just write anything at all that comes to mind. Really, just anything at all. Even anything that doesn’t seem like it has anything at all to do with the exercise, just write that down too. Whatever comes up. Let your mind basically relax, free-spew whatever and begin to untangle itself. As you see what’s on the paper, you sort of are assessing it’s validity automatically, subtly, so make sure you’re really relaxing over & over head to toe, and breathing nice and deep. There’s nothing to fear, your head just needs to have a look at what’s going on, so to speak. To see for itself. No rush. If it takes a month, great. The point is, just a simple start, five minutes & put it down for the day - it’s a game changer. It’s the beginning of gettin in the driver’s seat. Sometimes the tiniest things make the biggest difference. With the self inquiry, also try the opposite. Purposely think “ I “... and add your personal preferences after it, whatever stuff it is you like. I.. like this. I...like that. I...feel tired. I....feel excited. I....wanna get something to drink. I....am looking forward to this thing this weekend. I....am not looking forward to this other thing next. etc etc. I think it’ll draw out how I is the beginning of thoughts so often, it just seems so normal we miss it. Then when you self inquire next, let the I thought go, and let all those thoughts which follow the I thought go with it. Notice how nice it feels to just put that “ I “ category down for a few minutes.

@Angelite I studied the Quran (been a minute), there’s wisdom there no doubt. This passage seems to be coming from a misunderstanding of suffering & the Truth. I’d consider the parent child relationship as an analogy / example. One can threaten kids to believe and comply, and even use Allah and words like disdain, grievous, penalty, to get that job done. Another route is assisting kids to develop open minds, not believing, but learning to think for themselves, pointing & helping them to discover Allah for themselves. What does the future of the nations of those two examples look like, when those kids grow up, in your opinion? What is the implication, of power, in terms of honesty? What effect might each scenario have on someone?