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@Justine What’s your trip foundation like? Daily practices, theory digested, diet, fitness, dream board, etc? Whatever you’re getting from your trips is priceless, but being seeing as “bad”. What’s the overall message you received?

The actual answer lies in self recognition in thoughts, perception, and sensation, which is being taken for a person, video, story & question. That’d be a good start, seeing through the maya.Then samsara continues to convince, and is ‘burned’ away, purified, Then, thoughts, perception & sensation arise in appearance, and are known as what, who, how, and why this can not be otherwise. Then there is not a separate One to be ‘fooled’ again. Nothing changed or changes, yet all is made anew.

@28 cm unbuffed Just started a very minimal site using Squarespace. Having never made a website before, I found their software to be made for someone who never made a site before. One head’s up if you go that route, use a web browser and the app. Oddly, each has features the other doesn’t. Also, they have made the linking of other sites, accounts, etc as easy as adding a premade button...things like Spotify, Open Table, etc. Best of luck to you! Love to see it when done.

Another great question - ?? ”I am committing to meditation every morning in 2020. But the thought of it is already stressing me out already. You said start with 10 minutes every morning, and work my way up to an hour. That sounds like a nightmare to me. I”m trying to get to ‘what I want’, but how do I deal with already being stressed about meditating when I haven’t even started yet? I feel like I can’t even come up with what I want to put on my dream board, and I can’t meditate to get there either. When I think about it, I get stressed out. You’re saying to do these things but they all seem stressful to me.” Meditation is a time for relaxation of the body & mind - letting go. This means letting arising perspectives go also, including those regarding meditation, wanting, and dream boarding. I understand it can create a mental pickle in a way (prior to beginning), “how can I do the thing that relieves stress, if that very thing is stressful to me before I have even done it?”. The ‘answer’, is that meditation won’t be something you’re “doing”, at least not in the way it seems, prior to “doing it”. The “trickiness” is only in trying to ”figure out” in thinking, what can only be known in direct experience. The discovery of the benefits will be felt and known, not thought. Discovery will not occur in reading or talking about meditation, because that is a ”thinking” & “doing”. When you “do” meditate, the discovery is that everything else in life is experienced as a “doing”, and meditation is a “not-doing”. A complete letting go. A total relaxation. Not an “escape” from anything, but a letting go of everything. Detachment will be discovered as visceral & actual, more so than a thought or any words about it can convey. Some understanding of what will transpire might be helpful, but should not be ‘held’ as an expectation. Today, it might very well seem like “perspectives” and “me” are the same. “This is just how I am”, “That’s just how I’ve always been”. ”Those things are stressful for me”. This is what the word ‘liberation’ points to. Through directly experiencing proper daily meditation, perspectives are more readily experienced - as perspectives. That they are not you, and do not define you - rather, you are aware of, perspectives. As perspectives are willingly let go, by taking attention away the perspectives, and focusing on breathing from the stomach and relaxing the body...awareness begins to be felt and known, and realization begins occurring - “That’s not me - those are just perspectives. They come & go, and I can let them go when they don’t feel good to me, and choose a perspective that does feel good to me”. The benefit, the freedom of this, is immeasurable, and unknowable prior to the practicing. Through continued practice, a perspective which does not feel good, and is limiting, and could have lasted years - will be readily let go in seconds. Further, a day will come, when unwanted, doesn’t-feel-good perspectives - don’t even arise. Also, for “grounding”... When meditating, notice gravity. Not the scientific concept or idea of gravity, but rather, notice the feeling of gravity. Notice the natural inclination is the ‘sinking’, the relaxing, of every muscle. Feel, on the inhale and the exhale, minor tensions in the body. Notice gravity is naturally relaxing the body “downward”, if you will, and upon the inhale and or exhale, the body tenses a tiny bit in specific areas. Breathe into those areas, be “adding them to” or “connecting” them with (in feeling) the stomach breath. Take a deep stomach breath, and feel the tension un-contract, or melt, into the breath. By focusing on breathing from the stomach, attention is already shifted away from thoughts / perspectives. What no longer receives your attention, is no longer present - as what is now present, is what is receiving your attention...relaxing, and breathing. ”Getting to what you want”, from the standpoint of having been focused on perspectives of what you don’t want, is most easily done by making a list on paper, of what you don’t want. Then, write the opposite of each (what you do want), on your dream board. Also, write a few words as to why you want it.

@Consilience Awesome report! Thanks for sharing.

@LfcCharlie4 Thanks for sharing, interesting reading for sure. Had you done anything else prior to the Rupert months & RASA sessions, like retreats, meditation, yoga, psychedelics, etc?

@Nivsch If you want to fly a kite, but you can’t until you’re whole, and you won’t be whole unless you fly a kite - you must change how you’re looking at the situation. If you pick up a hot coal, is any corrective action needed at all - other than dropping the coal? The ’coal’ is perspectives. They come & go. You don’t. Let them come & go. Let new one’s come which feel better than the old ones. Don’t marry any perspectives. If you do, you’ll believe they define you, and that you are partial. But you’re not the content or implication of a thought, you’re awareness, of thoughts, coming & going. Never, ever, has there been the experience of, no-awareness. Likewise, never, ever, has a single perspective lasted. They all come & go, let em go, you’ll love the ones that come....for a bit. Then they go too. And you’ll love the ones that come....for bit. Then let them go too. A point will come when it viscerally occurs to you - I’m not coming and going.

@Spiral_Wizardry_Fan It used to be thought of as the earth, Mother Nature, natural divinity, abundantly growing for us right out of the ground. Why wouldn’t it? Then some folks campaigned a collective perspective of, “drugs” & “medication”, inspired by money, power & notoriety. It’s all going full circle though. Google the statues of Easter Island for example. Giant shrooms made to look like heads. Also the pineal, depicted in everything from pyramids to the pope’s hat & cane. That’s the story though. There’s a bigger story in which it’s all hidden in plain sight, like a real mystery for you to enjoy. Well worth stayin strong for. Consciousness can’t “go backwards” btw.

@LfcCharlie4 I said aaand! ?♥️

Awesome....aaand....maybe there’s no you, which gets finished. Maybe there’s no assertion either.

In feeling. Been there all along. Never leaves. Never comes, never goes. AA started with LSD. God’s will = unconditional love, known via direct experience. Merica removed the LSD. Now God’s will seems to = some outside force / entity.

If you’ve got something you want more, do it. Pursuing what you actually want, is the path. A great ‘wild card’ for inquiry.... “Wait...first - is the answer, both? Are these one and the same, while I’m holding a perspective of duality?” Perhaps I am always exactly where I should be.

@Javfly33 ?♥️

@28 cm unbuffed You’re whole & complete. You talk to a girl, she’s responsive. You’re whole & complete. You’re whole & complete. You talk to a girl, she is not responsive. You’re whole & complete. What’s “risked”? What is the risk you are taking? “Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere. They’re in each other all along.” Rumi ”They will not say here it is, nor there it is, as the kingdom of heaven is within you.” Jesus

@28 cm unbuffed Well, is that what you actually want right now?...to get a hooker, and risk getting an std? “Fuck it” - What is it ? “It” might be your conscience - what you actually want. “Fuck what I actually want, I’m going to do this instead”. “Where's love in all of that?”

@Javfly33 You’re thinking you need to resolve your thinking. That’s just more thinking. You can let it go and do whatever you want to do. You never have anyone’s thought about you, ever. That’s you thinking about what people are thinking about you. It’s separation thinking. You are thinking you are a self, loving your self. The beauty of the hyphenated word “self-love”, is it points to that which you are, to what is, to This. Not that which you could or should do, or believe, or find. You are already that, and there’s nothing to think about. You can do what you really want to.

@Raptorsin7 A little cautionary love perhaps....♥️ Daily meditation is most important. One who says “I don’t know how to let go”....and yet “I don’t meditate”...is tricking oneself. If you do a psychedelic, do so just for the experience, just because that’s what you want to do - not because it will fix anything, nor bring happiness. I’m not saying do it, and I’m not saying don’t - I’m saying tune into your intention. Uncover beliefs, just for the experience of uncovering beliefs. Just to explore. Not to “solve” anything. Nothing is wrong. Nothing is in need of solving. You don’t need anything to feel happiness. You are already enough, as you are, however you are. It can be a sneaky trap... adding a new belief, that beliefs are preventing love. How to let go of beliefs...sit and relax - meditate. The urge to do, achieve, ‘get things done so I can feel better’, ‘get busy doing so I can feel good about myself’ - arises as tension in the body. Breathe, relax, let it go. Happiness is what experiences that thought. Love is what experiences that thought. Do not believe the thoughts. You are already the awareness of thoughts. Don’t believe them - choose from them - create with them, by focusing on thoughts that feel good. Don’t buy into an arising idea... “If I do X, then I’ll feel happy.” A reliable question, always in this now - how does what I am focusing on feel ? Am I choosing the thoughts which feel better? Am I letting go now, vs choosing a thought “This will fix it in the future. I will feel better when X”. An example....”When I lose twenty pounds, I’ll feel better”. That belief is enough to miss that I already, immediately, feel good, as I am consciously choosing self-love for my body. Notice the intention, feel the intention, of self-love. This is not quite the same as identifying within the body, and feeling better once it is “fixed”. The “plan”, the “unfolding of it”, is just for the enjoyment of the experience, just for the feeling good of it - not to “solve” any “problems”. If there is a “problem” - it is “problem thinking”, or, the perspective itself: “there is a problem”. There is not a “problem”, you are already whole, complete, infinitely worthy. Consider the common misunderstanding of desire, and attachment. Someone who attaches feeling good to “when I get a convertible car”. They feel the desire, the drive...when they get the car, and they feel good. But the ‘new car experience’ soon becomes ‘the same old car experience’...the feeling good was attached to that which comes and goes (the car)...and so the feeling good too, comes & goes. Then, the desire to feel good arises again, and is attached to another thing: “when I have more money”, “when I know my life purpose”, “when I awaken”, “when I am enlightened”... Fill the dream board with all that you are wanting - and let it go. Be done with it in thinking. Let go of “how “. Keep the focus on why - for the ride, the thrill, the feeling of experience now, not in a future. Don’t second guess the universe. What you are wanting is indeed coming. Notice resistant thoughts, and let them go. Don’t believe you need to “solve” them. Let them go. FEEL the desire. Let the thinking go, and feel into the journey itself - the Right Now of it. Feel the desire, because it feels great & exhilarating. Feel the aliveness - the vitality of feeling. The inner being is always shining through. You’re always attracting. The world, so to speak, convinces one that happiness is attained in the future. Meditation ‘un-teaches’, ‘let’s go’ of beliefs, & the habit of future happiness thinking follows - gos - ...leaving one present now. People believe they must struggle and suffer to better their situation. This is an idea of the self, an idea of me. It’s a self limiting reductive belief. The self is what all experience transpires within, ‘where’ all that comes & goes, comes & goes. When one is believing happiness will come in the future, one is subtly attaching to the idea of self worth, that something need be done or accomplished, to be worthy of feeling good. That one is “earning”, rather than attracting. That one “needs”, rather than wants & creates what one wants, happily. Now, is fine as it is. Any beliefs that something more is needed for happiness, can be let go of, now. If there is resistance, it is felt. It is felt when the thinking ”I must hustle, strive, do, so that I can be happy” arises. Un-attach from those thoughts, because of how they feel. Let them go. You can be happy now, fully satisfied now - and excited for more - thrilled for what’s coming - Now.

@Parththakkar12 Two opposing and very touchy perspectives. Opposite ends of the full circle. One identified as a victim, is deeply needing love, (or deeply believing they need love), and has yet to satisfy their basic human emotional needs / lower chakras, and is still identifying as the body. No one can “solve” this for another. One must choose healing in the face of fear, until there is less identifying, and more expansion, empowerment, intelligence & understanding. The uber-grey area, is that some people also utilize the victim identification to manipulate others into enabling them. When someone realizes this, they’re likely to be upset initially, then inevitably liberated. Even more grey, someone might or might not be conscious of their victim role, and or the manipulation role. The wild thing about a belief, is one thinks it’s true. Then there is one who believes they have overcome these roles, but resonates and therefore has not fully healed themselves, so they project their feeling onto another (“pathetic, weakling” etc). This reinforces the victim mentality belief, as now one believes another person is making them feel bad. Both roads lead to the bluff being called out. The realization that feelings are not relative to perception, but to the Truth within every one of us.

@Raptorsin7 When behavior perceived angers us, It’s because we’re resonating. It touches the nerve of our own misinterpretation, our own belief. We are holding the beliefs of separation, judgement, and need - and feeling it, but without realizing it cognitively yet. Saying such things to your grandma feels bad because you Have to first believe she’s separate, that you need her to act a certain way so you can feel ok, and then you also have to judge her. “Part of me wants to say it to her” is fragmentation. The ego doesn’t like the feeling, because the anger felt is due to the ego protecting “itself”. The ego is the perspective - “I am separate” - and everything that comes with it. The true self knows (is) compassion & understanding for grandma. So thought fragments, or makes “parts” of us...so we can “justifiably” continue perspectives of separating & judging. It’s consciousness, and innocent. It is ideal to take the route of wholeness, inclusion. A bit ‘deep’ in the psyche, but the mind doesn’t have truth to stand on when thinking in terms of separate individuals...her fault, his fault, etc, because the mind is not actually separate. This fuels the anger, like trying to make a square peg fit in a round hole (continuing to pretend in separation). When seen as whole...”this is the situation we’re all in together”...a different course of solution & healing thinking arises. Ask yourself.. would you consciously choose to not feel good? Of course not. So whenever a thought, perspective, or course of action is not feeling good...you can inner monologue, and basically say... (inner voice) “STOP. This doesn’t feel good, and I am recognizing this course of thought is unconscious, by listening to feeling”. Then chill, and stomach breath for a few minutes. Do this in the name of self-love. Because you’re done with anger, and unconsciousness. You’re not carrying on, rolling with it, anymore. That is authentic, and deeply honest Self awareness. How many days would you guess grandma could be in the presence of this genuine self-love - before she’s taking an inward peak? My guess is eight days. Unless she’s Catholic. Then maybe five years or so. ? The belief that another’s words or attitude is something we should protect our feelings and ego from is only a disempowering, and ego validating belief. Communicate boundaries by intelligence, common decency, reasonable dignity, the Golden Rule...rather than by protecting feeling & ego. ”Us” thinking, rather than “me” thinking. What we really, really, actually want - is a mountain, a cosmos, an Infinity - of feeling - ....love, compassion, empathy, emotional intelligence, & understanding. The inner being needs no protection. It wants to blow the doors of this place and love the world on fire. “Anger is like holding a hot coal, and expecting someone else to feel the burn”. - Buddha (loosely) “When anger knocks, and love answers the door - no one is there” - Anonymous

@Rasheed Great post. It’s hard to even comprehend how much one would learn and how much their eyes would open. Not to mention, the wisdom of easy change vs ‘quitting’. ??

@Gneh Onebar Appreciate the share ?? Keep flowin.

@abrakamowse It is as if he had a sneaky funny side.

Meditate, put on music you like, think of what you like & love, and fill up your dream board with it.

@Raptorsin7 They just don’t resonate with the inner being (Truth).

@abrakamowse If only Genesis read... imagination instead of image, speed of light, void, duality, etc.