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Inspecting direct experience. Not assuming, debating, agreeing, disagreeing, blaming, trusting, etc.

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It’s not caused by or coming from a secondary source “life”. It’s judgement, conditioning. Let go of the expectations and conditions about how you or anything must be by expressing emotions instead of, and whenever the habit of ‘thinking about yourself’ arises. That is the resistance... the hating... not the living. Enjoy whatever is as it is. Notice if & when you hold happiness to be contingent upon things going your way, and bring the happiness you are into the moment instead. Happiness is now. It’s not “in a future”. It’s not “only if you do or accomplish x, y or x”. That’s conditioning, or conditional happiness.

@Zion I knew a guy who carried the weight of expectations... and there for pressure, tension and stress. His primary motive was to be right. More specifically, to be seen and heard as right, and to always be avoiding the experience of being seen or heard as wrong. So he believed what is really grey, was black & white, and that he knew the ‘right’ black, or white. This led to carrying this somewhat intense focus to bigger & bigger pictures, leading to “all or nothing”. But that lead to the recognition all is nothing, grey appears as black & white, yet only in thought, in labelling. Yet never in perception or feeling. Never in direct experience, in a sense. Only in thoughts about it. Never in regard to himself, only in thought about.

Awesome. Express that high energy as excitement, enthusiasm, eagerness, fun. Bring the subject the anxiety thought is about to mind. Look at the emotional scale and pick which emotion you feel when you bring that thought to mind. Express from there, each emotion on up the scale. Write about it, with the theme being how you feel right now. Allow whatever arises to arise and come up and out. Yes, stuff like ice baths causes the body to trigger, to want to get up and go... and then the mind assures the body it is ok. Try this anytime when the thought of anxiety arises, by focusing on seeing, hearing, feeling and breathing. Say, I’m ok, right here, right now. (And it’s always right here, right now.) It’s the thought pattern, or belief, meeting actuality (that you’re ok and loved no matter what).

In making well being a core principle, thoughts which don’t resonate are let go. You might think of this as ‘just a but more prior’. Prior to even the thoughts “I’m really bad....”, “in my head I have this limiting belief...”, “I won’t be able to...”, “hindering my progress...”. These are self referential thoughts. Thoughts about a you, or yourself, which don’t resonate, because they aren’t true about you. Establishing principles is great. Focusing on thoughts simply for how you feel is more subtle, easier, greater and.... feels good. ? When you notice thoughts about yourself, shift to thoughts about what you want to create & experience. Feel the relief and alignment, as a creator. Feel the love that is the alignment.

@Ya know No they are not the same thing, yet they are the same no thing.

@tuckerwphotography Jesus seemed like a good reference as he neither tried to save the world or himself, from what I gather. Movement is an appearance, repose points to the ineffable appearing. One or the other is not the best of both worlds, equanimity makes the middle way of ‘them’, or rather, a ‘you’.

Focus on better feeling thoughts. That which you would like to manifest. Get the juice out of the having worried for nothing. I was asking about your psychedelic experiences wondering if you have that frame of reference to make comparisons. What you’re describing sounds a lot like the 3 g mushroom zone. Where meaning goes from particle to wave, flirting with the fringe of infinite mind / imagination ‘zone’. In either case, grounding practices are helpful in not getting too swept up in thought, perception, or ego boosts. If you have a unique gift, align it’s usage with it’s source and it’ll blow your mind. I assume.

“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. Where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.” Corinthians

When thought activity settles in meditation, the identity does cease to exist. Then, the “fight” for happiness is recognized to have been the thought activity, which was veiling the very happiness sought. That is thought activity (“I mean”...”human-ego-me” etc). Why? Because that is already the actuality right now. The belief is that it was before, and or is after. It’s this, now. To actually realize this, and not believe thoughts about this, is the best of both worlds. Do you think you know better than the God head you speak of? This is what God is being, ‘you’, so to speak. Perhaps meditation is the ideal middle-way. Not feeling like playing anymore is part of the game. It’s the part where you realize the value of mental & emotional equanimity, and create a dreamboard, and relish in the miracle of experience as ‘the God head’ be’s that which ‘you’ desire to co-create & experience. The ‘best of both worlds’. You clearly haven’t realized the things you’re claiming, but should keep inspecting and questioning imo. That is the only way to know the ‘answer’. And there is an absolutely satisfying answer. And you’ll definitely feel like playing.

@Daniel Lopez I agree, great idea, money psychology is fundamental and currently a big miss from what I see. The entire category of liberating from collective beliefs is a tricky one, especially between kids and their parents. Wouldn’t want kids coming home and telling the folks how “dumb” they are, as it could add more difficulty for the kids. And parents too. If not delicate, kids could add beliefs, like their parents are “toxic”, etc. There’d have to be a class on empathy, compassion, and understanding as well. Even trickier is that words don’t teach, but I could see kids doing some role playing exercises, to at least have that experience. I could see that being impactful, kids are great at pretending. Thread smells like an array of potential life purposes. Got me wondering what else kids would benefit from.

@catcat69123 Making a dreamboard is helpful, as you fill it with anything you want to experience in life. What you want, is the same as saying, what feels good, to you. Want arises from and as feeling, like desire. So you already are feeling more. When one sees that other’s have, do, be, create & experience things that one also wants, there are often two thought / emotion paths one takes: 1.) More thinking about oneself which doesn’t feel good. This recreates the grey & black bar emotions over & over. 2.) Understanding the emotional scale, in this case, specifically that jealousy is letting you know what you do want, and then expressing what you do want, onto your dreamboard. On the dreamboard, what you want is not floating around in your head so to speak, but on the board, in front of you, ‘in the flesh’, ‘in the physical’. It’s there, because you created it. Whenever you see it, you feel good, because it’s filled with everything that feels good to you. Many of the emotions above jealousy arise along the way, and the scale can be used anytime, to purposefully express each emotion, returning to joy, love, freedom, and empowerment, each time. This ‘process’ clears out the thoughts & emotions that do not feel good to you, and aligns you with the peace, love, and happiness you truly are. The ‘kid again’, as you say. Any ‘process’ can be overwhelming when we are experiencing depression. I experienced very much what you are describing too. This is now the work I do, helping people in the most effective way I can find, ways which helped me and have been proven to be very helpful for those I’ve talked with as well. This is just one tool. There is nothing wrong with getting some help, lots of help. Truly, one who gets help is of course helping oneself in doing so. In that vein, what I’m suggesting here is not meant to be a supplement or replacement for any other approach. Medication and therapy will always be between you and a doctor or therapist. Though these did not help me, I suggest taking advantage of all resources available to you. There are other tools on my website (link below) to help with expression, reconnecting with creativity and love, forgiveness, mental and emotional equanimity, etc. Hopefully some are helpful. It can be done btw. I remember how rough it was, and am here to tell ya, it can be done. Everything can change. Wish you well, God bless.

@bejapuskas That’s a beautiful school.

@Daniel Lopez I know stuff like emotions and meditation are taught in schools. (Not every school.) What other facets of self growth / personal development would you like to see in schools?

@Snuitje I don’t think it matters. It’s a very accurate and useful model, but experience isn’t even “experience”. It isn’t anything we label it. There is understanding and learning of the stages or colors, but no one is actually “in” one of them. The light is the same light, by any color or label, and yet remains a mystery.

@SunAngel The reference to turquoise is a reference to the model, with previous stages leading to turquoise within that model. In accordance with the model, no, other than, by the model. Imo, in the bigger picture, it’s a return home, not a going, an achieving, a learning of any kind, nor an accumulating. I would wager most ‘turquoise level people’ have not had a mystical experience like you described, yet have a broader understanding and frame of reference.

@Growly “One of my problems” is really one thought. It is the thought that you have problems. If you attempt to point physical to the you, and the problems, you quickly find ‘problems’ is really in perspective... how you’re seeing things, not what you’re actually seeing. The neighbor to the left of me has a problem, which is that his horse’s manure has accumulated into a pretty sizable pile. The neighbor to the right of me also has a problem, and it is that stores are all sold out of fertilizer, and he is laying down new sod grass. The neighbors behind me both work and have a three year old girl, and their problem is there are no babysitters available. The neighbor’s in front of me have an eighteen year old daughter who’s problem is she lost her job at the daycare for toddlers, which she loved. From the middle there doesn’t really seem to be any problems. But if I join them at either end, it may seem as though there is. If you say you have problems, you experience having problems. You don’t ever per se, create anything when you say ‘I have problems’... as in, it’s not like we ever actually, literally, ‘create a problem’. We just assess, or believe, that there is one. Emotions are more admittedly more nuanced than saying ‘there is a problem’. But it’s worthwhile to understand emotion, because you inevitably move from the thinking “I have a problem” to “I am experiencing this or that emotion”. “I have a problem” is a thought about you. “I am experiencing this emotion” is not a thought about you. It is a thought about what you are experiencing, or, about your experience. You asked what I did about it... when a reaction arose, when I was triggered by what someone thought, said or did... I would choose to relax and breathe instead of reactively saying anything. I’d ‘let them off the hook’, and assume responsibility of my focus, perspective, emotion, and actions. Was difficult at first, got easier overtime, until I wasn’t feeling reaction, but the very source of it. Essentially, switch “this or that is giving me anxiety” to “how am I creating this so called anxiety...what does this reveal about my truest nature, what does this reveal about focus, and perspective, and creating?” There are many that think and believe ‘I’m not good enough’, ‘I have problems’, ‘I’m unworthy’, ‘something’s wrong with me’, etc, but no one the thoughts are actually about. It is as if you made a world out of sleeping, and are noticing how reactivity is like a bottle and a blanket. Maybe you want more than that. Dunno.

@Growly Appreciating the appreciating of the humor. I hear you on being scared of judgement from your family. Mine used to tell me I was crazy. Now they’re crazy too. What we found, in regard to judgement, is that it doesn’t feel good, only to the judge, and never to the judged. I am feeling the alignment or discord of my thoughts. Mom’s feeling hers. Dad’s feeling his. If mom or dad verbally expresses their thought of judgement to me... I do not feel it. What I do feel, is my own alignment or discord, of believing or not believing, what they shared. Ultimate I learned that I do not care what my mom and dad think, because it doesn’t matter, because I love them no matter what they think, believe, or say, and really, that is their business anyways, not mine. This led to everyone no longer judging each other, and every one focusing more on how what they think and say, feels. You said “I understand the goodness in me still”. Can you see that ‘goodness’ is good feeling? If you can, then you can see that you are projecting that good feeling onto a secondary source, as if it’s coming from the act of productivity, or accomplishing. Whatever “black pill” is, it is not working for you. Focus on what does resonate. If you struggle with this, write down what does not resonate with you about blackpill... then write the opposite next to it, and focus on that. “Lacking critical thinking skills” is one thought. It is not true about you... as it is exactly as it is experienced - one thought. Repeated, one belief. Instead of believing the thought “that is very hard to do when you’re bored”... express the next higher emotional on the emotional scale. Write down what you do not like about YNC.com, and google that. Focus on what feels good to you, no justification is needed. “Perfect moments” is a thought, a belief, that there are multiple moments. In our direct experience this is not the case, or actuality. You = present moment. There is no present moment, or any moment, that is without, you. Nootropics are really up to you and your doctor. I tried around twenty of them, and found the experience unfavorable. They do work well for some of course. I would be straightforward and inspect the anxiety and depression, by writing on a piece of paper what the cause, or source of it is. This is an exercise, a direct experience, so thinking about it is not anything like experiencing it. Keep writing about the what, where, etc that it is. Be literal. Inspect determined to find it. Any thing thoroughly inspected disappears, without exception.

@Growly You got me in the feels, but then rained on our parade with “my subconscious”. If there is said to be something which one is not conscious of, such as a ‘subconscious’, notice one is saying one is conscious of, this so called ‘subconscious’, and therefore the subconscious is not sub -conscious at all. Instead, inspect what it is you are aware of. “Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it”. - Rumi “I’m too afraid” is a thought. How does that thought feel? “Ill procrastinate” is a thought. How does that thought feel? ”waste my time on unproductive low conscious things” is a judgement, a thought. How does that thought feel? How do you feel when you recognize these thoughts do not feel good, because these thoughts do not resonate with the goodness that you are? If you allow yourself to see this, it is absolute that you feel the goodness that you are. There is no other possibility. Not in a past, or a present, or a future... there is no other possibility... because you are feeling, right now. You can not change this. You are free however, to focus on, or not focus on, to believe, or not believe, that which does not resonate with the goodness that you are, which can never come, and can never go, but just, is. You can stop at boredom, many do. But you are free not to, and expression is the way. Start at boredom, admit & acknowledge for yourself only, for your own well being only, that any and all conditions which you hold upon this moment as it is, are only thoughts, and focus can be shifted to seeing, hearing, breathing and feeling... and you are at peace, content, with this moment exactly as it is. It need not be different. It need not change. Paradoxically, when this moment is perfect as it is and you do not impress upon it your conditions, that it must change or be different, or contain any thing, substance, or experience... you indeed begin to feel quite hopeful and inspired. You feel the true unconditional nature of the love, the creator you are, and again, paradoxically, knowing you can let go, that you can put your conditions down and feel contentment, you begin to realize you can do so anytime you choose to. You can create, be & experience what you truly desire to. When & if life gets hard, you do not ‘freak out’, because you know the way from boredom to contentment is letting go of conditions held, and you can employ this knowing, expressing, and letting go anytime. When you say ‘it is this way’, ‘it is so & so’... it be’s this way, it be’s so and so. So too, when you say ‘mountain move’, the mountain will move. It will move out of your way, because you will be focused different than before, and creating an experience different than before, and doing so via expression. This universe is an expression of you, and in expressing, you create in alignment with all that is.

@28 cm unbuffed Focusing on the kundalini activation is good, as it is focus inward into the body, to the spine & chakras, directly into feeling, directly into what you can not visually see, and is not focus upon thought. When stories arise, of a seeker, of a you which exists in time, focus again on the raising of the kundalini. To not perpetuate an ‘in a pickle’ situation, between the mind and the heart, express the emotions you are experiencing, on paper, in front of the mind. When going within, such as in activating kundalini, the body responds by going without, or, releasing, un-separating itself. It is likely, but not necessary, that the mind, or thought, will hijack the release again and again. Because you are love, because you are the creator, your power is only in letting go of the thought stories, the narratives, the hijacking. Kundalini activation is no accomplishment, not incentive, not something attained, it does not make you better than. It is letting go of beliefs, misunderstanding, misinterpretation, and ultimately misidentification. When all is let go, nothing remains, just as when all beliefs are relinquished, only the truth can remain.

? ?? Indeed, unbelievable. The ‘my’ can go to. I dare say... this self inquiry is even easier / more direct.

We all end up feeling great over “being right”, not everyone chooses this in the lifetime unfortunately. Some seem to croak and return, just to experience this best of both worlds, yet struggle to do and experience, what they ‘returned’ to do & experience. There is a difficult to see through facade of action and effort equaling results and happiness, but it is very much the other way around. When the former lens is over employed, it is not too difficult to see how the latter can be kept at a distance with a term like spiritual depression. Spirituality being the inspection, or investigation of what it true and actual, depression can not persist for long. When inspected and understood, it no longer is experienced, and the emotional tug of war collapses in peace, love, and understanding, via the release of beliefs & misunderstanding. If one finds oneself chronically ‘being tough’ to an outside world, one could see why that is, in one’s ‘inside world’, and thus be liberated of it completely. This requires not the facade of courage, but actual courage. The true bravery not to defend, but to be perhaps ‘vulnerable’ such that feeling can be understood, and not projected onto any ‘outside causes’. A collaborating story does not make a story more true. It reveals it is not true at all. The implication of two experiencing that there are not two, is all the ‘evidence’ one could ever ‘need’. But we likes our identities, or hierarchy, our drama, our games, our suffering... until we don’t. Then we go home.