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Had sessions with someone who said that too, almost word for word. He’s a park ranger / tree marker in Oregon now, and he’s one of the happiest people on this planet. Apparently.

Feeling calmer and more clear isn’t enough for you? Infinite Being is calm and clear. That is what “you’re” seeking. You felt Infinite Being. Drop your entitled attitude and selfish expectations. I love, that’s why I say this. Not trying to make you feel bad, trying to wake you, snap you out of this shitheadedness. NO - you’ll just feel better and better the more you do so. There’s no “click”. Feeling better not enough for “you”? Again, I love. (Slaps face) Do whatever feels good to - but for the love of God stop believing thoughts like “I’m at the end of my ropes”. Wake. Up. Dude. You don’t have to believe thoughts just because they arise. Monks have lit themselves on fire without flinching, and you’re “at the end of you ropes here”. What the fuck are you even thinking my man? Wake up! Again, I love. (Dumps bucket of cold water on you) Seriously. I can’t even. Just, no. With love my friend, so what. Man up. Stop whining. (With an odd and risky love I say this) This IS the dream - you’re free - you can do anything - and what you’re doing - is complaining! ? (♥️)

@Chumbimba You wanted emotion purged from the body, and this is it. Don’t believe these narratives the mind throws out. Express how you feel. Write about it. Stay focused on feeling, and understanding feeling. Making it about anyone else only adds a layer of unnecessary turmoil & confusion. Write a short story about it. Write letters to people in your past. (Don’t mail em) Expression is the key. Be angry if you’re angry. Cry if you can, release. Talk to someone, anyone who is a decent listener, just so you can talk and express how you’re feeling. Emotional expression is like marbles jammed in a garden hose. Gotta let em flush out. The peace of mind and understanding is the water behind the marbles. It does arise. Don’t avoid feeling, go to feeling, explore it fully, understand it, breath into it, and breath it out. Breathing deeply from the stomach resets practically every system of the body. Stop listening to just one influence. That’s an error, doesn’t matter which person you picked. Imo Leo is arguably the most open minded guru around. No offense man, but, you gotta realize you and Leo are not in the same stratosphere as far as life, the path, perspectives, awakening, however you frame it up. Not saying anyone is better than you or ahead of you or anything like that at all, just saying be smart and put what you actually need for where you’re at in front of you. And don’t fall for your own bs. If you can type on this forum, you can “research” on YouTube. Take a minute to formulate what you feel you need, and search it on YouTube. My hunch is that you did not have a strong figure / male role model growing up, and are struggling with that. Don’t underestimate the fundamentals of yoga, meditation, etc. There’s good reason these practices have been around practically forever. If you don’t have someone to talk to, let me know. It seems you’re really struggling and I’m a bit concerned for you. If you’re interested in an easy going conversation with a normal mostly boring guy, let me know, pm me. Could talk tonight.

Because there is a bogus (negative feeling) belief about yourself which is not yet recognized. The mind repeats it, analyzes it, scrutiny’s it a hundred different ways trying to bring about better feeling. This is fruitless, because the focus is still upon that which does not feel good. The only resolve is letting it go, over and over. Think of how critical Gordon Ramsey is about wether a dish makes it to the pass or not, wether it goes to the customers or not. You need to be that on point with nipping any thought which does not feel good to you in the bud, immediately choosing the opposite, better feeling perspective, and or doing things that you like, that feel good to you. Things as simple as going for a walk, which you should be doing multiple times a day, to get some air and clear out the mind. When you do, put all attention on seeing, hearing, breathing, and feeling. This indirectly takes focus off thinking. There’s nothing whatsoever for the mind to do. There’s nothing to solve. The overactivity of the mind is functioning preventatively to the body releasing old emotion. You can not ‘fall for’ the narrative, the thoughts, that the mind generates. You must focus on seeing, hearing, feeling, breathing, and allow emotions to pour out. It will, don’t fall for believing any thought narrative when it does pour out. This is only about feeling & release. Thinking has zero to do with it, but will try to ‘get a hand in it’ every step of the way. Be strong with this intention, yet fluid and flexible, letting thought comes & pass. Focus elsewhere to do so. By what I mentioned above. There are facets of identity / separate self still attached to, and those are the thoughts coming up. Do attempt to ‘change beliefs’, let them go. Beliefs never solve beliefs. Truth is the Remedy. Awareness is curative. There are however, oodles of thoughts about you which do point to the truth of you. You are loved, infinitely. You are capable of loving, infinitely - with no end, and no bottom. You are cable of loving yourself without end or limit, (though that doesn’t make sense linguistically), it is true. You are formless in truth, and thus, immeasurably flexible & fluid. You are perfect as you are, and you are absolutely innocent as you are. Not one single thing needs to change about you, you are absolutely perfect, as you are. You are not bound to any idea or plan whatsoever, you can change anything, and can do so in alignment with what feels good to you. You do not have to be, think, or feel as anyone else suggests. You do not have to have concern whatsoever for what anyone thinks or says about you. You are a living breathing limitless potentiality. The worries of this day, or this stage do not define you, and will pass. You will feel your potential, as you let go of focusing on things (and thoughts are things) which do not feel good to you. You are taking the profoundly beautiful message of the dream, and honing in on the emotional variance, rather than the content, or getting the message. The dream tells you life is awesome and amazing. You’re ‘telling the dream’ how terrible your life is. Stop volleying with God, you will not win. Let the shithead perspectives about you and your life go. None of it is true, none of it is in the direction of Truth. Sorry for that language you know I love you. Yes. Don’t think about this. Don’t poo poo it. Just do it without thinking. Keep a dream journal next to your bed. When you wake up, write the nuts and bolts of the dream down - and then drop it completely. Don’t give it a second thought. Then, later in the day, when the emotional response to the message of the dream has fully calmed, and you are clear headed...then go to the dream journal, and read what you wrote down - without projecting emotionally on it. Hold the perspective in mind... “The dream is saying - this - (whatever the content points to) is ok - everything is ok! Stop worrying about this!” Don’t “analyze it”. Take it like a message from a 5 years old. Be lighthearted and innocent enough to hear it. We don’t sleep. Sorry if that sounds shocking at all but it’s true. Sleep is a facade, completely illusory. The dreams are not happening during the night ‘while you’re sleeping’ - they are the product of infinite being, perfect peace, Oneness - reappearing as ‘you’. When you wake up, notice you are immediately ‘coloring’ or projecting onto the message of the dream. You need to do a complete 180 on that and listen to it. The ‘dream’ is occurring as you are waking up. A simple way to say it - you’re going from perfect peace - to resuming all your bogus beliefs, and you don’t like how it feels, so you’re projecting it as “my life sucks”. No, it doesn’t. You’re just hyper aware of how terrible the beliefs feel. Let them go. Your life is awesome, even if you can not see it right now, it is. You’re awesome, even if you can’t see this right now, you are. You’re simply getting and experiencing more of what you’re focusing on. Many years of repetition of negative self beliefs have a momentum, and have distorted your experience of this place. Stop expecting immediate results, you need to feel one thought at a time, and choose to reverse this. Feeling will never align with thoughts. You tried like a champ, and it clearly ain’t gonna ever work. Start aligning thought, with feeling. Do tons of good feeling, relaxation oriented activities. Meditation, yoga, exercise, clean eating, clean reading, etc. If I may - lighten the fuck up and stop acting like anything serious is going on. It’s not, and that joke will always be on you. Don’t be a sucker, be sincere & lighthearted. Again - be flexible, you can change anything about your life - first though, relax, and let thought that don’t feel good to you go. Stop ‘falling for it’. While I’m preaching (sorry) - drop the narrative about “getting to happiness”, and psychedelics = “getting you there” / awakening, enlightenment, happiness. YOU ARE THAT. You ARE the happiness you’re looking for. I’m not saying don’t take them, I’m not saying do take them. I’m saying let the story that they will make you happy go. All that narrative is doing is reinforcing that “you’re not happy”, “that you need fixing”. It’s an immature narrative of avoidance perpetuating the sense of a separate self. All the clues you could ever need, are sensation. A perspective doesn’t feel good to you - drop it like it’s hot. You “don’t know what to do to feel better” - drop it. You don’t need to know, you don’t need to do anything. These are all stories the mind is spewing, which awareness is falling for. Just say outloud - “I don’t know, and that’s perfect”. Again, I love you, this community loves you. Stop dipping a toe on the slip & slide of thought which does not feel good to you. You put a pinky toe on it, and three days later you wake up in the ocean of it. Nip it at the bud. Master that, and you fully realize emotional mastery. There is never a problem with the world or who you - only, ever, and always - it’s a thought, which doesn’t feel good to you. The past is not a problem, the future is not a problem, who you are is not a problem - - - it’s the resistance, the contraction, the tension - and you can let it go.

@krockerman Only logically speaking, which doesn’t makes sense. Try to make sense, as in, sensation. Use infinite logic, if you will. Create it, produce it.

@assx95 No separation at all, yes?

@assx95 What is believed to be a thing looked for is itself only a belief there are things, and one who looks, at things. Inspect. Look at a thing. Find the separation between the object, the seeing, and the knowing of the seeing. What separates these? You’ll notice thoughts arise, such as “things”, “objects”, “seeing”...notice the thoughts, and look for the separation between the knowing of the thoughts, and the thoughts. What separates these? Then consider dreams, and the knowing of them. Look for the separation. What separates them? What is the literal actual separation between the dream state, and the waking state, and the knowing of these? What separates these? You’ll notice thoughts arise, such as “I do”, “me”, “one is this”, “the other is this”. Notice the thoughts, and look for the separation between the knowing of thoughts, and the thoughts. What separates the knowing of the dream state, from the knowing of the waking state? Give consideration to perception. If you can not find separation between objects, seeing, and knowing, nor of the dream state, waking state, and the knowing - what is perception? Notice thoughts arise, and look for the separation between the thoughts and the knowing of. Then look for the separation between knowing, and the I, and the myself. What separates these from knowing?

Indeed. So woke, even his name is but a reference to localized energy.

@OmniYoga Relativity. Side note, ‘your subconscious’ is telling ‘you’ reality is an unbound pure & free creation.

Guy walks into a bar, bartender tells him about the highest perspective.

@krockerman My experience is part of the whole. A drop in the ocean. The “fact” that I am looking at it. The claim is logical. Just doesn’t make sense.

@krockerman I’m looking at it. That does appear logical. Doesn’t make any sense though.

So you’re saying there is this “infinity” huh? What’s it like?

@krockerman Right. How logical is 1?

This is a group project the three of you are working on? What exactly are you telling people about then? What’s the content, the actual words? That is the belief at play. That isn’t true at all, you believe it is. It justifies your ideologies. But feeling is saying, no, no sir. Wow. You you you. Ok. Maybe everyone else could have some too? Perhaps you could share? ? Seems like you’re claiming the whole damn experience imo. Well on your way to solipsism. You know, McDonalds says their food is good. Up to you though.

@krockerman 1 + 1 is pretty logical, no? Not. Two.

Subjectivity, the sneaky transparent lens.

@krockerman You’re writing of nonduality with “logic”, and you don’t realize you’re doing it.

@assx95 Nonduality, implying “not two”. So, is there a ‘you’ working toward ‘something’? Is there a ‘you’ which ‘took on ideologies’? Aren’t they as they appear - your own ? How could an ‘us’ experience not two? Ultimately, who’s belief is this climbing up stairs concept?

@Rasheed Mind’s awakening to that there are no coincidences, this paradigm can be let go that a new more expansive than coincidences paradigm is known.

@assx95 What aspect do you have in mind?

Religion is so good at weeding out the ego, that it doesn’t even realize it’s believing in “religion”. Impressive, imo.

@assx95 What’s awakening mean to you?

@Raptorsin7 Hard to hold those beliefs while sleeping?

@beastcookie What is alive?