Pure Imagination

@Nahm Thank you so much for your long and thoughtful post ❤️ It's all great stuff that really resonates with me. I feel like most of the time I have awareness over my thoughts and I realize that they are illusory. I can usually observe that they're happening in awareness, which is ultimately the present moment (the only moment). The thoughts imply past and future, but ultimately they are just images. So picking thoughts that feel good is also a solution? If so I do agree with that; I am pretty aware of the thoughts that cause negative emotion vs positive emotion. And I am quite practiced in positive focus, allowing me to generate positive feeling states (most of the time). However, isn't even this process not the ultimate truth? Doesn't one still have to identify with thought to do this practice, thus reinforcing the ego? And thank you for pointing this out! My life has been full of synchronicity lately

When I become suddenly present, it's not something I force. It's like a sudden realization that thoughts were going by without my awareness over them, then I suddenly gain that awareness. It just kinda exhausting going between the two states so many times throughout the day lol. You're right. I guess the mind will reform itself while this recognition persists. I just wish that the thoughts that I, awareness, am aware of would be less compulsive

@Nahm Thank you! Your post will give me quite a bit to chew on for a while So will these subtle thoughts that imply an ego disappear the more I inquire? I am also practicing shadow work; wouldn't these thoughts about me and I be necessary to do certain practices or tasks like that? (Even if one is ultimately aware that the self is an illusion, and decides to participate in the restrictions of language) I was under the impression that thoughts will still arise even in an enlightened mind. Especially for holding a conversation; conversations are literally thoughts that are vocalized. @dorg Interesting. So in your opinion, thoughts will still arise but the implied I won't show up in them anymore? I guess I'm confused over how necessary thoughts are.

Realize the value of tradition and look into why certain traditions have been maintained for hundreds/thousands of years. There's some wisdom there that could help with your egoic tenancies. Also, look into why you take the actions that you take. Realize that the red paradigm of power lust to enrich the self is unsustainable. Start sacrificing yourself for others; blue is all about community and finding similar values to those around you. Edit: Also, if I were you I would study Zen Buddhism. It is a very blue way to approach spirituality - learn its principles and integrate that wisdom into your life. You will find that the more openminded you get, and you expand your consciousness, you will find it easier to move up the spiral. Being closedminded is what gets people stuck at a particular stage.

"Don't pity the dead, Harry. Pity the living, and above all, those who live without love." - Albus Dumbledore

In my opinion, yes. I think that psychedelics (especially 5meo) are capable of inducing long term shifts of perception, and even enlightenment. I have broken through on 5meo once, and it completely changed how I perceive reality. However, I wouldn’t go into taking psychedelics with that expectation. That’s the ego still trying to get somewhere, when the goal is to identify what the ego really is. What happened with me was I got this permanent shift in perception, but I still couldn’t make sense of it. My ego was still intact and in control. My body and mind needed time to integrate what I experienced during that trip. It’s been almost two years, and I’m still integrating that experience. I would approach taking psychedelics knowing that they will give you deep insights into nonduality; but don’t expect permanent enlightenment from them immediately (not saying it can’t happen though). These deep insights will probably require lots of integration, but they will for sure speed up your awakening process if you are openminded enough. I wouldn’t try to rush your awakening, your body, mind, and ego need time to process that shit

Glad to hear meditation is working for you! Feeling good is a natural byproduct of expanding consciousness. Having said that, it is extremely common for the ego to lash out after you have had some spiritual realizations. It sounds like you're experiencing this now. If it comes back in full force, don't get discouraged. Just observe the ego as it arises. We all take apparent steps backwards on this journey, but that's when the real growth happens

After some recent LSD trips I have had, I’ve figured out some key insights that I would like to share with y’all. First of all, psychedelics WILL change you. Especially if your intent with them is to grow your consciousness. There’s this notion out there that after a psychedelic experience one reverts fully back to what their ego was before. This could not be further from the truth. Whether you acknowledge it or not, you have learned things from your psychedelic experiences. Even when they are used “recreationally.” You are inducing an enlightenment experience when you take psychedelics, no different than breaking through using meditation or yoga for example. Ideally the day after you take a psychedelic, you would use the day to integrate what you have learned. This is your opportunity to see how the experience will change your ego. However, even if you don’t take time to integrate your experience, it will still change you forever. Really take a look at this after you trip; become consciously aware of how you ego is different. So bottom line, I think it’s time to shed this belief that one returns to exactly who they were before a psychedelic experience. Also, I think it is important to note that the further you progress in raising your consciousness, the more your regular life will resemble a psychedelic experience. Aspects of tripping will begin to creep into your everyday life. Your materialist paradigm will continue to disolve. You will become more sensitive to your emotions, to the point where you cannot ignore them anymore. Sometimes this will even escalate to having a “bad trip” experience while sober. Which is where shadow work becomes your key to integrating the intense emotions. You can see this when you take psychedelics in low doses. What these experiences will reveal to you is that the low dose psychedelic experience will become your normal waking life. So if you are noticing aspects of your experience resemble tripping, then you are on the right track Tripping mearly amplifies reality, which is what we are all trying to do. Lastly, pay attention to how the psychedelic experience connects you to higher intelligence. You will get insights into how the universe works, which gives you access to various forms of the universe’s infinite intelligence. You can see this with synchronicity. I’m sure most of you have experienced how the universe communicates with you during a trip. The “boundary” between the inner and outer world will start to dissolve. You will notice that your thoughts and external reality are intimately connected. In other words, you can realize that your experience of your physical reality is basically a mirror hologram that reflects the thoughts you’re thinking. This is much more radical than you assume. Things will start to line up in a way that you couldn’t possibly imagine. This is the universe’s way of telling you that you aren’t seperate from it. So in a nutshell, despose of ALL of your materialist beliefs. They are holding you back and are completely backwards. Really take a look at how your mind creates your reality and how it affects what shows up. Really take that in; it is something that you will always come back to on this journey. Thats it! Let me know what you think and feel free to share any insights you have had from psychedelics. I hope you have a wonderful and insightful day ❤️

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Another thing I just thought of! Psychedelics will reveal your truest desires. You will be forced to be more authentic. And in turn, this will set you free. Feel how liberating it is to be in tune with what you want. Don’t let your ego (or other people’s egos) get in the way, you have the power to act on your deepest desires. The liberation you will feel as you become more authentic will bring you to tears. You will realize how much you hold yourself back. You also realize how simple it is to let go and follow your bliss. Really focus on this, the psychedelic will teach you these lessons if you genuinely intend on learning them.

@see_on_see I do agree that people who use psychedelics for purely recreational use don’t have the conceptual framework to make sense of the psychedelic experience. However, regardless of how one labels it one does experience the universe more deeply. Your upper chakras open. I think the problem is people rationalize the experience as “just tripping” and they don’t consider it real. But it is! What is real anyway? Just because someone conseptualizes it differently doesn’t mean they didn’t have a mystical experience. But you are right that people still get stuck and don’t progress after a mystical experience. That is also true of sober breakthroughs. People experience those more than most people recognize. So bottom line, regardless of how one interprets it, a psychedelic trip will show people what a shattered materialist paradigm looks like. @Socrates Don’t trust random dealers, you have to test your product. Mushrooms may be safer in that respect. But check out your experience after a psychedelic trip. Really take it in the day after. The more you reflect the more you’ll see how your ego has changed. You have been given the tools to connect to the universe, you just have to recognize it

@Leo Gura When your regular life starts to resemble the psychedelic experience, in a sense you’re tripping balls all the time

Enlightenment transcends the concept of pros and cons. Those words aren’t necessary anymore to describe what it means to be enlightened. You realize that language itself is just an egoic game.

You are it right now! Take a look

@Aakash Vijayan I am also an INFP, and I struggle with many of the things you have mentioned. I have found that it is important to act on inspiration when it arises. There comes a time on the awakening journey where it becomes more and more difficult to do things that you are not passionate about. Ask yourself if you are truly still passionate about medicine, and observe how your emotional body reacts. If your body has a negative reaction, then maybe you do want to truly reconsider your life purpose. To quote Teal Swan, follow your bliss. If music is what you are truly passionate about, continue pursuing it and you will find your niche, even if you have to slowly ween yourself off of things you are not passionate about. Regarding your negative emotions, sit with them. Most INFP's are empaths, myself included. I highly recommend Matt Kahn's videos on YouTube for any INFP. Ask your negative emotions why they want your attention and what you can do for them, either on the physical or psychological level. View them as a distressed child. They are trying to inform you on what aspects of yourself are requesting integration. Don't underestimate how powerful this process can be. Anything you feel that will help you is correct, just listen to how your being reacts. I also recommend continuing enlightenment work because you will continue to gain insight into what you and your emotions truly are, allowing you to integrate them more efficiently. Lastly, don't be afraid to take action. It may be painful at first, but just allow the pain to be and follow your highest wisdom. Take it one minute at a time and trust that the universe is leading you down the correct path. It always is

@martins name I believe that she is mostly turquoise. She has stated in the past that her style of teaching is catered to the individual she is talking to. So naturally she is going to teach aspects of spirituality at different points of spiral dynamics. I think this video is a good example of her turquoise style of teaching:

DragonForce never fails to pump me up

I can second that. 1p is completely indistinguishable to me from regular LSD. Please explore your consciousness with care and safety

This is gonna sound super new age but here it goes. Sometimes we are vibrationally a match to things that we aren’t even aware of. In fact, the vast majority of what we encounter as reality is completely subconscious. So for this reason, it can sometimes be a complete mystery what caused a “master meditator” to match up to something like cancer. Maybe there was a small part of them who was sick of living in this physical reality and decided they wanted to return to source. Trying to figure out the cause is 100% speculation. The bottom line is the law of attraction is much more complicated than most people realize.

This mushroom trip was one of the most profound experiences I have ever had. Lately I have been questioning how useful mushrooms are for consciousness work. I have figured that there are more useful psychedelics out there that are more direct (LSD, AL-LAD, DMT, 5-meo, etc). I was proven dead wrong. This trip was surprisingly clear - I have no doubt about anything I experienced. When I took this substance, I could feel how much history it has with humanity compared to more recent psychedelics. It became very clear to me from this experience how our physical and divine selves are two sides of the same coin of duality. I took this 2.5 gram dose with a recent love interest of mine. Let's call her Jamie. She is deep into her Enlightenment journey - much more so than I am. I arrived at her apartment around 5:15pm. We talked for a little bit to get a feel for what our trip would be like. We both weighed out 2.5 grams of dried mushrooms and put both 2.5 doses into a sandwich - one for each of us. We consumed our sandwiches right at 6:00pm (I prefer starting on the hour when I can). Within 15 minutes we were already starting to feel the effects. This was a sign that this was going to be a very powerful experience because I typically begin feeling the effects of mushrooms around the 30-45 minute mark. We were sitting on the couch listening to some classical music during the come up (the musicianship sounded euphoric to me), but around 45 minutes normal everyday tasks started to become very difficult. I wanted to turn off the music and journal what I was feeling, but I could not even figure out how to start a new page of notes on my computer. One hour in we were both beginning our journey into the universe. Neither of us could form coherent sentences at this point. Nothing was making sense. I started getting some very strange visuals unlike anything I have ever experienced. Colors were becoming more vibrant, and on top of that I began seeing stars in the corners of my visual field. I expectedly began feeling nauseous, but my head also started ringing intensely to the point where I thought I was going to pass out. My ego started to fade away at a very fast pace. I could no longer recall memories at this point. All I knew was I was in the same room as Jamie, but even that concept was evaporating quickly. I started feeling claustrophobic on the couch so I decided that I could lay down on the carpet floor while Jamie could spread out on the couch. This did not help me. Jamie was very deep into the experience, almost saying random gibberish at this point. This freaked me out - I was afraid to lose my anchor to reality. I was still fighting for my ability to communicate. This resistance spun me into a literal hell. I was spiraling down into an intense anxiety while the room around me was turning a dark red color. I told Jamie that I was becoming very scared, and I ended up using the restroom hoping the change of scenery would snap me out of this negative experience. Doing this basic human activity of peeing helped anchor me in conventional reality, but I still felt stuck in this negative downward spiral. I eventually told Jamie that I needed to be alone to dive deeper into this experience. I was not in any mood to be talking to anyone at this point. She agreed and went upstairs while I laid down on the couch wrapped in this gorgeous red blanket with trippy patterns. *** This is where things start to get good - around the 2 hour mark. I instantly felt relieved being alone. This helped me become more calm and really dive deep into the experience. No more music or people - this was raw uninterrupted reality. I became conscious of the fact that this reality I'm experiencing is a small piece of something much bigger than any of us can possibly imagine. Everything I experience is just one small shade of the totality of all experience. This insight was clear as day. It was like realizing that my limited perspective is typically seen as a small shade of paint on a gigantic canvas. However, the mushrooms gave me this zoomed out perspective that this small shade of paint that I typically experience is really part of a bigger, complete, and perfect painting. And that painting is a small aspect of an even bigger painting, resulting in an infinite strange loop And then it hit me - I am God. I am the creator of all things. I created all of this so that my limited ego can have a human experience. This feeling is truly indescribable. I had "made it." I was Enlightened. There was absolutely no doubt about it. This was the ultimate truth. There was nothing more to know. I suddenly felt this surge of perfect compassion and love for all beings - both of this planet, all other planets, and all other dimensions. It became perfectly clear to me at this moment that our concept of physical reality is just one perspective. There are other dimensions that our typical egoic selves cannot come close to comprehending. Unless you have an experience like this. I was then hit with a surge of love for this planet and humanity. It is so breathtakingly beautiful that we humans are all together living on this planet with one another. We are all perfect expressions of the universe. It breaks my heart that this insight isn't more widely known. If everyone felt this same love and compassion, there would be no more conflict in the world. We could all finally realize that we all belong to something far greater than all of us. Our egoic problems are ultimately irrelevant. We are all flying through space on a spec of dirt together inside this infinite universe. Why fight with each other? It is my passion that someday humanity as a whole can feel this same compassion that I was experiencing during this trip. I ended up needing to use the bathroom again, so I did that. I laid back down on the couch - it was around the 4 hour mark. I started to feel guilty about wanting to be alone away from Jamie. I knew she wanted to share this experience with me. I was nervous to go back to her, but I knew I had the power to do so. I was God after all. Getting up to go upstairs was a struggle. There was a lot of resistance to leaving my solitude. This whole endeavor of trying to join her upstairs really showcased to me how resistance to everyday tasks cripples my productivity. Sometimes to manifest great things there will be some pushback from the shadow, and it can be very real and painful. But that is the responsibility of God - true courage. I eventually joined her upstairs and we both shared our experiences during our comedown. It helped me that we could both form more coherent thoughts at this time. She seemed to have similar experiences that I had. Talking to her also helped me open myself up to the possibility of past lives and souls. I could see clearly that her soul has been here many times and is very old, whereas I feel like a much newer soul on this planet. I can't describe this feeling logically, it was purely felt after my conventional paradigm of reality was completely shattered. There is so much we don't know and are unaware of in our experience. Our practical minds help us navigate this physical reality, but that doesn't negate everything else the mind cannot explain. Just because something isn't useful to us doesn't mean it doesn't exist. I am typing this the day after this experience, and I am fully back down to baseline. My ego is back, and that honestly bums me out a little bit. But that's okay. I have seen aspects of reality that I can never unsee, and I remain a changed person after experiencing it. It is also abundantly clear to me that there is nowhere to run to. All of our emotions and feelings are part of a much bigger plan that we cannot possibly imagine. It is simply the shifting of energy, and our true nature is the one who contains this energy. Any time we feel negative emotions, it is actually just a pun that the universe is playing on itself. There is no one who is hurt. And me stating this isn't to downplay negative human experience. On the contrary, experiencing this helps you love your "negative" experience even more. There is just so much more to reality than our small perspective, and most people on Earth don't even have a clue about it! And that's okay. That is the divine will of our creator. I hope you have a great week

Love love love this! Life is truly a game. A smaller reality encapsulated into something far greater than itself.

I argue for the contrary. Enlightenment doesn't mean you lose interest in taking care of your physical body. After awakening, you care more about your humanity and life on this planet. It's pretty easy for most people enlightened or not to say no to that question

Thank you friend. Much to reflect on and integrate here. <3

What is being sought after transcends even the idea of an object. That's what's so tricky about it! In a sense, all perception (and non-perception) is exactly what we are looking for. The big problem is our mind is never satisfied with that answer