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Also, it might be helpful to be more specific with what you want. Feeling better. Accomplishing more. Letting go of self doubt or a fear, etc. Often the way to, is in inspecting what led you to look. There’s likely something you want to do or create, and a single emotion yet to be understood and expressed.

@blackchair Do you even have a dreamboard?

If you’re arguing about nonduality, you aren’t actually talking about nonduality.

Welcome to the forum! Eddie Van Halen, arguably one of the greatest & most original guitar players of all time, originally played the drums. His brother was a little better, so he played guitar so they could start a band. He learned the chords and scales, but he never tried to play much by anyone, or like anyone. If you google him and watch his more recent interviews and guest appearances I think you’ll find it enlightening. People are, of course asking him about playing guitar and being in VH, and Roth vs Hagar, etc... and all his answers are general, about living with purpose, loving life, and being yourself. To me, it seems like your mood and emotion is roller coastering a bit. I would pay close attention to how you’re thinking, and notice that is the influence of how you’re feeling, much more than the circumstance. If it takes you a year, two years, five years, ten years, to play with the ability you desire to, so be it. Understand thought & emotion, and enjoy everyday, regardless of your circumstance. As someone over twice your age, I can tell you with certainty that day where you got everything lined up and you’re happy...never comes. Happiness & inspiration are either now, or not at all. Never in a future. Notice, you define “problem”. There isn’t any problem, you only experience that way if you decide there is a problem. I played guitar for a decade or so before I started playing the drums. I found that the muscle memory, mental acuity, etc, carries over. I was recording drums tracks a few months in. I never thought there was a “problem”, I just enjoyed it. Between your time behind the kit and you years of poetry, you’re all set. Just gotta let go of any thoughts that don’t resonate with you. If you scrutinize, you’ll notice it is not actually the thoughts about the years, or being behind, etc, which don’t resonate...it’s the subtle thoughts & implications about yourself which don’t feel good. You’re in for a real treat imo, with just venturing in to learning how to sing. Take the time with some YouTube videos or lessons. Learn how to stretch the stomach, sing from the diaphragm, and feel the registers. This is imo, the greatest spiritual practice there as. Pure love & vibration. I think what you’ll find as you go, is that no ‘gets in’ the flow state. It’ the default, the inherent momentum of life...when we are mindful to set our feeling bar high, letting any thought which doesn’t resonate go, swiftly. Make the form conscious choice, decide, not to settle for low vibration, for self judging. Do this by choosing to put how you feel about of all else. Way above all else. And you will find things do start magically working out for you. When you notice you’re being serious...choose between serious and sincere. No one can pull both off at the same time. I’d give a little consideration to motivation vs inspiration. Motive is avoidance. It’s striving to accomplish to avoid a situation. It’ll work, but kinda like a guitar with one strong technically works. Inspiration is putting feeling first, and bringing that inner goodness to all that you experience. In spirit, inspiration, you are freed from the roller coaster. What you experience isn’t given as much seriousness or importance, instead, you choose to enjoy yourself, to just enjoy being, regardless of situation and circumstance. Life is very counterintuitive, in that letting go attracts all that you desire to experience. I’ve played in bands my whole life, since about 13, and while I’m not saying don’t learn the deep technical aspects of guitar...I can tell you what every singer song writer ends up recognizing, is three chords and the truth are always enough. It will be the poetry of your song that moves you and others, not whatever takes ten years to pull off on the instrument. Just one perspective here, there’s infinitely more of course. Godbless and best of luck with all your endeavors.

@Kalki Avatar Just had this thought and had to share it. Look at Leo’s catalog on Youtube. It’ll take twenty minutes just to scroll through it. Lol. I was thinking, there’s a good chance he is literally the least confused person on earth, so to speak.

There is nothing you need to do. Everything you are doing, you chose to be doing. The overwhelment is not the product of what you have to do, it is the natural discord of the perspective that there is anything you need to or have to do. Everything you are doing, you get to do. Appreciation without condition, of all you have experienced, and of all that you are experiencing realigns you with this deep truth of unconditional feeling being ever present now. Good feeling is not in a future, nor in any accomplishment. Good feeling is unconditionally present now, and arising of you. When you recognize the truth, that all of your choices, and all of your focus thus far have led to where you are and what you’re experiencing, you simultaneously realize this will continue to be the case, and it begins to feel downright amazing in the recognition you are creating your reality via focusing from this place of pure magic, of feeling, now. The easiest, most effortless way to realize this by getting ‘out of your head’, and literally seeing the true power of your creatorship of reality unfolding in your life and right in front of you, and to begin to consciously focus and create the life experiences you desire, is to make a dreamboard, and to allow your mind to clear of the old perspectives, first thing every morning. This is self love, and it is the only power that is, and it is the electricity of creators. The miracle that is experienced and seen, is that you have always been, are right now, and will always be, perfectly on course with what you desire. You are not a physical object moving through time. You are attracting what you are experiencing. Relax in your being. It is all coming to you. To hurry through now, is to miss this actuality.

The experience of life is for you. See this, and you are perfect at it. You simply & profoundly can not get it wrong. Judge yourself, wether by your estimate, or by your thoughts about what others think of you, and still, you are perfect at it, because your sensational guidance let’s you know you’ve went astray from it, in giving mind to what others think, when you are knowing of your passion. Others have passion too, and others have feet and hands, and thoughts & dreams, and a body and mind, thus they need not concern themselves with what you focus on and enjoy, with your passion, nor you of them and theirs.

You are currently wanting these things because you are believing the goodness of feeling comes from things in and of your experience. Notice you are the source of feeling. Feeling has never ‘come to you’ from anyone, anything, or anywhere. Desire is this goodness of feeling. Desire is the gasoline of the creator. What good is a car which is attempting to exhaust it’s gas? This is very conflicting with it’s dream & vision of where it desires to go. What good is a car which renounces the very gas which serves it in creating the life it wants to create? What good is driving a car when you are not looking through windshield, but to the floor boards trying to figure our which gas to use? The car is already cruising. Look where it is going, and indeed it goes there.

Beautiful and very inspiring indeed. Thank you for sharing. When a thought arises about yourself, and it does not feel good, it is not true. If we allow it to be, it is this simple. Inadequacy is not actually possible. You are you, however you are, you are. That is actual. “How you could be, or should be”, is a thought about what is actual, but is not actual. You might think of this as “comparative thinking”, believing thoughts which are of the theme of comparing how you actually are, to “this other you”, which is only a thought, and not an actual “other you”. The perfect one is the only real actual one, and you are that One. You are beautiful, whole, and loving, and not a single thought to the contrary will ever do.

@Tim R You are a strikingly beautiful being.

Emotional suppression is caused & perpetuated by believing thoughts about yourself which are not true, and as such do not feel good, to you. When emotional suffering is prolonged by not releasing it, the mind weaves very convincing narratives to “make sense” of the suffering, in extreme cases, even confusing it with & attaching it to pain. There is a deep peace & clarity just from the inner kriya, the willingness and choice to address the suffering. To begin to address, inspect & understand, is to sleep well at night. When the suppressed emotion and misunderstanding are inspected and begin to arise to empty from the body mind, the mind has a tendency to double down on the narrative, with more self referential thinking, like “fear”, and or fear of more pain (from the mind attaching the emotional suffering to the physical sensation of pain) and unfortunately a new misunderstanding is adopted and the release & understanding is prolonged. When the suppressed misunderstanding & emotion begin to be inspected, they are brought to the surface. This is a very intimate & sensitive experience. When one desiring & experiencing this process of releasing conditioning is around other who is holding the same conditioning, one resonates vibrationally with the suppression of the other, and believes the emotions one is experiencing, are somehow ‘coming from’ the other. The body mind will naturally ‘call’ for time alone, and in this time alone will naturally release. The orientation of ‘fully charging your batteries’, counterintuitively, is backwards. In releasing that which does not resonate with you, that which resonates with all unconditionally fills the body mind naturally, like a cork held under water which is no longer held, naturally floats. The thought narrative that this desired release pertains to others, exacerbates the thoughts about oneself which don’t resonate, and narratives, cover stories of thought, like guilt, are believed. When we release conditioning, the direct experience of the one releasing is of peace of mind, joy, rejuvenation, clarity, focus and concentration. But to another who is watching, it is not experienced this way, and counterintuitively, it looks quite worrisome. This is why Catholics believe in exorcisms. Because they don’t understand emotions from not releasing their own misunderstanding & misidentifications felt as “shame” and “guilt” by their own dogma, so they believe in demons & possessions, from only watching and holding a false authoritative status of self image. When the body mind empties, when we release emotion, understanding arises. In this process it is common to feel and experience sadness, followed by deep yet peacefully comforting sorrow, followed by love & truth. It is not uncommon for a death to bring the sadness of collective suffering into experience. This can intensify the experience of suppressing vs releasing misunderstanding. What keeps one from fully releasing, is identification, or, thoughts about oneself that feel terrible, but are still believed to be true, rather than let go simple because of how they feel. When we are going through purification, releasing conditioning, we intuitively recognize the truth of “death”, and feel the deeply moving peace, though the mind might not yet be on the same page as the body mind which is made of the infinite intelligence and love that the common muggle believes to be “death”. The present moment is all that is. “It” is infinite being, and ‘you’ are not separate. The experience of this present moment is the entire point of the apparent universe. All that is, is, for the singular point, of your experience right now. This right now moment becomes what you focus on. Focus is not culminated, but is the natural experience of the continued releasing of the conditioning. Making a dreamboard is more than just fun, it get’s the swirls of thoughts wrapped up in emotional misunderstanding and suppression out of the body mind and in front of you, you might say ‘in reality’. From this new vantage point many, many insights arise and wonderful feeling realizations fill in. I can totally relate, and I would not be attempting to communicate this to your partner. I would get away and be alone for a few days or more, preferably in nature, with the single pointed intention of letting it all out, and spending your time doing anything you like, love, and enjoy. When we are focused on what feels good to us, source is there, loving us and clearing away what does not resonate, bringing the true goodness that you are to surface, deeply.

It’s thoughts. You let go of them via meditation. Clarity & focus ensues, naturally. Then you are again positioned to focus on what resonates with you.

That is beautiful sir.

Love does not know awakened people, limited and crude forms of love, relative selves, capacities to love, nor stages. Love is ‘who’ you are, which is why these concepts feel off to you love. Love is unconditional, and doesn’t even know people who aren’t awakened.

Focus isn’t something you culminate. It’s about getting everything else out of the way, by letting it go, not by figuring it out. Focus is the delight, the natural experience, of an emptied body mind.

Quality of consciousness never changes. “Change”, like “motion”, is an illusion of thought claiming perception is causation, while you are caustically emitting of yourself, unknowingly creating the experience you are experiencing.

Your core belief & misunderstanding is that you can think perception & feeling, which is to say, that you can think yourself. You can not. Grounding, body awareness, feeling, and actual perception unencumbered by thought, concept & theory, is the way.

? In prayer for help we condemn ourselves. All is Well.

@Kalki Avatar I believe what’s throwing you off is “deepest”. You’ve confused the actuality of the wakefulness you are, with status & levels, via shared experience of what you believe to be another. You must see for yourself, so to speak. See what you are.

Growing up, it took a while to understand the self inflicted damage the catholic dogma had done in regard to my dad and the unsuspected, unchecked shame of “being born a sinner”. It shaped his entire life and worldview. Essentially, never being good enough via a false story that he wasn’t already perfect as is. He’s seen through some of it, but I suspect he’ll never be fully in touch with source in this lifetime. I’ve seen through all of it, because I understand and fully express my emotions. I see how shame, guilt and fear are created. I see how the church profits from the dogma. I see that it is a self serving facade, not Self serving Truth. I also see the nondual dogma you are adopting, of ego death, fear, imminent doom, assumptions, dissociation, being separate and potentially absorbed into something. There is a “spirituality for dummies” manual, it’s just not the conceptual nonsense you’ve been led to expect, it’s the feeling guidance within you which is always oriented in truth & love. The truth is everywhere, and yet you must find it in feeling as you’ve hidden it from yourself under so many concepts, labels and silly expectations. “Today it is very fashionable to talk about the poor. Unfortunately it is not fashionable to talk with them.” -Mother Teresa “His disciples said to him, "Is circumcision beneficial or not? He said to them, "If it were beneficial, their father would beget them already circumcised from their mother. Rather, the true circumcision in spirit has become completely profitable." - Jesus There is nothing to ‘push through’, there is much to let go.

@lmfao ?? The willingness to look, and abide in feeling, is 99% of the path.

@zeroISinfinity He’s the OG, is all.

Make a dreamboard. You. Because what you write on it is what you want, and it manifests. Anything you focus on that is not the traction of what is on your dreamboard, is distraction. No. Nobody needs to explain anything. You’re free already. You can have, do, be and create whatever you want. If we all sat around waiting for someone to explain everything, we’d be in a worldwide gridlock of stubbornness. That this seems true is a testimony to how unbelievable and totally amazing you actually are. Not even. I don’t recall saying this, but if I did I misspoke, and my apologies. At the same time, why don’t you write whatever you want on your dreamboard, and see for yourself that it does indeed become your experience. If something someone says doesn’t resonate with you, and yet you believe it and continue to focus on it, you’re ignoring your own intuition and feeling guidance. That is suffering, but, you’re doing it. You can always inspect, and uncover your assumptions. You can only continue suffering by ignoring feeling and believing your assumptions, and focusing on what doesn’t resonate with you. On the dreamboard, you write whatever you want.

Fuck no. Wanting & desire is the flow, the stream, the juice in the veins of blissful creators. It’s why you be this Heaven in the first place, which is now. Suffering is emotional suppression of wanting & desire, and suffering is the teacher of wanting & desire, and it is ‘hard wired’ into you.

Your role in it is creator. Wakefulness is pure inspiration, pure happiness, pure unconditional love. You are what wakefulness is. You are what happiness is. You are what love is. This is why, when you focus on certain thoughts, they don’t feel good. Because of ‘who’ you are. What you’ve been calling “reality”, is this dream. You’re literally dreaming up a guy on an “internet” to tell you this has been a dream all along, to help you become lucid in your dream. But you are absolutely free. So you can dispute this if you want to. You can focus on what doesn’t resonate with who you really are, and you can even pretend the thoughts which don’t resonate, are true, even while every cell in your entire “body mind” tells you the truth of yourself. You are free at anytime to simply say, that doesn’t resonate, I’ll focus on what I want to create and experience. But you don’t have to.