Gabriel Antonio

it's cute to see you worrying hehe =P what i constantly find that helps me is to have extremely low expectations on every social interaction. (hint: there is a reverse effect). it was harder to find friends in college than in high school. i was less fake in college haha. so i didn't really care about fake friendships. i did have 2 or 3 good friends -- whom i barely talk with now. I see myself in you A LOT. I am neurotic and rigid. It really is ok if you don't have time for "meditation, lp, etc etc etc". Pay attention to animals. They are abiding in heaven, and they are just themselves. Can you allow yourself to be unproductive? Because, really, you won't change that much... Talking can sometimes seem hard, but just by you being there, it is enough. Even if you don't say a word, but if you're able to stay there... you are already helping the other end -- as you have done with me many times Well, dear sister, remember how cool you are. You meditate, dude. Very few people on Earth do that. Even fewer people do it on personal will. <=> Wake Up to your Beauty <=>

The key thing here is to reconnect to your emotions. You might have experienced traumatic experiences in your childhood, which caused you to block your feelings. It was so painful that you could not bear anymore... Have you tried psychedelics? They are great at making you tap into your authentic emotions once again. Breathing exercises can also help. Deep healing work needed! you can do it

Go the other way around. Consciously go after situations in which you WILL get disapproval, and BE WITH THE NEGATIVE EMOTION. Be with the discomfort of people calling you an asshole, imature son-of-a-bitch, twat etc. Have you tried the exercise Leo gives at the end of the episode you mentioned? These are called comfort zone challenges. Trust me, it is painful to do them, but they work. I can't see how a 10-day solo retreat would help you with that. Set an intention of being more authentic, of developing your voice. Some examples of practices: - Express your emotions more fully with your face. If you like something, smile. If you don't, frown. - When someone irritates you, breathe deeply. - Contradict people more often. - Be more negative (A lot of us, people pleasers, have a "gotta be positive" mentality that is ULTRA fake. If you don't like something, tell that you don't like. Every time you lie, another layer is put upon your essence). People pleasing is a complete lie. Watch this: If you want to see more examples of comfort zone challenges, check this channel out: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCroYHo_HahYil30_1YcjFnw I have learned that regarding shyness, fear of rejection etc. is to face it head-on. Otherwise, you will get very weak results.

SET LOW EXPECTATIONS Set low expectations set low expectations

wait, what? are you really attributing your state of mind to a video? this is called victimhood.

Remember: you are just a character here.

For people pleaser Be a bad boy or girl. Be aware of your self-critiscism and ignore it. Try taking things lightly. Exposing is the key for the healing. do it imperfectly, on purpose Develop 100% positive regards to yourself Set the intention of having shitty conversations (to balance your perfectionism out)

Thoughts is what can set us free.

@momo the rule of thumb is: if you are taking things too seriously, lighten things up. >> it is supposed to be fun 8)

hello! i feel very balanced and strong. i endured a huge ego backlash, and, now, I feel way stronger and protected. belly breathing = the ultimate solution for generating MORE energy, vitality watch your ego getting bored of self-development. went to the evangelical church today. it was very nice. i had some interactions with people my age or less. haha. it felt funny to talk to teenagers. i could SEE all my old patterns kicking in, but I stayed mindful during the whole thing, and then.... BAM! All the resistance dropped. Then, I felt comfortable speaking. thank you! keep trying. :))

Beautiful quote! Thank you for sharing your journey! I also feel that something has shifted in me recently. It is very cool to see that others are also awakening. Blessings from Brazil

hi guys and girls i just heard the greatest spiritual rule: if it is not something you would tell to a 5-year-old, then it is not important. haha. spirituality is to awaken the magic of our life. and we can only access that through love, kindness, and attention. i am grateful for ayahuasca. I am grateful for Leo. I am grateful for all the people I have met in my journey I am grateful for iago, whose advice resonated with me a lot I am grateful for Mary Polstra, my psychology professor. I am grateful to my friends here in the forum quantum, dragullar and mango I am grateful for YOGA. I am grateful for my yoga teachas. I am grateful for my friend David, a homeless in Northern California, who taught me true inner-balance and equanimity. I am grateful for Mark, my guitarist friend. A true warrior... I am grateful for Lorenze, who provoked and stayed with me during my darkest periods I am grateful for my inner child, that little-me. You are so fucking amazing! I love you =D I am grateful for my fearful me. You can stay exactly like you are. I love you. I am grateful for my perfectionist me. Thanks for caring so much about me! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! I feel like I am graduating. It feels so funny... hihi Fully awakening the heart. I feel so happy. Naturally wise, you know? Remembering my awesomeness. [=~

I have just realized that love is the only way. You can try different things (e.g., achieve success, money, and relationships). But all of these cannot be compared to live as Love. It is a practice! It ain't supposed to be fun, especially in the beginning. After a while, you begin to see things transform in your life. An you'll be like, "holy shot! That's what I have always wanted to experience. This deep freedom that comes from unconditional love." Let me tell you: your mind will resist the shit out of this practice because, guess what? Your mind is lazy as fuck haha That's why nobody is doing heavyweight lifting. The question is: are you practicing right now? Have an extraordinary life! ☀ "Life is a word-energy game. The words you say to yourself most often dictates how you feel. Make I love you the most popular words you say to yourself." Matt Kahn I love you ❤

Retreats accelerate the process. for example, you don't have to live abroad to learn a foreign language, but the immersion does speed up breakthroughs. i practiced the do-nothing for 4 hours a day for several months. although i was neurotically-driven, i got great results. the social isolation was very hard and i felt like i was going crazy. also, i realized that 99% of the times that i wanted to meet with someone was because i was bored of being with myself. realize that you can become present at any moment, including now. yes, it feels boring to always come back to the present moment. the mind hates that. the future and the past are so seductive. one day, your mind will surrender to the simplicity of the present, and you will see the magic that has been waiting for you. one thing i can assure you: doing long hours of sitting will build your tolerance to uncomfortable feelings. in other words, you will become stronger. pain is weakness leaving your body ;D sharing your experience with a friend makes the process easier. journaling also helps. good luck! and remember to be gentle with yourself

wow... I can totally relate to what you're saying. it feels like you're me haha. i just watched a video that suggests to make exaggerated compliments to yourself while you're engaging in a bad habit. overtime, the bad habit will dissolve, as long as you keep setting a positive intention. this is the practice of unconditional positive regards towards yourself. i myself have been taking a very light approach in my life. i am not prohibiting myself from doing anything. i am living by following my natural instincts. and i want to be good because i genuinely want to. so i am consciously doing things that i feel "guilty". however, i fully open to the experience. i become indifferent to the negativity caused by Guilt. thanks for this topic! you're awakening

@JKGrelax =) try finding a local community to practice yoga or meditation. i feel like you need the presence of other real human beings. remember, there is nothing to achieve hehe =) the sooner you realize that, the sooner results will pour in. i love you <3 it is ok to rest

facing the fact that i was destroying my life due to social isolation was hard. when i was a teenager, i convinced myself, "oh, you know what, i will be happy here at home, all the time. i don't care. i don't need interactions." man, was i wrong. touching and being touched by another human being is a wonderful feeling if people did that more often, there would be no wars, because "when we are filled with love, everything can be tolerated." the question is: "have you been feeling well on a consistent basis?" if not, it might be a good idea to explore the other pole. so, if you have been too much with people, spend more time by yourself. if you have been too much by yourself, spend more time with people (yes, i know, it looks boring). one thing that has helped me connect with Love is physical touch. I feel my problems dissolving, my overthinking, my ego... be happy Now =)

Yoga has been helping me a lot to calm my nerves. Anxiety produces a lot of suffering. If you are able to take more time doing things and practice being in the moment on your day-to-day life regardless of where you are. Also notice that you have a shallow breathing. Open it up. Open your chest, open your abdomen, and open your ribs. Follow this never-ending flow You will find peace there You are perfect exactly as you are. Recognize that. Sure, life is filled with problems, but observe them always figure themselves out. It's that simple. You rock =)

i was about to get neurotic today. was doing some hardcore spiritual practices -- which were actually doing more harm than good. thankfully, i didn't continue down that road. because if i did, i would suffer. simple as that nothing is that serious. everything is here to help. my only job is to relax. i am throwing away everything that disrespects my inner child (namely strict and neurotic discipline). i don't think i need discipline. i am a virgo. i am naturally over-disciplined. but that backfires. i think it is just a matter of accepting the simply the simplicity of this moment. Attempting to be mindful 24/7 is a huge trap for me. it is unsustainable. i might pull it off in a specific setting. anyway, my intention is to stay dynamically balanced

open your heart <3

@john5170 the more mindful you are, the more atune you will be to your emotions. just keep in mind not to get neurotic. spiritual practices can easily turn into rigidity. i speak from my personal experience. keep in mind that there is an inner child alive in you. maybe what it really wants is just your loval approval

Try deepening your breath. Really open your chest up. And let the air fill your belly. It might feel uncomfortable in the beginning (because you might be rusty, but if you keep doing it, this will broaden your range of emotions. Next thing you know, you start feeling love overflowing into your life hehe. Opening your body up helps access areas that you have not entered since your childhood. It is that crazy. Sometimes I go, "Dude, I am feeling like a child. >:D" yoga is awesome for clearing negative thoughts. simple as that.

RIGHT! a lot of us dive so deep into the spiritual realm that we lose safety. Thank you for sharing your experience. I understand why you "fought" the trip. This is what causes all the fear of going insane. If you are able to relax your mind and tell your inner child, "It's ok. I am here for you." The question you can ask is, "Can I let that go?" If you can, infinity will be present itself to you. But, if you can't let go, that's ok too There is no rush. The Truth exists whether we are cognizant of it or not hehe Smaller doses might be a good idea so that you slowly build momentum to surrender to what the Universe is communicating through thoughts and bodily sensations. The experience of ego-death is similar to getting into a cold shower in the winter. Part of you has to die to do it. Hehe. That's a masculine approach to awakening hehe. Or, you can surrender through unconditional self-love. No need to change anything. Just taking care of yourself will do the work hehe P3AC3

@MiracleMan oh my god! That's horrible. What helps me have good trips is to exercise before or during the medicine kicks in. F.E.A.R. FALSE EVIDENCE APPEARING REAL see? Love wants to desperately enter you, and you're in denial about it haha. Fear is necessary because an illusory part of yourself knows that will die. It is "Satan"; it simply is a structure that wants to stay alive, maintain its homeostasis. This principle is what makes life possible, so don't go around thinking it is the "Devil". Haha. Only love is here haha You don't have to take psychedelics to enter this frequency. It simply is a matter of choosing to invoke the divine that's already alive in you. The only thing it requires is that you surrender and open your chest really wide. Hehe It's untouchable, but we all know it is here. Hehe. See? Let heaven in Hehe let god enter you and dance?

@mp22 why would that matter? Haha. philosophizing is infinite. You can make a case for both alternatives. But the feeling of Oneness is beyond everything. The thing is, we waste too much time with theory. As someone mentioned, you have to live it. You read too much philosophy. Haha that is a huge trap haha. So do I. It's here. Do you feel this? I am here. The more you dwell in the Now, the more you realize that the only truth is the truth of the Divine. You are in heaven, you just don't know it. You can philosophize as much as you want. Haha. It's infinite! Hahahaha