Gabriel Antonio

Of course! You'll be ahead of 99% of people your age, because very few actually take the time to strategize their life. I haven't bought the life purpose course yet, but I can tell that even if you only get the booklist will already help you a lot. Imagine how deep your understanding of all facets of life will be if, say, you read one book from the list per month. Think about how much wisdom will add up if you keep a habit like that for 5, 10, 20 years... Big-picture thinking, my friend...

I have been there. When I'm at a party, I usually try to find someone interesting to talk. I don't always find one though... When that happens, I feel very self-conscious and my mind starts to race. As a result, I end up feeling completely drained afterwards... I'm curious: what type of mistakes did you make? Were they like small social mistakes? (Like, saying "stupid" things, stuttering, etc.?)

Do you think that going to the party was a mistake? Or did you make "silly mistakes" during the party? Also: Are you an introvert? It also seems you are a highly sensitive person. Can you write more in detail about this party? It sure looks that it made you suffer a lot...

That's great, man! ? ? ? Exactly! Good! You're becoming aware of your own spiritual bypassing. I really like Maslow's hierarchy of needs. I think a lot of us -- myself included -- tends to neglect "belongingness and love needs" and wants to go straight into higher needs. ) Be careful to not turn this "facing my deepest fears" into a neurosis/paranoia. Spoiler alert: You are not "purely alone". You are part of the whole web of life. You are interconnected with the whole cosmos. (For more, read this: http://www.rinagpatel.com/blog/2016/9/2/what-is-interbeing-by-thich-nhat-hanh) But anyway, keep focusing on basic self-development. It's so important...

To improve your life quality, you can start by putting fewer "?" on your questions lol Self-inquiry has never appealed to me, because I am very prone to mental masturbation. So it would likely turn out to be a huge monkey-mind thing, with little to no breakthroughs. Here are some questions: > What is your motivation for doing self-inquiry? > Have you ever tried psychedelics? (They can help you see the illusion of self/identity) > Have you already worked on your low-level self-development? (Self-inquiry is a very advanced technique...)

@Mila How's your healing going?

You’re right. I didn’t read this topic very attentively, so I jumped into some wrong conclusions. I have edited my original comment. Question: have you tried kriya yoga?

@Torkys lmao

@stevegan928 Great! Let the tears come. Will you be able to talk with this priest again?

I think this subject would be a very important video for us Truth-seekers. Something like the text below, but with Leo's spices. If you want a better formatted version of this text, go to https://takemetotruth.org/nouks-blog/signs-of-the-spiritual-ego/ From The End of Death, Volume Two Copyright 2016 Nouk Sanchez Before my own breakthrough, I went through a period of what I call spiritual superiority. Of course I could not see it at the time as I was blinded by it. Many on the spiritual path will encounter this phase in varying degrees. This is a period whereby the ego is impelled to undertake the spiritual journey. Its goal is not to awaken from guilt and fear but to acquire a more superior façade; a higher status. Initially the ego as our false-self is the one who is happy to embark upon the spiritual journey. It believes it can perfect itself as it acquires more and more spiritual wisdom. Its superficial aim is to improve self-esteem and amass spiritual knowledge. However it never dares ask which “self” needs esteem and knowledge. The spiritual ego is the most armor-plated of all egos. It really is the toughest nut to crack. Many in their journey to return to wholeness experience this phase where the ego takes on yet another layer of inflation, of “identity”. Only this time it deems it legitimate because it has a spiritual label. This phase of the ego is still the ego however now it becomes largely impenetrable. From my own experience some of the traits of this phase are: • Becoming overly identified with intellectual knowledge • Defending that knowledge – spiritual righteousness • Spiritual vanity and pride • Spiritual superiority ( seeing others as less than) • Lack of genuine emotional vulnerability and transparency • Lack of radical self-honesty • Lack of self-awareness, self-observation • Lack of genuine curiosity • Teaching more than listening and learning • Lack of gratitude for others as teachers in their own right (students are teachers) • Resistance to being “called out” – lack of accountability • Wearing a mask of positivity (arising from fear) • Engaging in spiritual debates (arising from the need to be right) Every one of these expressions is simply a defense against awakening. As such they represent the ego’s many and varied delaying tactics. How devoted are we to undoing our blocks to Love? Devotion to dismantling our resistance and defenses must be paramount in our practice. How self-aware are we? Do we observe our self as we speak? Do we ask our self “who” is speaking? Is it the ego or Spirit? Are we engaged at the heart or the intellect? And as we listen to others are we quick to formulate a response based on our intellectual knowledge? Or are we present to join the other in a precious Holy Instant allowing Spirit to reveal Christ Vision to us? Do we ask our self with radical self-honesty, “What is the purpose of this communication?” Is it to join at the heart in True humility, or do we join with the ego to prove our self as right? Whether we classify our self as a spiritual student or teacher we must be mindful of that moment of ego temptation. Do we want to awaken from suffering? Do we really? Then we must also desire to see what has been denied and subsequently projected outward onto others, the body, the world, the past and God. Most of us are so fearful to expose our deepest fears, toxic patterns, values and beliefs. But it’s impossible to be free of these illusions unless we are willing to look upon them without defense. Only then will we know deeply that our safety really does lay in our defenselessness. Only then will we know that we are the embodiment of incorruptible Innocence and are therefore, indestructible. Instead of fear, justification and defense, we need to cultivate a healthy curiosity and sense of humor around our issues and blocks. An eagerness to look within is required. How will we ever see the face of Christ in others (and in our self) if we’re not willing to forgive and heal our defenses to it? The Spiritual Ego Checklist Here are some thought provoking questions. I only wish that I had this list during my own period of self delusion. I can laugh now as I reflect but I am sure this list would have vastly accelerated the ego’s breakdown and my essential breakthrough! Take yourself through this helpful checklist with a healthy dose of radical self-honesty: • Am I for real? Am I mindfully present and unequivocally Authentic in my communications with others and myself? • Do what I think, feel, say and do all line up together where there is no conflict between them? Or am I often tempted to speak of what I know intellectually while disregarding the conflicting subtleties in my own heart? • Am I eager to discover my own inner contradictions and inconsistencies so as they can be healed? Or is their resistance? What healing does this resistance hide? What is it that the spiritual ego does not want you to see? • How much do I practice radical self-honesty? How open am I to receive constructive criticism from others without defense and justification? Or is their resistance? What is the healing that this resistance attempts to hide from me? What gift am I not seeing and receiving? What is it that the spiritual ego does not want me to recognize and claim? • Is there a sense of gratitude whenever my spiritual ego is called out (threatened or triggered)? If not, why not? Which “self” feels threatened via its need for justification and defense? • How much do I value introspection? Am I consistently self-aware observing myself and others without judgment but with Spirit’s Loving discernment? • Do I tend to speak (teach) more than I listen? Do I find myself attempting to convince and convert others? If so, do I ask myself, “Who (Spirit or ego) is speaking and which “self” needs convincing and converting?” • Is there a sense of pride or superiority? Whenever I am triggered by others do I override my own healing opportunity by convincing myself that I know more than them and am therefore more spiritually superior? • Which am I more interested in? 1) Teaching or coaching intellectually to others while maintaining my own teacher role, or 2) Open-hearted joining with others where I am encouraged to: a) be transparent, b) express my own emotional vulnerability, c) close the seeming gap between myself and others, and d) Am I genuinely grateful for the fact that those who may seem to know less than me are in fact my greatest teachers? Thank you!

Be careful not to get paranoid. Who's hating the ego? You don't want to get rid of your ego; you want to tame it. I think it was Osho that said, "The ego is a wonderful servant, but a terrible master."

Disregard the moralism above. Tobacco has been used by indigenous for a very long time. The only difference is that they don't inhale it. Do you smoke industrialized cigarettes, or rolled ones? Maybe you're connecting with the sacredness aspect of tobacco. What do you think?

Exactly! Guys, do the work and see the results for yourself! There are some things that can only be experienced first-hand. For example, you can't just read/debate about psychedelics. You have to try it out and see how it goes. Same thing with yoga, meditation, chakras etc.

This! And preferably face-to-face.

Crappy Green vs. Yellow Some may argue that Milton Friedman is orange, but notice how he thinks systematically.

Infinite lifetimes!

It's so sad that young people have to deal with such high pressure and stress. I think what would really work is to cut off the things that are causing the stress. Unfortunately this is not always possible. Giving in to the "animalistic instinct" will probably only make you more anxious... This shows how burned out you are... I have been there, and it sucks. Eventually I had a pretty bad emotional breakdown. Do you have any friend you can talk with?

@ajasatya Thanks for sharing! @Tistepiste It looks like you're identifying with this label "autism." Could give us more information about your life?

@ajasatya Thanks for sharing! It looks like you're identifying with this label "autism." Could give us more information about your life?

Well, I think most of us are neurotic, so you’re not alone. One thing’s for sure: you can’t stop neurosis by being neurotic about it. You gotta have lots of patience with yourself. Did you do the affirmations he gave in the end of the video? They are very powerful. Leo also gave some good advice on how to deal with neurosis in a healthy way. Btw - Psychedelics can help!