ajasatya

@WhatAmI based on your words, he seems to be way more mature than you. contradicts with and now the big one: this is a real mistake. you can travel the world. you can talk to anybody. you can live with the most enlightened beings. and you'll be running in endless circles. Truth and enlightenment are not separate from you. where do you want to go? are you scared? do you think you will find Truth hiding somewhere underneath your carpet? if you stay with him, you will suffer. if you break up, you will suffer. did you ask for Truth? so get ready because your world might get a little blur for a few months.

meditation. sorry.

you didn't understand. the desire to get enlightened is actually a healthy and lucid desire. what i mean by spiritual vanity is putting your consistency in a pedestal and then feeling desperately trapped in a rigid discipline that you cannot maintain. instead, admit that you're still very mediocre and that you need to focus on solidifying ONE healthy habit at a time. humility works better. and in fact you're just a rookie. admit it already. edit: and ill add this. get over this pride completely already. admit that you're completely ignorant (because we all are). start slow. find a sangha and practice with them. that's what i did (and still do).

@MarinM spiritual vanity is a HUGE trap. don't allow your practice to become a source of pride.

be careful here. don't just start labeling yourself like this. this is a self-imposed limiting belief. everyone who's not experienced in inner work struggles with emotional matters. you're not special for it.

you did not answer my question. i am asking you what is the nature of "worth". if you ask me what is the nature of my nails i will say "keratin". so, what is "worth" made of? is it real or imaginary?

@ill what is this "worth", fundamentally speaking? what is the nature of "worth"?

@Ether yes, it's a training exercise. the word "training" is used in zen very often and it captures the nature of the Practice very well. when asked if he was always mindful and peaceful like that, thich nhat hahn said that it's his endless training.

all i read was "i am angry! i am so pissed off! those self-proclaimed enlightened dudes! damn!" i'd ask myself who's the one thinking that enlightenment is a trophy how do you feel? has life been hard on you?

this is where meditation comes into play because you're still too attached to points of view. you want to defend your beliefs as if they were your children, but they're just thoughts. if you want to dig deeper, you'll have to let go of what others may think. the Path has some dark parts, and this one can feel a bit scary because there can be loneliness.

do you think you're better than them? at least they are not the ones filled with hatred. be careful not to be hypocritical. spiritual growth is very tricky. you probably still maintain a crapload of toxic behaviors. that's where your anger comes from. heal yourself first.

@Mircan arrogance usually comes from attachment to certain points of view. it happens when you think that someone's ideas are worth more then him/her or even define him/her. how do you define yourself?

that's your belief, not my experience. i only talk about things that i was able to do, because if i can do it, i know that it's humanly possible. i did drop a lot of things without even tasting them a single bit. i dropped them and accepted the fact that i didn't have those things. and most of them, i realized that they're just crap anyway. then i accepted a very slow paced lifestyle, studying and moving towards my balance everyday. it's been 3 years since i made the decision to drop everything and live with extremely basic things only. the results? a steady, consistent and solid growth. i let go of my cravings and embraced hard working. no despair needed.

he's got his basic needs. he doesn't have to sleep on the streets and beg for food. he doesn't have to feed his children. he doesn't have to hide in order to take a shit or use public bathrooms to take a bath. he has no REAL reasons to be desperate. he can act from a state of peace. there's no hurry, really.

@Hardkill very good. you're getting closer. drop all of that. also, drop the suicide thing. allow yourself to let go of everything. EVERYTHING. get used to being lightweight. it's freedom. you have no obligations whatsoever.

i have nothing else to say. just wanted to group up these great replies.

@Nadosa talk to your parents and tell them how you feel. tell them that the feeling of obligation is making you sick (because it is) and that you need some time with yourself to feel what you really want to do. do not worry about the "wasting my life" excuse. that is bullshit. wasting your life is doing something that you don't want to do and becoming sick. my fiancee was studying architecture. it's a promising career. but it was making her sick and i was the first one to tell her to let it go. now she's going to study music because she gave herself time to experience a lot of different things and find out what she wants to do, not what others want her to do.

why are you stuck? you didn't say what you're struggling with.

this is a very naive statement. be solid when talking about possibilities. don't go to lala land.

sounds interesting. what exactly will you do?

@Serge come closer. it is inevitable.

@Ilya they can help. but the only way to confirm is by putting what you've learned into practice and truly knowing how you feel when you do whatever you think you want to do. keywords: do and feel.

i agree. this is also represented in the last picture of the famous zen story about the ox.

do you look back at your own memories and feel sad for them or do you accept them as learning experiences? everyone has his own rhythm. you can be either melancholic or grateful. it's your choice. either way, notice the transforming potential of those feelings. leo built this web space and his youtube channel. i am enhancing my yoga/meditation skills to help others and myself and i am also planting forests and working on a high quality project to help mankind. i don't think your feelings are the real cause of your suffering. i think you're suffering because you don't know what to do with them.

@Socrates dude, i've been working on my projects for 14+ hours/day everyday for the past week. WAKE UP. y u no make impakt?