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Nothing in this material world makes me really happy. Passionate, carefree, creative, and in love. I’d see what nothing is if I was you.

@28 cm unbuffed 28 cm unbuffed is the shit. Dream boarding all that you are wanting? Listening to the unending infinite guidance / inner being...and the ‘clues’ which continuously present themselves in perception? Recognizing the metadventure?

If tonight while you slept you had a dream, and realized you were dreaming...what would death be? What would living be? What would the best of both worlds be?

?? Consider preference rather than objective assessment. Instead of ‘things aren’t going well’, ...’this is what I don’t want’....what do I now know I do want? And as swiftly as you can, shift focus to the feeling, to that which you do want. Let go of what doesn’t feel good, align love, feeling, & thought for all that you actually want.

By what’s showing up in your experience, and by how you feel. I’d read Ask & It Is Given, and maybe Think & Grow Rich, and Seth Speaks. Then make a dream board. @Bill W ♥️?? Hope today is better.

Nah...the rest is the life you create.

This could be due to the fact you are creating your own reality but unaware of it.

@zeroISinfinity You might say, as a perspective, that (what the post points to) is .001%.

The first thought is “ I “. If the thought ” I “ is believed, the story begins unfolding, and the universe is, and is separate, and “you” are in “it”. If the thought “ I “ is not believed, then it is a thought, and there is no story to follow, because without believing the thought “ I “, there is no separation, there is no other, no order, no chaos, no “outside world”. The duality of I & this planet “collapsed”....simply by no longer believing a thought about an I, is an I - but rather, is a thought. Self-love, is then seen for what it is...planet-love, universe-love, cosmos-love...apple-love....people-love.....(could continue infinitely). So love “the planet” = self-love. Self-love = planet-love. Trying to escape the fact self = love (aka self-love), by believing an “ I “ thought........”chaos”. “I want to give this planet through truth/love and integrity” You already did. It’s done. You “gave it”, to “yourself”. Thanks!! You’re ‘doing it’ right Now, ...Now enjoy it!

@VeganAwake ? Yes. Great movies.

@Buba Yes, you’ve made it clear that your current perspectives are not leading to relief and feeling good. The only question really is how willing you are to consider changing your beliefs and perspectives. Occasionally being right & feeling good match up, in this case they are not. So, you basically have to continue seeing things how you are, or considering it is your chosen perspective which is not aligning with your feelings. The beliefs to uncover, inspect, release sound like... “I am not fine the way I am”. “I can’t change the way I’m looking at this” “I can’t accept myself”. These are thoughts about an idea of you, while you are just, you. Without the ideas of you, there’d be no caparison to “how you should be” or “how you’re supposed to be”. It often seems that when we hold a perspective in spite of our own body & feelings telling us it isn’t true, after a while, the tension localizes. It seems this is what’s going on with the abdomen.

@VeganAwake Love ya man. This convo, there’s just no communication happening. ??

@Buba If someone judges you, let it be theirs. Truly it is, unless you believe otherwise. My one guy’s vote is you’re already just fine however you are. I feel I understand what you said, but fear is the resistance to self discovery. It’s thinking there is something terrible there, but when you look you find out it’s love. There seems to be a lot of concern for what your parents think. How does it matter, in what ways? You said you feel peace when imaging marrying a female. Then that being gay would be the collapse of me. The “real” you so to speak, is what can not collapse. So maybe there are idea’s of you, which would collapse. If so, what would be the loss, if any? Sort of seems like all you’d lose is the worry, fear, stress, etc, of not being you as you are. Seems like you’d be happier.

@TDW1995 What would happen if you were embarrassed? What would that mean, what would that amount to?

@VeganAwake Thanks. By creating dualities I didn’t mean splitting God in half. I mean the distinctions you’re making. What about the other questions, any thoughts?

Add the filter of “if this thought doesn’t feel good to me, it’s not going to feel good to another” and you’ll forget this was ever a problem. Also, learn from your karma.

There is no assertion.

What was the fear like before you started believing you need someone else?

First “comes” the only actual sensation....unconditional love (which is actually you, and you don’t come & go). Then a thought (duality) is “added”, and an “emotion” is created & experienced. It IS the judgement.......”the feeling is negative”. Who would you be, without judging feelings? States come & go within I am. By creating the distinction of “state”, you are inherently pointing to that which comes & goes, vs what is “constant”. It is you which is constant, not states. If there is something that in the relative (I am separate) perspective doesn’t suit me, or is not beneficial to that belief that I am separate - then I would label that - a “problem”. When that perspective is let go, being seen as “self” serving, but not at all Self serving, then there is no “problem” anymore. When you ask if I experience “problems”...you are asking if I judge situations or people as “problems”, or if I just see that they simply are, as they are. They are, as they are. “ I “ could never be “in” peace. I am peace...states, problems, distinctions, feelings, thoughts, perspectives...these come and go. Peace does not come and go. Music comes and goes in silence, silence doesn’t come & go. You might be thinking...and trying to find, in thinking, if you should feel ashamed. Take a step back from that, and honestly ask yourself if you even believe in shame to begin with. If the answer is yes, given how it feels - why continue believing in it?

@Buba You could, now, realize it is the judgment which feels bad, wether you are judging gay people, being gay, yourself, or anyone else. The feeling says your perspective is not true altogether. Why recreate the same perspective over and over when feeling guides you? Do you ever feel like, “maybe I’m wrong about something here”....”maybe it’s been fine to feel fine the whole time, and there never was a “problem”...? Is there someone in particular, that you want validation / love from? Who?

If you hadn’t done this... You wouldn’t have realized this. Why create the duality that one is seeking / not-seeking, ‘path’ / “no-path”, the way / no-way, love / headless ness, etc. Were “you” not always “on the path”? (In hindsight) Also, when you are well aware there are no dualities....that you create them...such as the direct path, and the progressive path...why continue creating them? Also, I’m just curious...when you say to people in your life... “it’s this!”, and suggest no path, no practices (when you were on the path, and you did practices) doesn’t “inner being” give you a sort of “signal”? Is there not compassion & value in explaining the “turning within” (practice) to help others? What are your thoughts on thriving in the ‘practical’ / relative world by first developing a strong confidence in “self” and then deconstructing, rather than not addressing things like self confidence, self esteem, etc, at all?

When you let go of judging yourself, you have heard the message of your feelings, and your abdomen, fear, and panic subside.

There were two birds on a wire, and both felt shame and guilt. There was one bird on a wire, and it never occurred to him to think on behalf of another.

“There’s nowhere you can be that isn’t where you’re meant to be...it’s easy!...”