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Kinda hate to break it to ya, but you’re focusing on thoughts & beliefs which don’t feel good to you... which don’t feel good...because they are...off...and using “awakening” or “having awakened to young / early” as the reason. It’s not the reason, it’s just that the thoughts are off. Humble pie tastes like liberation, the recognition control, death, etc, are thoughts, while reality is pure spontaneous infinite love. Rather than ‘coping’ as a remedy... inspect the non-resonating thoughts directly...and it is found there is nothing in need of coping with. “Epistemic truth paradox” is also just one thought...which can be inspected, scrutinized, realized, as there ultimately are not any paradoxes.

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Put it in the bank. Make a dreamboard and take Leo’s life purpose course, realize your dream. The synchronicity of having received the money ‘randomly’ will soon make great inexplicable sense.

In short it is believing thoughts (namely about oneself) which don’t resonate because the thoughts aren’t indicative of the true nature. This video is basically an offering of a way to understand this, align instead one thought at a time, and feel the fullness of being. If there is a key insight to this transition, imo, it is that it is effortless, letting go of identifying with thought (typically specifically of the past) rather than work to be done, or a mountain to climb. When someone is feeling such discord, from that vibration, a picture tends to be painted of ‘it would take so much work’. When the mind is overly focused on one thought, as one side of a duality... it struggles to recognize the power in letting something (a thought of identity) go.

In meditation, focus on other-than-thoughts, for that ‘inner direct experience’. “Illusion” has become a belief, to let go, in meditation. Make a dreamboard. Thoughts are a hand full of beans compared to desire & creating.

It does, it’s none of those. We don’t. Not believing these thoughts. Not pretending there is holding on. When the identity in what is being said is spotted, home again, there is no thing necessary or needed, only being.

@WonderSeeker What is “thinking about awakening stuff” ? What is that “stuff”? Take a look around. Call that a bunch of different labels (thoughts)... and notice is has no baring at all. Perception doesn’t change. Focus on what you want to create & experience, and there is change in what you are creating & experiencing, and in how you feel in terms of how you[‘re experiencing. The difference is alignment with ‘who’ you really are, or, the true nature. This is literally what you “had” (have) ...in....Mind. Doesn’t seem like it, if you say there is “awakening stuff” and “life stuff”. Rather than feeling the discord and then looking for how to cope with it.... recognize what the discord is. Awareness alone (in and of itself) is curative.

@Someone here Right, all three year olds would be Nihilists in that logic. Meaningless is still meaning, it basically means not meaningful, just like the thought up basically means not down. Thoughts = twoness. Won’t find oneness there. Don’t settle for logic, imo. Leave the wheels to the hamsters, it seems to be satisfying for them. Go prior, to intention. If your intention is to focus on nihilism and spread the word of it, you’re aligned with what you want. Otherwise, you’ve found the discord....between what you want, and what you’re focused on. If I might...don’t label it anxiety, label it guidance, even...evidence of the true nature.

Will thoughts about anything ever be the direct experience of said thing? Is it reasonable to believe a finite thought could be accurate about infinity?

@Ray “Affirmed”, “traditional”, “teacher”. You’re just making that up as you go. Psychedelics stand to make that crystal clear. If you want the direct experience, directly experience. If you need anything, inspect thought attachment.

@tatsumaru Possibly, this brings “my willpower” into question as the ‘blockage’. It’s hard to imagine how exhausting living my life would be if I was thinking in terms of my will power. Which brought Alcoholics Anonymous to mind as an example. That program started out “take lsd, see truth, free yourself of your ‘self’... no self no problem, and from thoughts of self, limiting beliefs, One is liberated... and there’s not quite the same inclination for alcohol anymore”. With the discrimination of psychedelics, that program became “surrender your will to God, fully admit you simply can not do this, here’s 12 steps”. It’s possible the resistance is in the way what you want is thought of, with the ‘for my willpower’, and ‘not sufficient for me’ - to start enjoying... a ‘strict’ routine. If enjoying now is contingent... and that contingency is ‘something or me’...that contingency can never be met... because the very source of the enjoyment, of good feeling...is the same one holding the contingency. Is ‘strict’ really that enjoyable.... as a way of thinking, framing things up? Outside the right mood, evening, ad dominatrix, I don’t really feel that it is. Who’s disciplining who when there are not two? At least in bed you could point to Hagatha. ?⛓?. When it’s a thought about oneself disciplining oneself, where to point? Maybe the thumb tells us the answer to that ‘riddle’. Consider the paradox of conditioning, and the importance of the scrutinizing of a thought of an experience...vs...the actuality of the direct experience... Feeling, one’s absolute best... that’s unconditional. Don’t like how you are feeling, there’s something to let go, a belief, a condition. Body mind, an appearance of being, of fields, of whatever other label we’d like to play pretend by adding.... feeling one’s (same exact one appearing as) absolute best, in, of, and as the very spheres One is Being... well that seems like the total opposite, in the fitness conditioning regard. Inspection of thought vs direct experience.... have you experienced peak physical conditioning? Are you reference that experience, or a thought about it? How do you know how worthwhile, how good feeling an experience is? Only directly. Were this a movie, it could be entitled “Tatsumaru Vs Well Being”. In the movie, Tatsumaru would totally win. In experience, experience is literally made of well being, and there is no separate self, and there is no “Vs” transpiring. Only a battle appearing to transpire in thoughts, specifically self referential unchecked thoughts, ‘twoness’. How to resolve? There’s no mountain. There’s one molehill at a time, and even still, that’s if I believe that perspective and label. Well Being = What’s Happening = Self. The Way of Well Being is Allowing. Could you allow five minutes of exercise? What if the direct experience, the music, the flow, the energy...actually turns out to be WAY better feeling that thoughts about yourself? The paradigm of motive & motivation can only be employed so far. Inspiration naturally comes next. It so is just the perspective. There are not two of you, such that you’re actually “convincing yourself”. It would be much more accurate to recognize this is how you’re fooling yourself. Try pointing to this self you’re trying so hard to convince, and laugh in the relief

Given that you get that... ...how does it change your perspective about this?

You’re making an enemy out of what you want by reducing the experience of it (the thought of the experience of it) to a means to an end. You’re attempting to utilize motivation (avoidance of unconsciousness and or death) to do so, not recognizing death is another word for you. So this fragments, or, ‘splits your energy’ and distorts focus. As an example... if what you want is to lose weight, get more fit, feel more energetic, take a minute to recognize exercising is what you want, feel the wanting of the experience. Notice thoughts about getting fit being about “fixing you”, and ‘shift’ back to this is what I want, and feel good about doing what you want to do. Motivation: To avoid unconsciousness, and or death. Inspiration: To enjoy life to the fullest, cause I actually love life. One of these is aligned with Truth (...”death”). Alignment of thought with feeling is like the difference between vacuuming a floor with and without the vacuum being plugged in. You can vacuum the floor either way, but without being plugged in, nothing is really changing.

That’s a belief. Lots of people work full time and go to college. Not to imply that you shouldn’t live at home, if that’s what you want, but it’s much easier to feel appreciation for how good your situation is when you uncover the belief of that ‘have to’. Misunderstanding and misidentifying motivation veils inspiration and is an energy zapping clog or blockage in a way. Your true self is unconditional, and allowing of all to be as they are, without need of being right or anyone being agreeable with anything. Take a toll on you only in focusing on the thoughts which create discord for you. Allow him his thoughts & feeling, and you realize they’re not yours. Focus on what you actually want, financially supporting yourself. Parents, boyfriends, etc, no one can supplement the desire for independence.

Amen brother.

That’s a belief. Give it some slo mo contemplation. Put what you think aside momentarily, to see what you indeed are advocating simply by focusing on. Notice it’s what you’re sharing...while claiming you don’t advocate it. You’re the one sharing it, attempting to engage others in the same! ? Consider.... “maybe this is transpiring in other aspects of my life as well”.

@MusicalMillipede Embrace and allow what is true for you in your experience... that you do want a relationship. Feel good about it! Excitement, eagerness, enthusiasm. Scrutinize the beliefs about yourself in regard to needing a relationship. Specifically, notice if sometimes you interpret excitement as anxiety, or nervousness. ‘Come clean’ with yourself that you actually love excitement. One perspective is you need a relationship to ‘fix’ something, and or so you can be happy. Another perspective, or experience, is being happy with the feeling of wanting in and of itself. Desire is indicative of a creator, and of love experiencing. Don’t take feeling in and of itself, with or without an object, person, or relationship in mind, for granted.

@benjhenry That there are two, as in a separate self and or separate objects is the belief, or, the believing of thoughts, or, ‘thought attachment’. Labeling what is ‘in’ perception doesn’t actually make it what we label it. Your consideration in the original post is ‘is the right direction’, but belief is being projected, rather than the orientation of inquiry further examined. If you are to realize this is a lucid dream, there is the small matter of becoming lucid of this. Beliefs, yours, other, or projected, won’t do. Try to ‘prove’ you are a separate physical object moving, doing, thinking. Make a case for it. Google what stuff is in more and more literal scrutiny. What you find, or rather what beliefs you uncover, would make for the ideal sharing on your blog (imo). Maybe start with questioning wether you ever actually experience ‘there’, other than the thought that there is a ‘there’, and same for past and or future.

There’s nothing to ‘solve’ per se. Feel the relief just in changing the orientation of intention. Start a dreamboard, so you’re more focused on what does feel good to you. Give improv writing a try for five or ten minutes. It has only one rule, super simple & very effective. When trying the exercise, if you notice you’re stuck on a resistant thought, pause, and then instead say ‘yes, and _______’ ... to continue. What comes to mind as to how ‘getting out of a state’... differs from ‘focusing on thoughts which do resonate’? Do you see how the first is focused on what you don’t want, and the second is focused on what you do want? Write down what you do want on one side of a piece of paper, and what you don’t want on the other side. Notice how it feels as you look at & read the words on each side, for just one or two minutes. Then consider that momentum builds in whichever of those two directions you go. Is the healing sought bodily, physical so to speak, like you could point to the body somewhere and a physician could address it? Or is the healing sought maybe more so that of a change in orientation about how you think about yourself and what you want? If so the dreamboard is imo the ideal way to go about this. Writing what you want feels good because you want what you want because of how the thought and or experience feels. If starting a dreamboard feels overwhelming today, feel the relief of the subtle change in intention, by writing it down on a post it to do tomorrow or the next day, or set a reminder, or write it on your calendar.

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There are people who suggest considering that reality = you. It’s a thought you’re experiencing, about you.

@Javfly33 Self demeaning & diminishing thoughts about yourself are clearly what you don’t want. What do you want?

Appreciating the feedback, all very insightful.

@JosephKnecht Appreciate the feedback, thanks! What is it you sense I’m trying to teach you? What would I be trying to be?

“My” hell denotes possession of, which is identification with, as in “this suffering is mine”. There are certain thoughts which are in discord with feeling, your true nature. By ‘listening’ I essentially mean focusing on. In listening to feeling, the thought is let go and you feel better. In listening to the thoughts, more beliefs are created to label, cover and suppress feeling. The ‘answer’ is expression & understanding of how you feel, not identifying as the sufferer. If anyone else focused on the same thoughts, anyone else would experience the same discord. We all share in common that we each experience one thought at a time (the finite mind, or lens). The term ‘thought attachment’ is often equated with the word belief and the word suffering, to denote how believing one thought, like ‘I have (possession) 100 different problems at once’. That is not one hundred problems at once, it is one thought...about having one hundred problems, being believed, and focused upon, even though it feels quite terrible. Imagine someone cutting their hand while telling someone how bad it hurts. What can someone say, but “... do something else”? What if one says “but I need an answer, I need to solve this cutting my hand!”. What would you tell someone in this situation? Eventually the pain would be such that, they would stop cutting their hand and focus elsewhere. Contrary perhaps to popular belief, there is no actual direct experience of a thought, which is true, about you. One veils this from oneself by labeling feeling, such as “negative feeling”. That is a thought, not feeling. There is literally nothing negative about you, or reality, whatsoever. There is the belief that there is - and this is precisely why that belief feels terrible, because there isn’t. If one focuses on stand up comedy for days on end, one will be laughing. If one focuses on horror movies for days on end, one will be scared. If one focuses on thought that don’t feel good for days on end, one will not feel good. It is always now, and focus is always free. You can change the channel. A dreamboard is an easy way to begin to consciously focus on what you do want, which is the same as saying, what feels good, to you, to think about. Indeed. The miracle you’re looking for is focus. Don’t wait for finding it though, just note you’re already ‘using it’, and point it at what you want to create & experience. The paradigm shift would be no longer holding your hand on the hot stove (focusing on what you don’t like) and instead focusing on what you do like, which feels good, to you. “The only thing which could save me” is a thought. You are the awareness focusing on that thought. Attempt to point (with you finger) to who or what that thought is about.