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I do not think so. Which one are you referring to?

Discovered this article yesterday. I honestly respect him a lot more after he opened up about this. Our society is waking up at a rapid pace. https://www.billboard.com/articles/columns/hip-hop/8490421/kanye-west-twitter-tweetstorm-drake-mental-illness-health-bipolar-new-music

Yes, I need to get back into that more... Right, most were very supportive. A couple I felt weren’t as receptive, but that’s not under my control.

This whole journey is amazing. Ever since I got into personal development at the age of 18 (I’m now 22), I have slowly but surely unraveled my deep rooted addictions and secrets. It’s still a long way to go, but opening up has been a huge milestone for me. I was recently given a proper diagnosis for what I’ve been struggling with in secret. It’s called “transvestic disorder”. For those interested in reading a little about it, I will put a link here . This is a sexual disorder, so I must warn that some people might find it to be a pretty sensitive topic. Here is the letter I originally wrote to my uncle, but I also decided to share with other members of my family. I also decided to share it with those who are open to reading it. I am happy to also answer any questions or to clarify anything that seems vague. ——— So to make this as simple as possible for the time being... One of the deep rooted issues I have been faced with since I was 13 is what I believe is called a fetishistic disorder, or paraphilia. Basically, the only thing that gives me sexual arousal are some specific fetishes. It is true that at this point in my life, my libido is nearing its peak. So although having a fetish exclusively is, to my knowledge, rare, it shouldn’t be an issue if it is healthy and balanced with other parts of my life. The issue for me, however, is that these fetishes have become a main obsession for me and has caused a lot of distress throughout the years. I did not start opening up about this seriously until I was 17, because I did not know the extent of the issue nor did I even know what was going on. So I spent a few years struggling with it on my own. To explain how bad this issue is - an example I could give is I could spent almost an entire day just fantasizing about the fetish, and the main way I would do that is spend hours on online chatrooms secretly talking about my fetish to multiple women. The reason I spend hours on it is because I’m trying to get a “sexual response” that would arouse me, but of course since this is a unique fetish, getting a sexual response that would satisfy me would take a very long time. Not to mention I’m doing it in secret, so the other person doesn’t even know I’m trying to get a sexual response out of them. This of course... this all cumulated into years of personal battling with myself and becoming more and more addicted. I am still faced with this issue to this day, but I’ve slowly gotten better ever since I opened up about it. I have also become much more aware of what it is, and what triggers me. I have shared a little bit about my fetish with a few therapists, my parents and sister, [other relatives], along with some online acquaintances. This issue I’m dealing with, along with other mental illnesses of course, is not well known, so the responses I have been given have mostly been just listening to what I have to say and being given the best advice they know with the current knowledge we have now. I did have one therapist who taught me some techniques to catch myself from getting caught up in those obsessive thoughts, but it is extremely difficult to use the techniques consistently when the obsession has become so automatic and powerful. There is no magic cure for what I am going through; only medications and hard work has been shown to lessen the obsessions. However, I am now actively seeking therapy and proper medication management to get the best treatment for me. The best I can do now is to better myself and learn from all of these experiences so that, in time, this will not have complete control over me. Me being honest and sharing this with others has also been a huge part of my recovery. So thank you for listening. I will keep you updated on my progress; the ups and the downs.

Yes I have sent it to them already. Was it necessary? I don’t think so. But I opened up about something I’ve kept hidden for such a long time, I don’t think I could have bottled it up anymore. The fetish is causing me distress, but I am learning how to express it/let it be without it becoming an addiction issue anymore.

https://www.wsj.com/articles/the-new-science-of-psychedelics-1525360091?Paid&nan_pid=1863953623&ad_id=7972769

I am also an addict. Thank you for sharing.

Hi all! April 2nd is officially World Autism Awareness Day. And April is known for being autism awareness month. I wrote a short post yesterday, pretty much opening up a bit about being diagnosed with autism. This was written specifically to some friends and family, but I wanted to also share it to anybody who's open-minded and want to hear from someone who is personally autistic. I don't go into specific details on how I was diagnosed, or the personal struggles that I have gone through (it's a lot). This post was just meant to open up and bring some awareness to autism and to be honest with who I am. I hope it can inspire you guys a bit to stay true to who you are. If you would like to read, here's a link: https://www.facebook.com/notes/joseph-mutuc/autism-awareness-2018/132292167619554/

A very candid interview with Mooji. 3 hours long.

I'm from New Jersey. Anyone else

Have you tried therapy like CBT?

Title says it all. Can they experience enlightenment? Can they become enlightened?

https://www.actualized.org/insights/how-to-spot-a-sociopath As Leo has pointed out, "If you have a sociopath in your life, don’t accommodate him or try to reform him. Cut him out of your life entirely." What then are we supposed to do with these types of people in our societies? Leave them out to be alone? Put them in a mental hospital? How will these people change their ways if they can't even seek support for themselves?

Serious question. If ~99.99% of people in the whole world never reach enlightenment , then what's the point of taking this enlightenment work seriously? Meaning doing all these meditation practices, concentration practices, retreats, yoga, etc.... couldn't the majority of our time be used on something else that is actually possible (like learning a skill, getting into new hobbies, travelling, making new friends, etc). If most people never reach it, then wouldn't they physically die before even getting a full realization?

I noticed in Leo's Retreat Vlog, he eats Gluten Free Oatmeal. My question is (for Leo if he reads this... Or anyone) is it a worthwhile investment to buy Gluten-Free oatmeal? What is the benefit of avoiding gluten even without celiac disease or gluten introlance?

Is fasting a good topic to discuss in detail? Is it a useful tool for self-actualizing?

Leo has pointed out a few times that we should avoid wheat. Is this advice useful for people even though they're not gluten intolerant? What books or resources can I read/listen to that talk about the downside of wheat?

I recently read that lavender can be helpful for people with anxiety and can help with sleep. So I bought a diffuser and 100% pure lavender oil online. Anybody else into aromatherapy?

According to this article I read, studies show that writing on hand is better than typing. What do you guys think? Taking Notes? Science Says You Should Skip The Electronics And Write By Hand

How about a white noise machine like a Marpac Dohm

@AlwaysBeNice Great response, really resonated with me. As a person with Asperger's syndrome, I wanted to especially really fit in in high school. But I always gravitated towards the more unconscious side of the spectrum (few friends, but low quality) because it made me feel comfortable. Kind of like confirming that my negative behaviors were normal or ok.

I used to do some of those childish things a few years ago (I was 16 for goodness sakes). There will come a time when you will realize how stupid those things are, but at the moment you believe that it's benefiting you. But keep doing them. Eventually you'll come to even a slight understanding of how stupid those things are, but for now you can keep doing it until you get tired of hitting yourself in the head over and over again.

@Leo Gura Just wanted to take this opportunity to thank you for posting your 9 day retreat on YouTube and the personal video journals. It's truly inspiring. As the original poster mentioned, I too have burned many bridges and lost a lot (while pissing my life away). I'm running out of moves. I've actually planned my second silent retreat and will be starting this Monday and will be silent for 6 days.

Love that advice, though, it probably isn't universal. Someone who's emotionally unstable wouldn't be able to survive that.

So is it like trying to find a needle in a haystack, but you are the needle and everything else is also the needle? Yet you think that the needle is somewhere else?