No bro.
You just lack mastery of this field because your approach has been too gross and heavy-handed.
You have overlooked important things in your via negativa approach.
Integrity is not about rules or morals or seeming noble. It is another, much deeper matter. It is a measure of how well you're expanding into the infinite.

I can relate with that. There's always conflicting desires in us, even for stuff we supposedly want most.
You can try contemplating your fears.
You can try creating a new compelling vision of why you're meditating in the first place.

Really?
Why haven't you been able to use rationality itself to reveal the limits of rationality?
The scientific paradigm does not even make sense to itself. You just gotta dig a little into it and the whole thing is seen to be house of cards.
Matter?? Energy?? Molecules?? Quarks?? Time?? Space?? Reality?? Existence? Life?? Knowledge?? Physicality?? Objectivity?? Evolution?? Intelligence??
What are all these things??
Nobody knows. Yet the show keeps on running as if everything was settled.
The scientific paradigm unravels like a poorly-knitted sweater. If you want to be a scientist the key is: pretend like it isn't.
P.S. Of course with all that said, science can still be redeemed.

I used to fall off of schedule / routine like that until I found my life purpose. I still exercise and eat right, but I'm not as routine as I used to be. I try to be free and let go. Life purpose is something I do on my free time because I gravitate toward it. I also gravitate toward exercise daily, but it's not rigid.
Try looking at some of his clips:
This may help.
If you want to look at the example of my life purpose, here it is. You may follow the links.

No, only you babe.
If the body drops dead, all perceptions would cease and the world would disappear -- I would assume.
What actually happens after the body dies is technically unknown until you get there. There could very well be bardo states, etc. From my current understanding, upon physical death you will merge into absolute infinity. But I could be wrong. There might a sort of reflection period where you get to integrate all the lessons you've learned in your life. I sort of expect that. But this is just my best guess.
The point of enlightenment is that you disidentify with the body, the world, and all perceptions. You realize you are Nothingness, and so after that, you no longer really care if the body and world disappear. In the same way that you don't really worry about getting a haircut because you know you're not your hair.
Good for him.
The problem is, for you, everything he says is still hearsay. You do not know what he knows. And you do not know if all of his knowledge is accurate or if it will apply to your life.
He did his journey from scratch. And so should you. The problem with following great people is that you start to blindly accept everything they say. This is especially problematic with Sadhguru because he's clearly so realized. But that doesn't help you! That opens you up to the trap of dogma and belief.
The key to this entire path is independent critical thinking. You can't trust any authority figure. There are no authorities. You have to become your own authority.

@Dragallur I agree, except it's not about luck. It's about openmindedness and the desire to think outside the box.
Thinking for oneself is often the hardest and rarest thing in the world. No one bothers to do it.

I know this one girl, very conscious, but most of all very open and loving. She can tell you all about the ego and its many deceptions, yet when she's around people, its like she doesnt even see it.
In fact, the reason I am on this path of actualization is because many years ago in my most unconscious moments she was the only one that completely accepted me exactly the way I was. Even being around such a person can transform you  because suddenly it becomes so clear to you how unnacepting you actually are. That's what I love about her, she teaches just by being. Even when no words are spoken I end up learning things about myself, just by seeing total acceptance in action. I can imagine that's what being around an enlightened person would be like.
The reason I'm saying this, is that what Ive learned from her is that the most unconscious thing you can do is to create this distinction between conscious and unconscious people. If she wouldnt have accepted me and my unconscious ways, I wouldnt have been able to see it in myself. And that's how love works. Its all encompassing. 
If you arent able to accept the "low-conscious" behaviour of your friends, see that it's you that is unable to accept in that moment. In fact your low conscious friends are your best teachers. Sure, theres a time for seclusion, but ultimately if you cant deal with the world, living in a cave (so to speak) is just another way of running away from your own fears. 

You should definitely be willing to just kick back and watch a football game and drink a few beers.
When an enlightened bud comes to town, we go to the strip club. Enlightenment isn't about being ultra spiritual. Ultra spiritual is how you should be on your hardcore meditation retreats. But in everyday life you want to kick back.
There's really no reason to talk about spirituality with your friends.
As long as the person is positive and gives off a good vibe, you should be friends with them. Definitely don't judge people based on how high they score on your consciousness scale. LOL.
"Sorry bro, your consciousness is at level 495, and I only hang out with 500+"

That’s an awesome insight.
You’re right, I’ve always been prone to imitating the good sides of people because I have trouble knowing how to behave myself.
Hopefully when I find my life purpose and keep meditating, I will become more and more authentic and find my own way

@Dan Arnautu The counter-intuitive move might be to slow down rather than speed up.
Try to get your routine down to the bare essentials.
As you grow, your routine cannot stay the same. It has to adapt. Some parts of it you will outgrow.
Also, be careful with confusing a healthy routine for consciousness. It's easy to get those two confused. Letting go of routines and operating more on consciousness alone can be a great growth opportunity.
Also, try loving yourself more especially when you backslide. Shoulding all over yourself in such a case tends to only make things worse.
Also notice how state-dependant you've become. You've hitched your happiness and self-esteem to executing your routine. And now you see the downside of that. It's still conditional happiness. Ground your happiness in BEING rather than doing.
The good news is, if you've done it for 2 years, you can do it again, and it will be way easier the second time around.

@Brivido Because demonizing another doesn't fly so well when you become conscious that other and self are one.
How can you hate Nazis when you know they are you??? You can't. The problem with nonduality is, it destroys all hate. And people love to cling to their hatreds.
As I've become more conscious last year, I had to give up shooting my "A Rant Against X" videos. It was a bit sad to give those up. Nothing like a good old fashioned rant to juice me up.
If I am forced to choose truth or ranting, I will reluctantly choose truth.

Truth is something very easy for every human to access. It's so simple and obvious that it actually takes hard work and dedication not to realise "truth", which is nothing more then a deep existential connection and involvement with life in a happy and peaceful way
Have societies build a system that prevent us to see that? The very construction of society needs you to transcend your love and become afraid and egotistical. Those are the required traits in order to fit in or adapt. You can't really penetrate or have traction on society without those traits. 
Here's what some respectable people in the fields of spirituality, science and art have to say about it.
Leo Gura - "30 Ways Society Fucks You In The Ass" (link below) 
Mooji - "It's almost as the entire human race freely eat depression pills" (this was a statement regarding how most people in societies live there lives) 
Eckhart Tolle - Eckhart got the question - " Are we judging if we say that society are toxic and crazy?" Answer: "No!"
Osho - "No society want you to become wise, it's against the investment of all societies, if people are wise, they can not be exploited" 
Einstein - "“Two things are infinite: the universe and human stupidity; and I'm not sure about the universe.” (He referring to how people in societies acts) 
Janis Joplin - "They laughed me out of town, they laughed me out of texas" (Respond to her dedication for love and truth trough music) 
Bob Dylan - "They viewed me certainly not as a sing/song writer, I was more like a kind of threat to society in some kind of way" (Regarding the discrepancy between how he viewed himself and the societies view of him. His fans loves him for the truths they believe are to find in his lyrics/songs which also result in noble price  for 2016.)
These are just a FEW tiny examples. 
Are societies afraid of truth, wisdom and enlightened people? 
Regards
Markus 
 

@Epsilon_The_Imperial Because you haven't experienced "the Void", you can't appreciate what it really means.
It's not merely "the Void".
It's ABSOLUTE INFINITY!
That means, it includes everything possible simultaneously. There is nothing you can dream up which isn't already there. There is nothing beyond the Void because the Void is literally EVERYTHING!
Can you even begin to fathom how significant that is???
No, you cannot. Not without it killing you.

I have a degree. Honestly, it's instant credibility for job positions. 
You can learn anything from books, go to a thrift store and see how many old textbooks are there (even medicine). The sad part is, that knowledge is no less relevant today than it was at that time, so people are getting ripped off for college textbooks.
I wouldn't recommend dropping out but you can still make it without that piece of paper. Is it going to be easy? It's not easy WITH the paper. 
I had a conversation with some coworkers a few days ago (management position levels) and we concluded that if you learn coding, start an online project, commit it to github, and display it to possible employers, you can land a software engineering or a good IT job. Passion and deep understanding/internalization outweighs people with degrees who want to collect checks.

You can't kill yourself by destroying your human body, not the emotional body / the momentum of attachment of the mind, you'd need to complete your spiritual practice regardless. 
And from what I've heard from reputable sources, cutting your process short like that, before having fully lived a human experience (as being awake, fully conscious), will probably result in choosing another incarnation.
Because experientially living a human enlightened life is desirable (living as a Jesus or Buddha ain't boring), and would allow you to leave the human experience satisfied in spirit as well, because physical incarnations also serve the purpose of shaping spirit to be able to have a sense of personality with it.
 

@Hermes Trismegistus suffering like pain and all the negative emotions and thinking are designed for us to survive
but because we are self-aware we cling to that things long-term and that creates suffering that destroys us
your dog doesn't suffer, dog can feel pain, hunger, sadness but wouldn't turn it into suffering

@SOUL Nothing about the "physical world" is objective because it is a function of human cognition. You think an ant experiences the same physical world? Nope! Whatever scientific knowledge you have is from the HUMAN species perspective, which is the very definition of subjective.
Whereas spirituality can give you access to the Absolute, which is the only objective thing there is.

There is Absolute truth and relative truth.
Absolute truth you've never encountered even once in your life (if you had, you'd know).
And relative truth is the domain of all other human knowledge. All science is relative truth. Physics is relative truth. That you were born and that you will die is relative truth. Etc.
It's relative because all of reality is absolutely relative. A truth can only exist relative to some arbitrary standard which you designate. Without any standards, there is nothing true. Which is Absolute Truth -- utter groundlessness. This is difficult to understand unless you have a direct consciousness of the Absolute.
Relative truth (like science) is useful stuff. It's important and necessary for survival. But just keep in mind that's not ultimately true. It's true only relative to your survival and present state of consciousness. Once your present state of consciousness is altered (like if you die), all science and other relative truths fly out the window. They become untrue because all along they were predicated upon you being alive as a human being.
Yeah... this is heavy heavy stuff.
Consider this: if you were an ant, which truths of yours would survive? Any?

People learn about enlightenment and then start engaging in this sort of black and white thinking: books are just mental masturbation.
If you don't know how to make use of books, you aren't avoiding mental masturbation, you are just swinging your pendulum in the opposite extreme.
This work requires nuance.

Over time, as my tripping technique has refined, I've found that the only thing really necessary is:
Totally quiet & safe setting, zero obligations, empty stomach, courage, and after you take the substance: sit perfectly still, concentrate on the present moment, and surrender.
Always start each new substance at a lose dose.
Meditating before-hand helps to prepare the mind. You want to get all your personal stuff out of the way so you can go deep into existential questioning.
If the trip starts to get hairy, just remind yourself to surrender and get more curious about reality rather than your petty personal issues or feelings.

@solr The answer to your question is: the entire spiritual journey is about that.
By becoming more conscious you are able, more and more, to let go of your devilry. This process will takes decades to complete.
Self-inquiry, meditation, yoga, contemplation, etc. are all very useful tools for spiritual purification.
But don't neglect ordinary personal development either. Get your own life together, climb Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs so you're not struggling to desperately fulfill yourself all the time. Evil mostly comes from desperately needing things like: sex, money, love, power, fame, security, etc.
Practice unconditional love more, open your heart chakra. That helps a lot too.

@Ocean
Too flippant, too simplisitic.
What you call a place of knowing, could be your blindspot. The point is you cannot know until you have tried a thing. And you cannot try a thing until you have researched it with an open mind.

Not all thoughts are automatically bad. There is a sort of higher intelligence at work in you, guiding the mind. For example, you might get the thought, "I should really start to eat healthier." And that can be a message from your "higher self" which would be wise to listen to.
Thoughts may not be absolutely true, but they can be relatively true, which is important from a pragmatic perspective. You need healthy thoughts to set your life straight.
Only at the very advanced stages of consciousness can you start to transcend thoughts altogether. And even then, you'll still return to them for pragmatic reasons.

Hehehe....
That's like going to a channel that teaches fitness advice for ordinary people and asking, "But what about Arnold Schwarzenegger? Why not be like him? He can squat 700 lbs! Why tell people to squat 200 lbs? It's nowhere near!"
Dude... most people can't even stop playing video games or put down their smart phone. Forget about enlightenment.
Ravi Shankar is a once-in-a-generation individual. You ain't ever gonna be at his level. And if you are, you certainly ain't gonna do it watching YouTube videos or hanging out on this forum. You should be living in a cave and meditating 24/7. You are talking about a COMPLETE surrender of your life. Who is prepared to do that?
99% of people will not reach the bar of Actualized.org. If you're in the 1% who outgrows Actualized.org, then by all means go do it.

Both
A sudden strike is often years in the making, like a dormant volcano. And much work remains afterwards for integration and embodiment, and further enlightenment experiences.
There's no easy, binary way out, the way most people love to assume.