@Joel3102 not engaging in thinking and surrendering to the Now is the aim of meditation and connecting to the one true Consciousness . I believe its possible to stay fully present while thinking but requires practice and Patients. Sometimes you have to use the mind,though Eckhart Tolle says that Originality and Creativity form beyond the mind so in your case you might be doing the best you can do and true creative expression has not yet started to flow. From My experience I have found that I was a lot more rational and emotional stable so I'm sorry I cant help you there..