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Nonduality (not two). Infinite = unconditional / any ‘yearnings’. “Not directly aware of” = unconscious of. Unconscious = reaction, reacting. Conscious = creation / creating. White wants white, is white not already white? Maybe white wants to experience a rainbow, any rainbow, every rainbow, and to create with white. Inner being, sensation, is simple. A thought “complex”, implies “complex”. Complexity is found in thought & concept, even thought & concept about sensation. Actual sensation, direct, is singular and simplistic.

@DrewNows Ya, for sure. We hold an idea of time. Let go of it / trip brain loses track of it, and there ‘isn’t any’, since there never was any. (Fascination’s great for non-repetition). Clocks are markers of duality & relativity. There’s only a now if there’s a then, can only go there if there’s a here. Conversely, there’s no such marker for awareness, as you are transcendent & all encompassing. Aware of time ✔️?? Time of aware X ?? (nonsensical). It’s reality that doesn’t have a beginning or end, not the trip. The trip just reveals this, like clocks reveal dream.

@DrewNows Why’s it associated with sleep...no?

The change in consciousness changes brain waves which trigger bodily sleep state signals into and out of the trip thresholds, so the natural response is yawning.

@cle103 The conscious / unconscious aspects. The before & after of it. I have seen some awakenings directly related to the understanding of that, and the release of it.

@Strangeloop There’s really no need for a determination, in the sense, you are this or that. It’s a thought, it’s dualistic. You’ll always be the awareness - aware of - all duality. Sexuality doesn't ‘Duality’ so well. It’s thought, and it’s how one feels, and thought about how one will feel in the future. I’d really take some time to flip the perspective, and start putting how you feel before any thoughts. Straight, gay, etc, are nice tight categories as words and as thought, but what they point to is not. The difference between thinking about sexual relationships, encounters, etc, and actually experiencing - right now - a sexual relationship / sexual encounter - is the first happens in duality and can be repeated (in thought) forever, and the second is something which is actually happening right now and you are receiving incredible amounts of information via sensations about the experience (if it’s happening right now). So, we drive ourselves nuts in thought loops, or we put how we feel first. Often putting how you feel first, means choosing how you feel over being right, and over what anybody else thinks about the topic, or about you. Putting how you feel first, also means, - before anything you think. If the thought doesn’t feel good, choose feeling over righteousness. Listen to the feeling, it is the grounding to the source of you. The thoughts are, kinda, rogue. Wild goose-chase-ish. Let em go. Who you really are, is loving of any combination whatsoever which makes up any being or thing. Feeling better is always in that direction, because who you really are is the fucking awesomest. This isn’t as much about the thinking about what this is about. It’s more about unification, reconnection. Far as I’m considered you are lovable, without any qualifications or disclaimers, and I am the final authority on that. Anybody’s got any thing to say about it, I don’t care and it doesn’t matter. You have the final authority, and that is the expression that matters.

@DrewNows Well done sir ?? Love the pics!

@cle103 Awesome! Congrats Big Love! That assertion things is quite the mindjob, eh?

Inspect it and it’ll change on it’s own. Then you’ll feel better. The problem is, you don’t think you’ll feel better, so you’re not inspecting. There might be things to release, and that’ll feel great. New ways of looking at things, also great. But there’s no substitute for going deeper into yourself. It get’s better and better until it just totally blows your mind in the best possible way. Imo, the ‘widespread disorder’, is the thinking of it as a disorder, personifying it and treating it, rather than looking holistically, inspecting, and self discovering the root (with or without someone else). It can take time for the healing, and change in direction. More of you is the best medicine though. Very much a one moment at a time thing. Practices are reliable. Wherever you are is perfect, really. It’s your journey. You’re worth looking into. That really is the metadventure, the biggest ride in town.

Separation=Responsibility. (This perspective you have) Nondual=No Responsibility. Meditation, every morning. All responsibility - made up. Think maybe, of an actor in a movie, reading the script (conditioning) day in and day out. Then suddenly realizing he’s not even in a movie, and dropping the script on the floor, and doing what he wants. Where is there not really free will, where is there free will? Seems like in the end, but not so much in the beginning, but he was always free. He conditioned himself. He wrote the script. He made the props. He said the lines.

@bejapuskas In trying to own you are missing you are having a mystical experience right now. Mindfulness is the matter at hand.

@Courtney Just. Yes. Wonderful!

@Cocolove Seen that new movie The Biggest Little Farm? Great movie. Very moving & inspirational. Beautiful really.

@IndigoGeminiWolf Do what you truly love, for the feeling, and you’ll see it’s about the experience, the feeling, not the things.

@Courtney Well hell yeah Courtney! Really great to hear!

@Strangeloop Well, how open minded are you in terms of self acceptance? Sexuality is within you, so if there is resistance, it is acting as fragmentation of yourself; parts you accept, parts you resist / deny...no? What we resist, does seem to persist. Sounds like you’ve had this resistance for long enough to be talking about your brain shaking, etc. I don’t suppose you’re going to feel at peace in doing this, because, you are not parts, you are a whole. Peace is found, likewise, within you. The resonating of the whole of you. Are you sexual tendencies in disagreement with some beliefs...about “gay people”? Reading between the lines of your post....it seems to me you had a closed minded anti-gay upbringing / environment, with religious dogma “supporting” this closed mindedness. Did you grow up a square peg, constantly trying to be forced into a round hole? Imo, it’s not really actually about wether you are indeed gay or not, but rather, finding what perspectives are causing the discord with your inner being - who loves you unconditionally - exactly the way you are, confusion and all. What do you think about these things I’m saying? How do you feel about this?

@IndigoGeminiWolf For what it’s worth...keep mindful of the self judgements. It’s not really about the meat, masturbation, lust, etc. Inner being is not judging you. This is actually why there is the ‘bad feeling’ associated with those things - because of the discord with the true self / higher self / inner being. It is more subtle, and on a good note - truly effortless. Yes, absolutely, “doing what we love is a path to enlightenment”. This is the movement which brings up the thoughts of self doubt (typically) and the very means by which you can align with the inner being (the enlightened one which is always, always, always, loving you unconditionally). Having death with the capacity issue of this for quite a while, what I learned is that critical difference. Again, it is never about things nor actions, but about the relationship between you & You, about unification, purification, and the ongoing alignment. Consider, truly, there is no past nor future. The perspective clicks in realizing this is always only ever a now ‘thing’. There’s a very easy to miss moment, around the middle of this video, where it is revealed he truly “gets this”. The words are somewhat comical, but see it in his eyes. (Yes, apparently he had other issues of his own)

@electroBeam Keep up the great work. ?? Very interesting share. Got the chills half way through.

@How to be wise Neither will making a post and then busting balls.

@Bill W Stay strong Bill. Imo, you’re doing great. This getting down to our authentic self can be quite a ride. Take a minute, often, to bring to mind what you’ve overcome, what you’ve learned, gained, the expansion & understanding. Sometimes we keep our eyes too forward, and feel like we’re not measuring up. But there’s no stick. Again, I think you’re doing great. I really feel the humility being discovered, and I appreciate what you’ve shared. Thanks.

@Nicachi Great to hear! ♥️

@Tistepiste Makes sense to me. I’ve experienced people’s lives in a flash, like meta-mind, infinite blackness “in the head” with symbols of countless dimensions, which convey the entire lifetime in a second. Sometimes the other person experiences it to, with a large side of love, sometime just me and then I explain it to them. Something I’ve learned...we use words intrinsically, not usually noticing the thought involved...but the ancient sacred symbols go largely overlooked and underused. I know it sounds funny, but, same for crystals. The structure and function of a crystal is unlike other objects. @Synchronicity I am interested, and would love to hear just about anything you have to say about your practices & experiences. I only experienced as someone else while by my self once. The rest were with the person next to me. Sounds like you have transcended the distance factor. Downright fascinating for me. Thanks in advance.

@Schahin You have to pause and recognize you are asking about levels of responsibility and understanding which are outside of your consciousness - which not ironically, you must take responsibility for. You will see that these things are understandable, but not with the the same consciousness that says they are not. This must be let go, so there is ‘room in the cup’ for the expansion of understanding. You’re still lumping the human perspective with a meta / nondual perspective that you don’t have yet. It will not make sense. Also, I would explain, I am happy to, and in person together maybe there is some expansion & communion for relaying understanding - but in type on a screen, I am just inept. There is a collective, or “public” factor for you to consider. The full circle of consciousness & understanding of these things you’re asking about is so big, that often explanations from truth tend to come off (because it is being personified by the dualistic consciousness) as cold, dispassionate, and generally uncaring. * Again - this is hard to “get”, but it is because the full circle is such a many times over mind bender. Ain’t nobody trying to sound like a douche, you know what I mean? Hopefully you do, otherwise I am already sounding that way to you. Take complete responsibility not only for everything in your life, but for a true authentic inner world. Then, approach the collective consciousness from that expanded consciousness. It will make mega sense. (I see, and really hope, this comment is not coming off as “I am higher conscious”. It’s just a where each one is at thing, the nature of the metadventure, the journey, expansion.)

Anxiety, depression, anger, unresolved; in the sharing of your self, you create it all. The world in which you're blaming, in truth it is your gift, in such bittersweet romancing; a spirit can not lift. This place which is the reason, is said to not exist, then what is said of suffrage, what is it we resist? Blankets of samsara, defile the one who's true, the doing so convincing, this One can not be you. But every river born, flows back into the sea, currents are but stillness; all the you's but me. Projection & deflection, of course "I" would not make; of love and truth profusely, "you" surely are a fake. I find my home in breathing, you say there's more to lose; and I can not surrender, beyond what I can choose. "Here" in jest you tell me, can this true self be found, but surely there's redemption, while I's all look around. Shed convention's reverence, nothing else will do, mourn not of the severance, for it's illusion too. Awaken the attunement; intrinsic you create - dreams born of your misery, contempt - and in your ache. You are a creator, there's little you can’t do, profess the inner being; it is the best of you. As you are of the silence, immovable; so tall, infinity is know, in what appeared so small.