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@Shunyata The third most fundamental aspect you’ve got going on is shame, unworthiness, and general confusion which is experienced as a lack of clarity, focus & direction. These are nothing to feel bad about or worry about. These can be expressed as well as understood. The second most fundamental aspect is holding onto beliefs that don’t feel good to you, rather than talking to someone, expressing, and or understanding. Much distraction is being employed in the daytime to remain in this discordance with yourself. In the day this is playing out as a sort of grand scheme of duality, something like ‘black vs white’, or ‘light vs dark’, or maybe ‘angels vs demons’. In the dreams this intensifies, from emotional suppression during the day (the beliefs, and the distractions) such as with ‘monsters of the dark side’, and ‘saviors of the light side’. Fantasy characters, as well as people you know from throughout your life are interwoven in the dream, also as ‘hero’s’ or ‘villains’. I’d guess the closer a person is to you in life, the more they are on the ‘hero’ side of things in the dream. That is a ‘cling’ to our hero’s also playing out in the dream, and is due to the vibrational ‘place’ of those emotions. The most fundamental aspect of what you have going is desire, in a Maslow pyramid sense, though you may or may not connect those dots. Make a dreamboard if you haven’t, and reinvent honesty and transparency. Throw out whatever you think those are and start anew.

There is much humor to appreciate, but it’s not radical, it’s subtle. Like how the focus is on the illusion of the individual, not on a nonexistent individual in a dream or dreaming. In the same sense there is nothing here for an illusion of an individual to understand, nothing which could be understood. I could see where that might be intense but an illusion can’t be gotten rid of, like a mirage in a desert can’t be gotten rid of.

@AtheisticNonduality ? Alrighty then. Much love my man.

@AtheisticNonduality So....ahhh....not exactly a ‘me’ here....being ahhh...’nonsensical’....per se. ? ?

@AtheisticNonduality That quote make sense to you?

"When you make the two one, and when you make the inside like the outside and the outside like the inside, and the above like the below, and when you make the male and the female one and the same, so that the male not be male nor the female; and when you fashion eyes in the place of an eye, and a hand in place of a hand, and a foot in place of a foot, and a likeness in place of a likeness; then will you enter the kingdom." Jesus

As Samuel Jackson says, “That is all you had to say!” Suffering is the only teacher. Life. All you need my friend is the willingness to listen to it, and the emotional scale. Where as before, you didn’t realize emotional expression was the key, and so you ruminated about the past, others, identity, and waffled in unworthiness, powerlessness, grief, insecurity, and jealousy. Now, you know what to do...express & in doing so you empty out...and you’re gonna really love the relief, clarity, and general goodness as you do... Don’t stop at jealousy or anger....keep going! Does this leave you feeling discouraged, and disappointed sometimes? I’ve been there, and hell yes it did. Blame someone, expressively, just for yourself, for your own release and well being. It is her fault! Could she be more carefulness and thoughtless!? What the hell girl, it’s only been a year?!! Do you find this leaves you worried, maybe about meeting someone you like, or love? Doubtful about your future, yourself? Probably does. That sucks to feel that way!...but expressing it is not holding onto it, which feels way worse. Emotions come & go, and a master experiences this, and learns from life. When you experience discouragement, do you sometimes end up overwhelmed? We all do sometimes. It sucks but feels better than discouragement. Do you also sometimes feel frustration, irritation, impatience? Like, lots to do but not getting any traction? How so? Express it. Express any examples that come to mind. Freely, openly. (For you, I don’t mean on the forum, unless you want to, no judges here ?. We love ya. We all have these ‘dang emotions’.) Do pessimistic thoughts arise in that impatience? Thoughts about stuff just not working it for you? Ahhhgg! That’s the worse, yet it feels better than the emotions lower on the scale, yes? Do you ever find that even though you have the energy, and stuff you want to do - you experience boredom? Boredom is weird that way, but expression changes all that weirdness. As you express, who you really are fills you up! Let it all out. Pound pavement if you like, smash some pillows! Now is the time, let it all out! Then take some deep breaths. Feel the gravity. Feel the body sink into it. FEEL relaxation, for realz. Deep breaths. Look around, notice things, notice colors, shapes, textures of all the things around you. Hear sound, all around you. Really hear it, it’s quite magical, there’s all kinds of tiny nuances in sound. How far can you hear right now? What sounds the closest to you? What is the tiniest sound? What is the deepest sound? As you see & hear, and breathe...feel the breath, feel that the body is more relaxed now, feel the relief in having address & expressed how you’re feeling. Look around. Is there anything right now, which is preventing you from just being content with this moment, as it is, without adding any conditions about how it should be, about how you should be, or about how anyone else should be? Feel the peace in this moment of contentment. Notice, you can feel this anytime, because where you are, it’s now! Wherever you are, it’s here! It’s always now & here, where contentment is! Where peace and good feeling is. Kind of a miracle really. I don’t understand it but I like it a lot too. Keep relaxing and feeling the body sink into the gravity. You’ll notice better feeling thoughts arise, hopeful thoughts. Moving forward thoughts. Thoughts like “ya, there is some stuff I look forward to, some stuff I wanna experience, some things and experiences I want to creat. Reach just a half step up...to positive belief. It feels good to believe in yourself. You are purdy! You’re the beauty of this whole place. You got a great sense of humor! You can always move forward in life fearlessly, because you know anytime things get to tough, you can relax, let your conditions go, and chill in the simple contentment of the moment. As you do, consider making a dreamboard. It feels great to write whatever you like on it, whatever you want to experience! Momentum automatically builds, just from experiencing thought about what you want, what feels good to you. Passion ensues, and it feels good. Before you know it, you’ll be one someone is jealous of! And you’ll understand how they feel, cause you’ll faintly remember having been there yourself....and you’ll probably want to help them out, and you might even tell them about the scale, and they might feel appreciation for you, for helping them, and before you know it this whole place will be consumed in a gd epidemic of appreciation, expression and feeling of goodness. I don’t know. We’ll see.

God so funny.

Clarity is pointing to what is spoken of.

@Vrubel I hear ya.

@EmptyVase Thanks Abe. ??

@EmptyVase Meh. It’s nothin. ?

@somegirl It’s like a Ferrari on pavement in comparison to that dump truck through the jungle that two grams of mushrooms was.

How kind of you.

@andyurb Music is a literal vibrational expression of our being, and as creators our music is all about emotional expression, which means me must learn to master emotional release. I have experienced what you’ve described, and this has ‘unclogged’ the ‘blockage’ every single time. Even better, upon unclogging, the flow just flows at a new height, renewed, like never before. Also, look for opportunities with cleaning diet, and if you haven’t, try earbuds and cardio. Pure magic. If you still have a ‘blockage’ and aren’t feeling the creative flow, consider reading some of these. There might be some past relationship residue in the pipes, which can flow out expressively in shades of forgiveness, and understanding, magically becoming beauty and creativity. You might also give poetry a try. It’s phenomenal for getting the rhythm going, turning pain into beauty, and ‘getting out of our heads’. Also, hopefully you’ve never tried this because you’d be in for a treat... youtube sound bowls therapy, put the biggest speakers you have on both sides of you, and just crank it and sit & relax. It tends to align, heal, release, and all around ‘wake up’ & harmonize the frequencies of the body. If all else fails, or just to renew, get out of your normal routines & environment for a few days. Nature is best. Take a trip somewhere. One more suggestion... talk to somebody new. Anybody, just someone you don’t know. It’s a way of rediscovering yourself. Doesn’t sound like much, nor music related, but it is and it’s subtle though powerful.

@ivankiss Oh ya, totally.

@ivankiss Indeed. That’s beautiful brother. Effortless beauty.

Funny in a way how anyone experiencing impatience simply does not have the time.

“You imagining” is a misnomer. It begets conceptualizing, thinking, because it is the product of conceptualizing, thinking. Best to pretend it was never heard, or realize in truth it wasn’t. A tree in the woods. Being, is being. Nothing to think about. “Chair” is a thought. Conditioning. ‘That’ - is neither “a chair”, nor is it a “thing” “you” are “imagining”. Maybe...since loa is happnin anyways....what is desired to be experienced, created.

@ivankiss Brought to mind when Rupert Spira was asked about the video which showed a “choice” can be detected with technology six seconds prior to the “person” recognizing “their choice”...he said...”it’s definitely safe to surrender”. So funny the illusion of the knower... even the “choice” to “surrender”, lol! What a “place” this is!! ♥️ Pure magic.

?? That’s the stuff!

@soos_mite_ah God’s love, so to speak, is unconditional. As you are, however you are, wherever you are, whoever you are. Even an implication of a separation is a condition. Expression is the key. No one is judging, there is no judgement. Beautiful expressions imho... “Yes, I know my enemies. They're the teachers who taught me to fight me, compromise, conformity, assimilation, submission, ignorance, hypocrisy, brutality, the elite. All of which are American dreams. All of which are American dreams. All of which are American dreams. All of which are American dreams. All of which are American dreams. All of which are American dreams. All of which are American dreams. All of which are American dreams.” - Zack De La Rocha, “Today I'll play the part of non-parent. Not make a hundred rules for you to know about yourself. Not lie and make you believe what's evil, is making love and making friends and meeting God you're own way - the right way. To see, to bleed, cannot be taught. In turn you're making us fucking hostile.” - Phil Anselmo Expression is the key. ?✊?✊?✊?✊?✊?

@Ernest Werbel Thought is in a sense, an ‘outward’ expression or movement, and the true nature is what is expressing, creating, and thus will never be found there. The true nature is ‘found’ in the ‘inward’ orientation, meditatively, such as with self inquiry. The holy grail can not be thought, understood, or comprehended, only prostrated to or upon.

Welcome to the forum! ?. All that ( ⬆️ ) is referred to as “thinking”, or thoughts, or, thought. (And that is all that is). Awareness is also aware of perception, and feeling. There is no “losing sleep” or “struggling”...in perception, nor feeling. And you - are in control - of focus. Begin to notice “I have been losing sleep”... is...a “thought”. ? You have NEVER experienced sleep.