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@PetarKa hi! I'll write you more later, but in such cases go back to basics. Free will/No free will, you are here in life to experience whatever is in front of you, so "do your homework": do right now whatever is in front of you waiting for your attention. To be here in life is just a learning process. When you get lost in big questions, probably you are trying to avoid a current uncomfortable contradiction. That's ok, you eat an elephant one bite at a time. For now, you can control that one bite, just do that.

@Annetta do you ask for something to do at home yourself, or do you ask different types of dance courses that you might want to attend?

@Shin You're right actually.. it still takes time even if the will is there.

Take the life in sip by sip, without any rush. In your case, it seems that you need more 'doing': testing and tasting life. Do it as much as risk-free at first: join some art courses/activities, volunteer in the subjects you like and observe yourself while doing so, it'll create a little bit of an idea about yourself. Then take very small risks by really thinking about it clearly beforehand, consider yourself doing it just to see yourself in action, and consciously shoot for a mess up, then come back and sit, analyze it. Go for another little experience trip. Rinse and repeat. This might help you build self trust. How to decide what to choose, when to choose: That's one of the hardest tasks. No. A good mentor will gonna annoy the shit of you by stubbornly not giving you any single clue about what your decisions gonna be like. (They might teach you some good tools to how to make a decision, but they won't decide anything FOR you) Generally that's the time all of your dragon fights with your parental figures gonna come up to the surface. Most likely you'll bag people to give you some pointers for your decisions; but just don't do that go home, suffer alone and pick one whatever the fuck "YOU" decided thing and know that all of the shit that comes with it, is on "YOU" That's the major reason we don't want to take decisions on our own, but there is no other way around. That's why go little by little; bit by bit; sip by sip. You know where the other is, simply by knowing where you are yourself. For Intuition, you need to know little bit more about yourself, about life which requires to go out there, and get messy on the field... even just that most likely gonna teach you, some accurate facts to your bones... after getting rid of being immature about living the life then it can be the time about intuition. And remember the most confident looking ones don't born that way, every one starts very immature, very naif. That's the way it is. You need to be willing to get messy with the life business, then I assure you things change on the way.@LowPlanetary

Oh! I'm so sorry! This is accurate. You are right. in that case you can not. I wanted to mention that you just need to listen what the ego tries to express to you. My apologies.

You are being so harsh on yourself, please don't do that.. you are a human being at the end of the day, and every one of us has a right to 'trick ourselves into thinking' here and there, once in a while.. please be easy on yourself, sometimes your inner self might be knowing better than you: meaning, may be you might need a little time to be emotionally ready before you get into the action... friend yourself. you are just scared. And that is okay:) it's more simple and energy friendly to say: I am scared. This thing scares the shit out of me. I don't think I am emotionally ready for this, I just need a little more time to ground my emotions. And that is a very reasonable, understandable need right there; you are behaving mean to yourself by disregarding the importance of your emotional needs and you are fighting to it and creating a lot of mental noise not to see what you are doing to yourself. Honey. Don't. ((Give that little poor ego a little chance and juuuust A little treat; and then if it misbehaves and really frustrates you, then we can talk again.)) Here I wanted to say: just to be easy on yourself. To wait for the chaotic inner talk to calm down and then, as you say, identify the situation is accurate. With love:))

Hi @Principium Nexus ! I am familiar with both sensations, not so much the awkwardness, more the anxiety. Anxiety reminds me here two basic scenarios: 1) social based 2) future potentials. I'll start with the 2nd. When you are smart, intelligent and capable of doing a lot of different things, then any choice you make, especially for important future decisions, has really high alternative costs. Already intelligence comes with a certain amount of conciseness on the side so when you know about the costs it is somewhat natural to be anxious. There is unfortunately not an easy solution for such case and no-one really can know it for you, and probably they are already not seeing what you see which really adds up awkwardness to it, and a bit loneliness in that sense. Social one, I assume can be the cause for that draining feeling... I don't know why but I'm gonna write little bit about my experiences: I am an only child of a primary school teacher mother and a cop father. According to governmental setting of the country cops have to travel city to city approximately every 5 years like military base here in US. And you don't exactly know how long you gonna stay in that region. sometimes 2 years, sometimes 7... So I always had to adopt and re-represent myself to "the" "new social conditioning" again and again, just on my own. Of course it really adds up to your skill set, I can read the web of social beliefs of a society and can speak into their value system so quickly, which sometimes makes me even more scary to them, so they then see me all of a sudden "so good to be true" and criticize me harsher... but when you do the thing on and on, you know the process, you know when they gonna lower their shields when they gonna start to trust you, accept you to tribe and so on... but it feels so awkward. It is so so funny that "you" are the weird one, and "they" are right:) which is actually accurate, because they present the "norm" so they are normal, you are the one who has to catch up. Actually till you find someone else who can vibrate similar way, it is not that easy. But the good news is it's not impossible either. I have a good friend in Istanbul, she is an harpist, somehow one day we met, and her level of emotional understanding matched up, then I felt a huge relief in my life. I think unfortunately it is somehow necessary to have at least one similar wavelength person to pass that through. I wrote more about myself rather than you:) sorry about that:) I felt it was a similar situation, I don't really know this can be helpful to you but... let me know. @Shin by the way it's really not a good idea to offer people drop their masks like right away without knowing the background story. They might need it for some situations, and I strongly believe that it needs to happen in a conscious and a gradual manner. It's sometimes like speaking the other one's language to communicate to them.

The rule is thumbs-up good tool; seems like the confusion here is about the distinction of what is good,what is bad for you. You seem trying to be very cautious about not choosing the wrong thing for the rule, and have gotten lost in your mind. Sometimes till you take action about whatever it is, uncertainty of compatibility of the subject to the rule just lingers. Sometimes on the way to it, you understand what is what, what you really wanted, if it's ego related, ... things come to clarity on the way sometimes. And it's also important to remember, ego is not a necessarily bad thing, badness of it hugely depends on your personality and your conciseness level. It is just a tool like a knife: in a surgeon's hand you save lifes, in a killer's hand you take lives away. There is this saying: if you were locked up in a cage with a wild lion, would you like to have that lion hungry or full? And that lion is our egos and 'have to' be fed the right way. Well, what I write right now is very very nuanced stuff, not be taken to the wrong way; but in some scenarios it's good to remember that.

@BeginnerActualizer yeah I know, outdoors is incomparable Both.. But where you wanna reach is not be bothered by any of the conditions, so sometimes it's good to train the body in uncomfortable situations, it won't be too meditative but it's an essential part of the work.

@Dodoster that's hilarious I announce yours as the funniest! Cycling one is a weirdo too though. I liked that one too! @zazed

Yep I'm done too. Weather is very beautiful today here, it's very warm... I was at my porch. I initiated by putting the intention: to have this our first gathering to help rising our spiritual awakening altogether; then I asked to the mother earth to ground all the possible negativity which might block us. I raised my kundalini and started. That was nice, but I couldn't get as deep as I wished. I sent you my love too❤? Then I just sit with open eyes for half an hour. THIS WAS FUN When is the next one? (My eyes were closed but that was my view)

Ahah! I like it. 6 mins to go. @Dragallur What's this mean? Write to me later please. I need a little prep now.

I like the idea! I think I liked it a lot, as you see I double quoted you

@cetus56 I also have changed my dance training hours.

@Barna Yeah, okay.. but I still invite and encourage everyone to at least try one hour. I'll be doing so. Do whatever is familiar and comfortable this time. If you like focus on awareness. We didn't specify it but I will be doing so.@Greatnestwithin

I@Barna @Dodoster Awareness. Let's not leave the duration open ended. I vote for an hour. Ahh... this gave me such a high; feels just like before my performances!!! It's been almost two years that I haven't done any meditation with collectivity!!! I'm very excited!!!

@Barna @Dodoster it will be 2:00pm in Connecticut/US, is it correct? Guys can you help me out with the time? Is it 1 hour or half an hour?

That's one of the videos that I love the most. Very efficient, very re-connecting.

Happy Anniversary! And wishing you many more to come♥

Oh,I see. I didn't learn it from somewhere, I've always been like this. I don't know some techniques to it, but in Carlos Castenada's books, Don Juan teaches it. You can start by reminding yourself it'll be still you (meaning conscious you) in the dream, just before fall asleep. And you can start to aim find your hands and look at them in your dream. Or, of course, you can start with willing to remember your dreams. Saying simply: I'm very thankful that I remembered my dream and then don't try to remember it. Just say it as a sentences than forget it. Generally dreams start to appear in your mind after a while. (Also say to yourself, whatever appears is ok and welcome, and try to calm the emotions before they appear in your mind) I just can say this much That is such a colorful world! I hope you find your way in

@Revolutionary Think I have quite a lot experiences with dreams. Why were you asking?

@username Thanks

7-8 strawberries+7-8 raspberries smoothie: fight against hunger & obesity/ supports to keep your attention focused. Beet+carrot+apple+water: good for anemia All vegetables: cooked with little water and olive oil. The ones I like: Eggplant+onion+garlic+olive oil+water+ little salt = oven it then mash it add lemon Spinach+onion+black pepper+olive oil+water+salt= add black olives Leek+carrot (cut them round)+a little white rice+olive oil+water+salt+ and very little sugar into this one for flavor. Chicken broth or hot water+honey+lemon They are natural serums for the body in necessary cases. I wanna share an important information: "horse bean": boil it, drink the water. Or you can cook it with olive oil and dill. Arvid Carlsson- Nobel Prize 2000: In the brain, lack of dopamine causes Parkinson; high level dopamine causes schizophrenia. When syntactically given to the body, brain refuses it. This vegetable has it naturally. P.S. I've done the smoothie today (with honey), I really liked it I would never think to add cacao and vanilla into such a thing; but.. oh.. that was really delicious! But didn't follow the measurements, I followed my regular improvisation technique *actually I made it with fresh beet and fresh blueberries, that was really nice.

@Shin can you describe the little boy as detailed as possible? I mean you don't need to do it here, if you like, just do it your own. Some questions to guide: how the image looks like: how old is he; what's he wearing, can you describe his actions: is he sitting, lying, speaking, in slience; how is his emotional state: calm, frightened, happy, natural, agitated, curious; how does he feel, how does he look like about the way he feels / how is the ambiance and energy around him: what are physical surroundings / how does it make you feel seeing him, what do you feel about him, what do you think about him, are you just the observer, does he recognizes you, does he know that you're there / does the image evolves into something else, is there anything else there in the scene which takes your attention by not matching the storyline at all for example.

@username okay no pressure then let's get as close as possible