ajasatya

instead of trying to run away from the pain, just accept it and feel it as much as you can. society has developed a sick tendency to run away from our feelings. if you learn how to get in touch with your feelings you may find the profound beauty that can come out from sadness. then you may understand why this episode made you suffer, leading yourself to true wisdom. people will talk about pride. don't listen to them. humility is the natural way. humility teaches you not to expect anything from anyone.

these worked for me in parallel: hatha yoga and kundalini yoga. they provide you ecstasy through the practice. pranayamas, mantras and relaxation are powerful tools that offer you well-being and motivation to continue. as you keep practicing, deep changes will occur in your body and your eating habits will change naturally.

i think a healthier way to ask this question would be "are you conscious of your true nature?" as leo said in a video, "the Truth has always been true", either you're aware of it or not. i am not fully aware of my true nature yet but i'm very patient. i have a rigid meditation and self inquiry routine and i have gathered a lot of insights just from that. i am starting an ayahuasca journey and i am giving myself 1 year to see if it will provide me absolute infinity. i'm extremely sensible so it's rather wise for me to explore ayahuasca before 5-meo-dmt.

are you noble? understanding ego is not very easy. the wish to see through the ego is still a wish and it comes from the ego. to stop contradicting ourselves, we need to assume the form of an ego that seeks. an ego with serious doubts, thirsty and sincere will to become aware of Reality. egoist people may not be noble because they cause suffering to other beings, but that's something else.

as long as there is experience to be witnessed, it can only be done through some individual avatar because perspective requires duality. yeah, there's no way out of the matrix besides parinirvana, if that's even practical. the buddha's teaching was that every sentient being from every possibility of Reality should acquire the desire to enter a journey to kill its ego, leading to COMPLETE cessation of experience. well, honestly i think we better live in the matrix consciously (as much as we can) so we do not draw in delusion anymore, loving "everyone" knowing that's "self" love and loving "oneself" knowing that's loving "everyone". enjoy the ride because it can be fun and healthy

according to some psychologists, our dreams are representations of our wishes in another language. a language that we may not understand so we don't fight those wishes as we would do during daytime. so the dreamland is a platform of free expression of our ego.

learning not to judge yourself is an important step, otherwise you will drain your own energy.