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@rnd It’s fair to say the recognition of projection is a mental metamorphosis.

@rnd The ‘sleepy phase’ is a facade, and yet a natural part of the psychedelic onset. You might say the brain or mind isn’t used to the frequency of brain waves it’s being tuned too. So, so to speak, it figures ‘oh it’s sleepy time’ / ‘I’m tired’. Never take a psychedelic if you are tired, and never mentally buy into the “sleepiness” shortly after ingesting. Do the exact opposite next time. Don’t go lay down or even sit still. Stand up and extend your arms fully out to your sides, and take deep belly breaths and let them out slowly, feeling your whole body as you do. Do some stretches. Nothing intense though, just because it’s lively & feels good. This sends signals through the bodymind that you’re awake. Might also bring about a little lightheartedness… I once made a ‘rule’: no focusing on any thinking whatsoever the first hour in the morning & the last hour at night. It was clearly seen here that the quality of thoughts in these timeframes was very poor relative to the rest of the day. Life & death are literally as you experience them right now, as thoughts, and that’s all. There is no reason & certainly no benefit to thinking about death, especially while taking a psychedelic. The discord of the thinking is resistant to the desired experience - the kind of experience you actually are wanting - from the psych. So if it seems like you had a bad ayahuasca experience, consider maybe it was just tired thinking, and a psych as gas on that fire, and (unfortunately) natives not as well prepared & versed as they could be imo. Also, I have a hunch you went into the experience thinking you’ll experience death. That third drink would have likely been the game changer. No worries though. Better & better trips to come. We all learn as we go really.

Nothing is more convincing than exemplifying. I’d say nothing about it. He’ll inevitably inquire.

@Arje This might be helpful… Also noticing how sneaky thought is, noticing conflicts in thought, and realizing why some thoughts feel off will result in more & more equanimity and inspiration.

@Thought Art That’s the spirit! ?? Godspeed.

@thenondualtankie Yes it is. Feel into what album I’m listening to right now. Don’t think about it. Clear your mind and feel and hear it. Also, start first with symbols. Much easier.

@Thought Art If I persist you’re going to hate me. I don’t mind, but let me know if you’re interested.

@YeahIam Yes, judgement definitely ruins relationships. How does it feel to you if I look past where you’re at in life so to speak, what your experiences have been, etc, and chalk you up as ‘low consciousness’? A bit void of understanding, empathy and compassion, isn’t it? For you to up hold that belief, forsake all relationships. Rethink & redesign your entire life such that you can remain isolated. That way your belief is never confronted, and the underlying beliefs never have to be addressed. Find a substance and or objectify and use people to suppress the discord, and rationalize your conflicting perspectives. Otherwise, the defending of beliefs can be noticed by noticing conflicting statements & perspectives. These secondary beliefs (perspectives expressed) are the rationalizations and justifications of the primary belief. The fundamental belief is that you are exceptional in comparison to other people, in that something is wrong with you, or that you have a shortcoming of some sort, or that you are not good, or good enough, exactly as you are. As an example… “I wrote this post in hope of any helpful feedback and not because I'm curious about why social people are very skillful at being social” ”How come all those low consciousness people have these amazing social skills?” And - you’ve got to say so to speak, ‘that’s alright’. That’s alright if I’ve got some beliefs and conflicting perspectives. Everyone does at some point. That’s ok if I’ve been rationalizing my beliefs and projecting. You are not being hurt by social interactions. You are feeling the discord of the conflicting beliefs, of your own interpretations. And that is alright. It’s innocent.

@Thought Art Nope. You’re still doing that exact same thing there. ?

Think. Believe. ‘Therapy or talking with a psychologist’ is not felt, is not feeling. You are very much already feeling. What you are feeling is powerlessness and insecurity. Some people just talk to a therapist or whoever, and you’re aware of this, and jealousy feels way better than powerlessness & insecurity. There is something you can do about it. You can do what other people do, which works. If you talk to someone sincerely, express what you really are feeling, you definitely gonna cry and experience a lot of release & relief.

Because they aren’t “in their head” focusing on conceptualizations of experience, like high & low consciousness people. “Amazing social skills” is a projection based on the holding of that belief. Not being manipulative to compensate for discordant beliefs isn’t a doing (an acquired skill). Not being miserable from not holding these beliefs & employing judgment of others to sustain the belief, naturally attracts. You’ve allowed yourself to believe conceptualizations from people who are not experiencing what you desire to experience, but convince you they know from direct experience nonetheless. You haven’t realized they do this for self image, for how they believe they’re seen, which is the “stuck in your head”.

@Illusory Self The mind isn’t an enemy, it’s the greatest ally. To blame the mind is to suppress feeling with concept(s). Via the mind you can understand how you’re creating the emotion of unworthiness, and you can express jealousy which feels significantly better. There is no cure / the cure is realizing how you’re creating the emotion of unworthiness. No longer doing so, no cure is sought because the discord is no longer felt. It’s between you & source so to speak. Not you and dating, approaching, gaming, etc. Those are conceptualizations to remain in aversion.

@Thought Art You’re framing the discord of doubt as if it were do to something external or something against you which you are facing. Essentially, “If this doesn’t work I’m throwing in the towel”. It is that thinking which is discordant.

@lmfao I know / see it because I feel it too. Jealousy’s a good feeling. I know, takes a minute to ‘get there’, to accept that, but it is. It has a lot to do with outlook, consciously focusing on wanted, looking forward to things & allowing them to come. I saw someone driving an adult sized go kart recently and felt the ol’ ‘I want that!’. Right now I’m using youtube to fix a pellet fireplace… which I’m going to sell online, and use the money to buy a go kart. ?? Just an example, maybe helpful. Wish me luck as I have no idea what I’m doing. Thank God for Youtube lol.

@Windappreciator What’s living? Conscious creating, yes indeed.

I’d read every single sentence and then inquire, who am I actually talking about…? Then I’d consider, what am I really talking about…? ? Not so much for now, but going forward, don’t underestimate daily meditation, the dreamboard, and emotional scale. ?

@lmfao It’s not guilt, and my state, lamentation & delusion are concepts, aversion from feeling. It’s jealousy. There are lots of folks enjoying life. I’m one of them, and if I were in your shoes, I’d express hate for this situation, and then anger & the admittance of discouragement, and so on.

@Thought Art You don’t know how to handle doubt, because intense discordant thoughts about a separate self arise and cloud. Doubt is an emotion and is the discord of those self referential thoughts. But you’re not quite listening. How loud must the background hum of happiness, of this universe you are being, get? The way to hold oneself in disappointment, overwhelment & frustration is to refuse to admit and express, that you are feeling those emotions, in regard to what you’re thinking. The discord and the hum are guidance. But you’re still being a bit ornery, stubborn, and hard headed about beliefs.

Do look. Don't resist, avert and suppress the truth. Accept that is you, and do what you can to help. If you aren’t situated & able to presently, mindfully plan to when you can. Let it inspire you beyond ‘yourself’. Allow yourself to know yourself as your creation. Take it all in fully. That is what aversion via conceptualizing feeling looks like. It usually kicks off with ‘others’ thinking. Enjoyment isn’t statistical, analytical, or conceptual, but thinking makes it so. Express feeling instead.

Investigate who is this separate self, which is not consciousness, but ‘has a state of consciousness’, who “feels lack”, and “feels anxiety”. Maybe the discord is of that first belief, and the second & third are conceptual attempts to rationalize it, which aren’t working. Motivation is a mental paradigm contingent on there being that separate self, the one who has a motive and is or is not motivated. But inspiration is the surrendering of the paradigm of beliefs in the separate self. Preference arises, consciousness be’s that. It’s unthinkably simple, without the conditioned conditional materialist paradigm (my state of consciousness). Everything is always working out for you. There is only to acknowledge & release the discord felt when ‘getting in the way’. There’s no ‘you stuck in many areas’. That’s a fourth belief / justification / rationalization of the discord. The fundamental belief consciousness is something you have discordantly effects the entirety of experience, which is of course, the consciousness which consciousness holds the beliefs about. The path you’re on so to speak, isn’t really the path, it’s aversion… conceptualizing yourself (consciousness). The synchronicity of the emptiness of the unit is showing this, is this, as apparently the discord isn’t quite enough. But it can be allowed to be enough.

The truth is you already are, and you feel every itsy-bitsy discordant thought, behavior and action to the contrary.

@Opo political leanings affects fetishes What if it’s the other way around?

? I also like the matrix as paternal, always something to learn from, and the absolute as maternal, just ever loving.

Regret is a thinking. Not seriousness, sincerity! What do you actually want?!

I’m not asking about what you don’t want, or what you can’t do. With sincerity God damn it!