Nahm

I hear ya. It takes momentum, practice. Not trying to ‘beat up on’ your post or anything btw, just trying to give my best & help. I think you get that. This version of self inquiry might be helpful. IN a nutshell, it’s proposing the question and then looking to feeling for the answer. In a way it is a more advanced practice, so maybe check out others on the list too and see if any click. Interesting & thanks for sharing that. I sensed a rather tremendous intelligence behind your post. That’s why it seemed to me you might be trolling. Sorry bout that. For sure. Two cents... swiftly let go of anything that doesn’t resonate, doesn’t feel great, and hone in / dial in to what resonates with you. That which ‘we’ resonate with, the vibration ‘itself’ is “it”, so to speak. I heard you on the not listening to too many videos but can’t but suggest Abraham Hicks. A bit different than most, and it’s all feeling and connection through feeling oriented. Good stuff. Godspeed on your path!

Hatred, inferiority, selfish, selfless, are like fear. You keep saying it is, and it keeps seeming it is. Don’t be a robot just repeating shit you learned from sleepers. You learned it, let it go altogether, unlearn it. You didn’t bring that garbage into this place with ya. You are the creator of your reality. Are you even singing properly on the daily bruh? You know ego HATES singing, let alone the notion of singing “in front of people”. Ego like to know, like it’s all solid & black & white, and NEVER speaks of vibration. Turn this place upside down in one fell swoop. Sing.

You’re not an object in time. That’s only in accordance to a story you keep thinking, believing & telling, that you are. But you aren’t. You’re what now is. That’s because there’s no actuality of a “my experience”. There’s no “you”, contrary to apparent popular belief. Aware of perception, never perceiving awareness, aware of the thoughts “I” & “my”, and the thought label “experience”. Awareness is what already is directly aware of perception (seeing, hearing, etc). There’s no “you” in there anywhere. “You” is a thought, awareness is directly aware of. Proof read for contradictions and reap low hanging fruits of clarity. ? ‘The itch’ is a sensation. “Itch” is a thought. The sensation is sensation. No need to label it anything otherwise. Except for communication, like “Dr I’m pretty sure this leg is broken”. Notice you don’t see or hear an itch, it is sensation. “The mind” hijacks it with a label. “Body” is the same scenario. Body is a word, a thought, a label, and never in perception or sensation. Good word for communicating, not a good thought for awareness to attach to. There’s no “you” which has awareness. You can google and read on the materialist paradigm. There are not consciousnesses, or, awarenesses. The words even sound ridiculous. There is not “my” consciousness, and “your” consciousness. “My” & “your” are thoughts, awareness is directly aware of. Google “monkey mind”, and notice you ain’t a monkey. Even if you think and act like one, awareness is aware of awareness. (Monkey’s a thought, like mind). Par for the course. Just return focus again on consciously breathing from the stomach. It’s good to notice in direct experience that one can not focus simultaneously on thought, and breathing consciously from the stomach. That can be an all day ‘practice’, and it’s very efficient. Awareness is directly aware of sensation. “Background”, like “internal” is a thought. Focusing on consciously breathing from the stomach, the mind settles, the activity of ‘thinking’ quiets, and awareness is ‘revealed’, awareness already is / was, but is sort of discovered for the first time, so to speak. Then...revisit awareness (actual you) of awareness (actual reality). “Object” is only a thought. There is no such “thing” in perception or sensation. FEEL sensation, notice it has no edges. Examine peripheral vision, notice “edge” or “border” is only a thought. There’s no “edge” of perception. “Stuff behind you” is a thought, an assumption, not direct experience in regard to perception. Appreciate the infinite “level” of smoke & mirrors at play. Lighthearted, fun, natural curiosity. Not “achieving”, “obtaining”, “awakening”, etc. Just seein what’s actual. “I’m” can not be without thought, “I’m” is a thought. Notice there’s no actual direct experience of “perceiving” “my presence”. Presence ain’t yours because there’s no you. Just presence. By inspecting, expressing, investigating, exactly like you are. An “I” can never, and will never be aware, because awareness is already aware of the thought. Catch usage of the word / thought “it”. “It” is the great veil of subject object thinking. Say what a “thing” actually is, and “it” unveils to “you” reality as “it” actually is. (Without a subject or object) Awareness has never perceived sensations. Awareness is directly aware of perception, there’s no actuality of an experience “perceiving”, nor “perceiving sensations”. Awareness is directly aware of sensation, which is not plural, either. Don’t believe that thought. Which is easy if awareness stops claiming itself! There’s no “thing”, no “something” in perception. Perception just is perception. Thought (like thing, or something) just is thought.

When you wake up tomorrow, notice it’s an assumption based on that you slept, which you had no actual direct experience of. It’ll make it obvious you’re a lucid dream. When “you” are “awake”, God is asleep. When “you” are somewhere else, who knows & who cares where that could be, God is wakefulness. Don’t get caught with your pants down awakening 365 times a year...looking for what awakening is. Intercept the inception, don’t sleep on Barry O! (Don’t do drugs per se, just meant to instill some lightheartedness)

@soos_mite_ah Might be helpful, if you haven’t consider this yet...medi means middle. Meditation is ‘the middle way’. Establish ‘it’, and ‘bring it’ to whatever might be thought to be escapable or escaped from, and it is realized it’s only the thoughts that seem to be the catalyst or call for the escaping. (Not perception or feeling). Eventually being ‘in the middle’, if you could imagine being halfway between asleep and awake, I’m pointing to something similar. Not engaged, not disengaged. Free. Presence. Relaxed, aware. On the ‘beating up on yourself’ front, have a laugh about it. You’re not serious. There aren’t even two of you such that one of you could beat up on the other. It’s not actually possible, it’s hilarious, let it be funny, light, silly, nonsensical, and you’re free of it. Every time, anytime you notice it, chose to relax and laugh. It feels ‘off’ because it’s absurd, not because a single one of your thoughts are true (no offensive I hope). It’s a set up, the punchline is it’s just thoughts, which aren’t actually even about you. When we start recognizing our own thoughts aren’t even true, the body starts releasing the conditioning for the ‘years’ of believing them. Liberation. “Self help” is a thought, not anything in feeling or perception.

@Jollyjake Reiki & crystals are a heck of a two punch combo. Taken the Reiki classes yet? If not I bet you’ll love it. Expansion indeed. Been using them for many years now everyday. If interested, google ‘crystalline’, as to the unique symmetrical atomic structure of crystals, and the ‘distinction’ of amorphous. Some new ‘connections’ are bound to ensue. Crystals are like everything, and yet not quite like everything else. Also google crystal grids, interesting stuff. Another suggestion, as that connection strengthens, move the crystal(s) a foot farther away progressively, feeling into the same connection as you do. By the time they get to the other side of the room, the room ‘fills up’. Have fun & great share man! ??

This is it alright. The trip report recontextualized! ? Thanks for sharing you beautiful sob!

@Kundalini Cataclysm Nice. One can also contemplate, what is a death which is not a suicide? What is separate and comes to end, such that it’s end was not within it’s beginning all along? The seed was of the apple, the apple of the tree, the tree of the seed. ”What” dies, ”Who” dies, “I” dies, “you” dies. Awareness simply remains. Aware of these thoughts now, too. ”Seeds” and “trees” and “apples”, two. The eternal One, aware of “you”.

You are yourself. Who knows your self? Nothing true is known of you! Smoke & mirrors, a truth & who.

@Loving Radiance

The addiction is only to thoughts. Meditation.

@Loving Radiance Like water.

@Conscious life Survival’s a thought. Try to literally find it, point to it. Like death, birth, individual selves. Literally point to these, exactly, specifically these. Not notions, not thoughts about these.

@Nivsch Nature is best, screen is worst. ♥️

Directly experience, ‘stretch’ your experiencing from one end of that polarity to the other, know from direct experience, ‘check’ with, stay with feeling as you do, rather than think about it, know & expand frame of reference form direct experience. Be. Be selfless. Spend one day for others, or for someone else, with no gain at all for you. Give one single day, the entire day, hands on. Actually do this. Do the last thing you want to do, for the last person you want to do it for. Gather everything that is not critical to have and donate it. Write letters to people who’ve helped you, thanking them, like today’s you’re last day on this earth. Find the poorest most down rotten person you can and spend a day in their shoes, listening like the world and time stopped. Be them. Spend a day being a self righteous, self centered, egomaniacal asshole. Be a total fake. Pretend to do for others but make sure it’s actually only benefitting you. Only care about yourself, be as attached as possible to thoughts and the body. Fill yourself with the fear of this. Look down upon and speak down to others to make yourself feel better about your own lack of inspecting that fear and lack of authenticity and sincerity. Really be these ‘characters’ fully. See what surrender is. See what free will is. See what love is. Report back. ? ”Today it is very fashionable to talk about the poor. Unfortunately, it is not fashionable to talk with them’” - Mother Teresa

@Vibroverse Might sound absurd initially, but if you didn’t identify with / via memory, didn’t interpret through lens of individuation past future self other, and just ‘watched the show’ as awareness, nothing stops you as awareness from watching ‘any one else’s’ ‘show’. Look into quantum entanglement, uncertainty principle, what a photon’s ‘made of’, and let go deeply in meditation, and feel ‘into’ someone, rather than rely on personally identifying a yourself with memories of ‘them’. Quiet the mind, focus, feel, and listen. Deeply contemplate that you as consciousness never move, do, think, etc. Sounds insane to some, takes practice, worthwhile.

...pssst.....’everyone’....is a thought.

If one were to personalize trolling for Nahm, it’s this.

@Gabith A shot in the dark, but maybe the insight to derive is you think of the present now moment as smaller, gentle, manageable, enjoyable...and the ‘bigger picture’ of life, reality size, worldview etc, as bigger, or a big deal. The insight might be to notice only one is actual, thus trusting in source and dialing that much more into the now.

Double down on trusting intuition. ? Bring it to life in your life. Kinda magic. Just sayin.

@Nivsch I think you got Leo on the brain a little too much brother. Maybe give ‘spirituality’ a break for a while, and find some deep relaxation. Take some regular old great care of yourself! ? Sending all the love & healing vibes I can muster your way.

Peace!

@AtheisticNonduality These are the mysteries I guess. ??‍♀️

@levani No.

@RedLine How do you differentiate between you & enlightened people...you & absolute...you & nothingness...you & emptiness? What would you be without those distinctions, without those thoughts, without those beliefs, without differentiating? What is aware of the differentiating (thoughts)? Some, thing? No thing? @Breakingthewall Bit of a stretch there man.