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I think that is the case for everything you mentioned. If you didn’t desire it, you wouldn’t be focusing on it. Exploring and understanding emotion, specifically jealousy, stands to set your passion free. Jealousy is an initial interpretation of emotion which reveals itself to be desire to create and experience things you see others creating & experiencing. If you feel a lack of direction, this understanding will fill you with direction. Jealousy is very good, and there is much clarity in acknowledging it, and much inspiration in understanding & expressing it. Making a dreamboard stands to uncover your general and unique passions you desire to focus on and create. If you haven’t, I’d also really consider taking Leo’s life purpose course. There is really nothing in need of ‘fixing’. Anything whatsoever which could be said to be ‘the point’, would be a reference to experience. If you allow it to be that simple, ‘the point’ is revealed - your experience. Whatever you’re focusing on, you’re experiencing, and you’re free to focus on what you want.

@IAmPaulQuinn What’s primary for you?

If the genuine interest is looking cool, just roll with that. ‘Get your fill of it’ so to speak, do what you like to look cool. Later, that interest might evolve into an intuitive curiosity of what that ‘me’ is, and what that experience of ‘looking cool’ actually is. Imo you’re rather ineffably amazingly cool already, but it’s not my opinion that matters. Science is inspecting, seeing what a thing is. Approach spirituality scientifically, rather than philosophically. Inspect the actuality of the very ‘background’. In direct experience now, what is that?

@fopylo I don’t have to mention it. Things are thoughts, thoughts are things. When you check for the presence of sensation and recognize there is none, that it is not there so to speak, let me know.

@Rajneeshpuram Oh, my apologies, that wasn’t the intention.

A cautionary word...conclusion is just one more thought. It seems otherwise, because the content implies a summarization, which is also just another word / thought. These readings are the pointing finger, next one must see the moon pointed to, the actuality, for lack of nondual words... the direct experience for, as, of, oneself. Physical body, like all other words / thoughts, labels perception, but does not actually equate to separation, objects, things, etc. There is another saying, ‘empty your cup’. This is also a pointing, to which the moon must be directly experienced... or, that “cup” is a word / thought, and is not a separate object in perception. No one has ever actually experienced a cup. A temporary glimpse, is a temporary glimpse. Temporary glimpse of enlightenment is a misnomer. The term nonduality can only point. Achieving enlightenment is also a misnomer. This is not possible. A finite thing can not reach or achieve an infinite state, just as infinite can not know finite. Body, death, nature, consequences, etc... these are thoughts believed, beliefs - that there are things - not actually separate things or events. The realization of this makes perfect sense, in that sense does not point to logic such as conclusions, or any other thoughts, but to sensation. Dimensional jargon is a priori to m and string theory. Dimension is often regarded as exceptional, or, true, as in not-theory. It is though. It is a limit of the observing mind so to speak. Direct experience is a priori to the theory of dimensions and the observing mind as well. That the matrix is false is a belief, like illusion. Only direct experience reveals the actuality. The matrix can not be conceived, because matrix is also a concept, a thought. Like all thoughts, it has meaning, so long as you continue assigning meaning. Notice if you don’t, no one else does. If it seems otherwise, scrutinize direct experience more. After decades of eternity, I suggest making a dreamboard to be the most integrative approach. This is a direct experience, thinking about making a dreamboard but not directly experiencing it, would be like mistaking the thought of sex, for the direct experience. There is really neither living nor perceptive illusion. The illusion is of thoughts, or, thought attachment, and is that of a “separate self”. So long as there are things, one is believing one is a thing (thought attachment) One already does not have to fake acting like anything. People resonate with authenticity, as that is a paramount desire for everybody. The universe is attraction based. The term ‘survival of the fittest’ and it’s collective misinterpretation comes to mind. The first recognition would be that you are believing the meanings and implications of thoughts, rather than recognizing they are thoughts, and that they are not feeling or perception. (Though of course feeling & perception are words / thoughts, which only point) Analogously, thoughts are like the words on the pages of a book. You can get lost & engrossed in a book. You can also notice, it’s a book, not the story one is lost in. Meditation is the way. Maybe start with eating meditation, as diet is the first order of business, which I would frame as alignment with well being. If you haven’t already, recontextualize food as a distant second to experiencing, like gasoline for a car. Try the loophole shake. It has all the stuff that resonates best with well being, tastes like a chocolate peanut butter banana shake, and costs less than any other diet (“loophole”). That it is raw food & enzymes alone is a game changer if you’ve not been eating those. I’d read the books The Nature of Consciousness, Ask & It Is Given, Loving What Is, The Power Of Now. Beyond creating a dreamboard, some time, a diet of well being and daily meditation practice, emotional suppression is going to come up and out of the body mind. Understanding emotions & not being attached to narratives of thought are the difference between dark nights, dissociation, depersonalization, etc... and sadness, followed by gut wrenching sorrow, followed by incredible releases and much dispelling of conditioning & beliefs, and an arising of a most incredible good feeling. Godspeed on your path. ??

@EmptyVase Video’s on YouTube

Yes. Awesome, thanks! Thanks! Should be uploaded soon. YouTube processing takes a while.

Mostly yes, and some examples would be ego, that thing which is aware, identification, relative perspective, absolute perspective. These are conceptual. As concept/communication it is helpful, but as new beliefs it is not. If you were trying to open a lock box safe, and someone told you the 4 digit combination, you’d then turn to the safe and forget or disregard the combination. Though no, in regard to perception. There’s no work to do on perception. It’s perfect as it is. It is hilarious. That’d be a sweet show! Thank you ?. Emailed it but I don’t think it’s going through. Probably have to change the file type from iMovie and compress it etc. At this point I think I’ll just post it on YouTube. I very much appreciate your willingness to give feedback, I’m thinkin maybe I’ll compress the other video when it’s done, the part 2, and send ya that one. This one’s a few minutes, not much to give feedback on really. ?

? ?? Key insight imo....no you’re not. The I am, or awareness, is aware of the experience... and is not experiencing itself being moved up any scales. Move the thought up the scale. It’s great you’re intuitively reaching for the better thought. This does not encroach on that, obviously do that. Another way to say this... while moving the thought up scale “oh, ok, this is how I’m creating emotion”. One paradigm: “This is how I understand what I’m experiencing, this is how I learn about myself” Another paradigm: “Well fuck me. I’ve been creating these emotions I’m experiencing this whole time.” The difference is subtle and profound. The belief that there is a direct experience of “other people’s thoughts”. Inspection reveals there is not. Missing that belief... one is already trying to “sort through other people’s thoughts”, or “sort through my thoughts about what other people think of me”. What’s being missing is that is all about a unicorn, which you never actually experience. Instead of... just your thought - as in, the thought you are believing and are focusing on. “Social interaction” is not direct experience. Direct experience is of the thought “social interaction”... and perception. Mistaking this, one begins to paint social interaction as cumbersome to say the least, or “the problem” in more intense thought attachment cases, and this leads to ‘realms’ like narcissism, or missing one’s own projection of one’s own monkey mind. “Social interaction” is literally whatever you believe it is, if you believe your thoughts in the first place. (When I use the term monkey mind btw, it’s not meant derogatory, it point’s to you are not a monkey...and that’s why monkey mind feels ‘off’... look past any ‘beating up on yourself’ and see the liberation pointed to) Yes, the root is your belief that you experience “other people’s thoughts”. That belief is in a bubble. My aim is to burst that bubble, because the bubble is made of goodness. This aspect is resonating as ‘video worthy’. Mind if I record a quick explanation and email it to you? Maybe you could give me feedback, like ‘great as it is’, or ‘change this or that’ to make it clearer? Moving a thought up the scale is bursting a belief bubble which = the betterment and enhancement (via injection of more true nature & goodness) of & “into” the living experience.

@GreenLight When thoughts arise about yourself, they’re not actually about yourself, they’re thoughts. Thus the thought arises “I feel like an outsider”, but that is not feeling good, and there is no direct experience of being an outsider...it’s a thought...about a you... being an outsider. Missing this, the experience sucks. Spotting this, liberation. Missing this, seems like it has something to do with God or spirituality. Spotting this, liberation. Dualities, like all conflicts are added, not inherent or pre-existing. Similarly, ‘problems’ are ideas, perspectives... which ‘resolve’ by seeing through them, ‘collapsing the duality’, or just plain old letting them go....then ‘solutions’ arise. A dreamboard is an effortless way to collapse the spirituality vs living life duality. Imo they’re sweetest ‘together’. Could be said to be the caring, not by chance, full free will, non-obligatory, based on what you want, make as much money as you want, way, which revolves around you naturally feeling good.

@EmptyVase When you are using the scale, are you moving yourself up the scale, a thought about yourself up the scale, a thought about social interaction up the scale, or your thoughts about other peoples’ thoughts about you, up the scale?

@fopylo That sounds great. I don’t believe I said thought is useless. But useless is a thought. Just let me know, once you check for sensation and verify it is no longer present.

@Shane Hanlon Maybe the perspectives in that sense are just like the cells, one appears as two.

You’re assuming God would know what you’re talking about. If the question was why does a unicorn allow suffering, first you’d make sure there is a unicorn and that it is allowing suffering, and then it might make sense to question why. What if you’re the unicorn, but don’t know it? Why do you allow suffering? ? ?

@Shane Hanlon That’s really insightful. If there is another perspective, and you’re aware of this, can it truly be said to be a perspective?

If you’re not aware of these thoughts sometimes - and that experience is known - then awareness is aware of that experience, which means awareness is not coming and going. Thoughts are coming and going. The thoughts are about you being a person, in the sense, only a separate physical object. Awareness is searching for which thoughts are true about this separate physical object, and not finding any thoughts to be true. That is not the problem, that is the relief. There are no expectations to live up to. That recognition leads to a great shift, a realization thinking about yourself never pans out to anything, but thinking about what you want to do, be, have, experience, etc, feels really great, since it’s what you want, which is the same as saying, what feels good, to you. Not someone else. You. The awareness never comes and goes, and is eternal. When awareness is believing thoughts, which are appearing & disappearing, and can barely even be said to be temporary, this is of course going to feel ‘off’ to eternal, infinite, pure goodness, awareness. Regardless of thoughts or beliefs which come & go, awareness is eternal and ever present. It is the true authentic one which is aware of the thoughts and beliefs. Also, if it’s useful... one can try and feel good based on what other people think, and by comparative thinking (comparing oneself to another self). One can be motivated by this for a while. Self image, popularity, accolades, accomplishments, potential, prestige, that kind or flavor of self referential thinking, projected onto others, about oneself. But it never feels quite aligned, and one inevitably recognizes one has never actually experienced what another thinks, and one is feeling the resonance of what one is focusing on. In shifting focus to what feels better to you, you feel better, and the mind actually clears. Then as more aligned better feeling thoughts arise, wanting to be outstanding, amazing, etc begins to seem funny, because it gets clearer that you already are. Then you are feeling our source, and then you can accomplish anything. Unless what you want is to be better than someone else, or better than yourself. Can’t do that. Can laugh about it though.

@CBDinfused There aren’t really any clouds, ‘they’re’ also the sky.

@CBDinfused The scenarios are thoughts, or, the clouds.

@CBDinfused The point of the analogy is that the sky is not a state. It is not dual, as in sometimes clear, and sometimes not clear.

@CBDinfused The sky is always clear, but clouds come & go and seem to obstruct, and it seems the sky is not clear, when it actually always is. In the same sense, focusing on existential thinking is like focusing on the clouds, and asking about the “mystery” of the clear sky.

Awareness is directly aware of thought, perception, and sensation. When you attempt to utilize a memory to feel, you’re actually focused on thought, and inadvertently conceptualizing feeling. “Forcing my mind to think of a positive experience in which I felt love” is not focusing on feeling, it’s focusing on thought. There is no “my mind”, that is a thought you’re focusing on. “Results” is focus on motive thought, not feeling. “Remembering” is focus on abstract illusory thought, not feeling. “I don’t want this...” is focus on a concept of yourself in thought, and avoidance of feeling. “Process” is focus on analytical thought, not focus on feeling. If that sounds complicated the short version is ... focus on feeling. Focus directly on feeling. Is there sensation present in the bottoms of your feet right now? What about in your legs? What about in your torso, arms, hands, neck and head? Now take that sensation off, like you would a jacket, and put sensation on the floor next to you. Let me know once you’ve successfully removed sensation, and I’ll tell you the next step. Be sure to double check and make sure it’s not present first.

@SamC Are you the awareness of these thoughts? More simply, are you aware of these thoughts?

@Mason Riggle Universe is a clever word. It says one verse. That one verse, is the very word - universe. Just as soon as you speak it, it seems there is, a “universe”.