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@Jordan Welsh Are you around (or where around) chronic tension & stress? And or, consider the question, on a scale of 1 - 10, what is the amount of expectation you put on yourself? Then consider, what’s the actual answer if you’re being completely honest? Just a hunch, but, maybe you think it’s a 1, but you actually put a lot of pressure on yourself, and have gotten used to it, so you don’t think you do. Maybe you always have for some reason(s) related to how you learned to view reality in general growing up. If that rings true at all...consider taking a little time each morning to think of things you’ve accomplished, things you made it through, learned more of who you are from. Seeing that it is indeed all ‘adding up’ nicely, and leading to what you are wanting, is just a good feeling and a good perspective. Relative, but, maybe there’s a sort of ‘healthy ceiling’ of engagement, and I wonder if you’re flirting with over-engaging a bit. Like, excitement to cook a meal that’s the best meal you’ve ever made tonight, compared to wanting to eat every great dinner you’ll ever eat for the rest of your life, tonight. If we aren’t at the slower tempo of joy in the moment, joy in the journey, living from feeling - then something is out of whack there, and can not be hammered into place.

https://hridaya-yoga.com/hridaya-yoga-articles/the-self-inquiry-method-of-ramana-maharshi/ https://www.stillnessspeaks.com/ramana-maharshi-self-enquiry/

@AlphaAbundance You are missing the only point of self inquiry, because you are stopping and asking about the arising thoughts. Let them go and continue the self inquiry. If you are making it a practice, set an amount of time. If you are self inquiring 24/7, great, but that means you’re letting every single arising thought go - because you are not a thought that comes and goes.

‘Buy it’. ?

That would be pain. Like @Serotoninluv said...can you describe some more, the sensation, the pain... where is it, what’s it feel like? Also, try to describe it abstractly by feeling- if it were a painting, what color would it be, how dense, how new or old, what scenery, what shapes, texture, etc, anything that comes up image wise can be most helpful to start to feel the relief. Doesn’t need to make sense how that works right now, just give it a try. Hang in there, the purification is coming from the inside out - you gotta let this be purified outward, ??. Can’t keep it in.

You are the One, the enlightened know this, they know they are you. Meditate; into the Self. Allow the mind to acquiesce; allow thought to secede. Allow control resignation. See about this nothingness, meet yourself again. Below the thinking, within the sensations, prior to ideas of you - know thy self. Vulgar? Obscene? Pushy? Irate? Hurried? Important? Demanding? What is the true nature? It is powerful beyond measure; innocent, subtle and kind. It waits eternally for you; to return, to remember - to meet again. It allows all things; it never asks for precedence. It supports you in every endeavor; while assembling the next. It waits while you eat what it did not yield. It waits while your foot is in your mouth. It waits until your show is done; judging you not. It waits for words to run their course. It waits through your ‘problem’; it waits while you ‘solve’. It waits. It has nowhere more important to go. It has nothing more important to do. It has no one more interesting to be. It is for you; it gifts you freedom. It is for you; selfless, it is your love. It is for you; and for you alone, it waits. There is no other; it is you.

There is only now. A one at a time, linear stream of thoughts, of which to pick; this, or that, only and ever, now. There is sensation, not in a past nor future, but now, so you can pick the thought which feels good to you - which creates. There is perception, of the reality, you are creating, in the picking of, all your this’s, which feel good, and are aligned, with you, now. You are creating your reality - Now.

Also consider the awareness you’re searching for is what thoughts are arising within. So a thought will never be an answer to self inquiry, even the “ I “ thought. That is “the first thought”, of every thought. Notice the “ I “ thought, and just stop and relax, and be aware of the “ I “ thought. The thought, “ I “...that you’d be surrendering....the thought. And consider the unconditional nature of being, and do some things (“doing self inquiry every moment in my daily life.”) you enjoy. Be as unconditional about feeling good as you can, and also do things that feel good. One big ol feeling good is a recipe for ‘connection’.

@flowboy Loving your signature line. That’d be a great forum feature. @Fuku (no offense)

Ya but, that there isn’t a second possibility known, points to a deeper truth in the video.

@Mikael89 That’s what she said.

@Bill W Feel for ya man. I think letting go is where the relief is for ya. Sounds like you’ve been carrying a lot for a long time. This book comes to mind... https://www.amazon.com/Surrender-Experiment-Journey-Lifes-Perfection/dp/080414110X And even more so, this one...https://www.amazon.com/Ask-Given-Learning-Manifest-Desires/dp/1401904599 Also, maybe bring some magic into life...dry erase board...what you really want...

@AlphaAbundance Still conscious and aware though, eh?

@IndigoGeminiWolf You already are, with this very post, asking. Whatcha gonna do next?

@Ibn Sina There’s no room in imperfection for perfection, and there’s no such thing as imperfection. Infinite can not know finite, and you can not forget, on purpose. All is the only way it can be, just as you made it. Look for problems, look for beauty & love. Still up to you.

First find the line between perception and world, so you know what you’re actually changing. Then get that if outta there. Might be far less to change than your if view leads you to believe. There’s not really a practice of loa, more so the depth of realization you already are, and always have been. Meditation, first thing, every morning, don’t skip a day. Choose a better feeling thought.

@aniss Notice, you’ve been fine the whole time. You got sick of living in a way that is in discord with what you want and how you feel. What you are wanting is an end to suffering. You are using the excuse ‘I might lose my mind’ to continue suffering. Start choosing thoughts that feel good to you, activities that you enjoy. Twenty two is just about the roughest age imo. This is just where you’re learning the most important thing, is staying ‘connected’ with your inner being, your true self. It is a stage, and it will pass.

Just write your perspectives down on a piece of paper, then write the opposite perspectives next to each of them. Notice, someone see’s it the way you were, and for them, it is “true”. Someone else see’s the opposite perspective, and for them, that is “true”. Seeing perspectives are only relatively true, you can realize you’re in the position to choose your perspective. Let go of the perspectives which aren’t serving you, which don’t feel good to you, by saying - “ok, ya, I really don’t know that...it’s just a perspective”.

You’re creating your reality, right now. From the perspective of creating your experience, you’d put how you feel, first. Any other way is unnatural to you. Perhaps thinking has been at the wheel for a while, and it has become normal for you to believe causing discord with how you feel, is “normal”. In accordance with your own feelings however - it is not “normal”. Maybe you’ve even been believing it’s normal to sacrifice how you feel, for what you think you should do, or worse, what someone else thinks you should do. This will never feel good, because you are creating the experience, of doing what does not feel good to you. How you feel, is primary, and paramount. How you feel is the key. Meditation, every morning. Trust that the benefits accumulate, and don’t have expectations - just find out for yourself. Let go. Keep returning focus to breathing, letting thoughts go. Thinking slows down, momentum slows down. Reactionary thinking slows down. Defensive mechanisms slow down. This all begins to be seen, with increasing clarity. What feels good for you becomes clearer. Discover the inspiration is there waiting, and always has been. Take the time for you, first thing, every morning. Thoughts are like clouds, seeming to block the clarity. Meditation is non-doing, relaxing, letting go & allowing the wind to naturally clear the clouds. Let go. Let go. Let go. You are an artist & artistry, a creator & creation, a painter - painting a painter’s experience. You are the painter, the paint, and the canvas. You’re choice of thought in alignment with feeling, creates the life you want. This mechanism can not be seen, as “it”, is you. You are intrinsically a creator. Your being, your existence - creates. You created the universe, you are creating the universe, you are creating your own experience of the universe. The universe, is guiding you, and bringing you everything you are allowing in. You are not separate from the universe, you are the universe. The universe is not separate from you, the universe is you. In proceeding with what doesn’t feel good to you, you create the discord with your sensations, which are guiding you - the universe, your source, the whole of you - guiding you to what you are wanting. Experience ‘disconnected’ from the whole of you, in ignore-ance of your sensations, does not feel good, and is referred to chronically, as fear. Proceeding on a path that does not feel good to you, does not feel good to you for good reason - it’s not what you want. Going against the grain, between feelings & perspective, trying to force them to jive when they just don’t, doesn’t work. You can ‘make it work’, you can wrestle & effort things into place - but at the expense of how you feel, and always with a thought story of a better future in mind. There is no ‘future’, there is only now. With daily meditation, and choosing the better feeling thought through out the day, the thought aligned with what you want in life, you’ll begin to feel the profound difference between ‘emotional effort’, and inspired action. This will change any, and every, life. There’s only this moment, time is not passing. This moment, the universe ‘around you’, is entirely spontaneous & responsive to your feeling and the thoughts you choose. There’s no rush, no where to get to, no ‘better time’ - nothing worth putting ahead of you & your dream life. It’s always, now. All that appears to change, all that comes and goes, does so in your awareness, now. You have never experienced anything, outside of your awareness. All you have ever experienced, all there is to be experienced, is your own magical, ineffable, awareness. What you’re choosing to focus on brings more of that into your experience. When you focus with the whole of you, aligned with the guidance and intelligence of feelings, your reality begins to change in accordance with your desire. Reality is not separate already, and reaction & response, are beliefs of causation. You are the source of this moment, this universe, and everything in your life. If you believe you are reacting, that is a thought you have chosen, which does not feel good, and is not true. Let it go, and create - you’ll begin to see you have been the entire ‘time’. Notice the simplicity of this, and that it could not be any other way. You chose online, this forum, this post, for a reason. You’re choosing to continue reading this right now, for a reason. That reason is known to you intuitively, not quite yet logically. Something isn’t fitting, isn’t adding up, and you’re looking to understand what that is, why that is, and what to do about it. Get a large dry erase board, and write “what do I really want?”. Start writing and putting up anything that comes to mind - anything that feels good to you - anything. This is your board, your life, your dream - no one else’s. In doing this, you are drawing upon yourself - bringing great feelings to the surface. You’re going to be amazed at how things come together, and more so - at the realization that they have always been coming together - perfectly - all along. You will recognize this, and naturally begin to think less, and allow more unfolding of what you want, in more trust, and a deeper willingness to let go. The mind seeing this, on the board, is entirely different than ‘in your head’. This leads to more ‘being in the now’, more realization - you are this ‘now’, where you are creating. This leads to more focus, more inspiration, more genuine enthusiasm, more synchronicity, better and better feelings, and better and better things unfolding. As you go through your days, feel the peace of meditation with you, further and further into the day, with every day you take that time just for you, first thing, to let go. You’ll realize deeper sensitivity within yourself, in awareness of thoughts in alignment, and thoughts in discord. You’ll see, in the most mysterious, miraculous ways, the power of choosing thoughts in alignment, creates your reality. You are doing this, right now.

Meaning is already being. You are being. Believing they’re separate, is how you’re creating meaning. Nothing to worry about, see what I mean?

@Nicachi You are so beautiful. Sometimes it’s too much for me too.

@Joscha Or, you don’t know any of that. That’s possible, available even.

@Mu_ Never saw it. ?

@Courtney ?