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@LaucherJunge enlightenment is something you can't neither attain nor stop. it's totally out of the ego's control. you may sit back for a while, but that won't get the job done. you'll know it.

@Shin the only help i can give to someone is the one i gave to myself. the way i did it was facing it straight. when i saw the practical teaching to quit desire, i followed it fearlessly. i was left with the desire for food, water and sleep. that's how i inserted zen in my life and that's what i recommend. go straight at it. you may see yourself in nirvana in less than 1 year if you practice zazen as well.

@Shane Roberts nobody is walking over you. there's no you to be walked over. stop being needy and find peace in solitude. there's no spiritual growth without suffering. accept it. accept it all.

our last buddhas hit us with some solid and precise teachings that seal the deal, pushing us towards the pathless path run by Truth. i think we could share our last buddhas so people can get in touch with accurate teachings as soon as possible and have proper seeds planted in their hearts. mine was jed mckenna.

@ULFBERHT don't do it. it's frustrating because we need to deal with the very source of our frustrations. it can be disturbing, stressful and sad. all the lies you keep telling yourself about yourself will pop up and you'll have to admit you've been lying to yourself for quite a while. if you stop by and do what we try to do here, there will be pain. why are you doing it? this won't make you a better person.

@Rali you noticed the nuance of my comment and asked yourself about your reason for doing all this because you're used to being sincere. that's good. something you've done before, for sure. i teach because i enjoy teaching. there's no big meaning to it. no altruistic justification. "save all beings"? "helping to extinguish suffering"? fuck all that bodhisattva bullshit. feeling compelled to do whatever is not true spiritual liberation. reality has it's own ways to wake up to itself through human beings (on this planet). whether i'm part of it or not it doesn't matter. the ego is too ignorant when it comes down to enlightenment as a reality thing doing it's own stuff and using egos as fundamental tools. in some way, my teachings actually CAUSE a certain amount of suffering and mental confusion. you know the drill. for a career based on teaching, i recommend mastering either adyashanti's style (calm, slow, patient) or the alan watts' style (funny, entertainer) or both. love your videos. keep it up.

one of the most elucidative teachings is asking people why they're doing all this. most of them won't be able to give an answer.

fortaleza, brazil

@Dimples i use this anguish as an energy that compels me to move on and expand my relationship range. so i go out. i throw my body on the world. i meet older people. i join many meditation groups. i teach yoga to strangers for free etc.

2016, oct 24th this is my last post on this journal. i've done it. there's nothing else to do. i've been living in this ashram for 4 months now and i'll be here for 2 more months enjoying stillness. this journal contains the last 20 days before my enlightenment. it took me 1 year and a half to finally realize truth completely. no more internal battles, nothing to achieve and nothing to attach to. life is a game for us to play with.

once this insight touched me: internet is a tool for Union. it's an expression of non-duality trying to be. and this kind of thing we do here, watching and sharing spiritual videos, reading about who we are, talking and learning, this is the real deal. i love the internet. i can't fight it. if i am to be sincere, i really really like to be here.

2016, oct 22th healthy meals bike rides happiness sharing meditation self-inquiry & dharma contemplation reading deep talks deep insights enlightenment i went to pick up my girlfriend's keyboard but it was not fixed yet. so i got back home for lunch. after lunch i watched this adyashanti's video, and it felt great. then i went to the beach with matu and we had a great time. after the beach i went to practice zen with this sangha. great practice. great talk after practice. on my way back home i was hit with a shocking wave of contentment from having realized who i am. this ecstasy is lasting until now and i don't think it's going away anytime soon. if it does, no worries. but i'm feeling completely fulfilled right now.

i'd recommend no less than 25 minutes. on the first 20 minutes we usually just witness mental earthquake and no actual stillness.

i see. well, deep deep deep inside, the courage to live and the courage to die are the same. time will tell you. hopefully not very late.

hello, @Gull . i think this topic will be moved to another section soon. anyways, i could sense that you need very foundational content and practices. and you need them urgently. i highly recommend that you read a book called "the power of now". i think you can find it in pdf in your mother language. or maybe even buy it. i don't know. but that book should help you a lot. study the buddha's 4 noble truths. they will give you guidance for you to understand what suffering is, why you suffer and how to extinguish suffering from your life. start a meditating routine. start slowly. 5 minutes per day. resuming: book reading: the power of now study: the four noble truths practice: daily meditation

meditating for world peace without achieving internal peace is hypocrisy. the only way to achieve internal peace is by learning how to shut mental voice up. in order to learn how to shut mental voice up, you need to practice silence contemplation to realize what the mental voice is. and all this lead to a sincere pursuit of enlightenment.

2016, oct 21th healthy meals happiness sharing meditation bike rides deep talks reading self-inquiry & dharma contemplation spent the morning and the afternoon with my girlfriend. we experienced a deep paired meditation. it felt extraordinary. we were not following any given technique. we were just doing as we felt like. probably some tantra practice in the end. then i came back home and read some tao of physics. after that, i went to dragão do mar and listened to some seminar about chakras, meditation and enlightenment. the course is taught by this group. i was facepalming internally with almost every sentence the woman wold say. i went to talk with her after the end of the seminar and she was very stubborn saying that i had to study the infinite amount of books they had to be able to understand enlightenment. they said that it had something to do with plenty of knowledge, mystical powers etc. oh well... then i came back home and made an special pasta with matu, another resident here in the ashram. now i'm finishing the journal. good night!

2016, oct 20th healthy meals university career time investment self-inquiry & dharma contemplation happiness sharing reading yogasanas meditation deep talks revisited this video and realized how accurate it is! damn, it's been so long. i could not grasp his words back then. i'm going to read his book Spiritual Enlightenment - The Damnedest Thing. watched this steven norquist's video, which was really good in the beginning but then it became boring. i was curious about his book but i noticed it's too abstract and not very practical. it's full of ideas. i want jed mckenna instead! i read a bit more of the tao of physics. it's going very well. yoga class was a bit frustrating. too many postures that are hard for me. i had to deal with a lot of pain but i know its for the best. then i went to my girlfriend's. we had an amazing dinner.

@z2ludgfyyxnz permaculture. plant your own food. take care of your own trash. certainly there are some communities like that in the usa. it's one of my possibilities, but here in brazil. healthy food, healthy work and yoga everyday.

i don't know that book, but sadhguru is trustworthy.

2016, oct 19th healthy meals happiness sharing reading self-inquiry & dharma contemplation deep insights meditation yogasanas zen passo a passo time investment ashram duties woke up a little late and read some tao of physics. as a computer scientist who studies the development of intelligence with biologists, that book caught me up. some ramana maharashi's videos inspired me and i was able to practice some self-inquiry and attain profound insights! the yoga class was SO GOOD! we practiced some vinyasas. i think i'll practice ashtanga yoga after healing my lower back completely. the zen passo a passo session was awesome. the sangha was really into it. everyone was so connected on the experience sharing moment. then i had a good moment with my girlfriend. it's been 3 months since we started a long term relationship and SO MUCH already happened. we decided to break celibacy for now because it's being too much for her. she recognized that it was turning into a sexual repression so we're going to slow down a bit. then she went to sleep and i cleaned the meditation hall in a refreshing solitude atmosphere. stillness...

i transformed my life into an eternal zen practice. the four noble truths worked for me.

no. it's possible to have amazing sex without ejaculation. and even with ejaculation, sex with a partner is the best way to practice the art of surrendering.

@Xpansion it's not that people think that they're thoughts. they just find themselves being victims of thoughts and meditation teaches them to detach from the train of thought. so they go like "wow, i've been suffering because of thoughts all this time but i didn't notice they're just thoughts".

@rush if you're present, your needs will start to fade out. "letting go of desire", "resignation"... the sages talk a lot about this attitude. zen + yoga did the job for me. i can very solidly imagine myself saying "thank you, life" on my deathbed. this is the most sincere and profound gratitude i can imagine.