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@jdeugarte , you are so much more than the sum parts of your life... Find yourself - find the courage lurking within you, courage to leave this way of life that makes you so unhappy. Be brave, take a risk, leave your gray existence and find a better path - you have nothing to lose, and sooo much to gain.

Apologies if this video was posted before:

You could be right - I have this tendency to look for a deeper meaning in most conversations, where often there is none to be found.

Paradoxes - those damn pesky thoughts that tend to manifest themselves when we view things from a dualistic perspective. My feeling is that there is free will and purpose - it's just that it may not be ours to claim.

That would be a worthy question for the 5-MeO DMT gods. My personal feeling is that, perhaps we can never get to experience the true nature of a deep infinite underlying reality.

13.) Silence.

@Echoes , let me first explain what I mean by traveling: it is not the destination (tourism), but the actual journey that matters. It may be something as simple as taking a month off to walk the Camino de Santiago pilgrimage, or backpacking through non-tourist places such as the Indian or Southeast Asia backpacker trails. The most important aspect of true traveling, is the adventures you'll share with kindred travelers you'll meet along the way. With their (usually unknowing) help, you will begin to re-discover your true self, a special soul who has no place in living that shadow of a life you have now. It may not be comfortable to backpack on a budget, but being out of your comfort zone will take you through an accelerated journey of personal growth. And... it's never too late to go on your pilgrimage. Whether you are 18 or 80, you will find something uniquely special in your travels. See it as a way forward in your personal development, as opposed to an intermission or delay in your life. Heck, were it not for some current major responsibilities in my life, I would drop everything this moment and put on my backpack, then head out on my bike for the intercontinental road trip of a lifetime. And it'd be great to meet up with some of my forum friends along the way.

Mixing Mexico with drugs is not a good idea. A better idea may be to look for Dr. Octavio Rettig, the renowned toad venom (5-MeO) Mexican shaman.

The difference? Mojo.

@Echoes , you appear stuck in your life, surrounded by less than helpful circumstances. You need to get out of that situation soon, before it becomes chronic. I have a friend who was in a similar situation at age 20-25, and his solution was to drop out of Uni and play WoW day & night. Fast-forward 20 years, he still lives with his mom, and is still stuck playing WoW online. My humble advice is this: Be brave - you have little to lose. Put your studies on hold, find a job and save like your life depends on it - after 3-6 months of this, put on a backpack and travel for as long as you can. Find yourself in your travels, come back home, and then you'll be in a much better place to choose your life-changing path.

Yes, I would do exactly that - let the subconscious process dwell on this for a while, and eventually you'll wake up on some random Tuesday morning with the answer that you seek.

"Ego" is just thought. I find it useful not to objectify this illusion, by refusing to give "it" a name.

Yes, that's true. But as Rupert Spira often points out, language and other analogies are tools we use as a concession to the dualistic nature of thought. Without this object-subject paradigm, the mind has no chance at grasping the nature of non-duality awareness.

Mano, are you on Skype? PM me if you need someone to talk with.

This stops me thinking:

May require an infinite answer... Oh, my bad - I read that as "Infinite Question"

I can't speak for humankind in general, but from my perspective it makes sense to "invest" one's life into a single good partnership. Spreading oneself thin through multiple partners, is likely to result in temporary relationships without much growth or depth, and makes it unlikely that we'd learn anything significant from these shallow experiences.

@ElenaO , some ideal relationship attributes that come to mind: True friendship, shared values, a serving heart, unconditional Love, never-ending passion, good sex, commitment to growth, a common purpose, brutal honesty tempered by compassion, support throughout challenging times, love of children (own or adopted), love of life, curiosity, spontaneity, fun! Damn, I'd give anything to be in such relationship...

Often I think about what I know about love, and my rational mind comes to the conclusion that it is entirely explainable by simple rational means. We should exchange notes.

@Gladius the infatuation stage of romantic love normally occurs in the early months of a healthy love relationship (falling in love), and plays an important biological role: attraction -> procreation -> genetic immortality. The problem happens when the process is interrupted through separation, such as in your case. I've been at both ends of obsession, and I feel for your suffering. Lookit that, they've even named a cologne after our suffering:

@electroBeam , since life on Earth only begun 3 billion years ago, at that rate we'd be lucky if evolution would have just turned us into amoebae. DNA change in humans is measurable in a two-digit number of generations, not to mention that our feelings and lifestyle also have an impact on the evolution of our personal genetic makeup.

Yeah, @Nahm , try telling that to your wife...