Nahm

@TheRealVibe You’re a trinity. The “three” are really one, and no comparison is actually transpiring. This would be insignificant, if it wasn’t precisely why it feels ‘off’. It’s discordant with what is true, as in actual. Some however do seem to prefer the rollercoaster of discord, affirmation, discord, affirmation…

@sara373 Allegedly, when the Buddha was asked if he’d rather be in heaven or hell, he said hell. When asked why, he said there’d be nothing for him to do in heaven. (The point there is not that the Buddha believed in nonsense, the enlightened one is well aware there is no hell. The point is to bring the love that you are into this life, this world, this experience.) When asked about the actuality of fear, the Buddha spoke of the distinction between pain & suffering.

Can’t love hell and be in hell.

@Gabith Do it for the good feeling alone. Nothing need change, as nothing is wrong.

@Gabith Before falling asleep tonight, self affirm ‘there is nothing wrong with me’ for a few minutes. Feel how good that focus feels. You’ll get a better nights sleep & wake up more refreshed and with more clarity.

‘Shame’ is the baggage. It’s a belief. Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness That most frightens us. We ask ourselves Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small Does not serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking So that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, As children do. We were born to make manifest The glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; It's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, We unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we're liberated from our own fear, Our presence automatically liberates others. Marianne Williamson

Jealousy seems to say something about others but actually, absolutely, does not. Let the beliefs about yourself go. Come to terms with what you actually, deeply want. Unfettered by beliefs, it will manifest. It already is. What you want might turn out not to be seen any certain way at all, but to see clearly.

Better compared to who?

Clearly there is zero doubt bout her, given she is the most loving and supportive person in your frame of reference. No doubt there whatsoever, based on what’s said. Let the It vs Me narration like ... “it ruined many things in my life”, and “it has taken so much from me”, “it could potentially take something from me”, “my... mental illness”, “my inner voice”, “the inner voice”, “what if it’s not”, “this is killing me”. There are not two of you, a you and an “it”. “It” is you. Continuing to focus on these same thoughts, holding the same perspective, creates the same undesirable emotions. The resistance to focusing on what does feel good to you, is the resistance of letting go of what doesn’t. Expression is letting go. Express to / with your therapist about... - the childhood event from which this began, how you felt, & how you feel. And or - how your parent(s) were / are, and how you internalized it, identified with it. Of all the kids I’ve talked to with ocd, add, adhd, etc (hundreds) never one time ever has a single parent been willing to talk about there alcoholism, their temper, anger & rage, etc, etc. It ain’t your fault brother. Blame to express, let the scale & therapist help. WIshing you the absolute best. Outward orientation (“this is about her”) is projection, which is avoidance of feeling inwardly. Let go of this being about anyone else. This is between you and source, and Truth be told - YOU are the most incredible, loving and supportive one. There is truly no comparison.

In addition to relaxation, there is also exposure therapy. Since fear is a belief which keeps looping, as it is not ‘finding’ the truth... it is always projected into or onto something, someone, some activity, some desire, etc. The projection is in accordance with, perfectly parallel to, the intensity of the belief. Whatever that thing or action is which is presently debilitated by the holding of the belief, can be experienced in small increments, rehabilitating, discovering there wasn’t really that monster under the bed. Don’t be the drummer that delays the song (life) by asking what key it’s in.

No, actually. There isn’t.

Respectfully, when ready to be done with the ‘enlightening others’ nonsensical belief loop, slap yo self (to see that you can not of course).

@flowboy The key is not believing there is a thinker of thoughts (or an other which is a thinker of thoughts, or spirits), “accomplished” via simple daily (proper) meditation & expression (without someone labeling you). No mind is not a concept, no matter who tells you it is. It’s not even a direct experience. Judgement ‘goes’ intrinsically in the liberation from the ‘monkey mind’, aka ‘the comparator, the knower, the devil, the hallucinator, etc, etc’. Being a ‘thinker’ / ‘believing in thinkers’ at all really is a lot like a child vs an adult, one blooms naturally into the other (short of delusion / belief and the spreading & repetition of). One simply can not see what one does not be... ‘sheep in wolves clothing’, etc, etc. The link less link of not labeling, not believing thoughts. Then, which is now of course, there are no mediums, just ‘adults’, if you will, and of course, not even. First the front, then the back, in terms of brain / blood flow (chi). Google ways of getting the blood flowing more. If applicable, see the ‘healthy weight chart’ at the doctors anew, without any projections. That alone could resolve. A simple difference, like breathing from the stomach vs lungs could also be a substantial game changer.

If existence existed, what’s existence?

That you are separate, or that there is a separate you or any thing is an assumption. You’re believing you are in thoughts, missing you are aware of thoughts. “I’m reasoning in circles”, you’re the awareness of that thought. You’re not actually in anything. “Can’t find my way out”, you’re the awareness of that thought. You’re not actually in anything. “this logic”, you’re the awareness of one apparent finite thought at a time. That is one thought, not this ‘other thing’, ‘logic’. There is not you and logic. “My biggest fear”, there is not a you and a fear. That’s why the Vatican calls it “possession”. (You don’t possess anything). That’s why they call it “exorcism”… you exercise discordant beliefs via expression. You empty out the garbage, the beliefs you acquired and are carrying the weight of (no offense I hope). You are what “now” actually is. Love is pure magic, purely mystical, and absolutely free. Love can believe in whatever ‘it’ wants to. Love is so free in fact, love can believe in fear in spite of how astoundingly horrible love feels when creating this emotion / experience. Similar to how you could proceed to slowly cut each one of your fingers off, while asking about this “pain”. A good friend might say “hey! Since you don’t like how it feels… stop cutting your fingers off! Pick something you actually want, like carrots, and cut those up!”. That ‘good friend’ might be the ‘hurt’. I mean this is the nicest & hopefully most helpful way possible - call yourself out. Literally just say out loud “I’m totally lying! That’s why it feels so terrible to The Truth which I am! LOVE!”. And there is always, meditation / focusing on what does resonate with The Truth that you are. If you’re into truth, peace, love, happiness, nirvana, what is actual, etc. If there is much momentum of this believing of thoughts, there is much tension and contraction experienced. Either way helps; relinquishing your belief, and or relaxing the body mind deeply. The change in orientation is immediately felt as relief, the continuation of focus on the relief is the momentum of feeling better & better. Adopt daily meditation, exercise, a clean diet & much laughter for the easy win. Don’t look to “accept” cutting your fingers off, focus on what actually feels good to you. That’s totally allowable. No one’s even checking or keeping track.

Being prior to apparent thoughts via daily meditation. The implied duality is illuminated as, or ‘collapses into’ truth. Non-coping by relinquishing dualistic beliefs / ‘liberation’/ ‘awakening’ / ‘enlightenment’ / ‘Truth’. Non-claimant, or if you like, simple humility. Actuality.

@anderson Any thoughts on this? Happy to make a short follow up for anything missed. ??

The ‘movie’ is really the screen. Analogous to appearance and being. Daily morning meditation. If you already are, tweak your technique.

@marinaaniram No. When you hyphen them together you make it seem like it. A social construct is literally your thought, social construct. You are the creator of passion & purpose. Since you are, if the question is ever should I relax, the answer is always yes.

@TheSource Subtle subject object dualities… perceives everything, metamind of God, my experiences, I…perceive, I… experience, perception of simultaneity, God must perceive, God knows everything, my direct experience, God does not know everything. Duality based comparisons… other lives, everything is parallel, highest level, right now, relative realities, simultaneous lives.

So beautiful and great to hear!

That’s not the problem, that’s the solution. You don’t need them, you want them.

Woah! Slow down.

That’s the setup… that there’s a you, a your awareness, a this, and permanency. The punchline is there isn’t a you, such as ‘my awareness’ which could be permanent. You’re already eternal, but thoughts like that make it seem not so. Don’t underestimate your own sneakiness.

There wouldn’t be any of this thought activity. No offense I hope, it’s an answer in the nature of the inquiry, but this is all beliefs. That narrative / interpretation just wouldn’t be there / exist.