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Thank you for expressing yourself P.S FBI are coming for you.

You are so intelligent you can actually trick yourself into believing you are not.

Becomes she competes with no one, no one can compete with her The truth is not always beautiful, nor beautiful words the truth

Absorb what is useful, Discard what is not, Create what is uniquely your own. - Bruce Lee

The ones we don't know about

Meditate and or learn to silence the mind, practice mindfulness daily, learn to be in the present moment. When you are fully present with whatever task you are doing it will always be a divine experience. You also say 10 years you have been with this issue, you have to deprogram this belief system and stop accepting it to be true, its mostly mental manifestation because of repetitive belief/pattern that eventually solidifies the more it occurs but can be rewired and reset as you become more and more aware.

Imagination is key

enlightenment

What happens when a cell dies?

Why would you want to force yourself to sleep a certain way? Sleep however you want there are no right or wrongs as long as you are sleeping peacefully and on a firm surface so your skeletal structure is holding your body not your muscles and you wake up fresh and wanting to conquer the world, it doesn't matter what position you sleep. Do some Yoga and Martial arts daily and maybe start adjusting to a more whole-food healthy diet. For me personally soon as i went plant-based and incorporated more whole foods into my life and exercised at least 3 times a week i never had back problems again and also i sleep on firmer surface because our bodies are not designed to sleep on soft surfaces. Sleep on the ground with some padding you will be amazed after a few weeks how much deeper and better you sleep and back problems should naturally go away

Failure because you had an expectation. Without expectation it could be a success you aren't seeing

Oh Dog...

Shouldn't go any further than what @Maya_0 said but here's another perspective.

Weed is like that, it can be one of the most Enlightening to one of the most Endarkening substances. The key is to learn from and integrate the experiences until you are naturally high like your on weed all the time. I had reached this state at one point and even beyond this state that even if i smoked weed it would contaminate the purity of the natural high i had gained via meditations and spiritual practice, unconditional love ect.. then i got into a relationship that turned toxic and eventually depressed again into daily weed use and psychedelics which ultimately helped me remember the truth(so to speak) but never really did anything on their own besides assisting in overall awareness at the time being. Once in a while, when used randomly and especially for spiritual practice it can be one of the most healing/clarifying substances but if you fall into the routine/loop of escapism of substance use it will always be temporary effect and not a permanent solution. I have experienced all sides of the coin. I like to grow my own original/non-hybrid heirloom strains i get from Himalayan Mountains and take care and wait patiently for few months and do everything myself. I have never found herb to be as deeply spiritual and enlightening as doing it this way from these original seeds that have never been manipulated by the hand of man. Modern weed is hybridized and mainly bred for THC and mixed up so much its chemical makeup is way out of whack compared to the original strains found in nature, which are less intense but more psychedelic, more pleasant, more purifying. Less is More. Hope this helps

You cannot escape the inevitable, you will keep circulating the same experiences regardless of who/what/where you are, until you awaken from the illusion, you will keep circulating.

This term: "too good to be true". Never use it again. You will understand one day

@Rokazulu Well said and welcome. I remember you from other forums and or youtube as well. You made some really good points what i recall, hope all is well

Even if they surgically remove your pineal gland, Enlightenment is Inevitable one way or another.

Once you see Truth you cannot Un-see it. If you know your truth and pursue something illusory you will suffer. Its the Universal way. That's why they say its both a blessing and a curse.

@Rinne Like i explained, your "energy patterns" change when you decide to change your thoughts, attitude, actions, emotions, behavior ect... I only started to notice a change in my life when i devoted most of my time/energy to what i really wanted to manifest and create in my reality rather then only here and there. The Universe is a self-reflecting inter dimensional-mirror and it will never smile unless you smile first.

Its very simple really, think of your life, your thoughts, your actions, your behavior on a day to day basis. You are literally where you put your self to be based on the energy patterns you emit daily. Wanna see change? Change your energy patterns to something else and not for only 1 hour a day do it 24/7 if you want to see significant results, if you don't have time then you don't deserve and you will never see results. You either fully in or fully out when it comes to this stuff if you want serious results.

You reprogram yourself by changing everything you think, feel, do, experience, ect.. on a day by day basis. The more significant the change from routine, the greater the rebound effect. This is what i explain many times to law of attraction questions, you can't just do a little a day and expect change when the rest of the day you are still doing the same thing. You have to change your whole life for noticeable changes and you have to put your all into the work to see results. For example: You are where you are because of what you do on a day to day basis, if you change one or two things of the day or say invest 10% of your day into something different from the regular routine you will notice subtle changes in return but nothing vast will change because the rest of the day/week/month or the other 90% you are still doing more of what you are used to doing but if you change your whole behavior/attitude/actions to something different, new and out of your regular routine/comfort zone you will be sending more of new frequency energies than your regular energy patterns thus you will create significantly larger ripples through time/space and get a more noticeable change in effect. So many people struggle with this because they invest 1 - 2 hours of the day for manifestation, meditation, consciousness work ect.. then complain when they don't see results. Try do it the other way around and i guarantee you will notice results as i know personally when i devoted myself almost 24/7 to self-realization/spirit/consciousness work i noticed greatest change in the shortest amount of time possible. More changed in a year than my whole life because i was tuned into such a high vibration so everything was accelerating significantly faster. The whole universe is in your hands, its just waiting for you to let go and become self-aware again. You are the master in disguise.

How do you know that all of this isn't a hallucination?

There is no after, nor before

A lot has change, awareness is key