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@wk197 Awesome. Yes, meditation makes it much easier to choose a better feeling thought, and also to allow intuition in. Careful not to short change yourself of the joy that is this journey, you certainly don’t need meditation. Maybe... what you need is contrast, so there can be experience... and what you want is to become aware of the meaning you’ve been assigning, to begin to see that you are. Also, you = now. Identical. The same. Notice, that as you are aware of arising thoughts...you are what’s aware of, thoughts. You are the awareness, transcendent, of thoughts - and anything they ever appear to imply about you. Thoughts arise only within you, thoughts arise only now. You might try the practice of ’the witness’, or ’observer mode’...just as much as is possible in your days...no reactions, just observance. This makes it easy to become aware of any reactions currently at play, and frees that surface thought layer of repetition. From there you notice voluntary thinking, and that’s a solid glimpse.

@Buba Well, those thoughts too. I was just asking if you were aware of the thoughts, and the coming & going of them. Finding out the answer on reincarnation, and moving forward from that pain, are really the same thing.

@Buba Are you aware of these thoughts?

@Bazooka Jesus Infinite Humor. ???

@Bno An additional perspective...in the from green to yellow vein...what can you share with me about the green views, which is other than your thoughts, perception, and sensation?

Thinking carried through the days which is of the nature of separation, is not transpiring in sleep. Upon awakening, the ‘facade’ of ‘ I am separate’ is resumed, and after awakening in the morning, in hindsight, we call that resuming , a ‘dream’.

@mandyjw ♥️? ?

Letting the thought go, one is free of it. This is done now, or not done now. “Often”, Nahm, should be, etc, all thoughts arising which can be let go. And there is just....

Because realizations fit in an empty cup.

@wk197 Indeed there is truth to what you say, but it points to a plain, simple truth rather than anything hard. You are indeed spiritually gifted, selfless, and loving. In fact everyone is, and our gifts fit together in absolute perfection, like a perfect perpetual puzzle which needs no solving. Give the dream board a try. To put it simply...it is like a car, in that the thought of a car, or the thought of driving a car somewhere...is really not at all like a car, or actually driving a car somewhere. It can seem like they are they same, but in having them both to compare, we find they are not so much the same.

The lane? How’s your diet? If I was suffering....would you offer any reason as to why I should continue suffering? Have you read much on the difference between pain & suffering, in the Buddhist traditional sense? Feel for ya man.

@remember You might have taken that the opposite way, or I said it wrong, not sure. ?? (leaves for Pub)

@Neph That’s a call only you can make, but I’d buckle down on the fundamentals of diet, fitness, cleaning up the thoughts, & meditation. Do some writing about feelings, discover the message the feelings are telling you....what perspective / worries you’re holding, what you’re resisting. The minute you do, and relax and let it go, you’ll start feeling better.

@fridjonk ??? @Neph I discovered how I was creating it, without noticing...around twenty years ago, and never a blip since. Get all the help you can, but also be aware there is the movement that you need something underlying, reinforcing. Godspeed, I know it’s definitely not a fun stage on the path. ?? ♥️ And mushrooms are mushrooms, drugs are what doctors recommend without even having tried it themselves.

The funnest, healing, exciting, amazing. ??

Pure consciousness forgets ➡️ experience ➡️ one-at-a-time-linear-stream of thoughts ➡️ reactionary ‘choices’ ➡️ ‘regular living’ ➡️ life asleep. The hero’s journey home, if you will. “Within”... ⬇️ thoughts...inspected, seen through...let go ⬇️ feelings...understood as intelligence, known as guidance. ⬇️ insights...falsities dispelled, truths revealed. ⬇️ intuition...emotional intelligence & guidance in life ⬇️ epiphanies ⬇️ realizations ⬇️ channeling, siddhis, healing, etc ⬇️ Self Realization...pure consciousness...awareness aware of awareness.

I truly don't want any of these things to be happening, so why approach them with love? Derive what you do want, line up with it, and watch it all unfold right before your eyes. What's the "benefit" of loving everything? The life you actually want. Feelings you have not yet known. Indeed, “The kingdom of heaven is within you” -Jesus Discover the unthinkable profundity of this reality changing truth.

@Chumbimba If you’re at all around this place, try Jin Shin Jyutsu . Don’t let the “spa” style reading of the page fool ya, the owner / operators are two of the most enlightened people on earth. Since you have a while, save up and schedule a massage to get nice & relaxed, and then a 90 min Jin Shin session with both owners together. I’ve tried modalities in a lot of countries, and ime the absolute best of the best is right there in your backyard. Now till May is perfect timing to make a dream board, to draw from within everything & anything you want in life and get it up there in front of your eyes & mind. This will actually help bring up that fear & neediness you mentioned, in an incredibly positive and gently manageable manor. Dream bigger than big, outrageously big, unrealistically big - like wake up the mother f’n Lion within big. By diving into wanting / feeling, you’ll be tapping into emotional intelligence, intuition, & subconscious, setting the stage, which will come into play in the most delightful ways on the retreat. Solo retreats have a way of all the work you’ve been doing ‘popping’, and culminating in the greatest of life changing ways. That fear & neediness...start on that now. You can completely change all of that, - you will change all of that, and it’s not typically done in one big life changing event, but rather over time by being attentive to the relationship between thought & feeling in a way you haven’t been before. Thought has been ‘leading’ in life, and when certain thoughts / perspectives didn’t feel good in the past...thought prevailed, and feeling took a back seat. Daily meditation helps slow everything down so you can relax and calmly casually ‘dial in’ to this relationship. In short, the feelings were always true, always guidance, but life sometimes dictates a ‘pushing through it’, or a ‘manning up’. So the ‘reversal’ is handing the leadership if you will, from thinking, over to feeling. What you’ll find is that feelings like fear and loneliness are pure love...veiled & suppressed, by having believed the thoughts and perspectives, in spite of feelings essentially saying “that ain’t true”. Take time each day to go slow with each arising thought in those categories, and ‘massage’ each not-good-feeling-thought into a slightly better and better feeling thought / perspective. Overtime, this releases insights & epiphanies, which will greatly open up not only new perspectives, opportunities, and visions of what is possible in life, but stands to reveal an unseen underlying world of wonderful paranormal abilities & experiences. I hear you on the goal of enlightenment, and I get it. However, I would let it go. Forget awakening / enlightenment as a future goal, and remain present in the now, via meditation and realigning thought & feeling with the absolute source within. You’ll notice that sometimes you go ‘unconscious’, and you’ll naturally be attentive to thoughts & perspectives which you were previously inattentive to / just ‘accepted how you felt’. Don’t ‘accept’ shitty feelings anymore, like fear. Don’t deny or suppress them, just inspect every thought, for truth. As you weed out beliefs / false perspectives, you move up the emotional scale. You’re made of love, you’re amazing, and you’re supposed to feel amazing. In the face of pretty much the entire world’s beliefs - this is true. Do not expect or set any intentions whatsoever that there is any negative feeling ‘stuff you have to over come’. That, those perspectives, believing them - that is what the work is...seeing their falsity, and letting them go. Not “facing your fears’...but discovering the willingness to be aware of how you are creating them, and instead, creating the life you want, aligned with the always accessible God given love & guidance within. All of this is like looking for a glass of water on the ‘neediness with women’ front, and discovering a tidal wave of ’solution’ already within you. You, are the solution. As an analogy...someone who is ‘putting up’ with shit feelings, is believing their own thoughts & suppressing love, to a large degree. Then, a cheeseburger & fries seems like a great choice, because relatively speaking, the short lived experience of taste, feels better. But one who has done this work, naturally feels amazing...and a cheese burger & fries does not look the same, or even remotely appealing at all. Nothing tastes better than consciousness feels. Likewise, with all beliefs of need seen through, the woman you are confidently wanting - simply ‘shows up’ at the right time, in the most extraordinary way. Sorry if I got a bit preachy...I’m excited for ya. Enjoy! (Now)

Congrats on that. ?? Probably mentioned it before, but I’d consider trying some Reiki classes - if you want to continue down the siddhis path, that’s a great environment to develop in. There are also teacher’s of mediumship etc around these days. For what it’s worth, I see the priest too.

Neato!

@Javfly33 It’s the belief (repeated thought) that awareness is inside the body which leaves you feeling a need to feel ‘safe’...to protect that self. All is Self. Self can not be hurt, nor even blemished in any way. That is the true ‘you’, aka Truth. That is why certain thoughts / beliefs doesn’t resonate / don’t feel ‘good’ or ‘quite right’. Because every thought / belief is relative to what is absolute. One way to look at it, is there is legos. Lego’s can only experience legos. Anything can be constructed of unlimited legos, but legos = consciousness, so legos knows legos, no matter what is built, or manifested, legos knows “it” is actually legos. So legos forget’s being legos, so legos can experience something else (finite / a world). Of the “something else” experience, is thinking. If lego’s is looking for legos in thinking, It won’t be found...because legos is the awareness / consciousness, of the thoughts. ”But why is there legos?” “When did legos begin?” “Who created the legos?” There isn’t anything other than legos. No “beginnings”, no “endings”. Legos is very convincing, to itself. Legos forgets...and does not know all that is experience, is actually legos. Thoughts arise, and when believed...now it seems there is something else. Among “something else”...seems to be - a “me”. “That’s a truck!” “That’s a car!” “That’s a building!” “That’s a guy!” ⬆️ Those are the arising thoughts, which are a perspective. What those ⬆️ actually are, is legos. (“Legos” = Being; consciousness, awareness, love, intelligence, peace, infinity...these are words which arise as thoughts, and are shared & intended to “point to” the actuality that you are legos, and everything is unbelievably ok.) It’s that the gospel or, Good news, is so good...it’s literally unbelievable. Believing won’t do, because that’s still legos mistaking the content, or implications of thoughts, as truth...when the thoughts are “made of” or, “are themselves”, Truth. Truth is awareness...aware of awareness...but believing the awareness / itself / yourself...is this separate “thing”.....”thoughts”. A thought arises...the content is believed...and there is an emotional and or verbal, or physical reaction. This is living via reactionary thinking. Let the thoughts pass. Shift awareness / attention to breathing from your stomach. Let them pass. Before you contemplate death, like “what happens when”, etc...contemplate your belief in it. It is not a given that there is death, and you’re going to figure out or realize an explanation. What you’ll realize, is that it is a thought, a repeated thought, a collectively repeated and shared thought....a belief.

@Javfly33 Yeah. At least put em to good use. Like understanding how storm troopers always win Russian roulette. Or why is porn the most popular movie genre, when everyone already knows how it’s going to end. Or why is it that more people die every year from taking selfies, than anything you’re afraid of. Forum hasn’t even got to this stuff yet. Forge the way my man.

@Javfly33 Let those thought go too.

@OmniYoga In contemplating the true nature of being, the following thoughts arise......... Let the thoughts go. You might say, ‘how do I “let them go”’? Let that thought go.

What is not two is not a thing. You are not a thing.