Nahm

It’s inevitable. Only apparently. Yes, consciousnesses. Which is just a word which points to you, and that would be the ‘why’, or the ‘why not’, and yet both, and of course, neither.

Don’t skip, and don’t stop short. Life’s happening for you, not to you - and only now. ‘Not going anywhere with my life’ is a discordant thought, which is now… and that is where you’re going, so to speak. Focusing. But you can listen & receive the guidance in regard to that thought. It would be most difficult to say, wether the guidance or the possibilities are more abundant. Best go with not two. A man bangs relentlessly on the monastery door, “let me in! Let Me In!!! I need to know this peace!”, to which the monk reply’s, “but if I let you in, there won’t be this peace”.

Movie: lots of people, science, hard problems, free will questions, etc. Screen: (being movie).

The best thing AI could do is explain precisely how to not monetize & weaponize AI, and proceed with demonotizing & deweaponizing earth.

Mahasamadhi Is a self referential thought like any other, the body is literal perfection and can be listened to, and there is already no ‘doer’. Relax, allow, receive.

Not to reconcile, just to unconditionally apologize. No expectation. For you, not for the relationship. As you are yourself, that isn’t possible. You could blame Nahm, or Jim or Sue, and that makes some sense. But there isn’t the ‘myself’ of ‘I blame myself’. Blame is an emotion, which is guidance in regard to how that thoughts feels. Listen to the emotional guidance, and not the believing of the thought that there are two of you. Notice it feels slightly better to express the worry, and the resulting un-suppressing of doubt, than to continue to believe & focus upon the self referential thought loop of blame. One sincerely desiring self-love, is one dispelling beliefs about one being two, and thus other than, self-love. When all beliefs are dispelled, only the truth can remain. Consciousness is infinite, and is conscious of self referential limiting beliefs about, consciousness. ‘The one’ who is or has ‘limited consciousness’, or ‘degrees of consciousness’, is actually a thought / belief, infinite consciousness is conscious of. Understanding Aversion. Going Prior.

‘Ultimate death’ isn’t a feeling, it’s a concept which is discordant. The ‘me’ thought of & spoken of isn’t a second self, but is as appears, thoughts & beliefs. Concepts of identity are fragile, and also fragile is a concept, the sense is immeasurably powerful and certain. The lens never changes and isn’t per se yours, mine or ours. A mirror is a mirror, in that a mirror is thought & perception. It isn’t possible to look at yourself in a mirror, it is possible to believe thoughts. Identity is thoughts and beliefs, and so is die / death. When ‘not there’ these thoughts & beliefs are only not focused on, and are not dying or dead, as those are also, as experienced, thoughts. The ‘me’ which has a limited level of consciousness, is only the thoughts that there is a ‘me’ which has a limited level of consciousness, and sometimes referred to as a subject-object thought, or mental fragmentation. That ‘me’ and ‘death’ are as experienced, thoughts. Meditation. The emotional scale. Subject-object thoughts. Going prior.

Translate ‘get all worked up & awkward / lose my charm’ to what emotions you experience(d), and what the guidance therein was / is in regard to self referential beliefs. It is possible to put relationships before communion, but when you do you end up making this thread.

He cares about his health. He doesn’t have pent up negative energy anymore than you, he experiences the same emotions as you. There is no negative energy, but there is judgement or the belief in it. He isn’t a deeply unsatisfied and frustrated individual, that’s defining and judging him by his experience. There’s no void inside of him. What’s in you, same as what’s in him. He’s not unhappy with the family’s money situation, he’s happiness conditioned by the family’s limiting beliefs about money. He doesn’t have negativity, he’s innocent & experiencing the suffering of ignore-ance. He isn’t unpleasant to talk to, that’s defining him with one’s opinion. Seeing him is unconditional, it’s the defining him as negative and unpleasant which doesn’t feel good. He is opening up, look at the emotions and expression vs categorizing it as complaining. At 29 it’s safe to say evidently he doesn’t have to. But helping him to see that he wants to might be fruitful. It’d follow the ‘complaining’ when not defined by & judged for what he’s expressing. The frustration & unhappiness are how the self referential thoughts feel. Maybe he is not heterosexual and doesn’t feel comfortable in that family sharing this due to judgement and being identity pigeonholed. Between that and the present money psychology, that isn’t a conducive environment to express how he really feels. But it could be. This coincides perfectly with the self-realization you desire, but don’t judge the pitch, just hit the ball.

One way… to go on from where you’re at… is not to go on in the same manor. To simply yet profoundly admit that you can’t do it all and you just can not take another step without God. This might bring about a deep sorry-ness, for things you’ve done or said, for things you’ve believed, for times you’ve looked the other way, for pressures you’ve held upon yourself. God is always there for you, always understands you, is always loving you. If you want patience, love is patience. If you want kindness, love is kindness. If you want to be without arrogance, pride, irritability, and resentment, love is without arrogance, pride, irritability and resentment. We can call it communion, we can call it prayer, we can call it meditation, we can even say that it is not, etc. It does not matter. The dream in you, and allowing it, co-creating, that matters. This might evoke inspecting some discordant interpretations, which may dispel, liberate, projections.

@Nate0068 Ego is a thought. The separate self which is or could feel into awareness, is a thought. Seriousness level is a thought. The separate self which has or had experiences, is a thought. That this human life is overwhelming a separate self, is a thought. That there is a separate self who can or can’t stop, is a thought. I feel frozen, is a thought. I can’t, is a thought. My soul, is a thought. Meditation is meditation. Overwhelment is an emotion which you are experiencing. The frustration of this, and the pessimism can be acknowledged and expressed as well. Maybe there is no actuality of seriousness. Maybe that is a covering label for holding onto what one wants to be letting go of. Put another way, maybe ‘this human life’ is not the cause. Maybe the discord is just the interpretation(s).

Do all magnifications appear in a magnifying lens? Experientially yes, actually no. Just gonna put this here…

@Preety_India If your always in the process of protecting yourself, there’s a lot of opportunity to capture this on film. Also, expressing the specific emotions experienced after the fact, over time, makes it impossible to do the same behaviors. That of course requires willingness, which may or may not be there. This is meant as a potential insight for you, to perhaps see more, and is not necessarily meant for you to attempt to convey this to her… Clearly she is expressing anger & rage, but, is there even albeit in hindsight, any expression of the discouragement she feels, is there a true allowance of the expression of blame, the admittance of worry, the truth this cycle results in little more than disappointment ‘with her self’ & her circumstances, perpetuating overwhelment all around, etc? Understandably frustrating, immensely irritating, and at this point, surely void of patience. How can she truly experience as the love & joy she is, if she refuses to express, and thus refuses to feel, and therein refutes all possibilities of contentment, of peace, of the truth? In such a magnitude of non-expression, and therein of non-letting go, and therein of so sternly & strictly identifying - how can there be contentment? And so it is for you as well. But it need not be this way. I’d act swiftly. One occurrence would be more than enough for me. These things tend not to work themselves out in the absence of honesty in expression. What will it take for her? I do not know, but from what you’ve shared, I would not be invested to any degree of waiting to see.

@Preety_India Google self defense classes in your area, see what comes up. If there are none available, take one online. How to defend yourself against someone with a weapon will be covered in the class. Use your phone or another device and film the violence, to show to the police.

Because she is choosing to go that route, not to express but suppress, not to imply it’s easy… …she’s experiencing this…. In whatever expressive way she ‘get’s there’… ‘there’ is that the thoughts & emotions are now, not the events. ‘Getting there’ is actually being present, being here, now. Now is processing the thoughts & emotions, not technically speaking, the events. The difference therein, what’s released, is the identity / identifying, the thought based binding of the past… releasing the underlying self misinterpretations / allowing love, the truth of herself. The love she is is bigger than all acceptance, understanding, compassion & forgiveness. Only you can say how to go about this on your own behalf, but sometimes ‘this is my life passing by’ kicks in, when those around are seen to be genuinely happy carrying on and moving forward. I get what you’re saying about energy, I’ve see many tolls, but in truth this is suppression unfortunately, as there is no lack of energy, or ‘dark energy’ of ‘shadow work’ or shadow ‘in her’. She isn’t per se ‘sad & angry about her’, she is the her, and is experiencing sadness & anger. Those emotions, she’s creating… they aren’t ‘about her’. Again, there is now, and these emotions are now, and are not events of a past. This is not expressing emotions, releasing, letting go, allowing vibration to rise, these are conceptualizations / suppression. Quantity of repetition of misinterpretation doesn’t add up to feeling better. Inspection / expression, releasing & letting go, then source fills in that emptied space. Again, unfortunate and so sorry to here, but the truth is she might never choose to express, and thus move forward and experience the things she desires to, because she might never acknowledge the emotions she is experiencing. Blood does blind. Talking to a therapist would be most ideal.

How do you know? What about apologizing?

What about filing a police report, and taking a self defense class?

Accept irritability but don’t settle for it. Express the pessimism & understand the boredom. Your bf sounds like the Ron Burgundy of wingmen. Maybe you’re both missing a uniquely lucrative opportunity here. I feel as if his brand and legacy will carry on just from this thread. But of course, truly, this has nothing to do with him / appearances.

Identity, denial, presence, etc aren’t nothing, they’re identity, denial, presence, etc. Nothing is really just nothing. Youtube Schrödinger’s cat. And the double slit experiment. And if interested, assumption & projection. Also if interested, basic / beginning meditation.

@Bob Seeker I think your speculations are in the right ballpark as far as her possible views. It’s hard to say much more without hearing from her. Imo it’d be best for her to try pretty much anything & everything. To be as involved, engaged & invested as she can. The bigger the variety of healing modalities in additional to medical treatment the better. It’d help more & more, simultaneously ruling out more & more. Expediting that is best imo.

@Bob Seeker Are those your speculations / guesses, or are those somewhat accurate & indicative of her views, which she expresses but doesn’t ‘look at’?

Conspiracy is when two or more people collude and break a law(s). So just ask mum who and what law. It doesn’t have anything to do with beliefs. Quite the opposite.

@WokeBloke

You’re saying the word nothing refers to something… which doesn’t exist. Nothing doesn’t refer to something. Nothing really is nothing. The word nonexistence references something, like a unicorn, which isn’t actual. Nothing’s actual. And not even, as in not two, or, this is already saying too much.