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? Joke (n) Something not real or to no purpose; someone not to be taken seriously...pastime...the monosyllable (universe). @Wilhelm44 Ha! Exactly. Vibration at it’s best.

Awesome. If a tree falls in the woods and no one is there to hear it, does it make a sound?

Worrying and seeking reassurance is just one way of addressing emotion, but that won’t be available on the solo retreat. Lay the foundation for the solo way now. Be prepared. When the thought about yourself arises, don’t fall for it (believing you’re actually thinking you). Instead use the emotional scale, starting at worry. Then on your retreat, the body mind will respond to this more like riding a bike. The higher dose peeling back layers of psyche & beliefs, and the emotional muscle memory of the body mind will work in tandem. I wouldn’t be surprised if you have the time of your life, glimpse infinity, and in hindsight question why there wasn’t “ego death”. Another ‘way’ is complete focus in seeing, hearing, breathing, feeling (contentment on the scale, via non-focus on thought). The trip isn’t really for the trip, it’s for your entire life, and the only actuality of that, is This. And keep in mind this is what you’re choosing! You could plan & do whatever, and you’re choosing to do what you want. By all means man, feel good about that. Look forward to the adventure & excitement.

What if there is neither time nor duality (sans thought / beliefs) ?

@Valwyndir ? That black & white thumbnail is an amazing picture btw.

Funny how often memory is contemplated...while forgetting is taken for granted. Damn that’s funny.

@James123 ? Beautifully said man.

YES.

@EmptyVase Oh God yes. Sometimes I laugh about once believing in “spiritual teachers”... while my wife and kids are the guru’s. Can they just stop showing me my true colors for five minutes please!! Lol!

@James123 Yeah, it was really heartbreaking. He was such a great, really loving and beautiful guy. That was readily seen by all, which made for a deeply disturbing funeral. My closer friend, of the friend circle if you will, was also using steroids and he broke down walking up to that funeral parlor. He never made it in, just couldn’t pull it together. But he never used steroids again. Funny light for a Mike Tyson quote on psychedelics...”they make you a pussy”. Lol, honestly, love that he dropped the martyrdom, but man did I appreciate watching a Tyson fight, short as they were. Should’ve been given an Oscar. @lmfao Very nice!

Nothing terrible would happen. Something terrible is already happening, right in direct experience. The outlook is happening. The belief ‘something terrible will happen’ is what’s actually happening. The thinking that something is wrong with you, and or that something terrible is going to happen, is what’s happening. The soul, the body, are saying “uh, no sir”. The mind is saying “you’re anxiety! You’re depression!”. The soul remains unconditional, and at perfect peace, the mind carries on, insisting it is right. The primary belief is something’s wrong with you (unworthy, undeserving, not enough as you are, etc). The secondary belief is ‘the solution’, the thought, the substance, the epiphany... that which will solve the problem - in a future - in a state - at a higher level. But there isn’t a problem or anything wrong. What’s happening is the thoughts and beliefs that something is wrong. Let the beliefs go, and you let the pain & suffering go, and you feel the relief instantly, in the shift toward putting how you feel, first. If I were to offer a mantra, it’d be fuck this, fuck them, fuck ALL that, I’m putting how I feel first God dammit.

@Fran11 Are you talking about yourself or your idea of yourself, such as in a future...? It’s easy enough to compare an apple to an orange, but how are you comparing your baseline to your levels... without leaving presence / direct experience / actuality, ‘going into’ mental abstractions of a you in a past or future? Where does a you even get these baselines and levels... let alone who’s doing the ‘locking in’? Sounds like you’re believing comparative thoughts, as if actually comparing yourself to... yourself...? If the ‘next few levels’ are in a future.. you can see the future? Maybe that is present experience... just being mistakenly identified with? Misinterpreting thought (appearance) by believing self referential thought. What is it like to experience ‘a couple years’? To be ‘in time’?

Why in the world do you want someone icy & cold to stick around? Now it kinda sounds like you’re judging them... which is a bit icy & cold. Comparisons dilute, rather than unify.

Stick with that.

I’ve done this for weeks. What was revealed is what you’re pointing to is already the case (as in. Yes, ‘it works’). No mind, appearance, etc. Similar to how daily meditation leads to the ‘ability’ to turn the mind on and off. If you go forward with it, my two cents would be to ‘merge’ gravity and no mind. To feel the brain / mind / sensation ‘sag’ in a very literal sensation sense. A certain ‘it clicks’ insight / actuality occurs as to vibration, appearance, and relaxation. Ramana Maharshi or Rupert Spira on sinking the mind into the heart might be a good read before, as a primer. If meditation is still experiential afterwards, the ‘quality’ of it is through the roof, and there’s no longer any ‘need’ for a certain environment, posture, sitting, etc. A person who meditated is realized to be meditation personing so to speak.

Rings so true. Close friend of mine from high school got into that. You’re spot on, after a few months, medically speaking he had to stop and he bottomed out so bad he actually killed himself.

@Someone here Another great inquiry / contemplation. ?? One appears as two.

@SQAAD This is crazy, but maybe the narrative is that there’s an ego to surrender to a truth.

@Unio Sounds great. Those pesky assumptions though. Seem to come back around again & again. Maybe that’s just me though.

Meanwhile a multi billion dollar industry competes to be someone someone can talk to and express to.

When you focus on a better feeling thought, that is self-love. There is no outside or secondary component or aspect.

Spot on. The ‘key’, ime, is at 5:17 -5:30. The bigger point (imo) is to fill your life every which way with the love that you are, such that the thought of ‘higher frequencies’ or a separate self & psychedelics etc doesn’t even arise really. Notice “Darryl” ain’t talkin about (identified with thought) a myself, a me, a mine... but an alien. Questioner: “So, me, mine, me, I’m”... “Alien”: words, words, words, thoughts, thoughts, thoughts... (points to feeling). Questioner: “Wow!”. Meanwhile... just look at the image. The hell’s a giant purple crystal got to do with anything? “Darryl” loves it, that’s the difference. Most practically speaking, smell is the most direct sense. On a trip, rub a little of a rare essential oil (I used frankincense) under your nose, and be barefoot. Say goodbye to your reality. Willfully allow ideas of you and your life to be done. Look around the room, notice that’s the last scene you’ll see. Really say goodbye and express appreciation. Later, sit barefoot, rub frankincense under your nose, and sit perfectly still. Let the body fall asleep but stay awake. Don’t scratch the itch, take it as a sign the mind is checking to see if the body is still awake. Perfect stillness is key. Imagine the trip, and remember and focus on that you are the love that appears as the psychedelic. ‘Go timeless’, in feeling and breathing, or, presence.

I’d lean toward tweaking meditation in letting thought come and go, vs thinking about the trip. How certain are you the trip in the past caused this, vs the hindsight perspective, or interpretation, in the now? What if the narrative now, of / about you in the past, is the diluting factor...and what feels off? Maybe there’s nothing that needs to be accomplished, and this is clear while tripping, but again, then there is a hindsight story, which is based on the assumption there is an accomplisher? If dinner tastes off based on the recipe, inspect the recipe.

It interesting how post marketing campaigns common sense comes back around as wisdom.