ajasatya

@TheAvatarState here's a tip for YOU: the universe doesn't comprehend itself. the universe just IS and doesn't even know WHY. who are YOU? where do YOU come from? and WHY are YOU here? isn't it the most amazing thing ever?

you cannot get out of existence. you are existence itself experiencing what it is like to be conscious of itself. what's wrong with building your own meaning? isn't that the perfect situation? if JESUS appeared to me and said "ajasatya, the mean of your life is X" i would think "hell no. im gonna do Y!" having a fundamental meaning attached to life sucks for the human experience.

@TheAvatarState you can contemplate it and find awe in it everytime from an infinite number of different perspectives. it's the greatest joy and mystery of existence itself, man. if you could understand it with the mind, as in some conceptual framework, it wouldn't be that amazing.

this actually made me laugh why do you think you can grasp infinity?

@MM1988 show me the designer and i'll answer your question.

what's left? ask yourself if the statement "And enjoying the games is out of the question" is fundamentally true until it becomes clear to you that it's a groundless dogma.

so that you can ask this question

@Empty there is no other alternative. you have to go towards your fears. find the proper dosage for you and face it everyday. gradual exposure is the best strategy.

i'd go for it first. becoming financially independent is hard enough. engaging in a relationship requires attention and energy in order to overcome your emotional barriers. since you have a deadline (next summer), it's totally worth waiting.

careful here. concepts are bs if you're sabotaging yourself or if you're seeking Truth. concepts are useful to live a healthy and happy life. a disciplined mind is a powerful tool.

that's the typical story of every awaken (or in the path to awakening) person that i know. i just recommend that you be careful with the words that you tell yourself everyday. instead of calling people boring, as if the problem were them, i'd simply say that i'm no longer interested in such activities. as time passes by, you'll see some of them immersing in their own awakening experiences. it's a matter of time and everyone has their own rhythm. until then, you won't be able to connect with them through relationships, but it doesn't mean you can't love them. every human being is the face of god, and that's already beautiful enough.

@Ika are you financially independent?

what happened to you for you to realize that you were living a "boring life", as you call it today? did you think of yourself as a boring person back then or were you just trying your best to be happy? when i remember how i used to feel about life 5+ years ago, the first feeling that i remember is struggle. a LOT of struggle. i was trying to be happy and i didn't know how. i can't say that i was boring because that feels like lack of respect towards the fact that i was suffering. and for this reason, i find it disrespectful calling people boring or using any depreciating term towards those who suffer on the materialistic paradigm. that's why i'm pointing to the old version of you. investigate why you were the way you were and you'll understand others.

@George Fil you talk about judgment and you call me "forum guru". very interesting, indeed. i am not saying that you are a shallow and egocentric person. i am saying that you sound shallow and egocentric when you complain about the superficiality of others. those are very different things. and it's not just you in particular. i have nothing against you. people do darken themselves when they start to throw out labels onto the world. why is that? because we, humans, can only talk about ourselves. so if i feel anger or any kind of anguish towards "people being materialistic", i am actually in conflict with the materialistic part of myself. if you can't forgive the old you, you won't be able to understand and help those stuck on the same toxic patterns as you were. and all you'll be able to do is complain and feel isolated. what the heck is an "advanced being", even? i am a human being, born from mother and father, built upon 26 years of deep ignorance and 4 years of some relief, who will die within 70~80 years. are you trying to become an "advanced being", whatever that means?

when you talk like this you sound shallow and egocentric to me.

i am here to dig deeper, since nobody else is playing the role of the grounding partner. how do you imagine the real thing happening? what exactly happens in classes and how will people feel motivated to take action and practice? this is not anywhere clear to me.

then prove me wrong!

@George Fil people are not boring. they're just scared of going deeper and we have to respect that. that's why we notice ourselves in a spiritual path after some kind of accidental ego breakdown. doing the first move consciously is something that cannot be conceived by the mind. people suffer until they've suffered enough and instead of bashing them for their vices, the best we can do is feel and show some compassion. if you get to really really listen to people (and i'm not talking about a particular type or people... just people in general), they will tell you all sorts of peculiar and extremely interesting things about their lives. but you need to be an advanced listener to reach this point with ease.

even though i exaggerated on those 300 years, i am being realistic in a serious way. some people take years just to learn how to make eye contact. personal development is not something that can happen under the pressure of an academic environment. everyone has a very particular rhythm and improve in different aspects in a very particular order. when i think of an "actualized academy", i imagine an extremely theoretical body of knowledge and pools of ego trips.

it's called Life. a diploma in personal development would require 300 years of study and practice.

no. meditation is a dismantling tool. once you realize the illusory nature of your self-image and deconstruct your personality, you're free to build a new one. there are several ways to build your persona and it's not the hard part in my opinion. destruction is the hard part.

@Divingdeeper meditation is the best one, hands down. it will make letting go a lot easier for you. if someone mentions psychedelics here, i recommend that you do not touch them unless you've developed a solid 1 year long (at least) meditation habit. also, drop bad low quality culture. don't listen to songs that promote emotional attachments like jealousy, neediness, vengeance etc.

this is not true. the vast majority of people are 95% of the time scared, anxious, nostalgic, neurotic, angry or needy.

@Anton Rogachevski amazing practical video. i had this insight about 2 years ago and it felt so relieving. how does it feel to live as an open book, without any secrets? it feels like floating gracefully throughout life! @bejapuskas @Devi Shanti we've got some diamonds here. check these out.

i am simply amazed. the following video should speak for itself.