ajasatya

please do not just believe me blindly. enlightenment is a reproducible experiment thus you can see for yourself. Truth is your True Nature, way beyond your imaginary self-image. i wouldn't say that you want to know because IT can't be known the way we usually know things (by concepts). i'd say that you want to experience IT. this is a highly intellectual forum and the Message may be obfuscated by far-fetched words.

i am here to help you.

learn to explore the spaces between thoughts. the highest states of awe are thoughtless. the mind is just a tool. why would you fall in love with a hammer?

i am a data scientist and machine learning/artificial intelligence engineer.

intellectual pride = tons of suffering

we're the afterlife of the past, which dies every instant. it always feels like 'i am here now', though.

there's no such thing as 432 Hz or 440 Hz or any X Hz music. it's just a single frequency. this is how 432 Hz sound like. listening to this is HELL. don't be fooled. music is something else. it's a combination of silence and several frequencies produced by several instruments. not just one frequency.

i have an awesome job, i eat healthily, i workout everyday, i meditate everyday, i am living a perfect marriage. i don't have any enemies, i'm writing my own book, i don't struggle with thoughts and my mind works clearly.

you probably don't have a proper motivation to sleep and wake up early. i go to bed at 9pm. it's sunday, ~5:40am and i just finished my early meditation. there's no 9-to-5 work today so i'm gonna write some of my book for a while and then i'll be eating breakfast before i go to the gym.

good insight. always show who you truly are or you'll find a partner for someone else.

my biggest transformation happened when i started to meditate for 1h every monday at 8pm. nowadays i wake up at 4:40am everyday to meditate before i eat my breakfast and go to the gym before i go to work.

@kieranperez throw the towel then. an affordable and simple life is at your disposal right now. give up on your goals. give up on making an impact on the world. give up on your relationship with your parents. at the moment, you're probably the closest one on this forum from knowing what "letting go of the ego" truly means. a flower has nothing to prove... it just can't be something else.

it did work well because i had a crystal clear goal to ditch those crutches. they offered me a vision and it was my job to implement it without them. i quit alcohol in 2 months and weed in less than 3 months.

@brugluiz cry it all out

@VictorB02 you remind me of myself when i was younger and used to drink alcohol. i would get high and my shyness would disappear like magic. so i said to myself: i don't want to depend on alcohol to be relaxed and confident. then i worked towards that goal while sober on the following week. i repeated this loop until i finally had it down. my advice is always towards depending on very little to be happy. make happiness an easy thing, accessible anytime without the need of external substances/validations. living will be much easier and tasteful, i guarantee.

i think of them when i'm not eating. when i eat, i think of how i am going to spend that energy. i workout every morning. when i have dinner, i eat enough to give me energy for the morning. food that taste good are a vague sign that indicate the quality of the food. fast food taste very good but they have poor nutritional value.

@Manjushri we eat to feed our cells. stop eating to please your palate. if you feel weak, then you need to eat a little more. just don't give in to gluttony.

get real and deal with it. you're not mature enough to own your own place yet. either embrace rent or embrace living with your parents. anything else is just helpless moaning.

@Cocolove go to a place where they have a solid practice already. you're not mature enough to manage your own schedule. look for sesshins in zen centers and vipassana retreats at dhamma.org.

@NoSelfSelf that's what i did when i was where you are, but i didn't have a shitty job. i've always worked my ass of to get a decent job. but the place where i lived was very very simple and humble. anyways, i worked from 9 to 5 and i had lots of free time to live my real life (meditation, yoga etc). if you want your first step to be all comfy, just run to your mom and ask for a hug instead. that's why i said that you'd need to detach from comfort. it's funny. people want to thrive but they want to start from a winning spot

@d0ornokey i cured this with lonely walks everyday. learn to be happy all by yourself first, so you won't need any kind of external validation.

@NoSelfSelf you don't need to buy stuff. just rent an apartment.

@NoSelfSelf hard work and detachment from comfort. get a job and do the math. compute the lower-bound for your monthly costs and create your strategy. find a way to make enough money to cover that lower-bound + 15% and you should be fine.

@JediArron yes. read one chapter of zen mind, beginner's mind everyday after your meditation session. after you finish it, go for other zen books. the zen literature is full of practical instructions that will cover lots of common mistakes.

@JediArron you're failing because you're meditating for achievements. meditation is much more than a play of thoughts in and thoughts out. meditation is a movement towards humility and contentment RIGHT NOW.