ajasatya

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  1. @Peace and Love let's do synchronized practices. i'll be desiring healing for this planet, as i usually do. tell me when you're available.
  2. @Leo Gura being a spiritual teacher or something like that
  3. how well does the course handle Truth service?
  4. @MellowD i'm afraid i have to tell you that when it comes down to spiritual search, one has to find his strength in his own suffering. something you can try is being completely honest and telling her what you feel. tell her that you suffer because she suffers. tell her that it's possible to find forgiveness. but the best you can do is to awaken all the way.
  5. @Driven Woman i experienced it. porn no longer does it to me. i don't enjoy masturbation anymore and i couldn't just be with any sexual partner. i didn't take it as a bad thing, though. i was finally free to face people as the divine spirit itself, men or women. i was finally able to experience true compassion for the suffering of others. so i started a journey to connect deeply with people. eventually i met a special person who made me feel "strange" inside again and now we're lovers. but i was ok with being single for the rest of my life. that's what i did. i used the opportunity to go further.
  6. @Issa Campusano i don't have the book but i have the how to. you have to manage your mind as a workshop for your reality. why did i say "manage"? because you cannot let your desire dominate you. if you're daydreaming but you let yourself get caught by impatience, discontentment or lack of sexual control, you're just messing up your own life. patience and contentment with the life you already have is the key. in my experience it shows that it's better not to imagine situations that only suit your own desires. it's better if you desire to provide happiness as well. it works fantastically if you're sincerely selfless. it's hard to do but that's part of what jesus himself tried to teach as far as i know.
  7. @Scarecrow why are you shy? what are you scared of? are you afraid of facing it? are you afraid of breaking through that? what are you trying to get from online dating? you're going to find people who are just as shy as you. you're just trying to confirm your own fears. if you're looking for comfort and safety, i am here to destroy your hopes so you can look straight to your own lies. the sooner you face the pain that already exists within you the better. if you want to insist anyway, which you will most likely do, go for it. but my words will follow your mind as thoughts as you fall back into dissatisfaction. you can run as much as you want.
  8. @Rashid were you trying to perform halasana? sarvangasana? you need to respect your body. right now you need to rest and mentalize your tissues healing. you've probably overextended your cervical nerve, which is extremely dangerous. always remember: hatha yoga is about effortless effort and relaxation. if you're trying too hard you're not practicing yoga.
  9. @ClearThought sincerity is my fuel and your words made my engine skyrocket. you truly touched my heart and now i'd like to reciprocate, so i am going straight to your main difficulty. we, human beings, keep searching for fulfillment everywhere. and when we find some safety confirmed by the society, we usually get attached to that context. it can be money, power, bodily perfectionism or even a love story, among many other options. you, though, have fallen into a situation of prestige. you've gone to that place from which there's no other way out than stopping everything and finding your own very truth. this is a special moment throughout the human experience. the fear of not finding another beloved person comes from ignorance, just like any other fear that emerges from situations that don't involve your survival possibilities (there's nothing wrong with the fear of losing a hand, for instance). but you have to go very very deep in yourself and find self love so you can drop the attachment to external love, social approval and confirmations. this is the time to learn how to stand on your own feet and appreciate the possibilities of being a living human being. i'd like to point to an audio recorded from an adyashanti's satsang in which he's also pointing to this inner belonging within yourself, which can heal tremendous wounds. feel free to watch other videos from his youtube account. they're all awesome. soon enough you should be thanking to all this suffering you're going through right now, as i myself am grateful for my past moments of breakdown and truth confrontation. wish you the best.
  10. during my healing process i used the following phrase right after i'd wake up everyday: but nowadays i just feel peace of life and i'm very grateful for whatever comes around without attaching meaning to it.
  11. my childhood vow:
  12. @SamEuphoria93 i got the fuck out of my parent's house after getting my own job, dropped old friendships and then i restarted my life with 24/7 zen practice.
  13. there's nothing to do about it. you've seen that what you call "me" is just a composition of things, a changing bag of sensations and concepts without a substantial center. and since there's no ego (center of me) to experience those feelings, thoughts, sounds etc, it goes even deeper if you ask yourself "who" or "what" is experiencing them. who's reading this phrase?
  14. http://nondual.net/ i'm finding it amazing
  15. @Nexeternity buddha's teachings are public search for the noble eightfold path the the five precepts. cheers.
  16. yes. the zen retirements are called sesshin. the practitioner is subject to spend consecutive days living a hardcore monastic life (not a regular monastic life), meditating 10 hours a day. it can vary from 3 to 10 days in most cases. i'm not talking about vipassana. sesshins are tougher than vipassana. during a sesshin it's not allowed to speak use cellphone use computer check the hours masturbate read books listen to music sesshins are tougher than vipassana because of the extremely strict schedule but the overall rules are the same.
  17. @hedge eventually it will come down to this question: how hard are you willing to undergo a real ego breakdown? beware of the fact that a real ego breakdown involves frustration, disorientation, discomfort and fear. these are the ingredients for any method that makes the practitioner get in touch with true humility. otherwise the search for enlightenment will be reduced to more intellectual gibberish and arrogance. the zen training process, for instance, is based on creating artificial emotional crisis within a context in which NOTHING is about you and there's no room for ego driven distractions.
  18. @quantum for me it's about compassion, forgiving, listening, helping, giving and loving.
  19. @jse mastering the art of teaching and mastering the art of learning are two sides of the same coin, which is mastering the art of living. and it takes a life time. if you feel uncomfortable with those "you guys" phrases, it may be a sign of some inner conflict which needs to be worked on, and this is good. i'd invite you to feel spirited instead.
  20. @sgn what are you scared of when talking to people? are you scared of their expectations? have you given any time to yourself to go deep into this issue?
  21. certainly good for beginners, even though we should aim for no attachment to objects in any part of the consciousness spectrum: visual auditive tactual olfactory gustatory mindful and ultimately, respiratory
  22. @Debbie B your question is one of the biggies. the zen master dogen spent a lot of time trying to clarify it himself, so i'm going to attach a great book with the core of his teachings. the very first chapter should help you to answer your own question. it's not about understanding things conceptually, intellectually. it's not about accepting nor attaining. it's about embodying Truth and staking your life upon it. every thought, word and gesture. it's about becoming a true master. a true master of yourself. Shobogenzo.pdf edit: also, @Leo Gura, i think you may enjoy this book on this new phase of yours.
  23. no. they're not enlightened at all. they've just found excuses for their ego's comfort, laziness and arrogance.