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@MrBlue Both. Definitely take advantage of all resources available to you. This is your life we’re talking about. Quality of service in therapy varies greatly of course, but it can be a great experience. You’ll likely learn many new and great ways to look at things, as well as lots of very helpful aspects of self discovery. Add daily morning meditation to that, and you’ll experience a sort of 1 +1 = 5. The more you learn and self discover, the better. Twoness wise... consider the usefulness of character development, skill building, etc, in a video game...having nothing to do with the real you holding the controller.

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@mandyjw Ok, my bad. Went too masculine on that one.

@mandyjw That bitch!

@Natasha ♥️ The most beautiful girl at the dance, is the only one who doesn’t get to experience the most beautiful girl at the dance. Sorry about your luck. ?

@TheAvatarState Very nice!

I think this is why you thought I was a woman. Lol ??♥️

So true. So beautiful! I find there’s a feminine wisdom accessible ‘behind’ the masculine love, and a masculine wisdom discovered in expressing the feminine love - you relate to that at all? Just wondering. @Natasha Sorry to hear about your dog ?. There is a bit deeper sorrow in mourning & oneness, oddly, no? Seems to me loss is felt much more deeply. What was sadness and confusion, now a deep sorrow / joy / knowing, which can invoke a little more in us than the situation alone ordinarily would call for.

@Jordan Welsh Are you around (or where around) chronic tension & stress? And or, consider the question, on a scale of 1 - 10, what is the amount of expectation you put on yourself? Then consider, what’s the actual answer if you’re being completely honest? Just a hunch, but, maybe you think it’s a 1, but you actually put a lot of pressure on yourself, and have gotten used to it, so you don’t think you do. Maybe you always have for some reason(s) related to how you learned to view reality in general growing up. If that rings true at all...consider taking a little time each morning to think of things you’ve accomplished, things you made it through, learned more of who you are from. Seeing that it is indeed all ‘adding up’ nicely, and leading to what you are wanting, is just a good feeling and a good perspective. Relative, but, maybe there’s a sort of ‘healthy ceiling’ of engagement, and I wonder if you’re flirting with over-engaging a bit. Like, excitement to cook a meal that’s the best meal you’ve ever made tonight, compared to wanting to eat every great dinner you’ll ever eat for the rest of your life, tonight. If we aren’t at the slower tempo of joy in the moment, joy in the journey, living from feeling - then something is out of whack there, and can not be hammered into place.

https://hridaya-yoga.com/hridaya-yoga-articles/the-self-inquiry-method-of-ramana-maharshi/ https://www.stillnessspeaks.com/ramana-maharshi-self-enquiry/

@AlphaAbundance You are missing the only point of self inquiry, because you are stopping and asking about the arising thoughts. Let them go and continue the self inquiry. If you are making it a practice, set an amount of time. If you are self inquiring 24/7, great, but that means you’re letting every single arising thought go - because you are not a thought that comes and goes.

‘Buy it’. ?

That would be pain. Like @Serotoninluv said...can you describe some more, the sensation, the pain... where is it, what’s it feel like? Also, try to describe it abstractly by feeling- if it were a painting, what color would it be, how dense, how new or old, what scenery, what shapes, texture, etc, anything that comes up image wise can be most helpful to start to feel the relief. Doesn’t need to make sense how that works right now, just give it a try. Hang in there, the purification is coming from the inside out - you gotta let this be purified outward, ??. Can’t keep it in.

You are the One, the enlightened know this, they know they are you. Meditate; into the Self. Allow the mind to acquiesce; allow thought to secede. Allow control resignation. See about this nothingness, meet yourself again. Below the thinking, within the sensations, prior to ideas of you - know thy self. Vulgar? Obscene? Pushy? Irate? Hurried? Important? Demanding? What is the true nature? It is powerful beyond measure; innocent, subtle and kind. It waits eternally for you; to return, to remember - to meet again. It allows all things; it never asks for precedence. It supports you in every endeavor; while assembling the next. It waits while you eat what it did not yield. It waits while your foot is in your mouth. It waits until your show is done; judging you not. It waits for words to run their course. It waits through your ‘problem’; it waits while you ‘solve’. It waits. It has nowhere more important to go. It has nothing more important to do. It has no one more interesting to be. It is for you; it gifts you freedom. It is for you; selfless, it is your love. It is for you; and for you alone, it waits. There is no other; it is you.

There is only now. A one at a time, linear stream of thoughts, of which to pick; this, or that, only and ever, now. There is sensation, not in a past nor future, but now, so you can pick the thought which feels good to you - which creates. There is perception, of the reality, you are creating, in the picking of, all your this’s, which feel good, and are aligned, with you, now. You are creating your reality - Now.

Also consider the awareness you’re searching for is what thoughts are arising within. So a thought will never be an answer to self inquiry, even the “ I “ thought. That is “the first thought”, of every thought. Notice the “ I “ thought, and just stop and relax, and be aware of the “ I “ thought. The thought, “ I “...that you’d be surrendering....the thought. And consider the unconditional nature of being, and do some things (“doing self inquiry every moment in my daily life.”) you enjoy. Be as unconditional about feeling good as you can, and also do things that feel good. One big ol feeling good is a recipe for ‘connection’.

@flowboy Loving your signature line. That’d be a great forum feature. @Fuku (no offense)

Ya but, that there isn’t a second possibility known, points to a deeper truth in the video.

@Mikael89 That’s what she said.

@Bill W Feel for ya man. I think letting go is where the relief is for ya. Sounds like you’ve been carrying a lot for a long time. This book comes to mind... https://www.amazon.com/Surrender-Experiment-Journey-Lifes-Perfection/dp/080414110X And even more so, this one...https://www.amazon.com/Ask-Given-Learning-Manifest-Desires/dp/1401904599 Also, maybe bring some magic into life...dry erase board...what you really want...

@AlphaAbundance Still conscious and aware though, eh?

@IndigoGeminiWolf You already are, with this very post, asking. Whatcha gonna do next?

@Ibn Sina There’s no room in imperfection for perfection, and there’s no such thing as imperfection. Infinite can not know finite, and you can not forget, on purpose. All is the only way it can be, just as you made it. Look for problems, look for beauty & love. Still up to you.

First find the line between perception and world, so you know what you’re actually changing. Then get that if outta there. Might be far less to change than your if view leads you to believe. There’s not really a practice of loa, more so the depth of realization you already are, and always have been. Meditation, first thing, every morning, don’t skip a day. Choose a better feeling thought.