AlwaysBeNice

You would never want to violate someone's will. The idea that empathy plays no role in awakening is a big misunderstanding. Empathy is conscious love, extended to another, often for us because of the unconscious sensing you are actually intimately connected with them, masters do not just know this unconsciously but consciously. Just as no rational human (one that isn't deeply emotionally confused/traumatized) starts paining or damaging it's own body without a cause, means they wouldn't hurt you, as you are part of their body. Just as a sane mother cares for her children they care for you. . I think you only have a hard time accepting this if you can't feel Gods love for you. Which is confusing, right? Because why wouldn't it be given to you? But it is given to you, but you are blocking it through your (unconscious) defense systems/the identity you've build up, and it takes a lot of honesty and humility to learn and accept that. And it's seems safer to deny that for the negative ego, that it's justified you are in pain because life may be 'evil', causing you to look for strange reasons to fear God, 'because rapists exists', or worse and more delusional 'masters rape'. Stop thinking and start feeling, a lot, and you'll find out all your paranoid thoughts stem from emotional blocks in the bodies.

No, not because we're bored. You are bored and desperate for truth, and that's understandable, that's God calling you. You can talk and think about this stuff all day: why, and how, but no answer will satisfy you. You need to learn to feel again, purge the conditioning that's suppressing your child like bliss.

Follow the heart. But as you continue in your practice, you will see that 'shaking them awake' is actually still meaning you trying to shake yourself awake, and when you awaken more and more, people will effortlessly fall in love with you and you will do a great job at teaching by example.

That doesn't make any sense, stop making things over complicated. Peace is peace. Zero is nothing, you can't experience nothing or if you did, you would have an ego death, so that's not frustration.

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On the vaping/smoking question. Martin says HCL can be smoked, freebase can be smoked but works even better when vaped, toad venom works either ways. - Martin Ball on that trip: 'total life-shattering freak outs do happen. The woman who wrote that actually reached out to me the day after and shared a video of her experience with me, and eventually came up and visited me to talk more about it and how best to move through her difficulty. So yeah, it happens. 5 is far bigger than anyone can possibly imagine, and it’s an experience that should not be entered into lightly or casually. Even highly positive experiences can shatter someone’s life and identity. These are good things, but not necessarily easy for people to deal with and embrace. Everyone says they want to be free, but at heart, most are actually scared shitless when confronted by the reality of what that truly means. Most, however, have highly positive and productive experiences. it all comes down to TRUST ' - I also messaged her yesterday on reddit and she says she is doing much better and is back to using psychedelics. I asked her how she looks back on her trip, awaiting response. She also said she wasn't ready at the time (in her old comments), confirming the idea that a truly certain readiness is required for the personal mind to let go, as she also said she did experience nirvana when surrender happened, even though she felt like the couldn't surrender before, this must be because of the X years of conditioning to the survival based human reality even though she forgot she was human at the start, creating the experience of seeming outside hell.

No it's not silly. Universal love, empathy and an experience/understanding of oneness is universal among developed (self-)aware beings, in fact, even a good amount of animals tend to use empathy. If a human is not doing so to the degree it doesn't treat others as it would know it itself would like to be treated, it's severely undeveloped or emotionally confused, and certainly not enlightened.

You say 'no reason at all' yet then you name 'shits and giggles', or 'seeing what it's like'. You are partly dodging the question with 'shits and giggles', too unspecific. I used 'hitting yourself in the head with a hammer' in the context of rape and murder, so hitting yourself on the head violently, what cause would there be for that? 'Just to see what it's like?' Why? Be specific, what are they looking for? Pain? The experience of a damaged body? Why would they be doing that? Have you ever seen someone doing this who wasn't severely emotionally damaged and thus psychologically confused?

What cause would you have to make such a thing possible, to rape and murder (except murder for self-defense)? What reason would make it possible for you to hit yourself on the head with a hammer and for what purpose?

I'd doubt their enlightened, in fact, I'm quite sure it's impossible. Just as truly enlightened beings do not just start acting nonsensical, like hitting themselves on the head with a hammer repeatedly, because it fucking hurts, as they still prefer pleasure over pain. The enlightened knows himself to be others, just as it wouldn't hurt it self, it doesn't hurt the other. - As for your dubious claims, what sources are you basing them on?

The fact that you are highly offended by my accusation shows ur not being totally cool with your own actions either, because if someone says something untrue to you, like: 'you having terribly ugly legs', whereas you are actually a legless paraplegic, you wouldn't be offended at all. And now again you say 'She has developed PTSD causing her to need extensive therapy' whereas we only have is her saying: 'I ended up going up to Vancouver to do some MDMA-assisted PTSD therapy, and that helped a lot.', that doesn't sound like 'extensive' therapy to me.

No that is not all. You're being very disingenuous and completely irresponsible here. You conveniently left out the part where her experience goes into the light. Don't try to confuse or scare people on matters like these. What a fucking stupid thing to do. The good part after that..: Her full story https://www.reddit.com/r/Psychonaut/duplicates/3cozaz/my_5meodmt_experience_with_video/ Also, a (such a) negative experience is really uncommon, she definitely also likes to dramatize things.

Marketing can in some cases be positive inspiring thing. But no, beggars can also have a great value to society, it just on where they come from, what state of consciousness.

I witnessed an amazing satsang today, which for me had a much greater effect than ever watching them online, because you see the living example in front of you, which is giving you more trust and willingness to follow the instructions diligently. Summarized: -You are NOT suppose to be okay with your suffering, it's natural to not want it, it's real intelligence to see your life is not working, don't judge it, use your frustration. - So seek as hard as you can (he said this in the context of showing you you cannot be found in your objects of perception, because what ever you focus on or feel, the feeling is not feeling itself, YOU are feeling it, YOU are feeling your body parts/sensations through your shining your attention on them). - Spirituality and advaita are often a big trap for the ego (this was eye opening and new for me, despite having seen a lot of satsangs): People often use the knowledge of the absolute (I am not the body, nor my thoughts, emotions etc.) and hang out in the 'blissful consciousness' to escape! And meanwhile not reach liberation. 'My buttons are getting pushed? Nah, that's not me, let me distance myself from it, I am the observer.' 'let me become just the observer of it', big trap! That's solidifying the split mind, putting you farther away and creating a subtle spiritual ego. No, see it and feel it all! (Probably bit by bit, practice this, you can see it will simply open up and that contrary to the feeling it's not scary at all to allow it! These are your gifts). You will get better at this and situations that normally bother you because you are triggered will now become more easeful opportunities, allowing you to live more freely already. Also observe how with the feeling there often is a belief attached to feeling: 'I am not suppose to be angry' 'I am not suppose to cry', stay attentive to these beliefs when feeling your feelings and don't look through them anymore. Becoming awake is about with becoming true to yourself, become very very intimate with yourself, and when you can be really open to yourself, that way life can actually open up to you. - Ego and even identification with it are not bad, they are great gifts! Just partial identification, of not knowing who you also and really are, is creating the nightmare. You solve it by going a step further than it, not by suppressing them. - You can't awaken yourself. It will happen by it's own accord, you just do your best opening up, becoming as honest and open as you can, and when you are ready, the ego will seen through once and for all and you will be in a different world. Awoken, free, no more 'losing it'. I like how he kept using the word gift, humorously at the end he mentioned someone saying to him: 'I didn't chose this life..' No. It's a gift. It's a dutch teacher, he had been searching seriously from when he was 14, he's like 64 now, Ad Oostendorp is his name, but yeah, Dutch. Great guy though.

Aside from him being an incredibly happy giddy alive guy, with a very penetrating but child like gaze, I can see he has zero conditioned response rate to any one, he is fully being himself and joyfully playing his character. But the thing that impressed deeply from the start was reading his story, he had been seeking seriously from when he was 14, he had gone through multiple times of thinking he had become enlightened. BELOW I'VE CONDENSED THE STORY: SPOILER!! It might be cooler to read the full story with google translate: www.adsang.nl/mijn-verhaal/ condensed: But even towards the end, decades into it, he didn't resolve his ego completely, and at some point it was about to be absorbed, but he still couldn't let go completely, causing intense panic and depressions, he even made himself believe all the spirituality was just fake, he even felt sorry for all the masters he'd seen and believed for they too were just fooling themselves. As deep states of peace and bliss that he had experienced came and go, and yet, he still had no freedom! But through the unfold mend of the path eventually grace dissolved all his attachment, it was a very intimate process, which eventually brought full awakening and he was 'Overflowing with gratitiude'. And the thing that also helped me have a lot of faith in him was the fact that I had the most consistent high amount of synchronicities when listening to his satsangs.

I'd rather be a beggar than do online marketing. This is not to judge marketing as 'bad', but it adds nothing to society, in fact the opposite could be argued, that cannot be truly fulfilling ever. Also, marketing isn't the only options people have, I belief donation based services on the internet (+ a basic income) will be the future, but many streamers and youtubers already make good money through just the generous support of their fans.

I was thinking of Mooji given I remembered so much of an emphasis on being the watcher, maybe in a bit of a dissociating way.. which isn't bad advice per se but probably a bit incomplete, and that something looked off at times and him making a few statements that put me off that went something along the lines of: 'If you don't get this, go back to vipassana or something' (can't properly remember the part before the comma) and responding to a kundalini awakening of someone and saying: 'oh dear, that's childs play', whereas vipasanna is so legit and kundalini is I think the feminine aspect of awakening and from what I understand an be enormous even in the light of no-self. But actually, I don't know and I am not really in the position to make such a statement to begin with and when I look at him just now I see a very kind present open being, pointing to being in the heart and reaching massive amounts of people, seems good. But maybe there is more. ^ ^

Yes. Some take on 'the observer role', or you focus on spaciousness, but meanwhile you still don't do anything about emotional suppression. I think this can an okay or even necessary stage for some time. But the problem occurs when the suppression of the personal self actually becomes believed to the truly spiritual thing: becomes an addiction; a crutch and stagnates you. The ego was already used to denying the self, but now, even perhaps even worse, it does so under the supposed the spiritual mindset of: 'not me, not me, not me'. Someone might actually mistake their escapism for some sort of ultimate stage and might even try to seem like a teacher of the highest regard, not so rare according to Ad and I see the same, I think this is case for some of the most popular advaita teacher even, it's a nice easy escape mindset, which is of course appealing to the masses. x)

Yeah, Ad Oostendorp as mentioned in the post. But he's dutch.

You will always be identified with your ego automatically (unless you are in Samadhi), if someone would call your name, you would turn around. Partial identification with just the body/persona causes bondage, especially if the bondage includes a lot of cultural suppression, you will probably be caught up in fear and craving/being attached to temporary things. if you know you are everything/nothing playing a someone, you don't have to worry about others judging you, you don't have to worry about death (though you can be careful), you know the universe supports your positive actions. It's like if you would be playing World of Warcraft and thinking you are your character, you might never even get past the tutorial area -About the 4th point of 'awakening will happen by it's own accord' it will just happen to you, you can't do it. He said the Samadhi's and becoming true to the personal self are preliminary steps and are not the same as awakening in his definition, that final thing will just happen some day after these preliminary stages, but he wouldn't go into detail because that would just be for you to experience.

Was listening to a satsang of a dutch teacher (Ad Oostendorp, fantastic guy, if you can understand it). He was speaking about just deep sleep, and I was in my bed listening to it and for some reason this time I could really sense it for some reason, see it almost. It wasn't very developed or a big experiences, but I could sense it, and it's really cool and profound, and I think it's closer to our understanding our grasp than we think. So maybe now or if you go lie down before you go to sleep this night, just contemplate deep sleep, and how you actually do kind of know what it's like and that it's even already here in a sense.

I think it's dishonest to say or make it sound like it 'needs to happen' or 'will' (to everyone) whereas I think it's just you projecting your own personal unresolved fears on it.

How is it haunting you? I thought you had the experience in sleep sometimes and you cried of beauty?