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@ShardMare I was asking in a slightly different context. I’m not asking if you feel it, I am asking if you understand what you’re experiencing is jealousy. Essentially that other people are happy and you desire happiness.

@LfcCharlie4 Can’t possibly recommend it enough. But like you said only when ready & if it’s what’s desired. So much love every which way you turn, ya be tripping over it. ??

@Judy2 Spiritual ego is a weaving of new identities out of illusory experience to compensate for emotional ignorance that was never addressed. Conditioning, …shadow work, ‘emperor’s new clothes’ as they say. All thought attachment & suppression. @Nadosa Exactly. ??

Listen to feeling, not belief and discordant misinterpretation. People arriving at assumptions for not having directly experienced spread ignorant conjecture. Ya gotta not believe discord simply for how it feels. It’s all the same light wether the communication is through the internet, sound waves vocally, or telepathically, and that is really introductory. There is unthinkable mystical (normal) experience to be experienced. There is a sweet spot between ignorance and nondual snobbery. It’s bigger than a football field, yet is so commonly missed via thought attachment, arrogance, pride, vanity, and overall really, ignorance & suppression.

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@ShardMare Time & money. Lots of time, no money, not the funnest. Lots of money, but no time, not so great either. You can have and experience what you want. Making a dreamboard makes it easy. It’s a matter of focus, and ‘getting out of your own way’. It’s not a matter of motive and effort, but of knowing & focusing on what you do want, and allowing it. Discordant perspectives are a refuting, not an allowing. This, the experience, is heading somewhere. If you don’t like where you think it’s headed, change the thinking focused upon. Other students experiencing the same school aren’t suffering because they aren’t holding depressive perspectives. Dreamboard makes it’s very easy to be looking forward joyfully, now. Most practically speaking, definitely get that gun out of your possession. It’s tragic when a young person hasn’t let their conditioned discordant perspectives go yet, and does something from that youthful ignorance which dramatically changes the course of their life, only to later realize their troubles were their own discordant interpretations and perspectives all along. Don’t internalize conditioning and resent the world or others, it’s circular thinking and is depressive, and is cowardly. Don’t fall for it by believing you are not enough, or you are not loved, or you are not love. You very much are. Express jealousy instead. It is how you receive what you want, the knowing of what you want, and is what you write on that dreamboard, and reality does become as you focus. Always has been. Takes some letting go of discordant views, and some humility, and some caring about how you feel. Much love. Choose self respect. Care about what you think, say and share. Choose alignment. Care about yourself, your life, and this, which is your creation. Exercise every morning. Meditate every morning. Eat clean. Make a dreamboard. Express & understand the emotions you are experiencing. You aren’t emotionally numb, clearly. You just don’t like how your perspectives & interpretations feel. Reach for a better feeling thought. Have fun with it. Do so simply for the magic of how it feels. See what becomes of it. If you do, you will be so ever pleasantly surprised.

Those are just beliefs. Psych’s are unique in the sense they show that there isn’t experience or psychedelics. Same as any other trip, you’d have to actually go see.

And when you die what’s seen is that it was all thoughts, including you and death.

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@ShardMare Do you understand that you want to feel better, and lots of people are feeling better, and what you are experiencing is jealousy?

@ShardMare Are you saying you don’t want to feel better / feel more?

@ShardMare ?? What emotion are you experiencing there?

How so?

The bravest thing you could do is find out that isn’t actually true.

@ShardMare @Medhansh It’s not that you aren’t feeling, it’s that you don’t like what / how (the emotion) you are feeling.

@rnd It’s fair to say the recognition of projection is a mental metamorphosis.

@rnd The ‘sleepy phase’ is a facade, and yet a natural part of the psychedelic onset. You might say the brain or mind isn’t used to the frequency of brain waves it’s being tuned too. So, so to speak, it figures ‘oh it’s sleepy time’ / ‘I’m tired’. Never take a psychedelic if you are tired, and never mentally buy into the “sleepiness” shortly after ingesting. Do the exact opposite next time. Don’t go lay down or even sit still. Stand up and extend your arms fully out to your sides, and take deep belly breaths and let them out slowly, feeling your whole body as you do. Do some stretches. Nothing intense though, just because it’s lively & feels good. This sends signals through the bodymind that you’re awake. Might also bring about a little lightheartedness… I once made a ‘rule’: no focusing on any thinking whatsoever the first hour in the morning & the last hour at night. It was clearly seen here that the quality of thoughts in these timeframes was very poor relative to the rest of the day. Life & death are literally as you experience them right now, as thoughts, and that’s all. There is no reason & certainly no benefit to thinking about death, especially while taking a psychedelic. The discord of the thinking is resistant to the desired experience - the kind of experience you actually are wanting - from the psych. So if it seems like you had a bad ayahuasca experience, consider maybe it was just tired thinking, and a psych as gas on that fire, and (unfortunately) natives not as well prepared & versed as they could be imo. Also, I have a hunch you went into the experience thinking you’ll experience death. That third drink would have likely been the game changer. No worries though. Better & better trips to come. We all learn as we go really.

Nothing is more convincing than exemplifying. I’d say nothing about it. He’ll inevitably inquire.

@Arje This might be helpful… Also noticing how sneaky thought is, noticing conflicts in thought, and realizing why some thoughts feel off will result in more & more equanimity and inspiration.

@Thought Art That’s the spirit! ?? Godspeed.

@thenondualtankie Yes it is. Feel into what album I’m listening to right now. Don’t think about it. Clear your mind and feel and hear it. Also, start first with symbols. Much easier.

@Thought Art If I persist you’re going to hate me. I don’t mind, but let me know if you’re interested.

@YeahIam Yes, judgement definitely ruins relationships. How does it feel to you if I look past where you’re at in life so to speak, what your experiences have been, etc, and chalk you up as ‘low consciousness’? A bit void of understanding, empathy and compassion, isn’t it? For you to up hold that belief, forsake all relationships. Rethink & redesign your entire life such that you can remain isolated. That way your belief is never confronted, and the underlying beliefs never have to be addressed. Find a substance and or objectify and use people to suppress the discord, and rationalize your conflicting perspectives. Otherwise, the defending of beliefs can be noticed by noticing conflicting statements & perspectives. These secondary beliefs (perspectives expressed) are the rationalizations and justifications of the primary belief. The fundamental belief is that you are exceptional in comparison to other people, in that something is wrong with you, or that you have a shortcoming of some sort, or that you are not good, or good enough, exactly as you are. As an example… “I wrote this post in hope of any helpful feedback and not because I'm curious about why social people are very skillful at being social” ”How come all those low consciousness people have these amazing social skills?” And - you’ve got to say so to speak, ‘that’s alright’. That’s alright if I’ve got some beliefs and conflicting perspectives. Everyone does at some point. That’s ok if I’ve been rationalizing my beliefs and projecting. You are not being hurt by social interactions. You are feeling the discord of the conflicting beliefs, of your own interpretations. And that is alright. It’s innocent.

@Thought Art Nope. You’re still doing that exact same thing there. ?